Here we are, Chapter 2! Thankyou for the feedback thus far. I'm sorry if people thought the smoking was a bit too much, but I promise it's not a major part in this story, and there won't be anymore of it (in detail anyway) but yeah hope you enjoy this, despite the lack of Jori L

2.

As I get home that afternoon, freshly showered and made up, I smack into Sonia on the way in.

"Why is your hair wet?" She demands.

I step back. "It's called a shower. Thanks for covering for me."

She shakes her head at me. "Whatever."

I smile at her and she smiles back, walking out the front door.

I am alone now, as I walk into my room.

All that fills me is Tori. Tori and even more Tori. I smile stupidly. The things that girl does to me. I get stuck into a daydream, when I hear a banging at my window. I sit up and look outside.

"Let me in!" I glance over the windowsill and Beck Oliver is standing on my lawn.

"She's not home, come round the front." I yell out to him. He sighs a sigh of relief and I hear the front door open. He bangs his way up the stairs and he opens my door.

"Hallo Jade." He comes in and sits on my floor, sitting like a dog.

"Hey Beck." I sigh and flop backwards onto my bed.

"Hey, what's up?" I feel his weight push down on the foot of my bed. I sigh again.

Beck's the only one, apart from Tori of course, I can talk to. We used to date, and it was pretty serious too. When he broke up with me, I cried for weeks, and that's how I became close with Tori. She helped me through it.

Beck got really jealous, and surprisingly, we got through it. That was over a year ago now but I'm still amazed at how well we repaired and went back to being so close. But of course there were other factors of that too. He was my best friend, and he was so supportive of everything.

"Cat."

"Ohh." Beck said, understandingly.

"What's happening with her?"

"I don't know, I thought we'd be okay by now, and yet here we are, with her swearing at me, when a few months ago she had never even said 'hell' before." I sit up and look at Beck. "She's changed, Beck, like, I understand that she doesn't want to talk to me, but she has changed radically, and it really fucking sucks."

Beck shuffles closer to me and put his arm around my shoulder.

"C'mon love, it will be okay eventually, she's probably missing you and Tori and doesn't know how to act, you know her, you know you do, and she'll get over it."

I think back to how we used to be. When Cat and I were best friends, when she was bright and bubbly and never stopped smiling. When all I did was put her down and make her feel like shit, and she just kept coming back. She understood. She understood what mum was like, what went on at home, she was there when I cried and cried.

Then, one day, I think she just gave up. It was the day Tori and I got together. Cat was heartbroken, I think. Seeing me so open and happy with another girl, that wasn't her. I had known Cat for years, I had pushed her away for years, and then this new girl walks into my life that I can't push away anymore. Cat went and cried in the bathroom. I didn't follow her. I'm still not sure why I didn't, and now I regret it.

Cat became nasty, obviously getting revenge for the years I treated her like shit. She told all her friends how much of a bitch I was, and now they all hated me also. I cried in Tori's arms for nights, I had lost my best friend, and it was all my fault.

The next day at school when I walked in holding Tori's hand, determined to keep my head up, the names wouldn't stop. Everyone was glaring and whispering nasty words towards us, and that's the day the ritual began, where we'd skip school one day a week and go get stoned instead.

It's my fault I turned Tori into a bit of a fuck up. I needed her to be like me. I know she's far too bright and chirper to turn into a spiralling mess like I am, but I still wanted to bring her down somehow.

That's stopped now, she's happy that she's loosened up, but she's still smart enough to keep up at school and keep her parents happy. I don't know what parents being happy even remotely feels like, but from the way Tori's always smiling, I'm sure it's nice.

The couple of times I had stayed at Tori's house, her parents were amazing. Okay, so I wasn't a fan of her older sister, Trina, but her parents were funny and warm and caring and I felt tears spring to my eyes whenever I had to leave. I wish I could live there. Sometimes I think about it, and I know that Tori would say yes and her parents would say yes, but I would never want to be a burden.

"How was school?" Beck asks, shuffling around and getting himself comfortable. I shrug. "Didn't go."

Beck rolls his eyes. "Of course you didn't. No wonder I didn't see you." I sigh and slug him in the arm.

"Beck, it's a Tuesday, you should know this."

He wags his finger at me. "That is true. My bad. Also, I spoke to Cat today."

I look at him, wide eyed. "What about? When? Where? Did she say anything about me?"

"Sikowitz' homework, after Sikowitz' class, lunch, no." I drop my head down.

"Jade, let's be honest here, you started this, you have to fix it." Beck didn't believe in mincing words.

"Yeah I know."

Beck sighs and stands up, going over to my iPod dock. He chooses a song and I smile as he sits back down next to me, grabbing the remote and turning it up.

The smooth voice of David Gray washes over me as I let my problems disappear, if only for a short while, feeling at ease in my best friend's company.

"Let go of your heart, let go of your head, and feel it now. Babylon."

Sorry about the lack of Jori in this chapter, but i felt an establishing chapter needed to be in here, and some Bade friendship, just because Bade is great in all forms. Please rate and review! Hope you liked it J xx