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I needed to tell someone, specifically anyone who would listen, but that wasn't about to be the solution. Ulrich was my closest friend, but I couldn't tell him. How do you just go up to your best friend and reveal you've been harboring a love for him? He would shun me from his every assistance. My love doesn't compare with a simple spark of Yumi's. She was his everything. I've lost count of the nights he'd mumble her name incoherently when he thought about her. She's been part of him since we've started the group, but so have I? What makes her any special than I? Was it the simple fact that she strung him along? By all means, let me be a bitch and give him hopes of a relationship, but back out at the last minute and only keep him at arms distance.

I was awoken from my thoughts with the gentle nudge of my shoulder. I turned to see the pink haired culprit. I gave her a small smile in an attempt to match her wide one. She immediately noticed the lack of a witty comeback from me. "What's wrong?" She pried at the cork of my bottled up emotions with those simple words. I was afraid if the cork popped then everything I bottled up since the time I've felt any attraction to Ulrich would spill out, all the love, all the hate.

I grabbed her arm, dragging her away from the crowds of people that filled the halls of our boarding school. I led her to the vending machines, where us as a group would always hang out to go over the latest mission results or even just socially. I glanced around before I turned to her.

"Odd... what is it?" She pried once again with those simple words.

With two simple words I shattered her image of me, left her with wide eyes and lips curled into a gasp. "I'm gay..." I muttered so low that I had to repeat it once again.

"Odd, speak up!" She barked in her usual perky tone, obviously getting fed up with my secrecy.

"I'm gay!" I yelled back in a feeble attempt to somehow mend some of the cracks in my bottle that she was trying to uncork. "I like boys, Aelita! I don't like liking boys but I'm stuck with it!" I was now at the point of screaming, my cheeks flustered as saltwater began to pour from my eyes. All this didn't matter though, my heart was pounding too fast, too frantic that my ears were beginning to ring. The volume of my heart just muffled out the rest of the world. My breathing became just as frantic as my heart's beats. I clutched my chest as I gasped for air, leaning against the wall as I tried to compose myself. She became frantic as well, coming close to check on my composure. I brushed past her in an attempt to run off, hoping that it would cure my chest's struggle. I gasped, wincing from the struggle my lungs were put in to. The lack of air now caused my vision to blur. I was frantic in my attempt to run, even with my vision having no affect in the way I was headed, just anywhere without judging eyes. I collapsed onto the ground, heaving for air before it all faded into darkness.

Within the darkness I could make out muffled words, blurred images before I sunk back in to the pitch black surrounding. The first image came of pink hair kneeling over, with crowds of people surrounding both her and I. The second came of Jim hoisting my motionless body upward, with the mumbles of an Infirmary trip. The last came of Nurse Yolanda adjusting my frame so she could get a diagnosis.

I slowly crawled out of the darkness. Each movement slowly blurring the Infirmary's surroundings into my sight. My eyes slowly fluttered open to the sight of Ulrich to the right, accompanied by Yumi, both of their frames leaning against each other as their chests slowly rose at a soft pace, their eyes fluttered shut. My next sight was in front of me was another sleeping couple, it was Aelita and Jeremy paired together in a love seat they obviously had to pull up to my bedding. I then felt a gentle squeeze on my hand. I immediately turned to my left, a little to immediate that it gave my vision blurs once more. I blinked a few times before the sight of William appeared before me. I was befuddled in what my eyes held before me. I didn't expect to see him here, he was barely even Yumi's friend let alone mine.

"Are you kiddi-" I started, but as I started the door was flung open to reveal a blonde, preppy teen that carried a large vase of flowers in. The door collided with the wall with just enough force to erupt a sound that awoke the sleeping pairs.

What the hell? That was the first thought that ran through my mind at the sight of Laura carrying flowers, my flowers. William was strange enough, but Laura, hell she was only in the group for Einstein. I had to be in some kind of hallucinogenic state from my collapse. Laura never gave a damn about anyone but herself, or at least it seemed that way. This was too much to wrap my mind around, I sunk back into the bedding along with another dose of darkness.

As I slowly climbed out of this darkness, I was greeted by my blonde knight, Yolanda. "Ah, finally up?" She said in a cheeky tone with a smile directed towards me. I looked over at my surroundings to find the mob that surrounded me earlier. It was empty now. "You're friends had to be forced out." She said in a regretful tone. I gave her a simple nod. My eyes then caught a vase, Laura's vase, and before I could even think, a loud scream echoed from my throat.

After my encounter in the infirmary, I was dismissed to go back to my room. Yolanda thought it better for me to get rest, rather than strain my mind and have the risk of another panic attack. I walked out of the Infirmary to be greeted with many smiling, frantic figures, the two pairs from before and the blonde and raven-haired loners. My lips curled into a wide smile as I saw each figure. They were overly joyed with my appearance, almost too perfect of a reunion.

"Princess!" I scolded Aelita, my eyes sending daggers right through her frame.

"I-I'm sorry!" She stuttered in defense. "It just kind of came out when Yolanda asked why you may have had a panic attack!"

"Odd, it's not her fault." Yumi defended her.

"It wasn't her's to tell." I barked over at Yumi, my anger more directed towards her frame's companion than her comment.

"It's not like we judge you." Jeremy offered from his position near Aelita.

"It even makes you more likable!" Laura said, a smirk curling her lips.

"So, that's why you're here." I muttered, folding my arms. "It's just that I was going to tell you when I was ready."

"Well, if you were going to tell us then why is it such a big deal?" Yumi pondered, weaseling back into the conversation.

"You do not know what it's like to struggle with your sexuality. You do not know how it twists with your brain when you've been exposed to social standards. I earned the right to out myself." I barked at her once more, finally shutting her up.

There was a moment of silence that filled the hallway. An awkward, millisecond of silence that was thankfully interrupted with a, "He's right," erupting from William. "Oh, I'm guessing Yumi didn't tell you?" He chuckled. "I find that it's better to like both genders than to get strung along by one."


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