For Teddy, happy late birthday!
He left me here, in the ashes of the life we had built together. He had gone on ahead, maybe not consenting, but he didn't struggle as he fell.
The scene replayed through my mind, Bellatrix's spell hitting him, and his slow, almost graceful fall into darkness, into the veil.
His death was not unexpected, but it hurts just the same.
I feel so alone, even more so now that he is truly gone, instead of just departed.
I am as fragile as an old piece of parchment, yellowed with age. I am crumbling around the edges, the darkness of despair is dragging me in.
My loneliness is consuming me, no matter how I fight it. I am trying to stave off its cold fingers with the company of others, but they do not help.
In the silence of the old house, I hear the ghost of a slamming door, a ghost of Sirius's call of "I'm home" after a mission for the Order. But, in my hearty I know that he is gone, never to return.
I will never hear his laughter again, without him I wilt like an flower left to dry in the sun. My petals fading to a shadow of what once was, turning fragile and frail in the midday sun.
Tonks keeps trying to comfort me, and I long to cling to her like a drowning man, for I am drowning in my endless grief and loneliness. But, my memories drag me down, like a penny thrown into a bottomless well.
I hear the funeral music playing, I see the empty coffin being lowered into a grave.
I cannot face the fact that this is the end. After all, the coffin is empty, no body was every found, why must he be gone? Yet, my heart tells me that he is no more.
I knew our love was too good to be true. The music is coming to an end. The coffin is almost out of sight.
This is goodbye. I want to call out in denial, but I am frozen to the spot, tears are creating rivers among the scars on my face. He loved those scars, they did not repulse him.
I am fading, lost a midst the echoes of the might-have-beens.
The Black Library, for all its tomes of Dark magic knows no way to bring my love back to me.
He is lost and gone forever. He is my Clementine. But where is his younger brother? He, too, is dead. There is no way to move on from my grief.
I am drowning, in guilt, in loneliness, in grief. Soon, I'll be no more than a shadow, a fragile wilted flower, a reminder of what once was.
I live among ghosts, James, Lily, Sirius, Peter, and so many others. I long to join them, nothing holds me here.
I am attempting to stave off the loneliness, but for once I cannot.
I have decided that this is goodbye. I can't live without him, and I will not try any longer. I know that Harry will be safe with the Weasleys, and Tonks will find someone more appropriate for her.
I no longer have the will to live another day. I feel yellowed with age, fragile as an uprooted flower left to wilt.
Soon I will see my love again.
Farewell.
I see him in the darkness, he is walking toward me.
He is here in front of me. We are together again. Never to be parted again.
I see James and Lily in the distance, but I have everyone that matters standing right in front of me.
If this is death, then I am happy, for I am home.
Camp Potter II, Week II, First Aid. Mandatory Prompts: Fragile, Slamming Doors, "We can never starve our loneliness. We can only hope that, by the company of others, it doesn't devour us" - Christopher Poindexter. Optional Prompts: Wilted Flower, Music, Yellow, Unexpected.
The Battleship Challenge, J9: "Alone" by Siegfried Sassoon.
Hedley Song Challenge: Villain.
The Book Thief Competition/Challenge: "Even death has a heart."
Essie Nail Polish Names Challenge: Meet Me At Sunset.
The Spell, Curse and Charm Challenge/Competition: Avada Kedavra.
The Ten Times Ten Challenge, Adjective: Safe.
The Crayola Challenge: Black.
The Classic Disney Movie Challenge!: Peter Pan.
Monthly Drabble a Thon - revamped - Challenge, Characters: Remus Lupin.
Divergent Competition, Amity: "Humans can't tolerate emptiness for long."
The Wand Wood Challenge/Competition: Cypress.
