Written for Favorite Character Boot Camp
Favorite Character: Severus Snape
Prompt3: Secret
Written for Song-fic Boot Camp
Prompt33: Heartbroken, Why not me by Enrique Iglesias
Written for Globetrotter Drabble Competition
Prompt1: London, UK-Write anything pre-trio era (9)
Written for Head Canon Boot Camp
Prompt4: Heartbroken
Word Count: 496
Lily Evans meant more to Severus Snape than anyone else. He wanted to ask her out. But he was too afraid to do that. He knew that she loved him, but he also knew that she wasn't in love with him.
Despite them being in houses whose students were supposed to hate each other, they had managed to keep their friendship alive. Severus' friends looked down at her and considered her dirt, and her friends were disgusted with him.
But, he didn't give up, and neither did Lily.
For all he knew, to her he would be nothing but a best friend. Lily Evans was loyal, very loyal. She obviously wouldn't ditch him just because her friends thought she should. No, she would never do that.
I am going to tell her, he decided. He had to admit his feelings for her. It was now or never. He couldn't bear it if she was taken away by someone else.
He roamed the castle grounds in search of her, ignoring the voices in his head screaming their protests and the churning of his stomach.
Now or never, he repeated continuously.
He found her just where he guessed she would be. Sitting at the same spot they had shared since their first year. All her books were sprawled out in front of her, but she wasn't engrossed in them like she usually was. In fact, she didn't even notice him sit down next to her. She held her quill in her hand, blotting the parchment.
"Lily... I wanted to talk to you about-" he started to say but stopped once he noticed that she still hadn't even realized that he was next to her.
He looked at her, and then followed her gaze. His eyes stopped at the opposite end. A small group of boys were laughing boisterously, lounging about.
James Potter and his gang, thought Severus.
He looked at her once again. Something about her intense expression made his resolve break.
"Lily?" he said, louder.
"Huh?" she seemed to break from her trance, "Oh, hey Sev."
He felt like he couldn't breathe, unable to say any of the things he had planned. "I…You're blotting your parchment," he simply said, his voice cool.
"Oh," she looked down, startled and started to clean up the mess.
Pursing his lips, he watched her. Only his eyes spoke of his sorrow. With one look at her expression he knew that no matter what he told her and how hard he would tried to convince her that they would work out, her answer would always be a no.
She wasn't in love with him, and she probably would never be.
She was already in love with someone else, even though she didn't know that yet.
He was her best friend. He could read Lily Evans like a book. And in that moment, he had read her. Though she might not admit to herself, she was in love.
And it wasn't with him.
AN: Well, here you go! I hope you enjoyed reading it. =)
Thanks to in-dreams-maybe for editing it for me!
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