Disclaimer:

I do not own Katekyo Hitman Reborn nor do I gain any money by doing this. KHR and its characters belong to Amano Akira. The title of this story is greatly inspired from Mariah Carey's 'All I Want for Christmas Is You'

Warning:

It's a Christmas Challenge fic from ilYamaTsuna7227li. It contains Yaoi, mainly 8072 (Yamamoto x HDWM!Tsuna). Alright, you have been warned! I don't want any complaints, reports or flames about this story since I don't think I do you any harms by uploading this story to the net.


All I Want for Christmas Is You! ─ Chapter 2

'I Miss My Mother, Tsuna'

It was around the late night in Namimori when Sawada Tsunayoshi was flying gracefully in the air, bathed intensely by the serene moonlight. He was using both of his hands to project his Sky Flame and used it as a booster, so that he could maintain defying gravity in the air. He didn't really bother of being caught by someone while flying like this across Namimori, since he knew that most of people in Namimori were already fast asleep during this night.

'There's a lot to prepare before Christmas,' Tsuna whispered gently to himself as he's gliding through the night sky, 'But I guess Reborn will help me to prepare it too. Right now, I'll just have to figure everything by myself.'

'Oh yeah.' He exclaimed thoughtfully in his mind, 'I also need to find out what the others want for Christmas. Should I just ask them or should I just sneak into their rooms, hoping that they'll write their wishes on a letter?'

After a moment of thinking, Tsuna then turned his face into an apologetic smile. It seemed he was deep in thoughts.

'What am I saying here?' Tsuna sighed mentally. 'They're not a child anymore. They most probably don't write a letter to Santa again. If I didn't know any better, Reborn changed me to this mode in order to make me find out what they really want for Christmas, using my hyper intuition.'

But of course, Tsuna was not stupid. Somehow, he could read it with his increased sense. He knew that Reborn wanted him to be a good boss by caring his subordinates, especially in Christmas.

'Anyway, I'll just go to Yamamoto's house first. Something's telling me that I need to go to that place.' Tsuna said again, thinking that his intuition predicted him to do exactly like that.

Being in the hyper dying will mode, Tsuna had major boosts for his senses. It was as if everything was sharper, clearer and brighter.

After a few turns and glides over Namimori, Tsuna finally arrived in front of Yamamoto's residence, the Take-sushi restaurant. He didn't go through the front door because he knew that it was closed already. Instead, he flied over and went to Yamamoto's room on the second floor. Tsuna somehow knew that Yamamoto wasn't sleeping yet. And it was actually true, since the boy could see a dim light over Yamamoto's curtain from outside of the house.

Knowing that Yamamoto wasn't asleep yet, Tsuna decided to go near the window and gave a silent knock in front of it. He hoped that he could catch Yamamoto's attention with his knockings.

"Yamamoto? Are you asleep yet?" Tsuna asked the other teen from outside of the window, whispering slightly while giving a light knock on the window.

But the first attempt got ignored. There's a simple pause in between them. It made Tsuna to wonder whether his Rain Guardian was asleep or not.

'Maybe he's already asleep?' Tsuna wondered in his mind. Though, he still gave his light knockings, once, then twice.

"Yamamoto?" Tsuna asked again, hoping that this time the said raven haired boy would come and open his window in the instant.

That was when he noticed a simple rustling sound from inside of Yamamoto's room. It was as if someone was there inside of the room and wasn't asleep yet. Tsuna didn't need to wait that long though since the closed curtains were then suddenly pulled away, revealing the inside of Yamamoto's room.

And there stand Yamamoto in front of him. The taller boy was wearing a simple blue colored T-shirt and a black colored short cargo pants.

"Tsuna?" Yamamoto asked, his voice tone was raspy and his face was slightly puzzled. It was as if the boy caught a cold or something. "What is it? Why are you like that?" Yamamoto asked again as he pushed his window sideward, opening it to let the brunette in. Back then, he referred why Tsuna was in his hyper dying will mode.

"Oh, I just want to see you," Tsuna added, he observed Yamamoto's face and there he could see some trace of sadness in the boy's face. "Can I come in? I want to talk about something."

The Rain Guardian was silent for a little while. His face was turning into a downward frown, as if he was making a sad, solemn smile. After a single silence in between them, Yamamoto finally noticed that Tsuna's face was making an expression that looked like he was waiting or rather demanding an answer.

"Ahh! You're right!" Yamamoto exclaimed, giving an apologetic smile to the other boy, after realizing that he kind of ignored the young Decimo for a while,

"Sorry about that! I was lost in thoughts back then." Yamamoto replied. His face was now turning into a nice signature, definitely copyrighted, Yamamoto Takeshi's grin, but with a slight faint hint of sadness which made the young Vongola to frown a little upon noticing it.

'Lost in thoughts? Why was Yamamoto lost in thoughts? And why did his voice sound rather hoarse? Did he catch a cold?' Tsuna could only wonder sullenly as a concerned frown was lingering on his expression.

Tsuna might not notice it yet but with his hyper intuition, he would soon notice what lies beyond those hazel eyes of his beloved best friend.

Seeing that Tsuna wasn't responding to what he said, Yamamoto then opened his windows wider as he gestured his hands to let Tsuna come in. As it then followed by his words,

"Come in, Tsuna, come in. It must have been pretty cold outside, yeah?" He smiled again to the brunette, still giving his heartwarming grin that could melt anyone's heart.

However, this happy-go-lucky smile was rather different in Tsuna's opinion. The Decimo couldn't really pinpoint it but he could feel that this smile was not as sincere as the usual grin that Yamamoto had. It was as if this smile was a subtle lie, a fake one that Yamamoto gave just to hide his truest feelings.

'Yamamoto? Why? Why'd you look so sad? Is something bothering you right now? Am I bothering you? You look like you're about to cry…' Again, Tsuna could only wonder in his thoughts. But even though he had a lot of things that wreaking havoc in his mind, he could still pay attention. He now entered Yamamoto's room, gracefully leaping over the window and landed nicely on the tatami mat.

"It's not really that cold," Tsuna answered simply as he unzipped his orange jacket a little, exposing his white undershirt a little. There's also a trace of sweats near the Decimo's neck, marking that it wasn't really that cold outside that it even made him sweating.

"More importantly, Yamamoto," Tsuna added again. He then threw his contact to stare deeply at the baseball jock's eyes, observing him thoroughly with his burning sunset colored eyes.

"Did something happen?" Tsuna asked, concerned of what's bothering his best friend, "You look really sad, Yamamoto."

Seeing the young Decimo's eyes, made him feel like he was bare and naked, stripped from his falsehood. It was as if the brunette could see exactly what he was feeling. Still, the young Rain Guardian knew better than to tell what he's feeling to Tsuna. He never ever wanted to make his best friend worried because of him.

"Me? Sad?" Yamamoto pointed his finger to himself, referring him by the gesture, "I'm not! Maybe Tsuna just imagining things?" he launched his best fake smile, hoping that the brunette would believe him and would drop this conversation off. It made Tsuna to be startled. The brunette couldn't help but to make a sad, knowing frown because of it.

Noticing the frown that his best friend made, the baseball jock decided to convince again,

"Maa~ maa~, I'm not sad or what, Tsuna." He lied as he turned his back, facing away from the said brunette in order to hide his expression, "But thanks for caring though!"

But of course, Tsuna didn't believe him. He knew Yamamoto, long enough to know whether his best friend lied to him or not. Not to mention how his hyper intuition could feel something really subtle

The brunette then looked deeply at Yamamoto's face, looking at the hints of sadness from Yamamoto's fake smile. Fortunately, Tsuna could see it through Yamamoto's façade. Hide from Tsuna's hyper intuition. Or maybe the brunette just really cared for his best friend.

"Yamamoto," Tsuna sighed, his voice tone was concerned, "Aren't I your best friend? Friends always share to each other, right? No matter what?"

But Yamamoto wasn't responding to what the young Decimo just said to him. It was as if he was stunned, trapped in between two dilemmatic choices.

And seeing that the young raven haired jock was pretty much startled, Tsuna decided to add again. This time, he was more serious on launching his best guilt game.

"I guess you don't think we're close enough for you to share your problems, right?" Tsuna stated as he faked a sad frown on his face. He knew that this manipulative way was rather cheap but this was the only way to make Yamamoto spill his problems.

"I got it, Yamamoto. I mean, why would you want to share it with me anyway?" Tsuna asked again, still making that sad, disappointed frown which made Yamamoto to feel guiltier.

After hearing that, Yamamoto, who was walking away from Tsuna, suddenly flinched. He was surprised, way beyond the point of being surprised. It was as if his jaw just dropped to the floor figuratively. He never would have thought that Tsuna would think it like that.

"I'm not your real friend, right? Maybe to you, I'm just an acquaintance?" the smaller boy stated matter-of-factly with a saddened tone and a raspy voice tone.

Of all the things that the brunette could say, the young Decimo just had to say that Yamamoto didn't think him as a real friend? Of course, Yamamoto wouldn't accept that.

That's why before Tsuna could say anything, the sports-loving teen decided to firmly say,

"You're wrong!" A sudden shout was then breaking the awkward silence between them. It was Yamamoto who did the shout. He didn't notice it at first but he just unintentionally shouted at Tsuna in order to prove his point. Back then, not only did Yamamoto shout to Tsuna, but he also turned his back quickly and faced the smaller boy face to face.

"I'm wrong? Then tell me, Yamamoto. Why am I wrong about that?" the Vongola Decimo inquired the other boy. He walked closer toward the baseball fanatic, slowly but surely. His voice tone was slightly daring but there was also a mix of concern in the voice tone.

This actually caught Yamamoto off guard. He sure wasn't ready to answer such question from the daring brunette. Somehow, Tsuna seemed quite scary in his hyper dying will mode. Definitely wasn't someone that could be underestimated.

But even so Yamamoto wasn't ready to answer Tsuna's demand, he knew that he had to answer it eventually. That's why he decided to tell the boy about the truth. It was such a rush decision at first, but he knew that he didn't have much choice. Lying never gets him any good anyway, so why bother?

"Because, to me, Tsuna is special. I would never think that you're not close enough for me to share my problems. You are a very special friend to me, Tsuna. And words cannot describe how grateful I am to have such a nice friend like you." Yamamoto said it gently to the said brunette.

After hearing such words from the other boy, Tsuna could now feel like something touched his heart. It was a very gentle and subtle feeling. Nevertheless, the whole feeling that he felt from Yamamoto was ultimately sincere. He could prove it easily with his hyper intuition, and this time, he knew that Yamamoto wasn't lying.

"If you think it that way, Yamamoto, then please, tell me about your problem. What's bothering you, Yamamoto? I really want to know that. I want you to share it with me. I want to help you too, Yamamoto." the Vongola Decimo convinced. His sunset colored eyes were burning intensely with his passion. After all, he really wanted to relieve Takeshi's burden with that.

"Besides, Christmas is near. Don't you think everyone should be happy on Christmas?" Tsuna asked again, hoping that this time, Yamamoto would consider him as a good friend and share the problem he had in mind.

That was when Tsuna noticed a sad frown was forming on the baseball jock's face.

"Christmas, huh?" Yamamoto whispered silently, trying to control his composure by holding his breath and averting his eyes from the brunette. "That's exactly my problem."

Such statement made the young Vongola to widen his eyes in a slight shock. This was something that Tsuna would never think that it's the case. Yamamoto's problem was because of the Christmas? Wonder what made Yamamoto think that way?

"Why?" Tsuna asked as he moved forward, closing their uncomfortable distance surely. Now, they're all standing not far from each other. Tsuna seemed concerned about Yamamoto. It was clearly written on his face expression. Not only that, the fact that he found his heart felt like it's clenched was not helping at all.

But to his surprise, the sad looking Yamamoto just decided to laugh. Again, it made Tsuna to wonder why his best friend could still give a happy laugh even though it's supposed to be hurt.

"It's nothing, really. I guess I've never told you about my Mom, yeah?" Yamamoto raised his sharp eyebrows inquisitively.

"Your mother?" Tsuna replied. Looking at Yamamoto's expression combined with his hoarse voice tone, it somehow made Tsuna's heart wrenched.

"She…" Yamamoto paused, his face was unreadable but Tsuna could sense a somehow sorrow written on the expression, "She passed away when I was young… And it's happened on Christmas Eve..."

And of course, hearing such statement from Yamamoto, it made Tsuna to widen his eyes wide open. It was some kind of a low blow to him. He'd never expected that Yamamoto actually had experienced quite a tragedy one. This made the young brunette to be speechless.

"Oh, I'm really sorry about that." was the only reply that Tsuna could do while his face was then turning into concerned and a guilty one. He felt sorry that he made Yamamoto to reawaken his hurtful past.

"Don't worry about that, Tsuna. It's been ten years already." Yamamoto assured as he gave a sad, knowing smile to the other boy. "Ever since that, Pops and I kind of stopped celebrating Christmas. I always think that he is afraid to talk about the topic because he doesn't want to burden me again with that." Yamamoto gave an apologetic smile, "He still thinks that I was too young when I lost her."

As much as Tsuna wanted to reply something and sooth the young Rain Guardian's feeling, he couldn't really find the right way to say it. He didn't even know what to do or to feel because clearly, Tsuna never experienced something like that.

Knowing that the smaller boy was still silent and dumbfounded, Yamamoto thought that he needed to explain more. At first, the boy knew that he didn't want to share about his pain to anyone. He preferred to keep it all to himself. But after hearing what Tsuna said to him, it somehow encouraged him and made him to be able to share what he thought with his best friend.

"This might just seem uninteresting but I always remember it whenever I see mistletoe." Yamamoto explained sullenly, his face looked like he was in a deep regret. And, it was also written on his face expression.

"Why?" Tsuna asked, still too stunned because of what he heard back then. During his state of shock, he could only wonder how much pain Yamamoto had been through, having to lose his own mother when the boy was still way too young.

"It was such a stupid mistake really. You know about the common belief that when two people kiss under a mistletoe, they both will be together?"

Tsuna nodded in reply of what Yamamoto said to him.

"Well, it's pretty much the same for me." Yamamoto said again, shifting his position a little before he then decided to see at the edge of his bed, followed by Tsuna.

"Back then, my Mom was having a terrible illness. And, I was so sad of it. I could still remember that it was a little bit snowing outside, cold but not really that bone-chilling cold when I decided to find a mistletoe, believing the fact that it could help my Mom."

The baseball jock gave a sad smile again which made Tsuna heart clenched when he saw it.

"I was a fool, Tsuna. Pops already told me that I shouldn't go but I decided to sneak out and went to the mall." He looked at Tsuna and when he noticed that the brunette was still following him, Yamamoto decided to continue.

"You know what's happened next?" This of course made Tsuna to shake his head in reply to the question.

Takeshi cleared his throat for a while before he started to say,

"Well, I got the mistletoe from one of the shops, a plastic one, since I couldn't find the real one. But then, I got lost in the mall."

"What's happened next?" Tsuna asked, curious of the next outcome. Though he felt that way, something's telling him that it wouldn't end well.

Tsuna didn't need to wonder that long though since his intuition was deadly right on the spot. That was when he heard Takeshi explaining his story again.

"It took me about three hours till I could finally reach my home, hoping that it would be fine now, that it would be over now and everything would be alright, once I came home and gave that plastic mistletoe to my mother," Yamamoto paused, his face was filled with a pure anguish. And, Tsuna swore that he could hear pain in Yamamoto's voice.

"But it didn't happen. I came back home and I found out that my mother… She's…" Yamamoto closed his eyes, trying to fight back the upcoming pain that would surely hit him on his face.

That was when Tsuna decided to cut it.

"Yamamoto, you don't have to continue about it, you know." Tsuna said caringly. Of course, it was the last thing that Tsuna would want from the baseball jock. He never wanted to see his friends to suffer.

Hearing that, Yamamoto gave a small nod,

"Well, that's pretty much the gist of my gloomy experience. Right now, I will only live happily and smile whenever I feel sad. I will always smile, Tsuna. Because, it's better than being sad and all, I also believe that my mom would be happier if I smile a lot. That's why you always see me to be very happy and all!" Yamamoto said enthusiastically as he threw a happy grin to the brunette.

To his surprise, Tsuna actually answered him differently,

"Yamamoto," Tsuna called, "That's enough."

And it was all so sudden for Yamamoto. He didn't notice at first when the brunette was suddenly clasping his arms around him, pulling him into a hug, letting him to feel exactly the warmth of Tsuna's body.

"Tsu…na?" was the only word that Yamamoto could reply when his mind finally cope up that he was hugged by his best friend.

"That's enough Yamamoto. You don't need to hold it all back in." Tsuna soothed the baseball jock gently as he tightened his grip on Yamamoto's shoulders, nuzzling his face on the other's neck while giving his shoulder for Yamamoto to lean on.

But Yamamoto was still retaliating.

"Hold it all in? A-about what?" Yamamoto asked, acting dumb of what he saw.

"About your mother… Every single Christmas… Every time you look at mistletoe… Every time you blame yourself… You don't have to hold it all in anymore, Yamamoto. It's alright. It's okay now. It's okay to miss your mom…" the brunette soothed his raven haired friend, feeling rather terrible after imagining so much pain that Yamamoto had been through.

"I do miss her, Tsuna…" Yamamoto confirmed, his face turned sadder than before and his voice tone was getting hoarser, "But don't you think she'd be happier if I smile? I feel it that way."

Tsuna nodded understandingly and said,

"No, she wouldn't. She wants you to be happy, Yamamoto. Faking a smile doesn't count. She doesn't want you to fake your own feelings. She wants you to be happy because you deserve it." Tsuna whispered softly, making Yamamoto to shiver instantly when he heard it.

This statement made Yamamoto to ask back, feeling dilemmatic of the whole position.

"Then what am I supposed to do, Tsuna? Cry? I'd look pathetic…"

Tsuna then protested, still hugging Yamamoto so dearly on his arms,

"When someone's crying, it doesn't mean that they're weak and pathetic, you know. In fact, it means they're strong enough to embrace their pain and let it all go."

After hearing what Tsuna said to him, now it was all happening so fast for Yamamoto. He didn't notice it but tears started to form on the edge of his eyes as his breathing started to be fast-paced and erratic.

Feeling like he was about to break down, Yamamoto decided to reciprocally hug Tsuna, tightening his arms on that slender body as he laid his face on the brunette shoulder. Yamamoto was almost crying now, he just needed a little trigger to make him embrace his pain, the pain of losing his very own mother, and then he would be break down to tears, one that rarely ever happened before. Knowing so, Tsuna decided to pull the trigger.

He tightened his grip on Yamamoto's body, letting their body clasped together in a romantic and intimate way. Then he said,

"It's alright Yamamoto… I'll be here now… Just let it all out… Don't hold it back anymore…"

That was when Yamamoto finally lost his composure…

It was started by a simple sobbing at first but it was then turned even deeper than before. The sounds of Yamamoto's crying looked like something somewhere inside of him was ripped away. It sounded so sad. Too sad. That it could make anyone who heard it broke down to tears. It made Tsuna to pull him closer to his hug.

Yamamoto could only whisper,

"I miss her, Tsuna… I miss her a lot… Why did she have to go…? Why…? If it's not because of that mistletoe… she wouldn't have been… I wouldn't have been… " these words were all that Yamamoto could say in between his sobbing.

To Be Continued─


Author's Note:

Just one more chapter! I'll upload it tomorrow on Dec 24th. Bah, I'm on a very tight deadline! If only ilYamaTsuna7227li would move the deadline till December 31st just like the Secret Santa Give Away from fuckyeah8027tumblr…

I did a lot of plot changes because the fricking deadline is literally choking me to death, so I needed to cut a lot of scenes that I had in my mind. Haha. I don't know what am I thinking when I wrote this. I am not expecting to win anyway. I'm just here to give love for 8027 pairing and make the challenge merrier.

Anyway, reviews are always appreciated!

It's said that I should post the next challenge theme? Of course, it should be Valentine Day theme, involving a homemade chocolate. It could be Tsuna makes a homemade chocolate for Yamamoto or Yamamoto makes the chocolate for Tsuna, vice versa works for me!

Sincerely,

8027forever