That Soulmate Thing
by Watashinomori
Chapter 2
Three years later...
There were moments when he really thought about giving up. This whole thing sucked it. He knew, of course, the fate kind thing had created the whole Soulmate System for some obnoxious illogical reason. And Dick Grayson wasn't giving a shit about being redundant. His boyfriend had entered some fancy college and was living in some crazy shit far as hell state for three months now without a single call. Or a fucking stupid little text. FUCK. And for all the fate bullshit cared, the freaking phone was off. OFF!
If he hadn't his own studies, he would be there three months ago. His cell rang and an unknown number appeared at the screen. He flicked his finger at the screen answering. Who the hell got the nerve to call him this late at night while he was freaking out and raging?
"WHAT?" fuck the landlord and his policy about no noise after nine. Fuck the young mother and her baby upstairs or the elderly couple next door. Fuck them all. Dick Grayson was insanely angry.
"Sorry, babe. Bad time?"
"BAD TIME? WALLACE IT'S THREE MONTHS AFTER YOU MOVE OUT! WHY THE HELL DIDN'T YOU CALL ME?" The neighbor downstairs hit their ceiling with something, probably a broom, while screaming for him to shut up. "FUCK YOU TOO, MISTER GREENHORN!"
"My bad, honey, but I got my cellphone stolen and had no money to buy a new one."
"What about a computer, or a public phone? Or... Wait, what? Stolen? Are you alright? Babe, I'll be there tomorrow!"
"No need, babe. I'm fine. I'm sorry for taking so much to call you. I was so busy with this freaking thing of moving and going to police station and get a job. I was with no time for the good things of my life" Wally was using that soft tone he used to control him. That always worked.
"I really hate the way I dance on your hands" muttered. "I miss you like crazy!"
"Me too. I really want to see you. But you busy too. Sweet, we had planned for you to come here only next month. So let's wait just a little more."
Dick groaned annoyed.
"Fuck, you sound so hot" Wally whispered. He heard a door being closed on the other side of the line. "So, uh, how are you?"
"I'm fine, thanks" Dick smiled ironically. "Or do you want to know what I'm wearing?"
"How can you be so direct? But yes, that's what I want to know. And if you're wearing that stupid bat pajamas please lie to me."
"First of all, my pjs aren't not even close to stupid. Second of all, I just left the shower, honey, not a single piece of clothing on me, beside my briefs of course"
"Yeah... I can picture that. Very easily" he heard some noise. "So, why are you still with them?"
"Why would I take them out? You're being too mean to me..."
"So, imagine my hands running over your hot body. Lingering a little on your stomach, scratching your abs while I bit your neck, whispering your name" he breathed soundly. "Robin" whispered.
Dick had one of his hands playing with the elastic of his fucking pajama pants, while another scratched lightly his belly.
"Still not wanting to take them off?"
"Fuck you!" he balanced the phone over the arm of his sofa. The clothes were gone instantly. "I miss you so badly. I miss you fucking me so badly!" he moaned the moment he took his cellphone back to his ears, Wally laughed. Then he controlled the laughter. It was really late even on his side of the time zone. "Babe, I'm dripping here. Care to help?" moaned.
"Fuck" he whispered urgently. "Fuck fuck fuck fuck! Did you really have to moan? Fuck, Dick! I'm almost done already, and if I know you, and I do, you haven't even touched yourself."
"Nope, I like when you cum first" licked his lips. "So, care to indulge me? Or would you rather picture me on my knees? My breath against your..."
"FUCK!" Wally was panting. Breathless. "I did come. I hate you."
"Go sleep, babe" Dick whispered gently, refusing to let go of his smile.
"What about you, love?"
"I can handle myself if your new cellphone got a good cam."
"What?"
"Send me nudes, sweetie! Bye" he hung up.
Started to touch himself. Picturing his Wally, the freckles over his shoulders, his green eyes fluttering in pleasure. His husky voice echoing against his skin. When he was almost at his limits his cellphone rung announcing a notification. He grasped clumsy the small gadget and opened the file which had just arrived. His boyfriend gloriously half naked, the best Calvin Klein Ad style, in some narrow bathroom. He hated how hot he got when not completely naked and how he knew that very well.
After finishing he analyzed better the photo. He was a little more toned, his hair was a little shorter than he used to use. Damn, how much could someone to miss another? Was there a limit to that?
Wally sat down, sighing. He looked to his brand new cellphone. He had just taken the thing out of the box, still had all those protective plastic glued to the screen. He had made a promise to himself, he wouldn't call Dick. Wasn't because of that he hadn't bought a phone all that time? He hadn't used his game centers or even logged on his email account. Three months running away perfectly, but then Artemis said he should buy a phone and everything went down. Only needed to hear Dick's voice to want to run back to him. Blüdhaven looked so nice when seeing through his lover's eyes. In his arms. Breathing his scent. Fuck.
Hit his head on the wall.
"Everything's fine there, Baywacth?"
"I'm fine, babe. I'll leave soon" answered with a huge sigh.
He felt so guilty. But SO guilty. He loved his Robin so much, he wanted so badly to see him. But how could he say to him he found his soulmate and hey, she doesn't find me disgusting and I can't shake this good feeling away.
Walls rose up and dressed properly. Left his room gloomy.
"Baywatch? Something happened? You just got home with your new phone and run away" Arty smiled, putting his plate on the table.
"How did you know I still didn't eat?"
"I know you, Wallman" she kissed him. "And there's chicken pie left. So..."
His heart skipped a beat. Oh man, he was so screwed.
He ate silently. Artemis thought better about questioning him about his mood. She went to her room, it was really late. He stayed up, couldn't sleep. He was cheating on both of them. And he didn't know how to end this. He felt like marching against fate, like he was being punished for not being with his soulmate and taking Dick from his own. He couldn't enumerate how many things went wrong for apparently no reason. Like that robbery, he wasn't even supposed to be there. He entered some bus, which by some reason changed the route and he ended in the bad part of town. And that was only the last example he had. After being with Artemis everything fell in some righteous pace, he was admitted at all advanced classes he wanted, he got a real good job, even his fucking panic attack disappeared.
The only but of all this story was Dick wasn't there. There wasn't that weird laugh he tried so hard to suppress. There wasn't the funny sleep face he made when taking a nap in the afternoon over his absurdly hard homework. There wasn't any idiotic fanboy defending the fucking ninjas on the even more idiotic Ninjas vs. Cowboys series. There wasn't the tender touch to his face when falling asleep, being reassured of how much the younger would do for him each day. There wasn't the whispered 'I love you'. There wasn't his scent arousing every single cell of his body. There wasn't the same complicity. There wasn't the one he loved.
His phone rang notifying he received a message. A picture of his stupid boyfriend in his mortifying bat pajama. How fucked he was.
"Wallace, can you come to the living room? Please?" Arty screamed from said place. If she called his name probably he left something over the couch again.
"I'm here, I'm here... Dick?" he froze. Richard Grayson was on the couch, playing with Brucely. His face was deadly serious.
"Yeah, I thought I should say hi, or anything while in town" answered.
"Baywatch, you never told me you knew Richard Grayson!" she said excited. Oh well, how wrong was he for being relieved for Dick hadn't said anything?
"Uh, well, ah..."
"We knew each other since forever. We used to play silly online games together" the brunette replied. His voice was dry and sharp. Oh, he was screwed.
"Really? I never got to do anything like that with him. He only wants to do his works and college papers" she laughed. Dick didn't join her. Averting his eyes to the dog and scratching his belly. "Well, you boys should have so much to catch up. I have to go out. So, feel like your home, Rich Dude! Bye, hun" she kissed Wally briefly and left. Dick kept his eyes averted, but the painful look on his face made very clear he saw that. As soon as the door was closed Wally knelt before him.
"I can explain" he said. It sounded as bad in his ears as it was.
"There's nothing to be explained, Wall" he sighed. "I would be lying if I said I wasn't expecting something like this. Actually, this whole scenario is way better than I ever imagined. I thought the moment your soulmate showed up you would be a mess and I would have to intervene. But look at this!" his voice was calm and the resigned look in his face was breaking his heart. "You're great! Being real, it's me who's in your way. You should have said before" he raised. "I'm happy to see you're fine. I'll be leaving, now."
"WAIT!" he held his hand. "Don't go. I missed you so much. Please. Don't!"
"Wally..."
"Please, please! Look, I can explain what happened. Don't hate me now!"
"Wally, I can't possibly hate you. But this is obvious my time to leave you alone" he touched his face gently. Wallace broke down in tears.
"No! Don't! DON'T!" he kissed him, and he realized how badly he wanted to do that those three months. "I love you. You don't understand!"
"But I do. You're finally happy. Your soulmate doesn't find you any of those things you were afraid she would. She's a very nice person. And I'm here just a few minutes and you're already breaking down. I'm poisonous to you. I shall leave" he smiled sadly and tears fell down his face. He touched the trail of tears and sniffled "Sorry" and he was gone.
When Artemis got back that day Wally was still at the same place, crouched and rocking his body, crying desperately. She soothed him, circling her hands on his back, muttering reassuring things for him. He didn't fool her not even a second, she knew about Dick.
"What again?" the redhead looked to him. "Unbelievable! I left you alone for just a week and you do what?"
"Babs, what else could I do?"
"What else? WHAT ELSE?" bunch of heads turned to them. "Sorry. But seriously, Dick. You should fight for him! Fuck! You love that guy! And you leave some random girl have him?"
"She's his soulmate!"
"Pardon me? I'm your soulmate, and we got real on this stuff when we know I'm way better without you!" she smiled. "I mean, not completely without you, you're still my bff... But you know what I meant" she smiled. "You see, not being obliged by some law of the universe to marry some random guy I never met made me realize this is all bullshit. Really. Bullshit. I never felt more free than not having to make something work because I was told to. I can fall in love in my own way and figure things out and that's great. And I know you feel this way too!"
"I do, Babs" he sighed. "But to Wally is different, he was almost as soulmate oriented as I used to be before knowing him. Did I already tell you about how I searched for my soulmate?" she nodded. "Well, he fled from his. He was so scared his soulmate would hate him that I knew the moment this person showed up he would go nuts. Because, you see, it is impossible to hate him. He is pretty, cute, hot, smart, funny, sweet..."
"Yeah, the mister Perfect Guy that you let go!"
"I didn't. I just couldn't do anything. He didn't contact me for three months. He could anytime, but I couldn't. I didn't have his address or a cellphone number or nothing. His college can't give away the student info. I couldn't find him and he chose not find me! He was happy with his soulmate, and I can't deny that to him. Not just because I chose love over soulmate" he sighed. "Still too late for me?" smiled charmingly.
"Too late. Sorry" she winked.
"Well, can't tell a boy didn't try" they laughed a little. When the laughter died, he crossed his arms on the table and cried. Barbara saw some flash and knew that she would be on the newspaper next morning. She could read already the headline Comissioner's daughter killed Gotham most wanted bachelor's heart! That's because she is a nice girl and don't even think the words that always get to Gotham's headlines.
"Dick..."
"I can't, Babs. I want to be with him! So badly. But I don't know what to do!"
"Calm down, D. First of all, let's go to somewhere more private. If I knew what you wanted to talk was this serious I would have gone to the manor, not to an ice cream parlor. Second of all, we'll design a plan to capture that boy's heart again. If anything we threw Jason over the girl to seduce her, work ten out of ten!" they laughed. "Come on! Let's bring your guy back so we can do double dates! If needed I'll go with Jason!"
"Hell no!" she won another laugh from him.
She went home late that Sunday. Dick would call a sick day on Monday and stay at home. He hadn't state of mind to take any of his freaking advanced classes. Jason was sleeping on his bed after late hours talking. He went to the bar, almost on tiptoes to get a drink. Bruce had very strict rules about booze and Dick was really good in breaking them, especially when he was that sad. A bourbon later he was crying and screaming.
Bruce was looking at him concerned, he just had gotten home, not that he didn't know his son usually snatched a few drinks but he never was that drunken. He pulled the crying boy in his arms gently stroking his hair.
"What happened, kid?"
"Walls!" it was really hard to make his words out of his babbling. "He found his soulmate! He lives with her now. And they're together!"
Hugged his son tighten. That was a real nightmare.
Dick woke up in the master bedroom. He remembered only waking up there right after he came to the manor when he was eight years old. Bruce entered the room right away, he was on the phone whispering something. They exchanged a glance and he smiled, sitting by his side.
"Do you wanna talk to miss Gordon?"
"No, she will scold me" he made a grimace.
"She's right if she do" felt the big hand of the man rubbing his back then messing his hair. "Sorry, miss Gordon, his hangover took the better of him. Yeah, I'll make sure he receive that. Send my regards to your father. Good bye" under that look Dick felt like a small boy, not a sixteen. "Can you explain to me what happened last night?"
"Sorry, I did break into your booze cabinet" he hugged himself.
"That part I got. I also got your long term relationship came to an end. Miss Gordon was explaining to me she believes you shouldn't give up. She also asked me to hit you on the head for getting drunken instead of manning up. I'll do it when you're not dying anymore" smiled. Dick sighed.
"Bruce, I can't do anything, can I?"
"Why not? Didn't he fight for you when you found your soulmate? Why can't you do the same?" he raised his eyes to him.
"What?"
"That story you told me about the boy hugging you even though he never let nobody touch him, didn't that happened?"
"Well, yeah. You went there to pick me up because we were both panicking" he sobbed.
"And he almost jumped on me to not take you away from him. He fought for you, Dick, claws and teeth. And you will just let him go? Sorry, son. But in my eyes you in the wrong here. Even if he cheated on you, you know he isn't in his righteous mind right now."
"How much did Babs tell you?"
"In fact, you did last night. You babbled your mouth pretty much, I got too much info about you, so better stop breaking my rules, boy!"
"Fuck!"
"Applying a non-cursing rule right now!" and laughed. Dick crushed his head in pain.
Bruce took a glass of water and a painkiller from his nightstand. Dick absorbed desperately the water. He was so thirsty. His father poured some more to him. He waited a little longer before exiting. Jason came in with a smirk, he was a brat. Dick was silent most of the time, crying a little during the day. Alfred brought his lunch in bed, but he was told he was forbidden to dinner in bed. He was a young man and should act like such. Jason, despite being a brat all along, spent the whole day with him, even skipping his classes. And every time Dick cried he left the room calling him a wuss and soon after Alfred would bring him some snack and he could see his young brother spying on them from the doorway. He couldn't refrain himself to find him adorable.
On the next morning he was in his classes like he was supposed to. If you asked him what he learn that day he would answer about how green Wally eyes were, how his freckles were cute and he named each one, how his hips moved so sexy, and his size was just perfect and how he loved the away Wally entered him.
"You are seriously out of your mind. Were you really thinking about these things in class? Ew! I sit right in front of you!" Barbara answered giggling. Dick grabbed a lock of hers hair.
"Why did you think I was thinking this stuff?"
"EW!" she laughed. "Did Bruce hit you?"
"Yeah, thanks for that. Do you know how heavy is his hand? That man is a monster. I had a hangover!" he smiled. "But he told me some things. I'll be going to home today. And this weekend I'll go get what is mine. This Artemis Crock will have too be way to careful!"
"That's my soulmate!" she hi-fived him.
His cellphone rang in the middle of the night. It was fucking late and some fucking idiot had no love for him and if it was his uncle again he would KILL him!
It was Dick.
His world came down. He trembled so badly he dropped the phone. He ended the call. He tried to return, complaining and whispering 'no, no, no, no, no, no'. When the call completed Dick was laughing and god, that was the most beautiful sound ever.
"Can you open this window? How high is the crime rate in this place if you lock your second store window? Can't be worse than Blüdhaven or Gotham"
"What?" he heard a small hit on his window. Dick was sitting on his window sill. He smiled charmingly and waved to him. He ran to him and opened the window. "Wh- What you doing here?"
"Came to see you! You can hang up this!" "Came to see you! You can hang up this!" came the echo from the phone. He turned off.
"I thought you'd never talk to me again!" he was looking at Dick mesmerized, a smile plastered on his face.
"Like that was humanly possible, even though the opposite doesn't apply" he raised an eyebrow.
"No! That's... Fuck... You have to understand me! You have. Please! Listen to me!" he begged.
"I will. Not now, but I will" he gave that charming smile again. "Do you have any idea of how cute you are when panicking? You got soooooo clumsy..." he approached slowly, palming both of his hands on his chest. "You dropping your phone, almost falling from the bed" he slid his hands up, wrapping Wally's neck, their noses touched.
"Did you see the whole scene?" he asked whispering. Damn, the breath of his beloved was taking his mind away. He was starting to pant softly, starting hesitantly to nuzzle him.
"Of course. Did you think I would wake you up if you were sleeping with your soulmate?" he tilted his head brushing their lips.
"I don't sleep with her!" and Wally sent everything to hell. No one could hold him, he wanted as hell to kiss him and so he did.
He pulled his lover to his bed, throwing him on his back on the mattress. He laid over him, thrusting his hips a little against his. Kissing him like his life was about to end. Dick was fighting desperately against his pants. The boy was dressed completely in his fancy rich boy clothes and he wasn't being able to unbutton it. Wally fixed by ripping the goddamn thing apart. He'd lent some to him later. They were in silence, there was so much going on, that words only would ruin the mood. So, only moaning and panting was allowed.
They really tried to take it slow. But three months of waiting and a huge fight were weighting on the wrong side of that scale. Wally barely wrapped his lips around Dick's shaft and the younger one was done. He then worked on preparing the boy, that also didn't go like planned. One finger was in and Dick looked at him taking his hand away, biting his shoulder and licking and practically begging to be taken. And that part also wasn't at all like planned. Wally lasted three thrusts (one for each month). Dick finished himself. Wally, lying on the mattress, was mortified and to his ultimate horror his boyfriend, if they still could be called that, was trying his best to not laugh out loud. Dick threw himself over West, belly over belly.
"Stop, ok! It's been three months. Three!" he showed three fingers.
"Didn't you touched no one? Not even miss Soulmate?"
"Of course not! I'm with you! Dude, I know I screwed up, big time, but even I have limits. You know?"
"I thought you and her were together" he laid back beside him.
"We... That's complicated. You see. She was a sassy girl in my Spanish class. And she got no idea of personal space. I managed to spend day one away from her. But then when we met at the house and she knew I was hers roomie she hugged me. I panicked. Took first bus I saw to go back to home. Everything went wrong. I was robbed and she came to my rescue. I ended up telling her everything about my dad, I was amazed because she never said I was no good. I ended up kissing her in my panic and I don't know what to do!" Dick was silent when he ended. Now he listened to everything, like promised. Wally was holding his cries. He didn't need Dick to forgive him for pity.
"And that's been going on for three months" he said.
"Yup. I like her. I won't lie. But I don't love her. But I never thought my soulmate wouldn't hate me. I don't want her to hate me like my father said" he turned his head to Dick and met his eyes. The younger was staring intensively.
"When Babs showed up for the first time you asked me to choose you. I came here to say the exact same thing. I know I don't own the same emotional weight of hate being touched and then finally touching you. But can I at least ask for that? For you to choose me?" he nuzzled him, letting a tear escape. "I'm so scared of losing you" whispered. "I don't think I can win over some cool soulmate who doesn't hate you. I'm just a nerd dude that like ninjas."
Wally widened his eyes. Since when had the world turned 180 and now he was the one confident while Dick was panicking of loosing him? Why did he have a choice? He was supposed to beg for forgiveness, not to choose any of them. He wasn't that good. He wanted to say that, in honesty, he never felt so good, so empowered. He smiled to him, kissing him deeply.
"What would you do for me to choose you?"
"Anything" Dick kissed him back.
"Tell me you love me. That will do" another kiss.
"I love you, Wallace" another kiss. "I love you!" another kiss. "I love you" another.
Wally looked from Dick to Artemis. Grayson was all dressed in his clothes. In the middle of the night they kind of dirtied Dick's shirt and he had ripped his pants. Arty was looking angry, and hurt. He was having second thoughts. A look at Dick and he knew he couldn't keep this going on. He had to talk.
"Will you talk or just mimic a fish?" he frowned. "Fine. Look, Walls, I know what you gonna say..."
"No, you don't! I hate when people say they know what I'm thinking. No one can get how hard it is for me but me!" he blasted, fuck. "Arty I like you! I adore you and admire you! I really wanted to be as confident as you are! You're pretty, you're funny, you're amazing!"
"But I'm not a guy."
"But you aren't him" he held Dick's hand. "I'm in love with him for three years now. I passed a lot to be with him. I can't leave without him" Dick smiled to him. Things got a little bit easier.
"So why did you even kiss me?"
"I was confused. You had said you didn't find me disgusting. That was really important to me. But after that I didn't know how to tell you about us, he and I. I didn't know how to tell I didn't want a relationship. I was afraid if I said those things you would hate me, and my father would be right and I wouldn't be loved by anyone, including you, love" he said lowing his head looking to his boyfriend.
"Babe, you'll need a little more than your father to make me not love you" he answered, kissing gently in his cheek.
"But it's not how my head works. These aren't reasonable feelings. I'm afraid, that's it, and I'll probably will act to avoid my fears to come true. Dinah told me that's how I work" he shrugged, letting himself be enveloped by Dick's arms, calming down.
"That's so annoying" Artemis exclaimed. "I'm seriously mad, Wally. I mean, you both are really cute together and I can't really see me in between you both, but I liked you for real, you know?" she kicked some dog toy. Brucely jumped from his small bed and ran after it. "I won't hate you, if that makes you feel better. But I'll need some time alone" she left.
Dick raised and ran after her. He came back slowly, sitting beside Wally.
"What did you do?"
"I gave her Babs number. Maybe she can help her to understand all of this" he sighed. "What will we gonna do? I mean, I'm going back to Gotham in a few hours."
"Why are you so young?" he nagged. Sighing, he hugged him. Not all of theirs problems were fixed. Actually, none of them were. But they were doing something. He rested his forehead on Dick's. "We will make it work."
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Story: That Soulmate Thing
Chapter: 2. Chapter 2
From: Uncomfortable (Guest)
Uncomfortable:This fic was going so great. It was heart breaking and romantic and just plain intresting.
But then Bruce talks with D*** and you cross the line. The "he cheated because you arn't trying hard enough" line is what people in bad relationships tell themselves in order to justify staying with the cheater. That just makes everything up to that point feel dirty. Like you're excusing Wally for his bad actions and blaming them on D***.
I was honestly expecting this to end in a heart breaker where Wally ends up with Artemis and D*** only has platonic love in his life. That would have made a dramatic tale of lost love instead you excuse actions that are horrible, if not legitimately inexcusable.
If this is something personally relivent to you and your life, I'm so sorry something like this happened to you or someone you know, but that end seemed really forced and just turned the entire story rotten.
So, this person didn't sign this review and I have no way to contact them. So, I really wanted to ask sorry to them. I didn't mean to cross any line, I won't blame it on language barrier, because I'm afraid this was a little deeper issue. I originally planned something completely different and changed direction midway through writing the fanfic and tried my best to not throw away all that I had planned. I never planned to do victim blaming or give Wally excuses for his cheating. In the end, what I was going for, with Bruce' scene and the whole current ending, was that, even knowing Wally was to blame, Dick forgave him anyway. But ended up being a little forced and misunderstood (I don't know if misunderstood applies here. In this case it meant what I meant in previous scenario, but not on the final one). So, I gave a lot of thinking and decided: I will write how it was originally planned. For those who liked the way it is now, I'll do it as an alternative ending. Warning: it will be sad and angst, but it will be tagged about it and I'll add notes explaining the contents in the , that has no tag system.
Please, Uncomfortable Guest, and anyone else who felt same way, if you can give me one chance to redeem myself, I'll try. You practically guessed the original ending (though I would add a few twists and more angst on it) and you said that was the good end for it. So, please, give me this chance to show how it was supposed to be. I'll try to do it as quick as possible.
