Author's
Note: Thanks so much for the reviews! Here's chapter two, I hope
you all like it! For some reason the song lyrics in the beginning and end of the chapter won't italicize, and I've tried fixing it, but it won't work, sorry!
Disclaimer: I don't own School of Rock or anything related.
Warning: Slash, possibly some language, and angst. Nothing graphic.
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By now I figured you had all your numbers
changed
It's been at least a year since I called you up to say
We
need to talk, I got this job and I think I'm going to take it
It's been a year Zack, and here I am, standing in front of what used to be your house, the place that was always like a second home to me. How was it that a place that caused you so much pain was a place that I could call home? Living here hurt you, Zack, and I know that, but it was the only place where I was always welcome and where I knew that I would be loved. You hated it here but it always seemed like everything was okay when I stayed here with you, when your father wasn't around to beat and your mother wasn't there to insult you. Those were the good days, the days that I remember most. The days that I miss the most, Zack.
I know you aren't here, why would you still be living here if you actually had the chance to break free and live your own life? But I need to find you, Zack, and if I have to do it through your parents then I will. I need to see you at least one last time, Zack, even if all I get to do is look.
Why did I take that job Zack? Why did you let me move away and take that job? It wasn't what I thought it would be, it wasn't what I wanted. I miss you, Zack, I need you. You never knew how I felt. You never knew that I loved you. You always asked me why I didn't date, and I always said I just wasn't interested. You were why. I knew I couldn't have you, but I kept hoping that someday, someday I could at least tell you what you meant to me, just so you knew. When you let me leave, Zack, let me slip away, I gave up all hope, I knew you didn't love me, and knew you never would. I thought these feelings would finally go away, but I was wrong. I was so wrong.
Your parents weren't home, but I haven't given up hope yet Zack. I'll find you, and I'll hold you in my arms before I let you go for good.
You're a teacher, Zack; I never expected that of you. I always thought you'd be famous someday, I always thought you'd really make something of yourself. But, I bet you make a good teacher, I bet your students have crushes on you, I bet everyone loves you just as much as they always have. I bet you've forgotten all about me, Zack, and what we used to have.
We had the kind of friendship that people would kill for. Where we were two guys, but we weren't afraid to cry in front of each other and show fear and pain, we weren't afraid to hug each other and comfort each other when things got bad. We weren't afraid to be who we really were around each other, just a couple of lost kids, not really knowing what to do, not really having a direction in life. All we had were dreams, Zack, and you know what? I know why they call them dreams, because they will never be a reality.
I wasn't meant to fulfill my dreams and become an artist, I wasn't meant to be with you, Zack, as anything more then a friend, and, you know what Zack? I wasn't meant to miss you this much.
Cause I been waiting all my life
For a break
like this
It's my chance of a lifetime I just know it is
I
gotta go find these dreams
Was the last thing that I said
And
then I did
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Author's Note: I hope you guys all liked it! Please review and tell me what you thought! I'll update as soon as possible.
