Kiros Razer: I appreciate your compliment. But I'm... eager to see what you'll say about this chapter. Ellis is quite... un-Ellis-like this time.
Well, since this one has gotten much longer than I thought, there'll still be another chapter.
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Deceiving her love
Ellis had been a little anxious the whole day. This night she would do it – she would confront Nadie with her feelings for Ellis. It wasn't really something she was looking forward to... she was a passive girl, she was very comfortable with Nadie being their spokesperson and her relying on Nadie. She enjoyed having someone to rely on. She had been alone for so long. But this time she would be the active one... for Nadie's sake. Even if it would hurt Nadie, at first at least. Ellis knew better than most humans that forcing out some feeling or memory, which another human had hidden deep inside the mind, was a painful process. She had gone through that when trying to remember the death of the professor, and she had prevailed. Because Nadie had been at her side, had given her strength. And now Ellis was feeling better. She really hoped that Nadie would feel better too.
And now they were here. In a hotel room again, for a change. For the whole week they had been sleeping in their jeep. Not that Ellis would mind, she liked watching the stars, feeling a warm breeze on her face... and being alone with Nadie. But tonight she might have to be a little... rough. Nadie was stubborn. She wouldn't give in easily. It was good that there was a soft bed to prevent any injuries. Ellis would hate herself, if she accidently hurt Nadie.
It wasn't a very big bed, since Nadie had asked for a single room with a chair in it, as usual. But it was comfortable, Ellis was already lying in it, staring at the ceiling. And Ellis had checked the key box at the desk, when Nadie had been ordering their room. There seemed to be no one but them on this floor. Good. Ellis didn't want anyone to interrupt their dialogue... it was a very private topic after all. And now she was waiting. Nadie was still in the bathroom. Ellis had been the first one showering. Ellis' heart was beating a little faster than normal. It was nearly time. And then the bathroomdoor opened. Nadie was already in her poncho again, trying to tame her long, messy hair, which was just as stubborn as she was. Ellis had to smile. Nadie looked cute when she was annoyed.
Nadie was mumbling, probably cursing quietly. Then she noticed that Ellis wasn't asleep. „Hey, Ellis, why are you still awake?" she asked her, still trying to defeat her own hair. „Can't you sleep?"
„I was waiting for you" Ellis told her, shifting in her bed. Nadie's eyes followed the move, although just for a second.
„Huh? For me?" Nadie asked her a little absent-mindedly. Then she gave up and moved her hands away from her hair. She sighed and sat down in her chair. „Ah, I'll deal with that tomorrow."
„I wanted to ask you something, Nadie" Ellis announced, not taking her eyes away from Nadie's face. „Something important."
„Well, so shoot", Nadie replied while searching for her blanket.
Ellis swallowed. „Nadie... have you ever been in bed with someone else?" As the other girl froze in place, Ellis corrected herself quickly: „I mean, did you ever ask someone to stay with you until you fell asleep... like your mother... or your father?"
Nadie visibly relaxed. She looked at Ellis, forcing a little smile. „You should be more careful with words, Ellis" she joked. „You scared me for a second." But when she saw the serious expression in Ellis' face, she became serious too. „Yes... when I was little... I sometimes asked my mom to stay with me. Why do you ask?"
Ellis didn't answer. „Did it feel good?" she asked her companion, still looking into Nadie's deep, expressive eyes. Right now Ellis could see confusion there.
„Well... yes" Nadie answered, still not getting what Ellis really wanted to know. „It was a very pleasant feeling... of safety... and love." She took a brace. „Ellis, what do you really wanna know?"
Ellis looked away. She was doing all that to help Nadie... by tricking her first. But she couldn't hinder her own sad childhood memories from awakening again. Maybe... deceiving Nadie like she had in mind would help them both... for a short time... until Ellis would eventually start their talk about Nadie's emotions. And tear open Nadie's festering wound.
„I never had a mother" she said with a nearly neutral voice, mixed with a tiny bit of sadness, while looking out of the window. „I grew up as an experiment... and when the professor realized his feelings for me, I was already too old..."
There. She could feel Nadie's glance on her skin again. But this time it wasn't a longing, caressing glance, but one full of compassion and empathy. This was one of the things, why Ellis loved Nadie so much. It nearly tore her apart that she had to deceive her friend to help her.
„Oh Ellis" Nadie said, sounding sad. Just that, nothing more. She knew, that Ellis knew, that Nadie felt sorry for her. She didn't have to say it. They knew each other well.
Ellis said nothing. It was a long moment. Then she spoke up again. Acting shyly. „Nadie... could you... with me...? Just for tonight?"
There was a silent moment again. Ellis looked at Nadie. There was a strange expression on her face. Not disgusted, but no understanding smile either. More... analyzing. Like if she was willing to do, what Ellis had asked for, but only if Ellis truely needed it... and like she was searching for hints for that. Ellis just looked at her pleadingly. She was very good at doing that.
„You want me to comfort you, Ellis?" Nadie inquired. Her voice was soft, but there was still some doubt in it. „You want me to sleep in your bed... like a mother would do?"
Ellis pulled her knees up to her chest. „Please" she just whispered. She felt bad for doing this, although she knew it was necessary... but the truth was she also WANTED it to happen.
There was a moment of uncertainty, but then Nadie smiled at her. It was done. „Alright" Nadie told her and stood up, approaching the bed. She went into a kneeling position, throwing Ellis a fake stern look. „But only tonight, okay?" she told Ellis. „After all you are no baby anymore. And no singing!"
Ellis grinned briefly. „Yes sir!" she said and made room for Nadie in the bed. She watched Nadie getting rid of her poncho, revealing her slender, athletic and still so womanly body. She had been feeling a little guilty, but now the thought of luring Nadie into her bed was making her more and more... comfortable. Strange. Then Nadie slipped under the covers. Some body parts were a bit cold, especially the wet hair, but Ellis didn't mind. Her body reacted automatically, pulling Nadie into a hug and placing her head on Nadie's chest, closing her eyes and listening to Nadie's heartbeat. Nadie seemed to be a little taken aback because of Ellis'... eagerness, but soon enough she hugged Ellis back. Ellis moaned. It felt so good.
„Feeling better now?" Nadie asked, obviously amused by the moan, lifting her hand and running her fingers through Ellis' hair.
Ellis sighed with pleasure. „Hai" she answered quietly. „I always feel safe when I am around you, Nadie. Just like you felt safe around your mother."
Nadie snorted. „Don't say that" she pleaded. „I'm not your mother, Ellis."
Ellis hugged her a little firmer. The satisfying feeling was leaving her body. She was a bit sad... but it had to be. It was time now. „No" she agreed with Nadie. „No, you are not."
There was another moment of silence between them, with Nadie continuing to ruffle Ellis' hair and Ellis preparing herself for what she had to do. She inhaled Nadie's scent.
„Ellis?" Nadie asked her. „What are you doing?"
„I like your smell, Nadie" Ellis told her. „It's very comforting."
Nadie chuckled. She seemed to be a little bewildered. „You're freaking me out a bit, Ellis" she said. „I bet you're just smelling the shampoo I used."
„No", Ellis denied, lifted her head from Nadie's chest and looked into the other girl's eyes. „I also like your smell, when you are sweaty. I like all things about Nadie."
Nadie let out a small laugh, but as she spoke, her voice sounded too amused to hide her anxiety altogether. „What are you talking about, Ellis?" she asked the blonde girl. „I'm sure you at least like Lirio more than me."
„No" Ellis said again. She ended her embrace and put her hands on Nadie's cheeks. The other girl looked REALLY uneasy now... and yet also... strangely alluring. What an ingriguing feeling! „I like Lirio very much... but Nadie is different. Lirio doesn't have Nadie's aura... Nadie's beautiful aura... which makes her so special for all of my senses."
„Ellis..." Nadie whispered. She looked positively worried now. „Is this... some strange witch-thing?"
Ellis smiled gently, but this only seemed to deepen Nadie's worry. Still Ellis continued to enjoy the feeling of Nadie's skin on her fingers. „Who knows?" she asked serenely.
„Ellis, you are not acting normally" Nadie told her, trying not to sound alarmed. „Please stop that."
Yes, Nadie was right. Ellis had to stop this. She wouldn't reach Nadie that way, the girl was already too scared. Then there was only one more thing she could do. Although she didn't like it. She sighed and moved her hands away from Nadie's face.
„I'm sorry, Nadie" she simply said.
Nadie was nowhere prepared for what happened to her. Ellis grabbed both of Nadie's wrists and firmly pushed them deep into the cushion next to Nadie's head. Then she followed her hands with her body and sat down on Nadie's loins, Ellis' thighs pinning Nadie down effectively. After she had overcome her surprise – and her blush as Ellis touched her loins –, Nadie began to squirm. But it was no use. Had she forgotten that Ellis was a witch? That she could use her powers to gain great strength... strength like L.A., only without his restrictions?
„Ellis!" Nadie cursed. „What are you doing? Release me, immediately!" Then she finally noticed that Ellis' face was VERY close to her own face now, that Ellis' breasts were brushing against Nadie's each time one of the girls was breathing, that Ellis' arms were touching Nadie's, her hands still maintaining her iron grip around Nadie's wrists. Ellis could see the fear in Nadie's eyes. She was quite sure that the other girl couldn't understand the expression in Ellis' own eyes... sadness, determinition, a little hope and... even... excitement. Which Ellis didn't fully understand herself. But it didn't matter. Somehow Nadie's smell had... intensified, causing Ellis to breathe harder. Still she felt a little lightheaded. She saw how her breath caused Nadie to shiver, when it reached the girl's skin.
„Ellis" Nadie whispered, barely hearable, frozen in terror. „What...?"
„Nadie" Ellis breathed. Nadie was helpless. In Ellis' control. It should sadden Ellis to see a strong girl like Nadie in this position... and it somehow did. And yet... Nadie was also looking so... tempting... „Nadie... we need to talk."
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Uuuuuh... doesn't Ellis sound a little bit too cough excited? She won't rape Nadie, I swear, but still... do you think she is too OOC?
