Hey THANKS for everyone that place dit on a story alert and the messages
Make me forget:
BPOV:
I just wanted some sleep. Fall into the nothingness of dreamland and preferably never wake up. It was impossible. I was forced to stay awake. To relive this nightmare over and over again. Their words bounced around in my head. It was like there was an echo in there, repeating every single word over and over again. But instead of it getting softer it just grew louder and louder. 'Bella!' The scream from Alice when I caught them together. 'I don't want you anymore' Edwards words when he came to talk to me earlier. 'We will keep Renesmee here for a while.' Rosalie's words while she looked at me with pity. 'Want me to kill him?' Emmett's question, hoping to make me smile. It was all in vain. I couldn't smile, not anymore. I couldn't feel. And I could feel a numbness spreading through my body. It was worse than pain. When I felt pain I would at least know that I was alive… Well as alive as a vampire could get.
I just couldn't wrap my mind around it. I had turned in a vampire to be with him forever. To never have to miss him. Was this the actual reason he hadn't wanted to turn me into a vampire? Because he knew he would leave me?
I heard the door open and close behind me. Suddenly a wave of longing crashed into me. I needed to be wanted. I needed to know that I was desirable. I turned around to see jasper there. Obviously doubting what to do. He had picked up my emotions of course and I could see his brain battling with his pain. He needed to be desired. Finally the pain won. I could see it. Within seconds we were at each other. The bed wasn't necessary as I slammed into the wall. This was pure and raw want. The need to forget everything.
JPOV:
I had gone upstairs to see if I could help Bella cope. Her emotions had me shaking. She felt the same things as I but I could keep them a bit reigned in. She on the other hand didn't keep them in check for a bit. I couldn't blame her, but it was becoming too much. The moment I stepped into the room I felt her emotions hit rock bottom. She had felt so rejected and unwanted for the past few days and now she wanted proof that she was indeed wanted. Needed.
I had know that I wasn't handsome. For humans who couldn't see the scars I was beautiful. But I was just a disaster. I saw Alice sometimes feel slightly repulsed as she saw them. She hated herself for it. She didn't do it on purpose, but she was a girl that longed for perfection. She was always dressed perfectly, her make-up and hair were always kept in perfect condition. Even the house had to be perfect. But then there was me. I was perfect, except for those scars. Except for the fact that I was a bit messy, except for the fact that I broke down sometimes and couldn't keep control. The mess thing she was able to fix, I was allowed to break down just as long as it wasn't in public, but the scars were just not fixable. That she left me for Edward only made me realize it more and more. I was repulsive. I was ugly. I was a disaster.
Here she was looking at me with pure want. I needed this just as bad as her. Just one time to let it all go. To feel better, even if it was just for maybe an hour or less. I met her halfway across the room and proceeded to slam her into the wall. This was just purely a way of forgetting everything. A way to feel not so left out anymore. Not so broken.
I know it is extremely short….but three will be come right after it…..hope it will be on it before tonight
Please R&R
