Alright, so many of you wanted me to continue with what happens next and not before the flashback so I will do that. I'm really going to try my hardest to finish this story before I go back to school because it is my senior year and things will get crazy in September.
"Frankie, please just tell me where she is. I can't apologize if I can't find her."
Frankie looked at his soon to be ex sister-in-law in disgust. "You think a simple apology is going to be enough? You broke my sister's heart, so in my mind you are dead." He walked out the room. Maura looked to Angela for help but she shook her head, she wasn't going to choose between her children. Maura sat on the couch,
"I never wanted it to happen this way, Angela. I swear, I never wanted to hurt your daughter."
Angela placed a hand on Maura's,
"I know dear, but what's hurting her most is that it was with Tommy."
"Do you think she will want to leave me?" before Angela could tell Maura what she was truly thinking the front door opened. It was Jane, carrying their son, Maura jumps up immediately.
"Jane, please, just let me explain. " Jane ignored Maura, walking over to her mother, placing the little boy lightly in her arms. Angela was thankful for the distraction.
Jane turned back to her crying wife, "Is he the father?"
"Who, Tommy? No." Jane studied Maura's eyes for any sign of dishonesty and when she saw none, she continued.
"I want a divorce-"
"Jane, don't you think that's a bit much? You haven't even given her a chance to explain." Angela asks, standing up. Maura was grateful that at least someone was on her side.
Frankie walks back into the room,
"She had a chance to explain in the two years she kept it a secret from Janie." Angela turned towards her youngest son.
"Frankie, you stay out of this. Jane, Maura, we'll give you some time alone. I'll take these two with me back to the guesthouse." She tightened the blanket around William and walked out the house, with Frankie following. He gave Jane a hug telling her he'll be next door if she needs him. He angrily glares at Maura before closing the door to the house.
"Do you have feelings for my brother?" Maura looked down at the ground, before whispering
"I don't know." The room is silent with Maura refusing to look up at Jane. She fumbles with her hands and finally looks up when she hears sobbing. Jane stands across the room, wiping at her eyes with the back of her sleeves as she cries, not caring that Maura is seeing how broken she is. Maura will slowly approach Jane, wrapping her arms around her, allowing her to cry into her shoulder. Jane will try and push her away but Maura won't lessen her grip.
"I hate you Maura, I hate you so much" she cried into her shoulder. Her confession causes Maura to break down even more.
"Jane, I may have feelings for Tommy, but I love you. I want to spend the rest of my life with you." Jane clung to Maura's shirt, bawling the material into her fists, holding Maura to her as she cried even harder. Maura held her as she cried while they embraced each other. After a minute Jane looks up, looking into Maura eyes, she leans down slowly and kisses her, both women's tears mixing.
Maura hooked a finger in one of Jane's belt loops and pulled the detective towards her. Jane's hands went into Maura's golden locks pulling her closer as their kiss intensified. Maura freed the leather from its clasp on Jane's belt, popping the button on her jeans as Jane led her backwards down the hall to their bedroom. She reached up, pulling Jane's shirt over her head, while Jane simultaneously, unzipped Maura's dress. She then proceeded to rip off Maura's bra not bothering with its clasp. By the time they reach the bedroom door both women are naked. Maura kicks open the door, flicking on the lights, illuminating the room with a dim glow.
She continued to walk backwards and the moment Maura felt her calves hit the bed she allowed herself to fall, bringing Jane down with her. She flipped Jane over, straddling her waist. Jane looks up into her wives eyes knowing that she could forgive Maura because she deeply loved her. Jane titled up and kissed Maura. She ran her tactile hands up Maura's back all the way north to her blonde hair and tangled her fingers into its mass. One of Maura's thighs pushed in between Jane's legs. It happened so quick the detective could only gasp a throaty huff that disappeared into the heat of their kiss. The embrace Maura had around Jane had expanded until one hand braced her hip and the other her shoulder blade. Maura broke their kiss, leaving Jane gasping and desperate. She straddled the brunette by her writing hips.
"Please, let me make it up to you." She whispered into the kiss, lacing her fingers with her wife's. She placed a light kiss on Jane's chest and licked a trail down to the brunette's pelvis. Maura paused, looking up and locked eyes with her lover.
"I want you so much" she whispered to her, and then lowered herself. Jane watched Maura face disappears between her hips. Her eyes rolled back as she sighed contently.
Pushing her tongue into Jane, Maura used her lips and nose to good effect in other areas. The brunette arched off the bed as Maura moved her tongue deeper. She could feel the beginning of Jane's orgasm. Moving a hand she pushed her forefinger into Jane, cupping her own jaw as she did and moved her mouth higher, not neglecting anything as she went.
She used her tongue to gently push back a tiny hood and the soft inner portion of her lower lip to caress the impossibly sensitive area. By now, Jane was shaking and when Maura sucked lightly, she came powerfully. Jane felt as if her own heart would stop.
When Jane was still, Maura moved up to straddle Jane once again, leaning down to kiss her deeply.
Jane sat up with Maura in her lap, their eyes locking, with Jane sliding her hand between them finding her way to the wet heat that she felt radiating from Maura's core. The moment Jane's fingers entered her, she began to rock her hips to encourage Jane to go further. Leaning back into Jane's other arm, a low moan escape Maura's mouth as she whispered, "Go deeper."
The need in Maura's voice tore Jane's breath from her body as she moved her hand with purpose.
Leaning forward, Jane kissed the valley between Maura's breasts before brushing her face against an erect nipple, moaning freely in response to the way that Maura moved against her hand, against her body. Maura pulled her face up kissing Jane, panting into the kiss as she ground down onto Jane's hand, sweat on their skin lubricating the movement further.
Shivers and tightening signified to Jane that Maura was close, very close. Jane focused her movements and kissed Maura in synch with them.
Seconds later Maura nearly crushed Jane against her as orgasm took her. Jane's body hummed in sympathy and she could feel her muscles clench in anticipation as she kissed Maura's throat and upper chest, calming the movements of her hand, but still maintaining the movements so as not to interrupt any of Maura's pleasure.
Finally coming down from the strong sensation of their orgasms, Jane's could no longer support herself and collapsed, falling backwards. Maura lied content on top of Jane. She kissed her shoulder whispering that she loved her. Jane tried to fight the tiredness that was overcoming her but was finding it very difficult to do so. Maura reached over and grabbed Jane's wedding band from the night stand and slid it back onto her wife's finger. Jane too tired to realize what Maura had done, left the ring and drifted off to sleep but not before mumbling, "...I'm still in love with you..." Maura allowed a small smile to dance across her face before she too drifted off to sleep.
The next morning, Jane slowly got out of bed and got dressed. Despite the many times she wanted to return to the side of the blind she remembered why she couldn't. Finding a piece of paper, Jane sat in the chair next to the bed crying as she tried to think of what to write to Maura. She watched her sleep peacefully as she began to pour her heart onto paper.
Maur,
I am sitting here thinking how much of our life we have spent together, although we've only been married for close to two years. But with all the time we've been together, you were mine long before I said "I do". That's a long time, a lifetime. I remember when I first saw you, so young and beautiful, but it was more than that, you had such a magnifying personality, and you were such a breath of fresh air to be around. I fell for you the moment I saw you, I had never had that feeling before, I was just too young, stupid, and shy to do anything about it. But I eventually took my chance and those first few months together may be the best of my life. When I would have to leave you each day, I couldn't wait to see you again, and I remember us spending every moment we could together. And to think when I couldn't love you anymore than I already did, you gave birth to my son. My love for you strengthened that day and I realized that it would kill me to not have you and Will in my life. But now I realize, as I'm sitting here watching you sleep, that it would kill me more knowing that you're love is divided between me and my brother. God, you have no idea how much I wanted to stay in bed and forget everything that has happened but I can't. When I close my eyes and try to forget I can't help but remember that you stood at the altar knowing that you may possibly be in love with Tommy. Knowing that you made vows that you had already broken before you even said them makes it hard for me to forget.
Maura, you are so dear to me. You have to believe that, I do still love you so much. I just can't be the person you need right now because I won't be able to forget what happened. So, as much as it hurts me, I'm leaving. I have to do it for both of us. I need to find myself and figure out my life again without you and you need time to consider your feelings for Tommy. Don't be afraid to pursue him because I would hate for our marriage to be ruined for nothing. But, hey, maybe it's my fault. Maybe I rushed things. Did I make you feel forced into marrying me so soon?
Maybe things would have been different if that had not been the case. Maybe had I given you the chance to think if marrying was the right thing to do, we could have avoided this? Avoided the tears, the heartbreak. If only we could turn back time.
I'm going to take some time off and leave town. I'll be back but right now I just need to be alone. Frankie will know where I am and maybe he can bring Will to visit.
Remember that I love you Maura. I'm setting you free so that you can pursue you feelings for Tommy without the guilt of marriage holding you down and you can come to terms with what it is you truly want. I just can't promise that I will still be here when you find your answer.
~~Jane
She looked up to see the sun beginning to rise. She wiped at the remaining tears with her hands as she reached over and grabbed the divorce papers. She signed them, rolling them up and sliding her wedding band over it. She folded the letter writing Maura's name on the outside. She then placed the rolled up divorce papers onto the bedside table. Grabbing her suitcase and the letter, Jane leaned down slowly and placed a gentle kiss on Maura's forehead and before she could catch it, a tear slid down her cheek and fell onto Maura's cheek. The blonde only stirred but didn't wake.
"I love you." Jane whispered before walking out the room, shutting the light off. She placed the letter on the kitchen counter where Maura would see it. She walked over to the front door, opening it. She stepped outside, taking one last look at the place where she had proposed to Maura, before closing the door behind her.
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