Letty's P.O.V
I wake up and the sun is starting to rise from the window. I open my eyes and see the beauty through through the sky. I turn my body around to see that the bed is empty. No Dom, Brian, or Lydia in sight. I sit up and I'm covered by the whole blanket when something passes my nostrils. The smell of waffles or pancakes catches my attention and I get out of the bed. I look at the clock on the nightstand and it's just after seven. I get my silk blue floral robe from the chair and put it on, tying the matching belt around me. I walk down the stairs and the smell gets stronger. I walk tot he kitchen and my eyes light up when I see the sight. Both of my babies in their highchairs eating scrambled eggs and smiling as Dom feeds them little pieces. Seeing him with the kids just warms my heart. Just that smile reassures me that all the fears we both have can't tear our family apart.
"There's momma." He turns around and Brian and Lydia move and giggle in their little chairs.
"Morning papa." I walk over to him behind the island table and I give him a long kiss. I wrap my arms around his neck and he wraps his arms around my waist. I hear little sounds from behind him and we pull apart to see Brian covering his eyes and Lydia's little mouth drooling.
"There's my loves." I walk over to Brian and give him a slobbery kiss on his cheek and he laughs. I kiss Lydia's little nose and she moves in on my lips not wanting to let go of my touch. I tap her little nose with my fingers and she gives me her little smile.
"You guys are up early."
"Well we wanted to let mama sleep in today and make her breakfast."
"Pancakes and eggs."
"Your favorite."
"You remembered." He kisses my cheek and leads me to the table where two plates of pancakes and eggs are set. We sit in front of high chairs. We turn them around so we can see them and we sit in chairs so we're next to them. I take Liddy's bottle and start to feed her but she takes the lead and holds it on her own.
"Taking charge just like her momma."
"She's getting so big."
"Eggs!" Brian shouts to us.
"You want my eggs baby?" I take my fork and feed him a fork full. I put the remaining eggs I have on his little high table in front of him."A hungry boy is an angry boy."
"Why you say that?"
"Cause he's just like his daddy. You remember when you made me breakfast my first night here?"
"Yeah I do. Vince bet you couldn't take a Corona. You chugged that thing down on an empty stomach and I was holding your hair back for half that night."
"God I was so stupid. I woke up and the smell of eggs made me sick but I was more hungry."
"That was first time I saw you sleeping. Your face just looked like an angel. I see that same face in these two every day."
"You know what I see in them?" I hold his hand from across the table. "I see your smile whenever they laugh. The way they squint their little noses when they wake up in the morning remind me of waking up to you. How excited they get when they hear the engine running."
"That whole first month home with them, the only way we could get either of them to sleep was to drive around the neighbourhood." He laughs and smiles down at my hand.
"You are an amazing father and husband. I know that and they know that. You don't always have to be the tough guy all the time. It's okay to be scared. Which is why I think we should see someone." I move to sit on his lap and hold him in my arms.
"Like who?"
"Like a therapist. We've both been through a lot of stuff and it would be good to get it all out in the open instead of just trying to settle our problems with the S word."
We had to be careful with what we say around Brian with him learning new words from us.
"Alright."
"Really?"
"If it'll help us then I'm willing to try. I just want to be the man you guys deserve."
"You are. You have always been that man. Nothing is going to happen to us and if it does, then we'll figure it out together."
He kisses me and we get caught up in the moment. I wrap my arms around him and his hands go to my back, touching my skin. I pull away from the kiss and I'm almost out of breath and so is he.
"God I want to touch you so badly." I bite my lip and my eyes dart at the small TV under the cabinet.
"I know I said we shouldn't use it to solve our problems but would we be bad parents if we let them watch cartoons this early and make up for those twelve weeks?" I say as I pepper kisses on his neck, hiding my face in the crook of his neck so the kids couldn't see.
"Well saturday cartoons are the fun parts about being a kid." He says hugging me.
"Meet me in the shower." I kissed him and I hop out of his lap and run out of the kitchen. I go into the garage and close the door. I know Dom will be a while getting the kids set up so I slip off my clothes and hid them behind a car in the garage. I slipped my robe back on and tied it so it was covering every part so Dom would be surprised. I sit on the back of his car and wait for him with my legs crossed. He walks in the room and locked the door behind them. He bites his bottom lip as I slide my leg up the other.
"Hey daddy."
"What made you want to come in the garage?" He starts walk up to me.
"I thought about the first time we were in here. We just came back from the beach and it was raining. It was so hot in the car, we couldn't help ourselves taking our clothes off."
"We were animals back then. You're still as sexy as you were back then." He's now in front of me, standing in between my legs and holding my hips.
"You do? Even after having a baby." I open my robe, exposing my naked breasts and center, and let my robe sit on my shoulders at the sides. His jaw drops and he looks up and down my body.
"Wow, Letty you-"
"I know. You missed these didn't you." He stares me down and he kisses me. He runs his hands down my back and pulls me towards him. I wrap my legs around his waist and my hands go to his neck. He moves his lips to my neck and suctions his mouth to my neck, marking me. I love when he marks me as his. He lays me down on the car and puts his mouth on my breast. I moan as sucks my mound and flicks his tongue around my nipple while he massages the other. "Uungh baby." I feel him rub something wet on my other breast. I look down and I'm shocked to see that I'm leaking breast milk. I try to sit up and he sets me back down.
"It's okay baby." He moves his mouth over to my leaking breast and licks it off. He covers it with his mouth and starts to suckle on it, like he's feeding off of me. I held his head to keep him there and I arch my back as he kept going. He licks it off clean and comes back to my mouth to kiss me.
"Damn. I don't know why you never let me try breast milk." We're nose to nose and kisses me. I put my hands on his back.
"You are such a freak you know that."
"Mmm, you're more of the freak remember. All the little tricks you had in your book."
"Oh yeah. I think I can show you one." I lift myself back up and pull his wifebeater off of him. I move off the car and I take him to the front of the car. I set him down in the driver's seat and I sit down on his lap. I close the door and set my legs on both sides of the seat. I unbuckles his belt and shift them down a little to show his ass off. I pull out his hard cock and put my free hand on one of his ass cheeks. I start rubbing my hand up and down his length and he starts to groan.
"Uhhh, Letty."
"Ohhh, you like that don't you." I rest my hand on the seat behind him and keep rubbing him. He grabs my ass cheeks and massages them, making me wet. I see him start to jerk in my hand and I stop.
"What's the matter. Why'd you stop?"
"I want you to cum inside of me." I kiss him and we wrap our arms around each other, letting our hands run up and down our backs. We look in each other's eyes and I take his member and angle my body so it's now in front of my entrance. I look down as I run it up my slit when he stops me.
"This car is meant to fuck. Your body deserves to be made love to."
"You make anything sound sexy you know that." I open the door and step out of the car. I tie my robe and I turn around for him to kiss me. He lifts me into his rms and carries me bridal style to the door. We kept ourselves quiet and we check on the kids in the living room. They watching TV with their heads facing us, not moving from their spots. He tip-toes his way up the stairs and I kiss his neck. He walks us in the room and closes the door with his foot. He lays me down on the bed and takes off his pants. He crawls in between my legs and he undoes my robe. I sit up and let him take it off of me. I lay back on the bed and I grab his neck to kiss me. He stares at me and just looks me in the eyes.
"Do you want me to get out a condom from the nightstand."
"No it's okay. The doctor has me on special birth control." Thank god. When the doctor told me that I could get pregnant while I'm nursing, I asked if I could start back on my birth control. She got me progesterone presciption so it wouldn't mess with my breast milk and we didn't have to wear condoms until I stop breast feeding. I kiss him again and I feel him run his hands down my body.
"God, you're so beautiful." He takes his length and runs it up and down my fold, making me groan. I wince when he plunges slowly inside of me and wrap my legs around him. It's been so long since he's been inside me and it feels so good.
"You okay?"
"I'm good baby. It's okay."
He starts to move slowly, thrusting in and out of my core. I move my hips in motion with his and we met with our pelvises hitting each other. My hands are grabbing the pillow behind me and I feel him move my hands. He grabs my hands and we interlock our fingers. I look into his eyes and I see that big smile on his face. I smile back at him and squeeze myself around him.
"UHH, Fuck. Baby you feel so good. I missed being inside you."
"Oh God. I missed your cock, keep going Do- Uhhh, fuck right there papa."
He speeds up his movements and grunts as I close myself tighter around him. He lowers himself down to me and we're now chest to chest. He goes deeper with every hit to my hilt. I lift my head up and see where our bodies connected. Seeing him pumping into my heat and move inside me is making me wetter and tighter. I drop my head onto the pillow and let him keep hitting my g-spot. I moan and my chest do it's heaving up and down as his thrusts start to get harder.
"You wanna come baby?"
"Yes. Mmm..come with me." I say almost crying out. He moves his hand down and he starts toying with my clit, rubbing it with my juices on the tip of his fingers. The feeling is so intense, I grab his shoulder with my free hand and grab his hand tighter. "FUCK, make me come papa. I wanna come." feel him thrust faster and I arch my back, shaking as my orgasm takes hold of my body. He thrusts a few more times as I keep coming and I feel him shoot his seed in me. He slows his thrusting down while he kisses me. He falls onto my chest and just hold his body in my arms. He breathes on my neck and I turn my face to look at him. I give him some soft kisses and we let our breathing ease in and out of us. He starts to move but I hold his arm.
"Don't pull out yet. I missed this."
"Now who's the freak."
"Shut up and kiss me." He does so and keep kissing as the sun begins to rise completely.
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Sundays meant family barbeque. We want to keep the traditions going for the kids to grow up with. It would after church but we haven't been to church in the last few weeks since we've been running around the house taking care of the kids. The guys were out on the barbeque the kids were playing in the backyard. I try to pull my white peasent blouse high enough to cover my chest. I didn't need everyone to see the marks left behind from this morning. I miss being able to wear my denim shorts and my stomach has bounced back to it's self. I'm in the kitchen topping off the frosting on my cupcakes when Sam walks in.
"Letty!" She runs up and hugs me.
"Hey baby girl. You've gotten so big. I haven't seen you since I was at the hospital."
"She's only grown a couple of inches." Hobbs walk in and hugs me at the side.
"How have you two been?"
"We've been good. Retirement's been kind of a breeze compared to jumping out of buildings. How's life with two babies running around ?"
"Well, we're running on five hours of sleep and we're fully awake so were doing alright."
"Can I help with the cupcakes?"
"Sure hun. Uhm, do you mind if I talk to your dad real quick?"
"Sure." Sam goes over to the table while we both go into the hallway.
"I need to ask you something. Did you ever have any PTSD or depression when you were on the force?"
"There were some dark days the first couple of years. Why you ask?"
"I'm worried about Dom."
"What's going on?"
"He's been really distant and having nightmares. He's been depressed and he's been holding so much in. He's seen a lot of stuff and he hides it but there's a lot of pain there. He's always gone down a dark road but I'm scared that he may not come back this time cause there's two kids that need him."
"You want me to talk to him?"
"No. I wanna ask if you know a counsoler we could go to. Maybe a court-ordered guy or a trauma specialist. I don't know if a regular therapist will understand all the stuff that's happened to us."
He pulls out his wallet and takes a white card out of one of the pockets.
"The number of a psychologist at the office. Drop my name and she'll put you guys in."
"Thank you." I hug him.
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I walk out of the bathroom and see Dom laying in bed, only wearing his boxers. I let my hair fall to my shoulders and crawl up on the bed to sit next to him. I lay down on his shirtless chest and he wraps his arm around me while I run my hand on his chest.
"Today was good."
"Yeah, it was. So I talked to Hobbs. Before you get mad, he gave me the name of a psychologist. She works with agents on the force and she's opened up a slot for us next week to sit with her."
"Is she any good?"
"Well she got through to Hobbs so I think we'll be a piece of cake."
"I'm willing to try. If it works the first three sessions, than we keep going."
"Okay. Are you sure?"
"I wanna get better, for you guys and for me." I kiss him and I put my hand on the side of his face.
"I love you know that."
"I love you too."
