Ana POV:

"Well, after I left the penthouse I went back to the Pike place apartment. It didn't feel like home. I was alone in every sense of the word. To be honest my ass was so sore I couldn't even lie down and have a good cry. As bad as it hurt the pain was minuscule when compared to what it felt like in my heart." I am still sitting on Christian's lap and I place his hand above my heart. I need him to really understand. I know what Kate has told me but I need Christian to hear my side.

"Everything reminded me of you. It took months until I could listen to music without crying my eyes out and I still have to skip some songs altogether. I didn't eat for over a week. I survived on diet cokes." Yippee, grumpy Christian is back. I don't think I have missed that side.

"I don't understand, you left me, why were you upset? You could of Safe worded!" Christian asks, he really knows nothing about women.

"Christian, the only reason I volunteered to go into your red room was because I hoped that if I showed you that I could withstand the punishment you would be able to love me back. I didn't eat because I was heartbroken. The one person I have ever loved didn't love me back. I should of have never gone into that room. I didn't understand it or the lifestyle."

"You understand that lifestyle now? What have you been doing?" Christian jumps up so quickly and starts pacing the room, I fall on my ass. Thanks for that fifty! The look of unadulterated disgust on Christian's face makes me want to slap him and kiss him in equal measure. I start to laugh hysterically so I don't kill him. Once I have calmed and Christian is looking at me as if I have grown a second head I start again. I sit back on the couch waiting for the hulk's rage to simmer a little.

"Mr. Grey, I will tell you all about my adventures over the past year. I want to know everything you have done and you need to promise that you will not go thermonuclear no matter what! I don't particularly like being dropped on my ass. Gravity and I already have a love-hate relationship on our own. I can guarantee that you will not like my entire story but I promise that it led me back here."

Christian is rubbing his eyes and pulling at his hair. I know my control freak wants to know everything but I really do not know if he will be able to take it all. Finally, Christian sits back down and places me on his lap. I am clinging to him like a Recess' Monkey. Christian is giving me little kisses down my neck as he speaks. "I am sorry I dropped you on your beautiful ass, can I kiss it and make it feel better?" Christian's hands have a firm grasp of my butt. It is hard to concentrate but I have missed him too much.

"I didn't know you were a fan of such cheesy jokes. Can you please stay calm?" Scratching my nails through Christian's hair I am waiting for an answer. He finally nods his head. "Anyways I was miserable, I took the bus to work and I had an absolutely horrendous day with Jack Hyde. He had no understanding of personal space, he smelt of alcohol, he was rude, condescending and I found out that none of his PA's lasted more than a few months. Usually they were gone after some kind of conference. I wasn't going to take the chance so I told them I had a family emergency and was leaving the state effective immediately. Jack had a fit. That solidified my idea to leave. I got back to the apartment and put the few things I owned into a storage unit. I paid for a year in advance. I took a carry on and my backpack and went to SeaTac. I just needed to get away. I needed to find who I was. Why I would do something so outside my comfort zone. I knew I was attracted to you but I literally was willing to change everything about myself and that didn't feel right."

"Where were you going? I sent you flowers to congratulate you on your first day of work. They were returned" Christian does not seem pleased... just wait until we get to penis Island and the other stuff; So much for staying calm.

"Christian the location wasn't important. I had never been on my own. I lived with Carla who was sort of like living on my own, and then I lived with Ray, then Kate. I wanted to be on my own and make my own mistakes. I didn't want to answer to anyone. You were running your own company but freaking out because I took a flight." I give Christian a deep kiss just for good measure. They seem to calm him a little.

"Once I arrived at the airport and decided I would take the next flight. That happened to be San Francisco. I have only been to California once and that was when Ray took me to Disneyland. I was determined to have an adventure. I booked the next available ticket on South West Airlines. While I was waiting, I ran into my former professor that was relocating to California to work at Berkley. That was one of my favorite classes. The discussions were always so interesting" As I am talking I can feel Christian tensing up. First when I mentioned Jack and now when I mentioned my professor.

"Did you fuck your professor Anastasia?" He whispers with such hatred.

I am seeing red, the nerve of this man!

"No Christian, as amazing as the sex was with you, it didn't turn me off men, I didn't turn into a lesbian over night, I don't know why I even try with you." I slap his cheek and run out of the boathouse. I am not going to run away from Christian but if I stay in that room with him I will not be responsible with what happens. I need some space. Right as I reach the patio Christian has caught up with me and is holding my hand. What is he doing? He hands me a handkerchief.

I look up and see that everyone is smiling. Christian pulls me into his side and kisses the top of my head. I am crying because Christian can be so stupid and everyone else looks ecstatic. They don't realize what is going on and I don't want to be the one to ruin Kate and Elliot's announcement.

If Christian really thinks that I am going to play happy couple after the way he just acted he has no idea; game on.