How She Feels (Saix Version)
A Kingdom Hearts Story
Chapter 2:
A Terrifying Dream
AN: WOOHOO! Chappie 2! Yay! Holy shit it took me so long to come up with this! Considering that I have the ending already written out I have to make everything line up with it and making everything do that when you have only written the first chappie...it's a pain in the ass.
Actually I have chappie 8 written for all of these and then chappie 9 written out for Xemnas only. However chappie 9 for all of them is the one that shouldn't be too hard to write out. I have already planned out what I'm going to do. It's going to be similar to chappie 9 of Xemnas but it will have its differences. A lot of this is going to be similar.
I'm making a lot of the middle chappies different, but most of the ending will be the same. At least for chappie 9 of Saix, Zexion, and Marluxia. I had to do a little creative thinking when it came to Xemnas's. But like I said the middle of the stories for all of them, basically 2-7 will be somewhat the same, but there will be very significant differences. They will follow along the same guidelines, but it will be obvious that there are different stories for each Organization member going on, because each member has a different place in the Organization.
Previously:
Suddenly feeling very drowsy, Amaterasu made her way over to the large bed and pressed her hand down on it, testing what it felt like. It was soft as a cloud and the sheets that covered it were soft.
"Do you mind..." she began.
"Go ahead." he told her, turning around, "I'll join you."
Amaterasu's cheeks turned pink at the straightforward answer then pulled at the boots she was wearing and gingerly climbed into the huge bed. It seemed like she was going to sink into a cloud it was so soft. Not two seconds later, Saix joined her and pulled her against him as he laid down.
"You will be safe with me and no one will hurt you. Xemnas will assure that too. No one will hurt you again." he whispered in her ear.
She settled herself back against him, believing his words and knowing that she would be protected. Things would be different from now on, though she could see that there would be some problems. Saix could be a little...hot-headed sometimes and she would most likely be the one trying to calm him down from now on, and that was going to make her life very interesting from now on.
Chapter 2
'Heartless...there were so many Heartless, as far as the eye could see swarming the area that the Organization had been working in that evening to collect hearts. Already most of the Organization's members had been quickly decimated by the Heartless and had to pull back. Both Saix and Amaterasu were trying their best to defend the Organization but as time passed, it was apparent to both Saix and Amaterasu that this was a battle they were quickly losing. Amaterasu grunted loudly as she had a Heartless claw at her side, pieces of her clothing and flesh being torn off. The gruesome sound of flesh being ripped echoed loudly in her ears.
Amaterasu let out a cry as she brought down her sword Cosmos hard on the offending Heartless, killing that one and three others. She cursed as she fell to her knees. Her breathing was shallow yet rapid and her head began to spin. She realized she had lost too much blood. Looking up too quickly reminded her how dizzy she was.
Even so, she was barely able to see. The blood from a blow to the head was leaking over her eyes and blinding her vision...'
Amaterasu's eyes shot open her lips opening in a soft gasp as she laid beside Saix, his arm casually draped over her waist, his chest pressed up against her back. Noting the way that the two of them were laying together, she tried to remain still so that she wouldn't wake Saix up. She shifted a little to see if she could slip away from him, but his arm tightened around her and she felt his nose bury itself into her hair. Soft puffs of air blew against the back of Amaterasu's neck as she laid there frozen from his movements. She had thought that Saix would wake up from her small movements, not snuggle up against her even more.
Resigned to the fact that she had to wake him up somehow, (no offense to him, but she had to move, the remnants of the dream were still with her and she had to move, she had to get away from it) so she could get out of the bed. Deciding to go for an approach that she knew wouldn't be fair she reached over her shoulder and took hold of a handful of hair. Hoping Saix would forgive her for what she was about to do, Amaterasu gave a firm yank on said hair. Saix immediately pulled back from her with a growl and his hand flew up to dislodge Amaterasu's hand from his hair. Amaterasu rolled from the bed and took off for the other side of the room, expecting to be attacked after what she had just done.
However before she got too far away, her vision clouded over with darkness. It cleared moments later to show the Heartless back around her once again along with that bloody battle field. Amaterasu frantically searched all around her, trying to find Saix, but not seeing him. Hearing something growling behind her, Amaterasu turned around and found a huge Heartless looming over her ready to strike. She started to back away, but tripped over something and fell.
Scooting back on her hands, Amaterasu tried to get away from the Heartless, but it descended down on her and wrapped its claws around her arms. Amaterasu screamed and began to thrash around. The Heartless opened its mouth and Amaterasu thought she was going to lose her heart, but instead a voice was issued from it.
"Amaterasu..." the Heartless croaked.
Amaterasu froze staring up at the Heartless.
"Wha..." she forced out, nearly speechless.
"Amaterasu, what's wrong?" the Heartless asked again, only this time it was Saix's voice that asked it.
Amaterasu closed her eyes and shook her head vigorously. The Heartless was trying to trick her. She had been told that Heartless could be tricky little things, but she never knew that they could imitate voices.
"No, get off me. I swear, I'll kill you if you don't..." she yelled at the Heartless.
"Amaterasu, stop it! It's me Saix!" the Heartless said again, still imitating Saix's voice.
However when Amaterasu opened her eyes, it was indeed Saix in front of her. She was confused. Could Heartless imitate a persons figure as well as their voice. Saix let go of one of Amaterasu's arms and threaded his hand into her hair.
"Amaterasu, listen to me, you are safe. There is nothing here to harm you." Saix said firmly, making sure she couldn't look away.
Amaterasu slowly relaxed in Saix's grip, looking up at him carefully. It was Saix. Amaterasu started trembling, then just broke down into tears, her whole body shaking with the sobs that tore from her throat. Saix stared down at her for a few moments, then kneeled down and pulled her against him so that she was against his chest enclosed within his arms. Her arms snaked around his chest and held onto him tightly.
Saix was silent, allowing her to cry as much as she needed without asking, but he was eventually going to. As her crying began to subside, he pulled back from her and lifted her into his arms. Walking back to his bed, he sat her down on it then kneeled in front of her.
"What happened?" he asked gently, contrary to his normal rough demeanor.
A hiccup forced itself from Amaterasu's throat before she swiped her hand across her face, trying to wipe the tears from her eyes.
"A battle field...A bloody battle field all around me. Heartless everywhere. Somewhere here in The World That Never Was. The Organization members were strewn everywhere.
Some dieing, some already dead. The two of us were trying to fight, but we were losing and we were both going to die. And then, a Heartless came up behind me. I'm sorry, but I thought you were that Heartless. That's why I tried to get away from you.
I thought you were going to try and take my heart. I thought I was going to die." she sobbed.
A fresh wave of tears flowed forth and she covered her face. Saix reached up and took her hands in his own and pulled them away from her face.
"I promise you, I will never let that happen. No one will ever touch you. No Heartless will ever steal your heart while I still live. You are mine and so is your heart. You did give it to me, did you not?" he asked her.
Amaterasu nodded her head.
"Then I will protect it with everything that I am and everything that I have." he whispered to her.
Leaning up, he softly pressed his lips to hers. The kiss was gentle, a direct opposite of his normal demeanor and tasted of the salt from Amaterasu's tears. However neither of them cared. The world around them melted away and time seemed to stop. Amaterasu leaned down and slid her arms around Saix's neck pulling him farther into the kiss, her fingers sliding into his silky midnight hair at the nape of his neck.
A slight moan was heard from the back of Saix's throat. He had wanted this for so long, but never knew how to ask for it. The hands that were entangled in his hair were so soft and gentle. The midnight hair that flowed forward as Amaterasu leaned down to kiss him was soft and silky against his cheeks. Her ocean-blue eyes were closed, but he didn't care at the moment.
Her soft lips were pressed against his and they were pliant and willing. If only he could do this forever. Alas, oxygen was needed and the two of them pulled apart, both of them panting from the lack of air.
"You know..." Amaterasu panted lightly, resting her forehead lightly against his.
"Hmm?" he asked.
"I have...wanted to do that...for so long now. I've just been afraid to. I've not known what to do, what to ask to let you know that." she whispered.
Saix smiled to himself. He leaned forward again and pressed another light, but chaste kiss to her lips.
"As have I..." he whispered in return.
"You know. I never thought of you being so gentle. You always seem like a rough and strict person. What with how you always act with all the others." Amaterasu mused aloud to herself.
A snort was heard from Saix.
"If I wasn't like that, they would never listen to me. Do you think they would actually follow my orders if I said 'please'?" he asked her with a small smile quirking his lips.
A laugh escaped Amaterasu's lips.
"You do have a point there. I can't see any of them listening if you said 'please'. I doubt any of them would even give you the time of day if you said that. I see why you crack the whip at them. Although I've seen you on a good day when you crack the whip at them, so to speak.
I've not seen you on aa bad day when you crack the whip at them and I don't think I want to. I remember what happened that one time with Xigbar. That was just scary. He climbed the wall just to get away from you. I would hate to see what you would do if someone decided to douse you with a bucket of water.
And Ice water at that. I have my doubts that they would even survive." she giggled.
A small laugh escaped Saix, a rare thing indeed.
"Yes indeed, I did chase him up the wall. But I let him get away. I could have done much worse if I wanted to. Much, much worse. And before you get any idea's about dumping a bucket of ice water on my head, I am telling you now, I will chase you down and make you pay for it.
Not in the same way that the others would pay for it, but you would still pay." he said, a sinister smile on his face.
Amaterasu's face paled a little.
"Remind me not to make you angry." Amaterasu whispered softly.
"Good girl." Saix whispered, patting her head.
Amaterasu pushed his hand away and glared up at him as he stood.
"Now, we need to get dressed to go somewhere. The Superior had something planned yesterday, but something came up mission wise for the others and it had to be canceled. If you will wait here, I'll change my clothes, then I'll take you back to your room so that you may change your clothes as well. Then once we are both ready, we'll go down to the Gray Room to meet the others." Saix said as he moved over to the other side of his room to a dresser that was a dark blue with black accents.
He opened a couple drawers and pulled out a few articles of clothing before retreating to what Amaterasu thought would be his bathroom. A few minutes later he came out dressed in his Organization coat, but it was obvious that he had a couple layers on beneath it. Extending his hand out to Amaterasu he waited for her to take it. She nodded her head and walked over to him, taking his hand with a smile on her face. Waving his hand out next to him, Saix opened a Dark Corridor and started to walk through it.
However, he was jerked to a stop. Looking back, he found that Amaterasu was looking at the Corridor like it was going to eat her. She shook her head and pulled farther away from the Corridor. Saix turned back around and took her other hand in his.
"You trust me don't you?" he asked her, tilting his head to the side questioningly.
"Yes..." she said hesitantly.
"Then do not be afraid. I won't let anything touch you. The Darkness may envelop your body, but that is all it will touch. Your heart will always be safe while I am around. The Darkness will never have it.
Trust in my touch and in my words, Amaterasu, for they hold no lies." he told her.
Amaterasu stared up into his yellow eyes, searching for any lies that would be hidden inside them. But she found none, she was safe. No Darkness would ever touch her in his protection. Nodding, she turned back to the Dark Corridor and began walking toward it. Saix nodded and walked beside her.
As she walked into the Corridor, Darkness enveloped Amaterasu's vision, and for a moment, the entire world was gone. Then in a bloom of color and brightness, it was back and she was looking at her room. She looked back at Saix and he nodded at her, then turned and walked out of the room so she would have her privacy while she changed her clothes. She walked over to the dresser that held her clothes and started pulling clothes out. She didn't have very many warm things because she didn't leave the Castle very often and she didn't have much of a chance to bring things along with her when she left her original home.
Pulling out a couple shirts and pulled off the shirt she had worn yesterday and then pulled on the two shirts she had pulled out. They were long sleeved and heavy. They had been standard issue for the people that had worked for the military faction she had worked for. They weren't the most comfortable things in the world, but they did keep you warm. She then pulled out a set of warm pants that were also standard issue for the cold from the military faction.
She hated the memories that they brought back, but she wasn't going to get rid of them. They were too useful. Bad memories were easily forgotten, good clothes lasted forever. Well until they wore out at least. She pulled them on then walked over to the bed that she usually slept in.
Reaching under it, she pulled out a pair of military grade boots. They were warm and durable. However, though they were military grade and durable, they were also fashionable. They weren't big and bulky, they were slim and refined. More along the lines of what a woman would wear if she was going out on a date.
There was a low heel to them and they were slightly pointed at the toe. Pulling them on, she secured the buckles that held them together, making sure her pants were neatly tucked into them. Dubbing herself ready, she walked to her door and opened it. Saix was standing outside the doorway staring at the opposite wall seemingly looking at nothing, though he was obviously deep in thought.
"You ready?" Amaterasu asked him, watching as his eyes snapped over to her as she closed the door to her room.
He nodded at her and opened another Dark Corridor. Once again taking Saix's hand, the two of them walked through the Corridor and out the other side. This time, when Amaterasu regained her vision, she was in the Gray Room and the rest of the Organization was there waiting for her and Saix. Saix pulled her forward until she was standing in front of Xemnas, then let goo of her hand and backed away. Glancing over her shoulder in surprise, Amaterasu wondered where Saix was going until Xemnas spoke up in front of her.
"Amaterasu, in the time that you have been with us, we have come to acknowledge you almost as one of us, like one of our kinsman. Though you still have your heart and though you will not bear a title from the Organization, all of us wish you to have this gift. With the protection that it will give you, you will no longer have to worry about traveling through the Dark Corridors for you will be protected by it." Xemnas said with a hint of...was that pride Amaterasu heard in his voice.
Pulling a small black bundle from behind himself, he unfurled it and shook it slightly. At first Amaterasu couldn't tell what it was, but when Xemnas straightened it out she finally realized. It was a coat like the Organization members wore!
Amaterasu's eyes widened as she stared at the coat not moving. Saix gave a small, almost exasperated sigh and moved forward, taking the coat from Xemnas and turning back to Amaterasu.
He walked behind her and slid the coat up her arms and over her shoulders so that she was wearing it properly. Turning her around to face him, he carefully zipped it up, then allowed her to look at herself. Amaterasu looked down at the leather coat she was now wearing. Never in her wildest dreams did she think that she would ever wear a coat similar to the Organization's let alone have to coat presented to her by Xemnas himself. She was nearly speechless.
Nearly being the keyword though.
"Th-thank you Xemnas." she managed to stutter out.
"You should be thanking Saix. He noticed your aversion to the Corridors and expressed his concern about it." Xemnas told her.
Amaterasu looked over at Saix and noticed him looking away.
"Hey Superior, weren't we supposed to be going somewhere?" asked Axel.
Sunset orange eyes glared at the red-head.
"We will in good time Number VIII. Until then remain silent." Xemnas snapped.
Amaterasu gave a giggle as she looked over at Axel.
"It's fine Xemnas. I am ready to go as well. Shall we?" she asked.
Xemnas looked back at her, his gaze softening as he looked over at his second-in-commands love. If only for her sake, he would try and tone back he supposed.
Waving his hand beside him, a Dark Corridor opened.
"Let this be known now. This world is to remain unknown to all of you. None shall know its name or how to get to it. This is a one time visit that I have made for Amaterasu. If I find any of you have traced this world and have tried to do anything to it, there will be dire consequences." Xemnas warned.
All of the Organization members looked at him for a moment then nodded their heads. They knew better than to go against Xemnas. Walking through the Corridor, the fourteen of them found themselves in a world covered in snow and ice. Fluffy snow flakes fell from the sky in a flurry all around them. Amaterasu ran forward and spun in a circle, laughing as the snow flakes stuck in her hair.
She turned back around and watched the other Organization members look around almost furtively, like they didn't know what to do. Smiling to herself, Amaterasu leaned down and scooped up a handful of snow. Packing it into a ball, she looked over at the group. She knew she would get into trouble for this and would most likely get thrown into an illusion that would drive her to the brink of insanity, but she thought this would be worth it. A little snow never hurt anyone, right?
Drawing back her arm, she then launched the snowball forward and it hit its target. The slate-blue hair covered head was covered with snow, and as it turned little chunks of the remaining snowball fell to the ground. Aqua-blue eyes made their way over to Amaterasu, glaring at her as she stood there smiling innocently.
"Play a game, Zexion?" she asked innocently.
Zexion tried to keep the smile from his face. Though he was mad that he had been hit with the snowball. He had to admit, it was a tempting offer. He leaned down as well and scooped up a snowball of his own. Packing it together, he cocked his arm back and made to let it fly at Amaterasu...before turning and letting it fly at Xigbar.
The old pirate was nailed straight in the face, and a surprised noise left his mouth.
"Oh no you didn't, book boy!" he yelled, grabbing some snow for himself.
And thus ensued a huge snowball fight.
AN: Once again this follows the same line as the others do. Like I said they will all follow the same lines, but they will all have their different quirks considering they are all different members of the Organization and all the different members of the Organization react differently to the situations I will be putting them in. So yeah, this is the Saix version of Chappie 2. I'm thinking of working on the Zexion version next. But I'm also working on this new thinggie I dropped in on when I was reading other ficcies on here.
That one's called "Organization 13 and the People They Spend Their Time With". I picked up the idea from another author. I read their fic, and it just like BOOM hit me in the head that I wanted to try something similar. The actual author was "Crescentrax" and the story itself was called "The Drabbles of Organization XIII". I was just running through stories just for the fuzz of it to have some fun and came along that one.
And like I said, BOOM just had to try it. So I will be working my way back and forth between these two, (HSF and O13ATPTSTTW(I know long name but I was at a little bit of a loss as to what to call it, but this was what came up)). SO c ya when I post between the two! :)
