A/N: Sorry for the long awaited update folks! But it has finally arrived! I want to thank everyone who added the story to their favorites and alerts, and also to everyone that reviewed: Jewelgirl04Ms. Coocoo, Bananna'sxXMckenzieXxRecco101Sweet-Kisses-07, and coral86. Everything that you guys do is highly appreciated! Your feedback and interest in this story keeps me motivated to update, frequently lol. Okay so this chapter is dedicated to coral86, I think she's kick ass awesome and she listens to my ideas that are endless, tells me which ones are shitty and I love her cause she's kick ass. As of late, I am sure my regular readers have noticed the routine that I have begun in my author's notes. RECOMMENDED READING! The recommended reading for this chapter is called "Is This Destiny" I just read the story today, and I tell you it is AH MAZING . It has a fantastic plot that is anything BUT cliché. It is written by xAttitudex who is a fantastic writer MUCHO KUDOS TO HER! In this story, a lot of the flash backs will be cut in half, some flashbacks will start off in one chapter and continue in another, so keep that in mind! Also, when they're kids their speech is that of young boys, so don't go around thinking I'm mildly retarded for talking slang in my dialogues lol. This chapter is very sad, I hope you guys cry when you read it, because I cried writing it, and for the next few chapters it will be pretty sad. But don't worry it will pick up into a life loving story soon enough. Okay now without further ado, the next chapter… READ REVIEW and as always ENJOY! )
Flashback
John watched as Donny hung from a loose branch. He had been distracted and slipped off the branch before he was ready. "John help" Donny called for his friend's aid. John immediately ran to the tree and began to climb.
John climbed the tree as fast and as fierce as he could. "John hurry!" Donny called.
Soon he climbed over to the exact same branch that his friend was hanging beneath. John reached down to grab his friend's hand.
"Don't worry Donny… I got ya" John said confidently. When really, John felt like he could not pull Donny up, but he wouldn't dare tell him that.
End Flashback.
Danii wrapped her arms around John and cried into his chest. "He's gone John…" Danica mumbled through her tears. "It hurts….John it hurts so bad…. What am I going to do without him?"
John's eyes filled with tears as he listened to Danica voice her pain.
John's tears fell into Danii's hair as he held her more tightly.
"He's gone…." Danica cried. She was so drained she could barely stand. Soon she was just hanging in John's arms. The only thing keeping her standing was him holding her. She felt like she wanted to die. She truly did not want to live anymore. That is how much pain she was feeling. That is how much she was hurting.
"DANICA!" John's brothers called her name as they down the halls of the hospital. Hearing her name made her cry harder.
"JOHN YOU'RE HERE!" Boog shouted as he and John's other brothers rushed over to John and Danica.
"Danii, it'll be okay." John's brother Dan put his hand on Danica's shoulder. Danica looked over at Dan and up at John and pulled away.
"Just leave me alone please." Danica whispered to the group and walked back down the hospital hall and headed to the waiting room where her family resided.
"Oh sweetie there you are." Danica's mother said through a tearful face. Her mother held her tightly with tissues in her hand.
"You already know Karen died instantly….and Donny is gone... But Lily Ann is in the trauma unit…" Danica's mother informed her.
"John's here." Danica told her mother and walked towards the trauma unit so she could see her one and only niece.
(Meanwhile)
"It was an accident… A car accident. Donny was driving; he was in the car with Karen and Lily Ann. A deer ran out into the road. Donny wanted to avoid hitting the deer head on. The people at the scene said that there was a truck coming on the opposite side of the road so he couldn't swerve into the other lane. So Donny swerved off to the side and went off the side of the road. He would have been fine, he must have knew that would have been fine, it was only grass the most that they would have gotten was a wrecked car, but there was this tree there, he slammed into a tree. Karen had her seat belt on so when Donny hit the tree she was crushed, and she died instantly. Donny did not have his seatbelt on, if he did he would have died instantly as well, but he didn't; he went through the windshield of the car. He had broken his back; the doctor said if he survived, he would not have been able to walk for the rest of his life. He obtained many other injuries; he had a really bad head wound. The worse injury was the glass from the car that he landed on it pierced him in his stomach. That is what took him they couldn't stop the internal bleeding in enough time. Lily Ann was strapped tightly in her car seat the entire time. She's okay for the most part, with the exception that she just lost her parents." Matt sat in a corner of the front of the hospital and explained to his brother John whose eyes were as red and as watery as could be. John smiled at hearing that his goddaughter was still okay.
"I was going to go see him as soon as I got home… We were going to have a guy's weekend. I just spoke to him yesterday morning…" John said practically pleading with god to send Donny back.
"I know… He, Karen, and Lily were coming back from the grocery store; Donny went to get ribs and oysters for you and him to eat when you came. He was really souped, since you were on that over seas tour you and him hadn't hung out in a long while." Matt said then second-guessed telling his brother that. This instantly made him feel worse. John then felt a soft hand on his shoulder. He looked up to see Mary Porter with tears in her eyes. John shot up and hugged Donny's mom. Donny's mom was like his own mother since he was a small child.
"We'll be just fine… now won't we?" Mary Porter managed to put on a smile, even in the worst moments. When Mr. Porter died when they were kids, Mary managed to put on a smile and make the kids PB&J sandwiches the day after the funeral.
"I'm so sorry Mrs. Porter." John said looking into her eyes. Pain had aged her, first the death of her husband far too soon, then the death of her only son.
"We'll be okay." Mary assured John. John looked to the door of the hospital to see his mother come into the hospital quickly. She saw her life long friend Mary and rushed over to her, not even seeing John or Matt standing off to the side.
"I'm so sorry Mary" John's mother spoke.
"I called because I was wondering if you would mind helping me get the funeral arrangements set up… I think I might need some help. Kind of, like last time. Lou's funeral turned out nice, I would love for your help again." Mary said with a forced smile through her tears. John's mother shook her head.
"Of course anything Mary" John's mother said.
"He'll be with Lou now so it'll be o-o-" Finally Mary porter broke down into tears. Not the same tears as when she first heard, no these were tears that she had been holding in since she became a widow, along with new tears from realizing that she would have to bury her son. No mother should ever have to bury their child.
After saying hi to his mother, John walked down to the trauma unit. He saw Danica standing up looking through the glass. Her hands pressed to the window.
"How is she?" John asked Danica. Danica did not bother turning around. "She just lost her parents, how in the hell do you think she is?" Danica replied snottily.
"Sorry, I'm just worried about her." John stated.
"Yeah you should be sorry."
Danica walked into the room. John followed, Lily slept in the incubator. She had no IV's or tubes. Just a blanket. Danii opened up the incubator and lifted her up and held her asleep in her arms. "You look just like ya daddy Lily." Danii whispered as she held her six-month-old niece in her arms. Lily Ann was a miracle, she was born two months prematurely and had to stay in the hospital for a while until her lungs had fully developed. Many had originally doubted she'd make it, but she did. She proved them all wrong.
"Your daddy loved you so much Lil, he loved all of us, and he had that big heart. That big warm heart. He had that big smile, you got his smile Lil. You got ya mama's giggle though, you giggle just like Karen, and your eyes light up the room just like her too." Danii spoke softly with watery eyes as she rocked her sleeping niece.
"Auntie Danii wants to take you home Lil… You going to go with me now, and auntie Danii going to take good care of you just like ya daddy and ya mama. And we are going to have a blast. Nana cannot take care of you that well, don't say anything but nana getting old, and she misses my daddy, she needs peace. But Im going to take care of you so well, just like ya daddy wanted..." Danica whispered as she once again began to cry.
"It'll be okay Danii." John said and rested his hand on her shoulder.
"Don't touch me. Me crying on you earlier is the first and the last time that you will ever touch me again… ever…" Danica seethed to John.
"Fine Danii, I'm sorry…Can I hold my god daughter now?" John asked Danica. Danica had not seen John since she went away to Somers Connecticut for college. But her brother would never shut up about how crazy John was over Lily. The baby wasn't even one yet and had more gifts than a five year old accrued over their entire life span.
"Hey moochie" John held Lily in his strong arms. "I missed you so much. "Uncle John loves you with all his heart, and no matter what happens, you always going be okay, because so many people love you and want to keep you happy. Uncle John already is planning out your college fund!" John cooed over the tiny slumbering baby.
"Uhh Little Ms. Porter will be released this evening. To Mary Porter" The Pediatrician said to Danica who nodded.
"Oh okay thank you." Danica responded softly.
"Seems like she got smaller since the last time I saw her." Danica whispered after the nurse left.
"No, she has grown, a lot… She seems smaller because to us, she seems helpless now. That's everything but true because she has all of us, she just seems a little more fragile but that's all." John said and kissed Lily Ann's forehead and laid her back down in the incubator. Danica saw him trying to figure out how to close it, considering the fact that she was a pediatric nurse, Danica was a pro. She softly closed the incubator and sighed.
"I've got to go check on mom, and tell her what the doctor said." Danica said and left the room. John pulled up a chair and sat next to Lily Ann's bed. He stared at the innocent orphan, plenty of family no parents. He sighed and put his head in his hands.
FLASHBACK
"I don't want any girls… they are gross, and they gots cooties. When I get kids, they all gone be boys" Donny exclaimed as he and John skipped rocks along the water at the lake and ate bologna sandwiches.
"Donny you're an idiot." John told his friend.
"Why?" The seven year old asked wondering why what he had said wrong.
"Ya need a girl to have babies… If they are so gross and nasty then ya not gone neva get close nuff' to em' to have babies." John told his friend.
"How do ya get a baby?" Donny asked aloofly as he finished his sandwich.
"The stork you moron…When a girl n a guy are together they ask the stork for a baby and the stork brings em' one." John told his friend in his all-knowing tone.
"Oh…But you can ask for a boy right?" Donny asked.
"No. You get what ya get n thas the end of it." John told his best friend.
END FLASHBACK
A smile crossed John's face as he reminisced about whether his friend wanted a boy or a girl when he was only seven. John's eyes welled up with tears. He covered his eyes as he sobbed into the side of the hospital bed.
(Elsewhere)
Danica had informed her mother that Lily Ann would be released to her later on. Mary Porter told John's mother to go home and relax, John's mom agreed after promising to come over first thing in the morning to get the arrangements underway.
As well as sending John's mother on her way, Danica had also sent the rest of the Cena's home with the exception of John. The wwe champion still sat in his goddaughter's hospital room crying his eyes out. Danica walked back to the hospital room of her niece while her mother filled out the release forms. Danica peeped in, and watched John sobbing like a helpless child. She wanted to tell him everything would be okay, but it was useless, because not everything would be okay. The 24 year old leaned against the doorframe and listened to John whimper and attempt to suck up his pain. To no avail, John burst out into another fit of sobs.
"I missed you Donny… If I would have came home yesterday I wouldn't have missed ya…If I wouldn't have been being immature and stupid I wouldn't have missed ya… If I would not have been, too busy fuckin Giselle or whoever that was I would not have missed ya. I missed Donny I missed ya …." John choked out as though Donny was there. John jumped up and threw the chair he was sitting on against the wall.
"DAMMIT!" John yelled after chucking the chair across the room. Danica jumped at his outburst. John looked at the table that had slammed against the wall from the impact of the chair. He squatted down putting his head in his hands. After a few more sobs he began pulling at the short hair he had, when that was not causing him enough pain he began hitting the top of his head with his fists. Danica didn't know whether to go up to him and hug him, slap him and tell him to get a grip, sit on the floor and hurt herself with him, leave him alone to sulk more, tell him to look on the bright side even if though there was none, or run past him and jump out of the hospital room window to her death. Danica had no time to choose because the nurse walked in making both of their presence known.
"Mrs. Porter finished the released forms; this angel is all set to go." The nurse said and picked up Lily and left the room. John looked at Danica finally noticing her.
"How much did you hear?" John inquired.
"Enough to know that you're still the same selfish, conceited, cocky, arrogant, immature bastard that I saw six years ago… You coulda saw him but you chose to screw some girl instead of coming to see my brother." Danica knew that was the worst thing she could say but she just could not help it. Her pent up anger still had not resided over the years. Danica stormed out of the room leaving John feeling lower than low. In that moment, he would not have minded going bungee jumping off a bridge without the cord.
After a few moments, John followed Danica's footsteps to the front of the hospital. "Danica left, but I wanted to wait for you, I just want you to know that you're more than welcome to come over tomorrow." Mary Porter told John. John hugged her and kissed her cheek; he then kissed Lily Ann and walked Mary Porter to her car.
"The nerve of him... Too busy fucking some chick to see my brother, and look at what happens. Just look! Look!" Danica began crying behind the wheel. She pulled over and sat back and cried. She then pounded her fist onto the center of the steering wheel. She lay her hand down on her horn for about 20 seconds. She then began beating on it in short spurts taking out all of her aggression, anger, and pain.
(Meanwhile)
John Cena drove to his new apartment in West Newbury. He sighed as he drove home, listening to his cd when his song "If it all ended tomorrow" began to play. John hit the dashboard as he drove. He ripped the cd out, snapped it into pieces in his hand. He then rolled down his window and tossed it out.
(The next morning)
Mary Porter woke up at 7am only to find her daughter scrubbing the kitchen floor and she took in the rest of the house and noticed that all of the floors were freshly mopped as well. "Honey what are you doing?" Mary asked her daughter.
"Cleaning…" Danica said looking over her shoulder. She did not hesitate to turn back and finish scrubbing.
"Sweetie, you're cleaning a house that is already spotless." Mary said walking downstairs in her flannel pajamas.
"Well the place can never be too clean now can it?" Danica stated as she scrubbed the floor wildly. Her mother looked at her almost certain that she had gone on to the brink of insanity.
"Honey how long have you been cleaning." Mary asked her daughter wearily.
"A while… Mom pass me the tilex." Danica answered then asked her mother. Mary walked over to her daughter picking up the tilex on the way there.
"Dear… What's a while?" Mary's mother asked before passing her the tilex.
"Since 1:30 am…I couldn't sleep… So I decided to do something productive with my time… I just want to finish… I have the upstairs bathroom left, then vacuuming, then I am all done… Oh no, wait, I was going to go outside and wash the windows… Maybe I should clean out the garage becau—" Danica was cut off by her mother.
"Danii…sweetie… you have to stop." Mary Porter said to her daughter.
"I will, once I'm done, I just have to finish these few things." Danica said grabbing for the tilex.
"No danii…Sweetie stop." Mary told her daughter and touched her shoulder as she lightly pulled the tilex away from her daughter. Danica looked up at her mother from her position on the kitchen floor. Danica would not budge; she began yanking at the tilex.
"GIVE IT TO ME I WAS USING IT!" Mary Porter strongly pulled the tilex away. "JUST GIMMIE IT!" Danica cried grabbing for it once more, soon tears flooded Danica's eyes. Danica grabbed for it again, "I NEED IT! STOP! I NEED IT!" Danica cried to her mother. Mary ripped it away from her; Danica then slipped from under her knees and plopped onto the floor on her butt.
"No sweetie you don't…" Mary told her daughter. Mary dropped to her knees and hugged her daughter tightly as they wept together on the kitchen floor. Mary knew that grieving was a slow and painful process. She learned this important lesson from the death of her husband.
(3 Hours later)
John awoke to the ringing of his cell phone. He looked at his alarm clock and groaned. He answered his cell. "Yea" John said.
"Good morning John it's your mother… I am sorry to wake you, but I wanted to find out if you would like to come along to Mary's house. I'm going over there to help with funeral arrangements; I know you haven't seen Mary in a while, not counting yesterday." John's mother inquired.
"Yeah sure mom, I'll drive over to your house, I'll be there in about a half hour…" John told his mother.
"Okay son, I love you… and please drive carefully." John's mother told her son wearily.
"I will mom, and I love you to." John responded.
(40 minutes later)
Mary poured some fresh water in a kettle and sat the kettle on the stove. She just finished turning on the burner when the doorbell rang. John sighed he was still tired and still in shock over the death of his best friend. John and Carol were pulled out of their thoughts when Mary Porter opened up her front door.
"Oh Carol thank you for coming. I appreciate your support." Mary said hugging her friend. "And John I'm glad you came as well, and don't worry we'll get through this." Mary said holding John's face. John gave Mary a tight hug. "Now come inside." Mary said ushering them into her home. They all followed Mary into the kitchen took seats at the table.
"Hi Mrs. Cena" Danica greeted while she walked into the room. Everyone looked at Danica who was wearing a tight pink baby tank top and low-rise jeans with no pockets. Carol Cena embraced Danica tightly. It was in that moment that John realized how much Danii had grown up. His Danii; yes her hair and eyes looked the same, but she had grown a few inches, now she had to have been about 5'6. She had lost her baby fat. She was never a chubby girl, but her growth in height gave her a slimmer appearance. She was no more than 115 pounds. Being the man he was, John could not help but look at her chest, she filled out nicely, with his experience John guessed she was about a 38 C, and as she hugged his mother, he noticed that she had filled out nicely in the rear as well. Danica and John shared a look 'What's he doing here?' Danica asked herself frustrated. With everything going on John Cena was the last person she wanted to see. Completely ignoring him, Danica sat down at the table between her mother and Carol.
"Hello sweetie" Carol replied. The teakettle began to whistle.
"Would you like some tea?" Mary asked the group. After making everyone tea, Mary sat down herself. "Now let's get started." Mary stated.
(Two hours later)
After deciding on a funeral home, flower arrangements, and Donny's casket, Mary and Carol moved on to making arrangements for Karen. Karen was an orphan; she had taken care of herself since she was 18. She and Donny met a little over two years ago as though it was fate. The only families that she really had were the Porters. After making the funeral arrangements for Karen, John and Danica prepared to make the necessary phone calls for the limo service. Before they could begin, the doorbell rang. Mary went to the front door and opened it. Mary shook hands with a short and heavyset man who looked to be about 58 years old.
"I'm Mr. Meyers." The man greeted "We spoke over the phone yesterday."
"Oh yes, come on in." Mary told the man.
"Hello everyone, I'm Mr. Meyers, I'm terribly sorry for your loss." Meyers said to everyone.
"This is my daughter, Danica Porter, and this is Carol Cena, and this is John Cena.
"Who are you?" Danica asked moodily.
"I'm Donny's attorney." Meyers stated.
"How did you know? Bout Donny" Danica questioned.
"Uhh ...Well, Mrs. Porter called and told me. Yesterday after they arrived back to Mary's home, Danica watched Lily Ann while her mother went over to Donny's house.
"I found some papers of Donny's; in the filing cabinet he keeps with their health records, birth certificates, social security cards, and other important documents." Mary stated.
"Shall I begin?" Meyers asked Mary.
"Begin what?" Danica asked angry blaming her mother for her obliviousness.
"Donny had a will. And Mr. Meyers is going to read it." Mary informed Danica as Carol and John watched on in silence.
"Before I begin, Donny had two wills. One was if he died, this one is if both he and his wife Karen Porter died." The attorney pointed out.
"I Donny Michael Porter, claim my wife Karen Porter as the beneficiary and executor to all of my assets. In the event of both my and my wife Karen's death please execute this will. Danica Porter will be appointed the Executor of my assets and my estate. Thirty percent of the money in my bank accounts, all my stocks, and all my bonds are to go to Danica Porter. The other seventy percent of the money in my bank accounts is to go to my daughter Lily Ann, along with Lily Ann's college fund, the money received from my insurance policy are to be put into a trust fund for Lily only to be accessed by her when her guardians see fit. I would like my car to go to my beloved baby sister; I would like the photo albums of my Best friend John and I to go to him John Cena. The rest of my photo albums are to go to the Cena brothers. I would like my DVD collection to go to Dan Cena. John Cena, my dear friend, I also leave you my favorite football, our football, the football we won in our last game of high school. Keep it as a token of our friendship. All of my pictures framed and unframed, are to go to my sister Danica Porter. I give my mother Mary Porter my baby shoes, and also my wedding bands. My clothes (Unless my family would like to keep them) are to be sent to the good will, and various other homeless shelters. Everything else is to be divided to whomever Danica sees fit. My estate and everything inside and outside on the property is to go to my sweet sister Danica Porter for her to do with it what she pleases. Most importantly, I leave the guardianship of my sweet angel (my daughter) Lily Ann under the guardianship of both her godmother my sister Danica Porter, and my best friend her godfather John Cena.
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