Darren is lying in his bed. He knows that he is behaving like a small kid, but he really doesn't know how to react. He used to trust in Mia, why has she done this to them? Or better, how did she dare to do this to him? Years ago she said that she loved him and now she is telling his secrets. Now he has one thing clear. A thing that he would have long time ago, he won't trust on her anymore. He won't talk with her or respond his emails. He will cut with her at all. He feels tears down his cheeks. But not tears of sadness because that drastic decision about cutting at all with his supposed 'friend', there are tears of rage for knowing that he has been a fool thinking he could trust with the world.
He stays like that for a while, until he listens the door of his flat and somebody closing. Maybe Chris and Harry have gone. Better, that way they won't to see him like that.
But he is wrong, cause after a minute somebody knocks the door of his room. Who would be? Chris or Harry? He supposes that is Harry and starts talking mad and yelling.
"Harry. Now is not the best moment to talk! Please go away before I say you anything bad!"
"It's me Dare"
"Oh… Sorry Chris, I didn't want to shout you"
"Hope so. Can I come?"
"No… I mean, I don't want you to see me that way…"
"Why? Are you naked and having fun without me Darren?"
Darren makes a little laugh and Chris smiles when sees that he has made him laugh.
"I'm completely dressed"
"What a shame…"
"I only don't want you to see my face. I look horrible"
"Really? Worse than the day we did a Disney movies marathon?"
Darren smiles and tries to talk as if he was insulted.
"That's a low blow Colfer! 'Bambi' and 'The lion king' are so sad!"
"You were crying before the movie started!"
"Because I knew what would happen next!"
This time Chris laughs and makes a sigh of resignation by the stubbornness of his boyfriend.
"So… Can I come? Please?"
Darren doesn't response and Chris takes that silence as a yes. He opens slowly the door and looks to Darren. Darren is lying face down on his bed. He can't see his face cause he is looking to the other side. Chris smiles at seeing how small and fragile looks Darren at that moment, and knowing he is the only one who can make him smile.
He closes the door without making noise because he isn't sure if Darren knows that he is coming. He takes his shoes off and goes to the side of the bed that Darren is looking at. He lies next to him to look at his eyes.
He sees that Darren is looking at him with red eyes.
That image breaks Chris heart. He caresses Darren cheek and whispers.
"Hello baby"
"Hey…"
"Are you okay?"
Darren shakes his head and tears start to fell down again his cheek. Chris takes Darren' glasses out and put them in the nightstand. He takes Darren' hand and squeezes it while he approximates a little, and kisses Darren' cheek. He feels the salty tears and he kisses him down to his lips. He kisses Darren softly trying to transmit all his love and that everything is going to be okay. Darren responses his kiss sweetly. He can't be more thankful to have Chris next to him.
When Chris sees that Darren has stopped crying he separates and look at him with a smile. Darren responses Chris with a little but warm smile.
Chris takes one of his curls between his fingers and starts to play with it.
"Do you want to talk Dare?"
"Sure…"
"Why are you so upset honey?"
"Cause it isn't fair Chris! Next month we'll comply one year and a half and I can't say the world how much in love I am. I want to go to one of your books singings and scream 'Yeah! That's my boyfriend and I couldn't be more proud of him! And I love him'"
"Darren that's…"
"And you know what makes me more anger? That we have only told to two persons. And none of those have congratulated us or something. And I'm trying, but I can't understand why Harry wants us to hide more time…"
"I understand him Darren. I'm sure our fans would support and love us. I'm crazy about the idea of going on the street holding your hand, going dinner and kissing you in front of thousands of cameras"
Darren squeezes Chris hand knowing that the sad part comes now.
"But the world is so cruel out there. Darren, you're now reaching the top of fame, and telling the world you're gay will close you a lot of doors"
"I don't care about fame, I care about you Chris! Why can Lea and Cory go by the hand in red carpets, and us only exchange looks?"
"Cause world isn't prepared for gays yet"
Darren looks at Chris with bright eyes "Let's change that then! Let's show the world that love is love, and that they are all a bunch of hypocrites! "
"I love you so much Darren. But think about it, would you risk your career for me?"
"Yes! Totally yes! Where I have to sign to go to a restaurant in a date with you? I prefer that, that a lot of movies taking me time of being with you"
Chris laughs and gives a little kiss to Darren. "I don't worth so much Dare"
"Yes…"
"Just let me talk. You, are going to reach the top. You're going to be the top. And I won't stop you. We're going to be together of course, but by now only for us. In some months we're going to tell to our families and friends. And next year ,that I'm sure that you will be in the top, to the world, okay?"
"You're going to reach the top with me honey"
"I hope so"
Darren looks to him with sad eyes. "I love you Chris. A lot. And I really appreciate what you're going to do for me."
"I know"
Darren makes a sigh. "You win. We're going to hide a little more. It isn't fair, but we'll do it. Just promise me one thing"
"Tell me"
"Sometime we'll think that it so much pressure to withstand. Sometime we'll want to break everything and leave it all behind us. But please, never leave me alone Chris. I need you"
"I will be with you until the end Darren. I don't need to promise that"
Chris rolls Darren and put himself above him. He gives a warm and long kiss to Darren. Then he starts to kiss Darren' cheek up to his earlobe. He gives a little bite in his ear and Darren makes a gasp. Chris smiles and starts to whisper in Darren' ear with seductive voice.
"You know what are we going to do now?"
"Call Harry and ask him to come to talk?"
"Cold Darren. So cold" He put his hands under Darren skirt and starts to caress his abs. "You and I we'll have wild sex right now. We're going to finish so dirty"
Darren pushes his hips against Chris ablaze about the idea, and ready to start but Chris hasn't finished talking.
"Then, I'm going to ask you if I can take a shower because I'm going to be so sweat and dirty. You're going to tell me yes, still without breath because I'm going to fuck you so hard that you'll need a few days to recover, and then you'll follow me to the shower"
"Oh my God Chris…"
"In the shower, we'll going to have sex again. But this time you will be inside me. We're going to scream until the police come to shut us up" Chris looks funny to his boyfriend who's with the eyes closed holding his desires to take off Chris eyes. "Are you excited about the idea Darren? Do you want to feel me inside you?"
"Yes Chris… I need you, now!"
Now that Chris knows that he has Darren under control he says "Okay, and after shower we're going to call to our publicists and talk with them, right?"
Chris lows a hand and squeezes the lump that is going bigger and bigger in Darren's pants. Darren moans and says brokenly.
"Whatever you want Chris… I'm yours, totally yours. You command"
Chris squeezes his hand again and smile when he sees Darren pleasure face.
"Of course you're mine. And today I'll command. Are you sure you're ready for what I'm going to do to you?"
