Jpov:
I had woken up again on the floor like always, no surprise in that. I would always wake up, buy booze, end up drunk, and back to sleep on the floor on my bedroom. No one cared with what I did with my life. Emmett still blamed me for Rosalie's death, Edward was with my ex Alice, Esme still grieved over the baby she lost, and Carlisle was mad at me for that. So I didn't have anyone else to worry about me. Except Bella, but who am I kidding she'll never come back to Forks. She hasn't even emailed me or called. Well I wouldn't really know since I'm not at home much. But still she probably has a boyfriend and is perfectly happy with him. I bet I'm just a nobody to her. Just another memory left behind. I did hear rumors she was coming back but I didn't believe it. Why would she wanna come back to this old dump of a town? There was nothing important here. I looked at the bottle next to me and saw it was completely empty. I got up and headed to my bathroom and washed my face. I had bags under my eyes, my hair was all over the place all untamed, I was paler than my normal color, and I had a killer headache. I got dressed in some ripped blue jeans and a black v-neck that was already used by me. I headed out the door of my room, determined to buy another bottle of whiskey. It was the only thing that would help me forget about everything, even if it was for only a few hours.
"Off to buy more booze are we?" I looked to my left and found Alice and Edward standing there smirking at me.
"Of course he is Edward, why even ask if that's the only thing he does now a days." They started laughing and I rolled my eyes and walked off. Assholes. I thought Alice was the girl for me. I loved her deeply but she didn't really care. She said she didn't belong with me when we broke up. I found her in bed with Edward one Saturday afternoon. Her excuse was that she didn't want a killer as a boyfriend. Edward's response was that he didn't really care about me; I was basically trash to him. I ordered a bottle of whiskey and paid with my credit card from my college fund account that I had started at the age of fifteen. I was eighteen now, in my last year of high school. Off the football team and officially an alcoholic. Yeah I admit I'm an alcoholic, so freaking do. I stopped at a diner nearby and entered. I sat down at a table and started drinking down my misery. The waitress was pissed because I didn't order anything and I just basically ignored her. I was halfway done with the bottle when I heard two dudes from school mention Bella's name. I paid a little more attention to their conversation.
"Dude I'm telling you I saw Bella Swan with her dad enter their house when I was coming over here." No it can't be, Bella really did come back. No Jasper stop getting your hopes up.
"Really I wonder if she's hotter than the last time I saw her. I would totally get her in bed with me." That pissed me off. Even if Bella forgot about me I wasn't gunna let this fucking douche talk about her like that.
"What the fuck did you just say dickhead?" Both boys turned around to me and I recognized them as Eric Yorkie and Mike Newton.
"What did you fucking say Whitlock?" I rolled my eyes and answered back.
"You heard me Newton, I didn't stutter. Or what getting high has now caused your ears some disability to hear anything?" He got up and faced me.
"Fuck off Whitlock, at least I didn't kill my own sister." I swung at him but Eric grabbed my arm.
"Let go of my fucking arm Yorkie or your next." He let go of me quick with fear.
"Don't ever fucking talk about Bella like she were a piece of meat. I don't even think she would sleep with a dude like you."
"So you have a soft spot for her huh, well I don't think she would sleep with you either. Just look at you and your past." That stung deep down because I knew that was true. Bella wouldn't think of dating some one of the likes of me.
"Dude stop, you're getting him more pissed off and you can't afford to get busted by Chief Swan again. Just leave um alone. He's drunk." Newton looked at Yorkie and banged his hands onto the table. He turned to me.
"Your so fucking lucky I can't kick your ass Whitlock. But next time your dead." I rolled my eyes and he left. I sat back down and the waitress who watching us since the beginning with other people came over.
"Sir you have to leave. You've spent two hours sitting there without ordering anything and disrupting people's evenings." I glared at and didn't move an inch out of my spot.
"Like I care lady, why don't you tend someone else and leave me alone you old hag. I haven't done shit to you." She glared at me before going back behind the counter to call the cops on my ass. I heard footsteps towards me but I ignored whoever it was.
"Jasper?" I heard a soft voice say behind me. I turned to shout at whoever it was but I stopped myself when I saw Bella. The Bella that had dug a piece of herself deep into my heart. The one that has irresistible light pink lips, beautiful soul calling hazel eyes, and a lovely heart shaped face. She was about to speak again but was cut off by the old hag.
"Look young man I just called the cops. Now if you don't want to be arrested I suggest you leave now." Bella stepped in front of me and answered her.
"Don't worry miss I'll take him home. Just please don't put charges. He isn't himself lately." The old hag sighed but agreed and left making Bella turn her attention to me again. I just stared at the table. Why the hell is she helping me out I don't fucking need her to bail me out.
"I'm not leaving."
"Jasper you have to, you heard what she said. The cops are on their way here. I don't think you want to end busted in jail. I don't think Carlisle and Esme would…" I cut her off.
"I don't give a shit about them. They can rot in hell for all I care. Fuck them." I surprised her by the look on her face said. I didn't care though I mean what I fucking said. Carlisle and Esme and the rest of the Cullens can all die for all I care. Out of the corner of my eye I saw her cross her arms and grab my bottle of booze.
"Well I fucking do, so shut the fuck up and come on were leaving. And I don't give a rat's ass if you don't want to because I don't think you want to end up in jail. Especially since you've been drinking tonight!" I stared at her with anger but I got up and walked towards outside with her following behind.
"What do you want with me Swan? I thought you weren't coming back to Forks." She kept her arms crossed while looking at me the whole time.
"Can't a old friend say hi?" This pissed me off, our friendship ended a long time ago even if she was trying to help me out here.
"You're not my friend, I don't have any."
"Not in my role book you're not."
"Well you are in mine, so beat it!" I was about to walk away when she grabbed my arm and made me face her again. I saw those hazel eyes of hers that I loved which were looking at me with worry.
"Don't fucking touch me Swan!" She glared at me even if she didn't mean it.
"Then don't fucking ignore me and walk away. I don't know what's going on Jasper but I want you to stop with this shit. This isn't how I remember you like. What happened two years ago?" She just stared at my eyes.
"It's none of your damn business. So stop being a nosy bitch and leave me alone!" Bella slapped me real hard. I knew she didn't want to. I brought up my hand to cup my cheek that was stained with her handprint in pink.
"Why are you being this way with me? What happened to the kind but funny dude I left in Forks two years ago? When did he become this cold bastard that doesn't give a shit about anything and is now an alcoholic?" All the memories passed through my mind and I felt sad for a second but recomposed myself.
"He died, he fucking died. That Jasper you knew died when his life turned into little tragic pieces!" Her eyes widened up.
"What do you mean little pieces?" She probably thinks it's her fault. I smirked and laughed at her.
"You want to know what happened?" She nodded her head at me for an answer.
"It all started when my new best friend left Forks two years ago in the summer. Then my whole life turned miserable. My twin sister Rosalie died in a car accident when I got drunk one night and she was driving to go pick me up. Her boyfriend Emmett who is also my stepbrother blamed me for it with all the others agreeing as well. My girlfriend Alice cheated on me with Edward. Esme was pregnant but from all the stress I was bringing to the family she lost the baby. Carlisle blamed me for the death, so did she as well. I got kicked off the football team from fighting with Emmett and Edward. And when I had finally found my real birth mother she died because of cancer!" Bella was fully crying by now.
"Jasper I'm so sorry, please forgive me!" She surprised me by lightly jumping onto me hugging me tightly to her body. I felt warm for the first time in months. I placed my head on her shoulder and cried. Cried from all the times I held my tears back to act strong in front of people who didn't even care about me at all. I knew at that moment that Bella was going to give it all she's got to save me from myself. And I believed deep down in my heart I would let her patch me up.
