Hello guys! Thank you for all the follows and comments.. I deeply appreciated it!
Guest: haha hindi, di ko gagawin yung ending na ganun sa Rizzles.
Anyways, I finished this chapter 2am last night and didn't had the chance to edit and all.. :D
So, Rizzoli and Isles is still not mine. not ever.
A decade and a half later...
All the love,
M. Isles
It has been a decade and a half. Seeing the letter brought back memories that Jane thought she kept hidden in a cold storage. She didn't noticed that tears were falling from her eyes, she didn't know that this could still affect her.
She thought she could escape the memories. She thought she could just go on her life and pretend that things didn't happened.
That she moved on.
But one letter.
One letter that was written to her a decade a half made her feel guilty and miserable as hell.
She was an ass. She still is.
Sunday evening when she saw the letter. It fell off from an old chemistry book that she knew she didn't own. At first she thought the book was Tommy's since the kid is one hell of a bright mind but when he asked him, he told her that it wasn't his.
It wasn't until she saw the initials on the book.
M. I.
It belonged to only one person.
Maura Isles.
The woman she left.
She then asked her mom about the letter. She even accused her of hiding the letter to her.
Angela denied it.
Of course she didn't. She told Jane that she gave the letter to her when she returned from her run. It was one chilly morning when Maura dropped by and gave the letter to Angela. The woman loved Maura so dearly like her own, she even asked if she wanted a breakfast because she cooked but oddly, Maura declined.
Angela never knew the nature of her daughter and Maura's, all she knew is that there was something different about them, however, she didn't dare to ask. After leaving the letter, Maura politely bid goodbye to the Mama Rizzoli.
When Jane entered the house that time, Angela immediately gave the letter to her. Jane has a mixed of disbelief and dread on her face when she learned who gave the letter.
"Where is she mom?" She asked.
"She left immediately after she gave the letter. She even declined the breakfast that I made. What happened Jane?"
Jane didn't answer the question.
She never did.
Angela continued the story and said that Jane abruptly grab the letter from the table top and run towards her room. Angela even commented about how it was rude for Jane to turn her back on her own Mom, to which of course Jane answered with an eyeroll.
Jane then remembered going to her room and read the letter immediately, she felt she was on fire. Something told her that, what she was about to read will change everything, but she also remembered getting a phone call asking her to accompany a police in patrolling for that day, she just gotten the rookie position that time, meaning, she can't say no and that the letter can wait.
That was when she remembered seeing the book on laying on her desk tuck the letter in and when she went home that night, she saw the book and shook her head.
It was time to let go.
And it will start with all of the tangible things.
She forgot about the letter.
She put the book inside her drawer. She didn't noticed the white envelope sticking a bit from the damn Chemistry book. All what was on her mind was the feeling of tiredness from the shift and that seeing the book made her want to curl up on her bed and cry because of remorse. Seeing the book made her feel like an ass for giving up something she never wanted to give up.
Ever.
But she did it anyways.
The letter was long forgotten.
So as the memories she thought she forgot.
"You okay in there?"
Jane didn't noticed that someone entered the little apartment she was living in. She was too focused on the neat and legible handwriting of Maura Isles.
"No. I don't think I was ever okay." She said absentmindedly.
"What happened?" The intruder asked.
"Got a fifteen year old letter." She said showing the one-page handwritten letter. It was immediately snatch by the person and read it silently. Jane was looking at the person waiting for a comment on how she was an ass and that she should be put in jail for causing pain to a person.
"Wow!" was all she heard and saw the big green eyes of her companion grew bigger than its normal size.
"What? Just wow?!" She exclaimed.
"I-I mean, did science of love Maura Isles really wrote you this letter?" She asked.
"Yes, you can see on the she written her name at the end of the letter, Emma!"
"Chill dude! What are you going to do now?" She asked whilst removing her high heels.
"I want to find her but I am not sure if she wants me to. It's been fifteen years Ems. I don't know if she still wanted me." She said solemnly.
"She said on her letter that she wanted to be in your life again if you wanted to. Maybe there's a chance." She said.
"But that is all in the past, Swan. Past. That's the operative word. Maybe she moved on." She said.
"Maybe. But what if she didn't? what if she's still waiting for you to show up."
Jane shrugged.
"Guess who I saw." She paused. "High School Queen Bitch!" Emma smirked.
"The love of your life Queen Bitch?" Jane asked, an eyebrow rose.
"What do you mean love of my life? She's hot, it is a given and she's still hot but she was never the love of my life." She said coyly. "And unlike you, I am not a lesbian." She shrugged.
"I told you, I am not a lesbian." Jane retort.
"Yeah, M-sexual." Emma teased remembering the words that she used when they were under the bleachers.
"So, Queen Bitch?" Jane continued.
"Oh yeah, I saw her after I deposited the guy I fake dated." She said.
"So, that's why you are wearing your only dress. And pink." Jane teased.
"ANYWAYS… I saw her and she gave me her number." Emma quirked her eyebrows.
"and you say you are not a lesbian." Jane jested before heading off to her room but not before seeing Emma flipping her the finger.
She shook her head and laughed.
She laughed until she saw the photograph of her and Maura that had been sitting on her desk. The picture was taken during their High School graduation.
"We graduated!" Jane shouted.
"We did!" Maura replied enthusiastically.
"You are going to BCU. I am going to Boston PD Academy."Jane said leaning her forehead to Maura's.
"We are." Maura whispered.
"We are going to solve crime together. I'll wait for you, you know. I know I'll probably graduate first, since it will all be training and afterwards, I'll be a police officer and detective. I'll wait for you to become the greatest Medical Examiner, not that I don't think you are great now, you know." Jane babbled.
Maura just laughed but nodded in agreement. Jane enclosed Maura in a tight embrace, like sealing a deal only two of them knew.
That was their dream.
That was their forever.
Angela showed up and interrupted their hugging session only to ask for a photo of the two. Jane not so gracefully put her arms on Maura's shoulders.
Angela snapped the picture.
Up to this day, the picture is still existing and Jane didn't know if Maura still as hers. That picture reminds her of why she decided to become a cop.
It reminded her before that there was a forever.
When fairytale still existed. Even in a twisted way.
Seeing the picture now, brought back extreme guilt that she kept all this time.
She didn't know why she did what she did—No, she knew exactly why and she still hadn't forgotten why. She just chose to ignore it.
She flipped her laptop opened. She clicked a few buttons and found a folder that she kept for a long while. Pictures of Maura, her and Maura, Maura with Little Bass and Jo Friday.
Everything Maura.
She remembered looking at those hazel eyes full of wonders and joy. Then, she came across a picture that Emma took.
They both didn't know about it until Jane was transferring the files. They were having a vacation after graduation. Jane was looking at Maura full of love and admiration and Maura was laughing beautifully with her head tilted upwards. Out of all the Mauras, that was her favourite Maura.
Happy.
God! Why?! Why?! I am so stupid. For fifteen years, I didn't contact her. I didn't even tried to find her.
Maybe it was pride.
Jane didn't know, and she know now was that she was so stupid to let someone as perfect as Maura Isles go.
Oooo
Jane woke up still feeling the remorse running through her body. She needed a drink but it's eight o'clock in the morning and getting a beer wouldn't be a good idea at all.
She entered the department trying to guess what was happening. Everyone was fussing around as if a firecracker was stick into their ass making them anxious about something. They were just going to meet the new Medical Examiner for Christ sake!
"What's the fuss?" Jane asked Frost, her partner.
"we'll be meeting Dr. Isles today." Frost said.
"Isles?" Jane asked dumbfounded. Her heart started to beat faster by hearing the familiar last name. Last night, she found a letter from a woman with the same surname as the Medical Examiner. And now…
"Dr. Maura Isles, Chief Medical Examiner of the Commonwealth of Massachusetts. Everyone knows her, of course you do, right?" Frost asked curiously. In his opinion, everyone should know the Dr. Isles; he had read articles about her being the youngest medical examiner ever appointed in the history of Massachusetts, and that was amazing.
"Oh yeah! I read something about her works." Jane retorted sarcastically which was rewarded by rolling of eyes. "Unlike you, I don't read the papers or watch the news on my spare time, I usually watch the playoffs but yeah.. I know her. Of course."
There was something odd about how his partner answered; it was as if it has deeper meaning than it was supposed to be.
Clacking of heels interrupted his thoughts. Jane, on the other hand, seemed like she gotten tensed all of a sudden.
But she was indeed nervous.
This will be the first time she'll see the woman she broke. Her hands felt clammy, her heart was beating so fast that it seemed like it will flew out of the window.
And then she appeared.
"Everyone, this is Dr. Maura Isles, our new Medical Examiner. Please treat her with respect and kindness." Cavanaugh introduced before leaving the newly arrived ME.
Jane observed the woman infront of them. She was still the same woman physically but there was something about her that this is a different Maura infront of her.
Everyone greeted and welcomed the doctor but her. And when their eyes met, Jane saw a flicker of recognition before it was gone. Maybe it was just her imagination.
"Mau—" Jane started.
"Detective, I am Dr. Maura Isles. And I would like you to please address me as Dr. Isles or Doctor." Maura interrupted before leaving the dumbfounded Italian.
Yeah, different.
So, she's back.
and yes, Jane's friend Emma is Emma Swan from Once Upon A Time :D
