Chapter 1 Nobody Knows Your Broken Heart

Chapter 1: In The Form of Rejection

Karkat, the perfect troll for me. I smiled dumbly as I looked at his picture in my cave. My Lusis Pounce De Leon was curled up and sleeping as I started to draw a few shippings onto my wall. It made me so mad that Karkat never understood me, but that was my life.

Being catlike in every way, I was comfortable with myself. My name was Nepeta Leijon, but nobody really cared. When the beta kids showed up, it just messed up some plans as well. Karkat kept bouncing back to Terezi and John Egbert, and Terezi kept bouncing to him and Dave Strider. Tears welled up in my eyes as I crawled to my Trollian and started to bug Equius.

arsenicCatnip [AC] began trolling centaursTesticle [CT]

AC: :33 *ac twitches her friendly whiskers at ct*
CT: D - Hi
AC: :33 *ct doesn't understand AC is quite lonely so she purrs in anticipation hoping he will come and rp with her*
CT: D - Nepeta I'm kind of bu%y at the minute, I have company over and think it'd be best if you ask Terezi or someone else right now.. I need a towel..
AC: :33 hisssssssss!
CT: D - You're angry, and I appreciate that
CT: D - But it doesn't matter
CT: D - Di%ussion over
AC: :33 :((

centaursTesticle [CT] ceased trolling arsenicCatnip [AC]

I looked at my screen and looked rather upset. Every day it's Aradia this, Aradia that. I brought my knees to my chest and cried for a solid minute trying to think of what to do.

Terezi was probably with Dave, but he always was too cool. I often feel no one cares anymore. As my tail fluffed, I decided a much needed cleaning had to be done. I gave myself a grooming before looking in the mirror at myself.

"Karkitty is probably bored,". I thought looking at my body in the mirror. Pounce pranced up to me and nuzzles my side. I hugged my Lusis gently thinking of my family and friends. I sighed softly as I got a flashing note from Karkat. "EVERYONE IS FUCKING NEEDED IN MY HIVE NOW! NO FUCKING ACCEPTIONS!"

He usually does this because he's the leader. I loved him, but no one understood me. Equius does, but when he's busy with Aradia, I usually loose my cool. I wasn't going to show up but a flashing Trollian from CT himself said I better go. I replied to him with an alright before pulling the rest of my clothes on.

I did everything for everybody. No one usually repays me for what I do. Pounce looked at me and fixed my trench coat and ebony midnight black hair. I pulled my hat on letting my horns go through the holes as I looked at myself one last time. "Pounce you take great care of me.." I sighed as the cat Lusis purred. It made me smile except the sadness in my heart.

I sat against him gently as he purred. He knew my sadness. "I love you Pounce," I managed as he bumped me with his snout as to tell me 'get a move on. I'll see you when you get back. You have a meeting,' I smiled petting him gently before getting up and leaving. I ran across Alternia to the Hive of a Karkat Vantas. Upon entering, I noticed Gamzee staring at me. I shivered slightly. "Hey my Motherfucking sis," he spoke as I walked past him right into a wall of strength.

My best meowrail Equius Zehhak. He was smiling dumbly because Aradia stood beside him holding his hand. I sighed as he gave me a hand helping me up except cracking my hand in the process. I hissed in pain slightly as he apologized. "Sorry Nepeta.." He spoke stroking my shoulder rhythmically knowing I would furgive him. "Sorry I'm late, I just woke up from a catnap.." I sighed as Terezi followed Tavros in with Vriska and Kanaya. Kanaya looked at me almost sadly.

The highest bloods entered. Feferi and Eridan. Those two have been furiends since they separated. Feferi felt bad fur him and became his meowrail. Lastly entered Sollux who looked like he had fell down a flight of stairs again. The beta kids stood in the back as I noticed Jade Harley who made me shiver slightly. I liked her but wasn't sure if it'd work out on account of her God Tier. She was part dog and me being cat.. It wouldn't work.

John smiled at me before joining Karkat. Dave stood by Terezi and Karkat and Rose just looked nonexistent by the way she glared at everyone. Kanaya sat alone as I moved from my purrfect meowrail and sat by Kanaya. "Hey Kanaya," I smiled slightly. "Oh Nepeta," she said softly petting me behind the horn gently. It got a purr out as I started purring more and more.

"You are a good kitten. Equius hasn't been hanging out with you lately has he?" She asked as I shook my head. "He been busy with his matesprite?" She asked as I nodded. "My moirail has the same problem," Kanaya said as I felt olive tears well in my eyes as she wiped them away gently getting olive green on her purrfectly pale grey hand. "Don't cry Nepeta. It'll be alright," she smiled as I purred softly.

She smiled and we waited fur Karkitty to start his speech. Eridan came to Kanaya as she sighed. "Go away Eridan." I hissed as he sighed. "I wwould Nep, but I have to ask Kan if she wwants to be my matesprite." He grinned as Kanaya looked into his eyes harshly. "No Eridan." She said as he walked away sadly. "ALRIGHT FUCKERS THIS MEETING WAS CALLED UPON JOHN'S STUPID DECISION OF JACK. HE IS ON A RAMPAGE ONCE AGAIN. AND I'D LIKE TO SAY, WE ALL HAVE TO DEFEND EACH OTHER ONCE AGAIN.." Karkat sighed as John nodded standing beside him.

"I say, we can send Pupa!" Vriska volunteered Tavros as he looked at me horrified. "Motherfuckers we all just need to chill, we know Jack has been around, but he's no threat, God Tiered selves should help us again," Gamzee looked at everyone as they calmed down. "Right," they agreed. After an hour the meeting was concluded and I went to Karkat.

"That was very infurmational Karkitty," I spoke softly as he nodded. "WHAT DO YOU WANT NEPETA?" Karkat asked. "You s33med so brave, I'd like to know.. I've liked you fur quite some time.." I stuttered. "Be my matesprite?" I asked falling onto my knees before the Cancer troll. "THAT WAS BRAVE NEPETA.. BUT I AM SEEING SOMEONE RIGHT NOW.." He told me as I felt my heart break in two. "Oh.. Alright.." I said slowly leaving.

That day my heart shattered into a million pieces. No one loved me, so what did I care. As my tail dragged across the grass I heard a crack of thunder in the distance. My tail frizzed as I hissed. I heard a big thud behind me as well. And what was worse was it started to rain. Everyone went home as I noticed in the window of Karkat's hive was him and Terezi and John. Which one was he seeing? I saw John join hands with Vriska and knew I lost to Terezi. (Dave must just be her best meowrail)

The raindrops hit my head as I hissed solemnly. I needed to get to my cave now.