Chapter 2
Mulder's POV
She was standing here in the hall. She looked beautiful tonight. I couldn't help staring at her sparking blue eyes. She was Dana Scully.
I thought I would never see her again. It was my mistake letting her go. She was thinner than the last time we met… one year, two months and seven days ago. She left Washington DC without saying goodbye to me. I knew where she was but I didn't dare meet her again. After our argument, I thought I should let her go, maybe she would be happier living without me. She had enough pain in her life, losing Melissa, Emily, even losing a chance to be a mother. Because of me…
"No, I don't know him," Dana Scully shook her head.
I smiled bitterly. Now Dana Scully didn't know Fox Mulder. She wanted to erase me like erase the pencil marks. When I saw the way Steward looking at me, I knew he was nervous. Maybe he was afraid of losing her, like I did? He was sweet with her. I knew he loved her very much. I loved Scully too. But, the difference between us was… I had never told her before, that I loved her.
She was pretending that she didn't know me. Her eyes were wet, I knew she was trying to keep her tears not falling down. I couldn't read it from her eyes. They were deep blue, lots of sorrows behind this color.
"Hi Scully," I said, my throat was dry.
"Andy, I'm tired…" she said.
In that moment I was afraid that her cancer coming back. Scully buried her face into Steward's chest. I was stupid. She just didn't want to see my face.
"Honey, are you ok?" Steward asked.
His was hurt by his word. "Honey?" I couldn't smile anymore. It was so bitter. My Dana Scully moved on with this man. I was hurting inside but I couldn't blame her. She needed a new life.
Goodbye, Dana Scully.
Gibson told me that Scully was in love with me. That boy could read the minds, but was he true this time? I shook my head, washing my face with cold water, but the sight of Scully hugging Steward was vivid in my mind.
I missed her so much. I missed the feeling sitting in my chair, gazed at my Scully under the dim light of our basement office. I missed her back, I love touching her back. I missed her breath when she was talking, the way she raised her eyebrows and licked her lips. I missed Dana Scully.
I didn't know why I was standing here in front of her apartment, her new apartment. I even didn't know how I get there. I just knew that I needed to see her. Who the hell rang her doorbell? Was it me?
The door was opened. Scully was going to close the door as she saw my face but I grabbed her wrist to stop her.
"Scully…" I said mildly.
"What do you want? Did you hear my word? I don't know you," she tried to let go of my hand.
"Let me in, please…"
She paused. I felt her shaking slightly… and she let me in.
I sat in her couch, looking at my hand, didn't know what to say.
"Mulder, what do you want from me?" she crossed her arms.
And I smiled. I knew I was stupid but I smiled, the way she crossed her arms, the way she called me Mulder… recall me the past.
"I… I just want to know how you are doing?"
"I'm fine. Thank you Mulder, it's very kind of you," she ironized. Then she smiled bitterly, "what about you, Agent Mulder? Are you and Agent Fowley doing ok?"
I paused. I knew why Scully mentioned Fowley there. I told lie, I didn't tell Scully that I was married to Fowley. She was mad at me when she figured out it.
Scully went to her kitchen and come back with two cups of hot coffee.
"Fowley was dead," I said.
Two cups fell down to the floor. They were broken.
"Ouch!" I jumped.
"Scully, are you Ok?" I rushed into her.
I held her hands, checking if hot coffee burned her fingers.
"Don't touch me, Mulder!" she said.
I didn't care about her words, I touched her back.
"Don't touch me!" she said coldly.
I knew I was rude but I couldn't stop. I hugged her tightly.
"DON'T TOUCH ME!" she yelled, trying hard to push me away. "Don't touch me like the way you touched her!" she cried.
"What?"
"I saw you… I saw you kissing her. You didn't believe in me, you didn't need me. I followed you like a pig and you even didn't care about me. You diched me when you met your lovely wife again…" she cried.
"It's not that… Scully…" I tried to explain.
"So what is it? Tell me, Mulder, what is it? You slept with her. Now she was dead and you come here to find me… Do you want me to comfort you?" she laughed bitterly.
Now I knew the reason why she left me and The X-Files. Because she thought I didn't need her and I slept with Diana?
"Scully… you don't understand… I…"
"I don't understand? Yes, I ALWAYS don't understand, right?" she was angry now.
"Because I love you, Scully! I can't let you live in danger! I don't want to ruin your life! I don't want to see they hurt you…"
She paused. She didn't say a word. But then she shook her head.
"I don't believe you, Mulder… I knew what I saw. You don't need me. I had a new life now. Andy is a good man, I cant cheat on him."
"The only truth I want you to know, that I love you, Scully. Yes, Steward is a good man, he can give you a normal life. I'm sorry, for everything…."
"Just go, Mulder…"
I looked at her.
"Please…" she said.
Then I left.
A/N: I don't know if I make any misunderstanding here in my first chapter? I read a review but I cant reply you so I decide to reply you here. I didn't want to write Scully as a cheap woman. And, sorry, I don't like that word. She didn't sleep with anybody. I thought I wrote it in my story, it's take a long time before Scully decided to move on with Andy. In my opinion, she is not a cheap woman if she sleep with her boyfriend? Is Scully cheap woman when she had one night stand with Ed J.?
