Chapter 1: The Way I Loved You

I woke up in my bed at Charlie's. My MP3 had woken me up with my personal music. I turned it a bit louder. I felt like I was going to have a great day. I got dressed in a jeans, a grey shirt and brown jacket. I combed my hair with a comb and I washed myself at the sink from the bathroom. I took the stairs and went down from it. I smiled happily and that's probably why Charlie asked me why I smiled when I entered the kitchen.

'I'm happy, that's all', I replied.

Charlie gazed at me and ran his eyes up and down. 'Is it that Cullen guy? What did he do?'

He laid his hand on his gun and my eyes followed it. 'There's nothing wrong with him, dad. He's a good guy. He's a really good guy, you know.'

'I don't trust him. No one touches my baby.'

'Dad, I'm not a baby anymore.'

I took an apple and wanted to walk out of the kitchen.

'Aren't you going to eat anything?' asked Charlie.

I turned around and looked straight in his eyes. I wanted to say something rude, but that could break his heart. I couldn't break his heart. I already once when I choose to live with my mom. I was not planning to do that again so I said: 'I'll have this apple as breakfast, okay?'

'Don't be late, alright!'

'Yes, dad', I replied.

I opened the front door and I saw a shiny car parked on the street. I smiled, I guess a bit too much, at it. Although, most likely to the person who was in it. I watched for any movement behind the dark windows and noticed that a girl with sparkly hair was in it: Alice. That was his sister. I knew that she wasn't. Not even close to being family. My boyfriend was a vampire and I liked that. I had only found out about it a few weeks ago and I liked it. I saw him looking at some persons and he had this weird expression on his face. Like he knew something from them that anyone else didn't… And I knew why now: he could read minds. Although mine was a complete mystery to him. That didn't surprise me: sometimes it's a mystery to me too.

I walked over to the car and I had this feeling someone was watching me. I had two options: either Edward was gazing at me from his car or either Charlie was looking at me. I thought that it was option two and I was right. When I got in the car, I saw the white curtain sliding aside when a hand pulled away. I laughed a little and I turned my head to Edward.

'Hey!'

'Morning', he said and he started the car.

This was weird. Normally, he would kiss me and hug me just like that, without asking. Then I could feel his cold hands against mine, his lips against my cheek, sometimes his arms wrapped around my body,…

'Bella, how are you doing?' asked Alice joyfully.

'Great', I answered and turned to her. 'And you?'

'Great, couldn't be better. Although, Bella, there's something you need to know', she began.

'Alice, shut up!' yelled Edward out of the blue.

'This was going on for two weeks now. Every time when Alice was trying to say something important to me, Edward would interrupt. I was dying! I needed to know what she wanted to say. I just couldn't hold it anymore.

'Edward, please, let her speak.'

'No, she has to be silent for a moment. I have a headache', replied Edward.

I had never seen him like this and I decided to be quiet myself. Maybe he was angry by something Rosalie had said to him or something like that. Luckily he couldn't read my mind because my thoughts may have caused him more angriness. We drove further to school and he searched for a parking spot on the parking lot. When we found one, he gave a weird look at Alice. He expected me not to see that, but I did. Alice slightly nodded and got out of the car. He turned to me and I got ready to get something in my face. A huge ball got stuck in my throat and I had trouble with making it disappear. In the background was the music of the radio. I heard the song "Use Somebody" from Laura Jansen, I think. That played on the radio since she had covered it. Not bad for a Dutch girl.

'Bella, there is something I need to tell you.'

'What is it, Edward? You're acting suspicious for weeks now. I was hoping that you would change', I interrupted him. I didn't care that he looked angry at me after that. That was just something between us.

'Well, Bella, I'm breaking up with you', he suddenly said.

My heart felt like it stopped banging. Something hurt inside me and it felt weird. I imagined hundreds of red roses falling down the sky, turning to black ones. The sky was turning from sunny to cloudy with dark clouds full with rain. Lightning was striking in front of my eyes and thunder banged in my head. My throat had swollen up a minute ago and now it began to grow even more. I almost choked. My eyes filled themselves with tears. Seconds later, they rolled down my cheeks and I wiped them away.

'You're going to do what with me?' I asked between my sobs.

'I'm breaking up with you. We can't see each other anymore', replied Edward.

'Is it because of something that Rosalie said? Or Jasper?'

I never liked Rosalie and she never liked me. Maybe she was the cause of everything. Jasper hated me being with Edward… Well, he hated it that I was human. He wanted me to be a vampire. Then I could be with Edward.

'No, I just don't want to see you anymore.'

'But why?'

Edward sighed and looked away. He held his hand on the driving-wheel and he gazed at the school building.

'Edward?'

'I just can't see you anymore, Isabella.'

'It's Bella, bloodsucker!' I said forcefully and got out of the car. Tears collapsed together in my eyes and streamed down like a mountain river. I passed my friends.

'Hey, Bella, wait up', said Jessica. She ran after me into the toilets and she looked at me. 'Bella, what's going on?'

'E…E…'

I couldn't say his name. It was like a switch was turned inside my head. A switch that said "don't say his name". Scenes of him and me flashed in my memory. What was going on? I didn't know myself. But it felt like all the memories of E… him and me were sucked out of my brain and flushed away through the toilet.

'Is it Edward?' asked Jessica.

The doors flew open and Angela came in too. She had run as fast as she could, I thought. She wasn't the kind of girl who liked gym.

'Yes', I whispered.

'Ow, Bella', said Jessica and Angela at the same time and hugged me. Normally, I would have disliked this and pushed them away. Now, I just wanted to cling to each other so they could keep me on my feet.

Angela and Jessica guided me out of the toilet and into the class room a few meters away. Jessica looked around and no one else was in it. Angela closed the door behind her.

'What is wrong?' asked Jessica when I took a seat.

'He broke up with me', I sighed.

Jessica and Angela gazed at me and their mouths dropped open. I heard mixed reactions.

'That's not possible!' said Jessica.

'He loves you!' replied Angela.

'Well, loved actually.'

'Yes, I know that, but he can't break up with you.'

'Are you sure that he broke up with you?'

'You make a good couple.'

'Well, instead of him and me of course.'

'Please, stop!' I interrupted. 'Just stop, okay! I just can't take it.'

Angela and Jessica looked at me. Angela understood and excused her for being so selfish. Jessica apologized but not because she liked it. She wanted Edward for herself. I knew that, but it was one of my best friends on Forks High School. I had to be careful, well, at least a bit. I gazed back at the two and took my backpack. I left them standing in the toilets and rushed to the class room of English.

This school day was going slower than I ever could imagine. It felt like it went on for ages and I couldn't do anything except for sitting on a chair and listening to the teacher. Although I didn't care for the subjects. I mostly looked out of the window and didn't pay attention. When the bell rang for the lunch, I just sat alone at a table. Angela and Jessica approached and took seats next to me. I looked at them and faked a smile.

'You don't have to fake around us, you know', Angela comforted me. 'You'll get true this. My first crush was just like this.'

But she didn't understand that my love for Edward wasn't a crush. My love for Edward had been strong and unbreakable. Like an eternal flame burning in my heart and nothing could destroy it: water, earth or air could not break its magical spell. But my flame was slowly extinguishing because of one person: the one who set me on fire. My heart was broken.

'If you want too, we can do something sometime later', began Jessica. 'Vacation starts in few days and maybe you'll like that!'

I didn't know what to say. I opened my mouth and wanted to say "I don't want to go" until I saw someone approaching our table. It was Edward. I replied instead: 'You know, let's do that!'

I looked in his eyes. He somehow got a bit scared of me because of the daggers that I was sending him. I didn't know anymore. Was I dull and sad over him? Or was I, deep down, mad and angry at him?

I stood up and Angela and Jessica followed me as my shadows. I threw my food in the trash and passed the table of Edward's family. They all – included Jasper (wasn't a surprise) and Rosalie (that was a surprise) – looked at me with sorrowful and regretful eyes. Did they know something that I didn't? No, probably not. I passed them and didn't pay any attention to them. I walked out of the school building. Two benches were in front of the school. Funny, because they weren't there yesterday. I took a seat on the bench on the right from the stairs that led to the entrance of the school. I gazed at the school parking lot, but I didn't pay attention at the people and cars passing by.

I heard the ball rang. I didn't realize that I had to go until I saw fellow students arriving at school. Those were the ones that went home to eat. I stood up and walked to the door. Someone opened it and I saw someone coming through it: Edward.


Sorry if there are some grammar or spelling mistakes... To all fellow members of Team Jacob: this whole drama thing will be done soon and something else can begin :D

I rushed myself to get this chapter done and I'm glad with the result. Do you? Leave a review. Don't you? Leave a review anyway... :-)