Chapter 2 – Connection
I felt slightly better once I realized I shouldn't berate myself for dreaming about someone who'd saved my life, it was normal, to be expected; like some hero worship kind of thing I suppose.
The ring tone on my mobile broke through my irritated mind – Time is running out, by Muse.
"Hello"
"Bella, I'm setting off now, be at yours in like 20 minutes okay babes"
"Mike", my mind was still working slowly.
"Yeah, you ok? You sound weird"
"Yea, sorry, no I'm fine still sleepy I guess. I'm just getting ready; I'll try and be quick"
"Leave the door open, I'll come up", the tone of voice made his intentions obvious, it sounded like Mike would love to be in my bedroom.
I hung up the phone. I needed to get ready now. If mike came up to my room we'd start kissing and with my dad being out all day Mike would try to push his luck. He was ready to take our relationship to 'the next level' as he put it. I most definitely was not ready to take that step. I liked Mike a lot; he was one of the first friends I'd made in Forks. He was ecstatic when Edward Cullen had left. He told me once just after we'd got together that he thought Edward liked me, so it made his day when he left; it made the way clear for him to make his move on me unchallenged. I laughed at myself, as if Edward could have liked me. I felt my stomach twist,
"If only"
Mike would want to take advantage of the empty house especially being in the same room as my double bed. I wasn't in the mood for arguing with Mike and if I had to turn him down again it would defiantly upset are day together.
I walked over to my wardrobe and took out the first things I could get my hands on, a faded pair of blue jeans, a long sleeved gray and cream top and my trusty black converse trainers. There was no way I'd be wearing heels. I pulled my hair up out of my face into a high pony, grabbed my jacket off the back of my bedroom door and headed downstairs to wait for Mike.
I didn't have to wait long; Mike was walking into the house before I'd finished pouring milk on my cereals. He came straight over to me, spun me round and planted a kiss on my lips. His arms snaked round my waist holding me securely to him. His mouth tried to make mine respond quicker; I could feel his need for it growing more urgent as the seconds passed by. Part of me wanted to give in and kiss him back with as much enthusiasm and urgency as he was kissing me, its not like Mike wasn't good at kissing its just that I knew were this was heading, Mike wanted to take the next step, he wanted sex. I knew he'd do this! I managed to slow the kiss down, I didn't want to hurt his feelings but I didn't feel strongly enough for him to go that far; we'd only been an item for about three months. I know some girls would have jumped straight in to bed with him but I wasn't that type of girl, for me to have sex with someone love would have to be evolved and it wasn't there with Mike.
The kiss had turned in to a series of small pecks, my eyes opened as I pulled myself away from his grip. His face had the biggest grin spread across it.
"Hey", he murmured.
He was stepping closer to me again obviously wanting to re-start the make out session. I counted it with another small kiss before stepping to his side and taking hold of his hand.
"Let's go",
His face slid a bit, he raised his eyebrows signaling to the stairs, he wasn't giving in.
"Mike lets get out of here, we've only got a few days left before school starts"
He wrapped his arms around me as I started hedging towards the front door.
"Oh come on Bella, how often do we get the house to ourselves?"
He was starting to pull us back towards the stairs, tightening his grip on me.
"Mike were not taking this upstairs, no bedroom action! Come on you promised you'd take me out".
I put on my sad face; made my eyes all big and pouted my lips slightly; I knew he couldn't resist it long.
"God, you drive me insane Bella. There's only so much cock teasing a guy can take"
He took his hand out of mine and flung his hands to his head running his fingers through his hair, some one else I used to know used to do that as well - I mentally slapped myself again, I'd have to stop doing that, thinking of him.
"Oh come on Mike, please take me out"
I reached out and placed my hand on his arm; he relaxed under my touch and focused his eyes back on me. With a heavy sigh he took my hand and started to walk towards the front door.
"Come on then let's get out of here".
I got in to Mike's suburban, turned the stereo on to my favorite station, sat back against the seat and put my feet up on the dash board. Something was off, I could smell girls perfume; cheep girls perfume.
"Who's been in the car Mike?"
"What! Hey erm" I could practically see his brain trying to figure out what to say to me to get himself out of trouble.
"Mike someone's been in the car?"
"Chill Bella I gave Lauren a lift this morning before coming to yours, no big deal"
I automatically folded my arms across my knees drawing them closer to my body. I despised Lauren and she had never liked me. I don't know what I'd done to her. She was always just glaring at me, if the saying 'looks could kill' was true I'd be six feet under and still going down. Then there was her constant sarcastic bitchy comments, she wasn't happy unless she was making someone feel miserable. It came to a head one day a couple of weeks after Edward had left; Lauren was in one of her moods. She was sat there at the lunch table sticking her chest out and looking down her nose at everybody she thought inferior. I wouldn't have sat with her at lunch if I had a choice but she was friends with my friends so I just grinned and bared it. Lauren started talking about Edward and the Cullen family. I don't know what it was that made me react the way I did, maybe I felt the need to defend the person who'd saved me, maybe I liked Edward more than I'd like to admit to myself or it could have just been the fact that Lauren annoyed the hell out of me; so much so that when she started with all her bitchy comments I couldn't take anymore of her shit. I turned round to face her and hit her with all the force I could muster, she fell to the ground.
"Fucking shut up Lauren, you don't even know them"
A crowd of people were starting to gather round us, she was so stunned at first, she just sat there on the floor, her hands holding the part of her face I'd just struck, and there was blood. I could see it in her eye's she changed from 'stunned Lauren' to 'I want to kick your ass Lauren', she shifted her body and got up off the cafeteria floor and stepped towards me as if to strike me back when someone stepped in between us.
"I don't think so"
The voice was full of authority; it demanded respect immediately, so I was extremely shocked to realize that it came from the tiny form that was Alice Cullen, Edward's sister. What was more surprising was that Lauren backed down straight away, skulking off with her pack of dogs following obediently behind her? That was the day are lunch table got drawn in to two groups, I liked to think of them as the good and the evil, us and them worked to.
"Hello, earth to Bella"
"What" I glared at him,
"Don't be mad at me, come on Bella. I know you can't stand her but I've been mates with her for years"
"What ever", I sighed. I didn't want to ruin are day; so far it wasn't going so well.
"Look Mike I'm sorry, I know she's your mate don't worry about it, it's just me I'll get over it"
"Awww your cute when your jealous", he leant over and put a loose strand of my hair back behind my ear.
"Hey keep your eyes on the road"
Did he really think I was jealous of him spending time with Lauren, the thought didn't bother me? It should have; I mean Lauren pretty much threw herself at any boy who paid her the least bit of attention and she was alone in a car with my boyfriend. This was proof, I wasn't as in to this relationship with Mike as I should have been. It was the thought that maybe being with Mike was better then being alone with my heart aching for what it could never have that kept me with him.
I spent the rest of the day really trying hard to connect with Mike. We walked hand in hand across the beach, stopping occasionally to throw stones into the ocean. We ate dinner in a lovely little Italian where we fed off each others plates, you know like you see in the movies. I was really looking for that spark. I mean Mike was a good looking boy; he was the high school jock- head of the basketball team. He was tall with blonde hair and blue eyes but there was nothing special about him. Most of the girls in the school wanted to be with him yet he had picked me. So here I was trying to conjure up feeling's that just weren't there yet.
On the way home we drove along the cliffs at La Push, I loved to see the sunset. The colours were so rich; gold's, yellow's, red's, orange's and purples all merging together on the horizon. It was my favorite time of day.
When we got back to my house Mike kissed me before I got out of the car. My dad's car was out the front, thank god at least he wouldn't try pushing the sex subject again. However I was trying to ignite a spark between us so I threw myself in to the kiss more then I usually did, normally I let Mike take the lead, this time it was different. At first he was surprised by my enthusiasm but he soon caught on. I opened my mouth letting my tongue linger on his bottom lip. His lips parted allowing me entrance and then are tongues were fighting for dominance. His hand slowly moved down my body till he had hold of my hips, he pulled slightly signaling me to move over and climb on top of him. I wanted the closeness. I knew my dad was out the back of the house so he wouldn't be able to see us in the car so I thought what the hell. I climbed over the gear stick and straddled his lap. He crushed are bodies together moaning slightly as he could feel every inch of my body against his, I could feel how excited he was getting and that thought made me smile. His hand moved to the hem line of my top, I didn't want to stop him, it felt good, was this the connection I'd been looking for?
I didn't get to find out. The porch light switched on alerting me to my dad's presence. I untangled myself from Mikes embrace. He frowned, it made me giggle.
"I'll see you at work tomorrow, plus we have jess' party", I winked at him.
"Can we pick up were we left off", I could still see the lust in his eyes.
"Maybe, wait and see", I leant over and gave him one more kiss.
I climbed out of the car and was hit by the freezing fog that had suddenly descended on Forks. It was a drastic change in temperature to that of the inside of Mike's car. The car was hot and steamy. I shivered and pulled my arms around myself; I watched Mike drive off and then ran inside pleased with myself at how easily I'd turned Mike on. Maybe the connection would be there if I just let things flow.
