Hukaku Waga Butoukai
I want my own fairytale
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One week later, with one month until the wedding, Sora found himself in a bit of a tight spot.
Roxas was getting more and more edgy. Axel was too, it seemed.
You would think they would be extremely happy that they would soon be getting married.
That didn't seem like the case this evening, when they were all sat around the table.
Axel and the blond ate in silence, making Sora a little nervous himself.
Had something happened? Did they have a fight?
These were questions sure to make the couple upset if he asked.
So instead, Sora glanced at Riku.
The silver-haired teen gave him a sideways glance, shaking his head slightly.
'Yeah, bad idea' His looked said.
Sora sighed, he didn't care...
This was killing him.
He pushed his plate away, standing up.
Roxas looked up at him, "What's wrong Sora?" He asked, looking confused.
Axel glanced up at his fiance before looking to Sora.
"It's you two!" Sora finally let out, giving a groan.
"All day you've been like this! The tension is KILLING me!"
Roxas looked surprised slightly, casting a guilty look at Axel.
The Red-head looked up at the blond, looking interested as well.
"Yeah, Roxy. I really would like to know what's been on your mind."
Roxas bit his lip, looking down at his food.
Sora could see now that his brother had hardly even touched a bite of the pasta Axel made.
Riku stayed silently through all of this, simply watching the others. He wasn't for getting into other peoples business.
Roxas stood up, looking slightly frightened. His hand shook as he picked up his plate and took it to the counter where he left it.
"I-I guess I'm not hungry." He said, shooting everyone what he hoped was a smile. But it looked extremely strained.
As The blond went back to his room, Sora followed behind him, quickly going in after him.
Axel pushed his plate away, holding his head on his hands as his elbows rested on the table.
Riku sighed, "So you really have no clue?" He asked, not looking at the red-head.
Axel shook his head slightly, his voice coming out a bit muffled and gruff.
"..No. He won't tell me. He said it's nothing.....but then why won't he talk to me about it?"
Riku looked up as it sounded as if Axel might start crying.
"Axe-"
Axel shook his head again, forcing a smile as he looked up at the silver-haired teens concerned face.
"I just-...I need a smoke."
With that, Axel got up and headed out side, pulling out his pack of cigarettes and lighter before he even shut the door.
Meanwhile, in Roxas room. -
The blond was leaning his head on Sora's shoulder as the brunette placed his arms around him.
He hated to see his brother torn up about something.
"Rox, what is it? You have to tell me...I'm worried." Sora pleaded slightly, rubbing his brother's back.
Roxas sniffed, wiping a tear from his cheek as he looked up at Sora for a moment.
"I think....I don't know...Sora. What if I can't do this?"
Sora was confused, his face clearly showing it as he held his brother at arms length.
"Can't do what?" He asked with serious eyes.
"...Get married, to Axel."
Roxas said softly, looking down.
"What if I'm not ready to settle down? I mean....oh I don't know...I-"
As more tears gathered in Roxas eyes, the brunette hushed him.
"Look, your just nervous. Cloud said everyone gets pre-wedding jitters..."
Sora said, sighing slightly.
"But you love him, right?"
Roxas nodded, and Sora smiled slightly.
"I know he loves you Rox. He'd do anything for you, and he'll keep you safe."
The brunette chuckled slightly, "If it were anyone else, I'd never trust my brother to them. But I know that Axel would give his life for you, and is more then
willing to share it with you."
Roxas nodded, wiping his tears away and sniffing softly.
"Me too, It's just that...Even though I can't ever see myself with someone else, I'm still not sure."
The blond looked torn between something.
"...What if he changes after we get married? What if he stops loving me, like Mom did Dad..."
Sora looked stern, lifting Roxas chin to look at him.
"Don't you ever, ever compair Axel to that woman. She was hateful, and I'm sure she only wanted Dad to get kids."
Roxas looked almost frighten, but made no move to pull away.
"Axel loves you. If you're unsure of that, ask him yourself."
Roxas still looked slightly unsure as he nodded slowly again.
He looked down once Sora let go of his chin, folding his hands in his lap silently.
With another sniff and a wipe at his cheek, Roxas let out a small breath.
"C-Can you send in Axel?" He asked softly, not looking up as he nibbled at his bottom lip.
Sora smiled softly, "Yeah, Sure thing Rox."
The brunette stood up and cast one last concerned glance down at his brother before leaving the room quietly.
As Sora went back to the kitchen, he was alarmed to see Axel was gone.
"Where did he go?" Sora asked Riku quickly, looking worried.
Riku motioned to the door, "He said he needed a smoke."
The silver-haired teen had started in on the dishes, elbow-deep in dish water.
Sora nodded his thanks quickly as he headed for the door.
He opened the door slowly, peeking outside.
Axel was letting out a long puff of smoke as he leaned on the railing, facing away from the door.
Sora let out a sigh as he exited the apartment. He came to stand silently next to Axel for a moment, until the red-head glanced at him.
Sora could see it in Axel's eyes that the blond was unknowingly hurting him by his actions.
Roxas wasn't the only one that was unsure- and Sora could see that now.
"He wants to talk to you."
Axel took another drag on his cigarette,
"Did he say what I did wrong?"
Sora shook his head stubbornly, "It wasn't anything you did Ax. He's just...a little nervous right now."
Axel scoffed slightly, trying to hide his hurt.
"What is there to be unsure about? I don't get it. If he didn't want to marry me, he shouldn't have said yes."
Though the man tried to keep his tone haughty, it sounded forced, like he was faking being mad.
Sora just sighed as he rubbed the back of his neck.
"Just do us all a favor and go talk to him."
He told him firmly, reaching up and plucking the cigarette from Axel's lips and tossing it over the railing.
Axel tapped his fingers on the rail for a moment before turning and heading back inside without another word.
Sora let out a breath of relief as he followed a few moments later.
Riku was sitting on the couch, the tv on, and a drink in his hand.
Though his face was angled toward the tv, his eyes were off-focus, meaning he wasn't paying the slightest bit of attention to it.
Sora sighed as he came and sat next to his boyfriend, taking the drink from his hand and setting it on the side table as he
made himself at home, half on Riku's lap and he settled in the others arms.
It frightened Sora a bit- what Axel and Roxas were going through.
He didn't want that happening to Riku and him.
Riku sensed Sora slight distress and pulled him closer, rubbing his nose in the brunette's hair slightly.
Sora let out a soft sigh as he leaned back against the warm strong chest, his greatest comfort right now.
The pair stayed that way for a while, waiting for any sign that Axel and Roxas had worked things out...
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Axel knocked softly on the door to their room, his frown causing a small crease on his forehead.
There was no answer. Axel hated the silent treatment- from anyone. But it made it worse when it was from his own fiance.
"Roxy?" He spoke softly, peeking around the door as he opened it slowly.
The Blond was sitting on the bed, eyes glued on his hands that were still mindlessly fumbling in his lap.
There was a slight flush to Roxas' cheeks at the sound of his name, but it wasn't from embarrassment....more like a child caught doing something he shouldn't.
"H-Hey, Axel."
Roxas' blue eyes lifted to meet the red-head's green ones. Axel could see right away that something was bothering him.
Axel made his way to stand infront of the blond, seeming torn between to courses of action.
One, he could bring the blond into a hug, and maybe something else to easy his tension...not likely to help here though-
Or Two, He could simply stand and listen to what Roxas' had to say.
Axel chose the second.
For a few long moments they stayed in uncomfortable silence, neither of them speaking.
For Axel, it was like a long knife, slowly piercing his chest with each passing minute.
-For Roxas, he couldn't quite figure out how to explain his feelings.
Finally the blond couldn't take the horrid silence anymore.
He stood quickly, hardly giving Axel a chance to realize what he was doing, flinging himself against the red-head.
Roxas started to cry softly into Axel's chest as he clung on tightly around the others middle.
Axel's arms instinctively wrapped around the blonds smaller body, nuzzling the younger man's neck and shoulder.
"Roxy...Shhh, It's okay...I'm not mad..."
Axel hated it when Roxas cried. It made him feel horrible knowing it was probably his own fault.
Roxas shook slightly, giving out a small hiccup.
"A-Axie....I'm so sorry...I-I'm not even sure what's wrong...Maybe I'm j-just scared."
With every word Roxas seemed to burry his face further into Axel's chest, until it was as far as could be into the fabric of Axel's shirt.
Making his words muffled- Axel having to strain to understand what he was saying.
Axel caught the last part and shook his head, holding Roxas back a little so as to look at him.
The Blonde's tear stained face made a pang in Axel's heart.
The red-head swallowed hard before he spoke.
"Roxas, I'm scared too. This is all new to me..feeling like this. But I want to be with you. And if you don't want to get married..then-"
At this, Axel paused, watching the blonde's face.
Roxas' eyes were fixed on his, waiting almost breathlessly for the rest of what he had to say.
"Then, I could deal with just having you as my boyfriend....at least I'd still have you, right?"
Axel could feel his throat growing tight as he saw the small smile on his fiance's face.
"Ax...I love you, I DO want to be with you- forever. It's just the thought of really getting married...it's a bit much when I think about it."
Roxas wiped his face with the sleeve of his shirt, sniffing softly.
"C-Could I just think on it for now? I don't want to have to tell everyone when I'm not sure yet..."
Axel nodded slowly, "I'm okay with that, Roxy. What ever you decide, I'll always love you."
At This Roxas clung to him again, the pair holding each other tightly for a few more long moments.
Though it would break Axel's heart if Roxas broke off their engagement, he would do anything to keep Roxas happy.
Even at his own expense.
Roxas was so glad that Axel was understanding- even when he didn't deserve it.
What ever he decided, he knew he would stay with this man.
After all, he needed him. It was like Axel was part of his own being.
But he was only almost 19....he had the rest of his life to live.
Though he couldn't even dream of going out with someone else, he didn't like the feeling of being 'tied down'.
But most of all, he was afraid that Axel would change if they got married.
He had heard about woman or men changing after marriage- for the worse.
After all, his mom had changed after Leon married her, so his dad told him. He told him she used to be a very sweet woman.
So for now, Roxas enjoyed the closeness. Taking in deep breaths of Axel's musky and slightly smoky scent always calmed his nerves.
Helped him to think clearer.
"I love you." He said softly, looking up at Axel with soft, slightly worn out eyes.
Axel managed a small smile. "I love you too, Roxy. Always."
Their lips connected in a sweet brief kiss.
Axel could still see the unsure look in Roxas eyes as the later pulled away slowly from the kiss.
He wished he could make Roxas more sure of this, make him understand that he really would love him forever.
That would never change.
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The next day was saturday- both Riku and Axel's day off.
When Sora came out of his room to get a drink before going back to bed, he saw an arm flung over the back of the couch.
Curious, he went to investigate.
His eyes widened slightly as he came in the small den to see Axel, sprawled out on the couch.
Apparently having slept there all night.
Sora sighed and shook his head as he pulled the blanket back over Axel's still sleeping form.
If the red-head and his brother had really worked things out, Axel wouldn't be out here.
Sora gave a small yawn, knowing better then to try and help out the other couple anymore.
They had to work things out their own way. He just hoped they did.
But Sora had his own things to worry about today.
As soon as Riku woke up, his boyfriend had told him last night, they would be going to see the silver-haired male's parents.
Today they would come out and tell them of their relationship.
A million things were running through Sora's mind as he snuck back into the room, only to groan slightly at the sight of Riku sitting up.
Riku gave a soft laugh as he noticed the brunette's expression.
"Do you really not want to do this?" Riku asked, raising his eyebrows.
Sora knew that no matter what he though, Riku wanted to do this.
He also knew that his boyfriend's parents would find out sooner or later.
It would be better if they heard it from them then someone else.
Sora shrugged, "It's okay. Though you know I would rather wait."
He came to sit on the edge of the bed as he reached for Riku's hand.
Riku nodded, smiling slightly. "Yeah, I know. But it has to be done."
He leaned in and kissed Sora, nibbling lightly on the brunette's lower lip as he did so.
Sora pulled away with a smirk. "Don't go starting something if we're just going to be leaving soon."
Riku laughed again, hugging him. "You're right..." He whispered in Sora's ear teasingly. "We wouldn't want you walking funny when we walk in."
Sora pushed him away and chuckled.
"Just get dressed." He said, poking Riku's nose with a playful wink.
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An hour and a half later, the pair pulled up in the driveway of Riku's old house.
They had known that Riku had moved in with Sora and his brother- though they didn't know of Roxas and Axel's relationship.
Sora had a small smile on his face when Riku took his hand as they walked up to the door.
Riku knocked and the only had to wait a short moment when his mom opened the door.
She had fair skin, much like Riku's, and lightly colored hair. A big smile lit on her face before Riku could even say a word.
She took her son's free hand and used it to pull the pair inside.
"Sephie, dear! Come in here! Your son and his boyfriend are here!"
Sora's face flushed quickly, his heart rate sky-rocketing as he looked to Riku.
Riku looked surprised as His father called out for them to come into the living room.
How his mom had known...other then he and Sora were holding hands, Riku had no idea.
But he gave Sora a smile and a light squeeze of his hand as they followed his mom to the living room, where his dad was waiting in his usual chair.
Sephiroth always had a gallant air about him. It always put Sora a little on edge just to be around the man.
Riku had obviously gotten his fair silver hair from the tall muscular man, but his eyes were from his mom.
Sora gripped Riku's hand tighter as they sat on the couch, Riku's mom sitting in her chair next to his father.
Sephiroth's eyes quickly looked over Sora. Sora did his best to keep his cool, but the man's gaze seemed to pierce right through him.
Riku understood Sora uneasiness, and moved his thumb over the brunettes slightly shaking hand.
Sora calm somewhat right away, giving Riku a thankful smile.
At this, Riku's mom smiled in a moved way, her eyes misting over. "I knew it, It wasn't to hard to see that you two had a special bond from the beginning."
Sora looked at her and smiled, "Yes, Ma'am." He said, nodding.
Riku looked to his dad with a small frown.
"...Dad?"
Sephiroth let out a sigh, "Well, Son." He began slowly, leaning forward in his chair.
Sora's attention quickly moved to the man, nibbling his bottom lip slightly as he listened.
"I knew you would be getting a partner soon- though I had never expected this."
The man's tone didn't sound to please, putting Sora on edge once more.
Would he demand that they split?
Sora made himself sit still as Riku's dad went on.
"I can't say that I'm all for this, Ri...." Sephiroth said, looking to his wife, then back at the boys.
"-But look at them. How could I even think of splitting them up?"
Sora felt his throat grow slightly tight, fighting to keep his emotions in check.
Riku smiled widely, "Dad..." He said, not sure just how to thank him for his understanding.
Sephiroth, not one for emotions, held up a hand as he shook his head.
"No need, Just treat him well, and Sora you do the same. That's the only thanks I need. Now go, get lost."
The man had to try hard to hide the small smirk in the corner of his mouth, but both the boys and Riku's mom were able to spot it.
Though they knew better then to say anything about it.
So Riku and Sora got out, Riku's mom close behind them as they went to the door.
"Now don't stay away, you hear me? Come over when ever you feel the need!"
She told them, smiling widely as she hugged them both in turn.
"And Sora, you can call me mom all you want, Darling."
Sora smiled as the tears welled in his eyes as he hugged her once more.
So this is what it felt like to be excepted.
He only hoped that Axel and Roxas were doing well at home, but that too was pushed from his mind as he and Riku climbed into his truck.
Eager kisses were exchanged, each wanting to get home to celebrate.
Sora and Riku were all smiles as the drove back to the apartment.
I know you are probably thinking, 'I thought this was supposed to be about Roxas and Axel?' 0_o
Yes, it is.
But it's also about Sora and Riku.
Remember, this is the last story, so everyone gets to have the last bit of theirs in it.
I hope you enjoyed it! Please look foreward to the next chapter.
I'll have it up soon as I can.
As Always,
-Sora
