A/N: I've started something new with this story. I wrote the entire thing before hand, but now I'm going through and editing it, fleshing it out. But anyways, don't expect this story to get past three chapters, if it does, then it surprises me because I only originally wrote three entries, but at how the first entry turned out, I'm willing to add one or two more, maybe.
And to one of my reviewers, thank you for that little review telling me about Rey. Anyways, since Rey's true age is unknown, you let me have my way with it as this is my story, and I'll just continue writing this because I don't want to have to go back and rewrite all of it, we'll just say that he appears seventeen, okay?
And just so you guys all know, I am Hawk Chic, I just changed my pen name, alright?
Disclaimer: I don't own Meer Campbell or Rey Za Burrel. This story idea is mine though, and any elements that do not appear in the show/manga are also mine.
Entry Two: Dreams of Something
I may be a bit of a hypocrite, for having dreams of my own when I'm supposed to be someone else; especially when I tell someone else off for believing that they don't deserve to have dreams. But I couldn't help it; he deserves a dream, no matter what he says.
"Meer, it's a way to prevent war. That way, no one will ever have to fight again," Rey assured me; I still wasn't convinced. This conversation and subsequent events happened maybe a month after what I wrote about in my previous entry. "It's… it's all I really can do now. I don't have much time left Meer; I want you to be happy."
"Rey that's ridiculous! You're not going anywhere… are you?" I looked up at him, fear evident in my eyes; he gave me this sad troubled look. He looked racked by some internal strife; finally he relented to my pleading eyes.
He explained to me; he explained everything to me. His being a clone, his relation to Durandul and Klueze, his hatred for Kira Yamato; everything about him that he had told no one else. I listened with wide eyes and a stunned expression.
When he concluded, he looked at me with a scrutinizing eye, then his shoulders slumped; he seemed to deflate before my eyes. Fearful, I crawled over beside him and reached out to touch his shoulder comfortingly. He tensed at the hesitant touch, but then relaxed.
"It's alright Rey…" I responded quietly. "… just cry if you need to, I'll be here. I'm going to be there for you no matter what." He slumped against my chest and just started to cry. I held him for what felt like hours until his tears stopped.
He wiped his eyes and sat up, "I'm sorry for breaking down like that Meer." The ever professional soldier that he was was back once more; his shield and defenses up.
I shook my head, "There's no need to be sorry! We all need to talk to someone about what's going on in our lives, no matter how bad things get." I placed my hand comfortingly over his and gave it a reassuring squeeze. "But even if we don't have much of a future, that doesn't mean we should just give up."
"What?"
I smiled at him, "I might be a hypocrite for talking about dreams when I am masquerading as Lacus-san, but I believe that we each should have a dream of something. That way, no matter what happens we always have something that we can look to as a light. That's what being human is about; having dreams."
Rey looked at me as he laced our fingers together and returned the squeeze, "Even I am entitled to having a dream?"
"Of course!" I nodded. "Everyone deserves to have one; whether they are big or small; a dream is a dream; it gives us a purpose to live by."
He leaned his head on my shoulder for a minute, then, "I think… I have a dream…"
"Care to share it?"
He smiled, "I want… a world where you'll be safe and where you can be Meer."
I giggled, "My dream is similar, but you're in there too! I want a world where you and I can be together…" I froze just as soon as the words left my mouth. I slapped my hands over my mouth, shocked at how my statement must have sounded. But deep down, I knew it was true. I just wasn't sure if I could admit it. At least, not yet.
He watched me. It was difficult having those beautiful azure eyes closely examining my face, it was maybe a tad unnerving, but I found that it evoked something strange within me; something that I had never felt before.
After several minutes of this silent examination, my own eyes never leaving his face, he seemed to have found whatever it was that he had been looking for. He smiled brightly, which caused my face to redden slightly.
"What is it Rey?"
"You're being honest with me, I can tell. You're a terrible liar Meer," he poked my forehead gently; I stuck my tongue out at him teasingly.
"So what if I'm a terrible liar? I think that makes me a better person, don't you?"
"Well, yes. I think it makes you a better person overall, but I believe that may not be the best thing in some situations; in fact, it may put you in more danger."
I looked up at him, "What do you mean? Put me in more danger, how?"
"As unlikely as this is, you may be kidnapped and revealed as a fake," he frowned. "The most likely course of action after that would be to either kill you, or use you as bait."
I shook my head wildly, "I don't want to be used as bait! I don't want more people to die because of me… I don't want anyone to die…"
Gently, he pulled me into a hug, "It's alright Meer, it's alright…"
I rested my head against his chest, letting the tears fall, "I'm… I'm just so afraid that I'll lose you. That I'll lose you and everyone else I've come to care about… I feel so useless! I just want this war over and done with! I'm tired of having to pretend to be someone else! I keep feeling that I am Lacus, that I'm not Meer, whenever I leave you. I don't feel like myself."
"Just remember that you are Meer, and that nothing will change that. This war will end, that I promise you."
Straining my neck to look at him, "You really mean that?"
"Since when have I lied to you?"
A small smile broke onto my face, "You haven't. But still, answer the question."
"Yes, I really mean that."
Using his shoulders, I pulled myself up so that our faces were a scant distance apart, I whispered against his lips, "I love you Rey."
Then my lips crashed down onto his.
Meer.
Alright, I know that this entry might seem a little rushed, but I felt really bad about abandoning you guys like that for so long, so I finally managed to get this entry up (I had so much editing to do, the original second entry was extremely short and had a multitude of spelling and grammer errors).
So I'm expecting some reviews for this story. It's almost finished, can you believe that? At this rate though, I highly doubt that it will be the original three chapters that I wrote, but I've decided to break them up more, the third (and final entry that I wrote originally), is extremely long and covers a lot, so I'm breaking it up into a few chapters, but this story is coming to a conclusion once I get back into the swing of updating more regularly.
It's summer, which means that I do have more time on my hands, but I have a life you know, and other stories that need updating and work on. Plus, I've already started working on a Christmas present for you all! So I need some prompts and ideas. It's Gundam SEED Destiny, you can pick any prompt or idea, but it has to do with Christmas in some way, okay? If I like it enough, then I'll right it and the one who submitted it will have that one-shot dedicated to them.
Kat.
