A/n: so this is another chapter this might not be that good but i hope u all like it and Raphael is important for the story


Chapter- 2 Raphael

You do realize

You've been in my heart

For a very long time

It doesn't matter

Even if your shattered

Your beauty are in those

Shattered pieces

That I picked

To make you

Once again feel

What's wrong what's right

It isn't you who is wrong

It's the world who

Doesn't understand

Don't worry

I do see how dark

You can be

The bitter parts of you

Is the sweetest to me

I'll fix them one day

That's a promise I'll keep babe

The sadness in you

Even if it wasn't

Seen in your smile

But I know it still there

Your eyes

You know they really betray you babe

But don't worry I'm here now

I'll wipe that smile off your face

I'll ignite something so deep inside

I know I'll make you smile

For real this time

Don't forget

You are not the only

One who wants me babe

I want you just as much as you crave

But I'll not say

You were not the one who was saved

The truth is a little twisted babe

You were the one who saved me babe

I get off of the cab and hand the driver money letting him keep the change and wander around, it's New Years Eve today and everyone has someone they are with, I let my eyes wander off to my surrounding there's couples everywhere, small families, laughing enjoying and just being happy with each other's presence, I feel a twinge of jealousy ignite in me and I look away in distaste, I see a kid looking all alone in this cold weather leaning against a dirty looking building, looking at everything around him, the same couples and families with the same hate and distaste as I feel, he is around year fifteen or sixteen of age, I come near him, and observe him more carefully, he has tattered clothes on his body barely managing to keep him warm, he has curly black hair and black eyes with thin eyebrows and his skin is honey colored, he looks Mexican with a thin body structure it might have been a little muscular if he didn't look so starved, he looks up to me with the same hate and I grin darkly.

"And who might you be?" I ask.

He glares at me in hate and spat with so much venom that I should have winced but I grinned "who the fuck are you?"

I leaned back right next to him and looked at him grinning darkly "I'm you"

He tilts his head to the side and examines me, a glare and an angry frown still present on his face "what do you mean? Are you high mister?" he snarls

I smirk and lean more to the wall and close my eyes "nah I'm not high kid. I'm just barely sane"

I open my eyes looking at the dark sky as dark as my soul and glance at the kid and see him eye me curiously "you know I don't bite, name's Alec. Who might you be kid?"

The apparent kid glared at me with more hatred but I could see he found it amusing, I've been always good at reading people he wasn't hard but not exactly easy to read either.

"Why do you want to know my name?" he says this time with a calm face but his bitterness and hate still ever so present in his eyes.

I shrug "don't know" I say and close my eyes leaning against the wall.

"Raphael"

I open my eyes and look at the source of the voice and see the kid leaning against the wall with his eyes closed "Raphael" I smirk. "Do you want to survive in this world?" I look at him and see him already looking at me with a serious face.

"Yes" he slowly says after a while, biting his lips in unease. I smirk.

I push myself off the wall and take some steps before turning back and looking at Raphael. "Come with me" he looks puzzled and is indecisive, I smirk "you don't have anywhere else to go right. You'll die here in this cold anyway so what's it got to give come with me" I say this with eerily seriousness in my eyes.

Raphael looks at me for a minute, the words finally registering and he begin following me although the indecisiveness is still present. I smirk and we walk silently in a comfortable silence, when we arrive at our destination I look at Raphael and see him raise an eyebrow at me.

"You brought me to the most expensive restaurant. What are you planning? feed me and kill me and eat me like a pig" he says in monotone voice.

I bark out laughing shaking my head "nah I couldn't eat you. I don't do cannibalism... yet. So what's use of doing that" I ask and walk inside the restaurant, the door man held the door for me and I stop seeing as Raphael hasn't still moved an inch "now come on the door man will not be holding the door for you all night" Raphael breaks from the trance he was in and follows me inside, the door man looks at him in disgust and I glare at him in hate making him drop his gaze, Raphael doesn't seem to saw our little exchange though as he is busy observing the restaurant in awe.

We come across an attendee and she eyes Raphael with the same disgust as the door man "sir might I ask do you actually have a table here?" she says with clear distrust in her voice. Raphael flinches as she gives him an disgusted look, I smirk.

"Nope" after hearing my answer she glares at me and Raphael, who is looking at me annoyingly.

"Then I have to say to get out from here before I call the guards. I don't know why people like you bother coming here. Disgusting people" she says and gestures for us to get out, I smirk and tilt my head.

I eye her name tag it reads Megan and I smirk more "well Megan I don't seem to have a table but I do seem to own the restaurant" after hearing this her glare disappear and alarm rises in her features, she looks frantic but still not believing.

"Are you Mr. Lightwood?" she asks her eyes begging me to say no but I know she recognized me; I just smirk and nod at her misery.

"Yes that would be me Alec Lightwood" I say motioning Raphael who looks shocked to say the least forward "now can we have a table" I say tilting my head and smiling innocently. Raphael snickers who appears to be out of his trance now. I grin at him, he grins back. Megan now looks downright near crying, she is frantically putting her blonde hair behind her ears and trembling slightly.

"I-I'm s-sorry M- Mr. Lightwood" she stuttered on verge of tears, I looked back at Raphael and said "So what do you say Raphael?"

He looked up at me "don't know, she was quite rude" he shrugged grinning.

"Yeah I think so too" I said tapping my chin as if thinking.

"No no please I'm so sorry Mr. Lightwood" she said begging.

I looked at Raphael and back at the waitress "well don't say sorry to me apologize to Raphael then we may let you go"

The waitress began to apologize frenetically to Raphael and Raphael looked uncomfortable but still grinned after that Raphael and me were led to the most lavish tables for two, which suspiciously looks like a couples table. It was a big enough table with red silken table cloth which had black lace in its edges, it was decorated with red, pink, blue and white roses petals and roses which were put together in a bowl with gold design, it had a diamond chandelier hanging above the table, and golden-silver and diamond candle stand on it, which held maroon colored lavender scented candles.

I look at the attendee who coincidently was not Megan and groaned "seriously do I look a pedophile to you?"

Raphael laughed disguising it with a cough and looked away so I'll not see his grinning face, the new attendee whose name was George, looked terrified and was shooting both me and Raphael pleading looks, "but aren't you two...?" he stutters out, looking between the two of us.

I groaned and shook my head and look at Raphael who is looking like is having a seizure from controlling his laughter,

"W-well if you want a honeymoon suite we can also arrange that" the attendee says with a confident nod, I groan once and face palm myself and look at Raphael who is on his knees holding his stomach laughing.

"Go go before I kill you" I growl at the attendee with a glare and he scrambles off in a sprint "and send someone else" I call out to him.

I look at Raphael and he looks up at me from his place on the ground and he burst out laughing again, I glare at him and sigh and take a seat on the chair, Raphael after a while composes himself and gets up from the floor and takes a place on the chair opposite of me.

"Okay that was totally the highlight of the week" Raphael says after a moment of silence.

"I liked the glaring you better than this" I shot back glaring at him.

Raphael bit his lips from keeping himself from smiling, I just shook my head at him a small smile tuck on my lips as well, it's very hard to make me smile for real I'm always bitter but I guess so is Raphael so we connect there I guess. Another attendee came to take our orders bringing champagne to us, when he went to pour Raphael champagne in his wine glass, Raphael grinned and I glared at him

"Nope don't pour him any" I said to the attendee

Raphael glared at me "why?" he whined.

"You are underage. Nope you are not getting any" I said glaring back at him.

He huffed and folded his arms against his chest like a child. I shook my head at his antics and gave my order to the attendee which was Steak Diane after looking at the menu and Raphael did the same ordering Coq au Vin and the attendee went away to get our orders after he went away I rose an eyebrow at Raphael in question

"What?" he asked annoyed by my look.

"How the hell do you know what Coq au Vin is?" I asked in surprise.

"My mom was a cook she used to make a lot of new dishes to us" he said shrugging as if it was not a big deal to know Classic French dish but I still managed to catch a glimpse of sadness in his eyes and guilt it was very little almost non existence but still there and I caught it.

"Hmm so how did you end up on streets?" I asked interested and letting go of the previous topic and taking a sip of my champagne.

Raphael shrugged again "how everyone else does" he said again faking unconcerned but I still caught a slight glimpse of uneasiness in his feature, his shoulder were a little tense and I saw a slight tensing of the jaw that were not visible to normal people.

After that I didn't ask anything to not to make everything anymore uncomfortable than it already was, a heavy atmosphere of silence fell over us in which I sipped my wine and Raphael fidgety sipped his root beer which he ordered after I rejected him from taking the wine. The silence was though soon broken by Raphael who looked he could be anywhere but here.

"So you are a lightwood?" he asked.

"Indeed I am" I answered nodding.

Raphael looked seemed to be having an internal battle than gave a sigh and asked "why are you doing this?"

I looked from my glass and asked "doing what?"

Raphael frowned then glared at me "THIS" he screamed angrily at me standing up gesturing to the table and the restaurant "why are you getting me dinner. Don't tell me you really are a pedophile"

I looked at him and frowned "for fucking nth time I'm not a fucking pedophile. I don't do kids" I said with a seriously annoyed face.

Raphael looked at me and sat back down with a huff and crossed his arms over his chest "so why are you doing this?" he asked again calmer this time.

I leaned in my comfy seat and looked up to the chandelier, the diamonds was of brilliant green color shining bright when the light fell on them they looked like twinkling green stars only they were on earth hanging from a ceiling and... Green, the green color however reminded me of the man in the alley, his eyes were the same green color but I'm sure they were brighter and twinkling more than these diamonds are, that was the first time I had seen such beautiful eyes in my life I had seen many beautiful people but none of them had those kind of eyes or can even be compared to those eyes, those cat like eyes they were so vivid, the emotion inside those eyes were the most difficult to read, I've never seen anyone in my life which can hide their emotion as good as that man, the first thing I thought about the man was how well guarded he was, he was a puzzle, a puzzle I can't solve.

I groan why am I thinking of him? I shake my head to get rid of his thoughts. I look at Raphael who is still waiting for my answer I sit straight looking at the death serious black eyes of his with my own blue one.

"To tell you the truth I really don't know. Maybe it's one of those time in a guys life when he does something without thinking" Raphael frowns but I continue "or maybe it's because I see dark in you" this catches his interest and he eyes me expectantly to continue but I don't do so and he frowns at that almost agitated.

Raphael sighed again and said "What do you mean by that?"

I smirked at him and replied "I meant exactly what I said, I see the dark in you, the hatred, the bitterness I see it all"

Raphael seems to be taking my word in and then he asks "it still doesn't explain why you did all this"

I took a sip from my champagne and say while looking into his eyes "indeed it doesn't. The reason I helped you doesn't really matter now does it? All that matters is I helped you and will help you"

Raphael looks sharply at me and says in as sharp voice as his gaze "it might not matter to you, you might bring many street rat like me with you in the name of saving but it matter to me why you do this. I want to know"

I heave a sigh already knowing this was going to happen "cause I am just like you maybe I'm saving you for myself" I say and leave it at that.

After that there are no words exchanged between me and Raphael, both of us sat there eating our meals and in our thoughts, I know Raphael is contemplating my words trying to find the answer to the riddle, I let him be and wonder in my own thoughts, I think of Jem and wonder if he is safe, I come to a decision of calling Jem after I drop Raphael. After finishing our meal I pay the bill and I make my way out of the restaurant, Raphael following close behind, after walking for a while we come to a stop in front of a building a huge yet old building. I ring the bell and after waiting for five minutes the door opens revealing a plump yet old aged woman with white hair and wrinkled face wearing a yellow shirt and black pants above the shirt she was sweater and a shawl.

"Ah. Alec it's so nice to see you. Is Jem with you?" the old woman says in a warm voice as she looks around to find Jem but doesn't spot him, rather than him she spots Raphael who was trying to hide behind me, she gives me a curious yet questioning glance.

"Mrs. Thomson it's nice to see you too" I say in a firm voice and shove Raphael in front of me.

"This is Raphael and I would like you to take care of him" I complete as Raphael looks at me weirdly and Mrs. Thomson chuckles and says

"My My you are still a man of few words" she gestures us inside and we make our inside the living which gave off a homey feeling, it was a big enough room which had big brown leather couches in between the room and same brown colored love seats, a huge fire place in the right side of the couches and a TV in front of the couches and many more homey stuff.

"This place sure hasn't changed" I comment off handedly.

"Yes my dear it hasn't. Now keep your voice down the kids are sleeping" she chides as she leaves us in the living and enters the kitchen.

After she leaves I sit down on the couch and Raphael sits on one of the love seats.

"Why are we here and where is this?" Raphael asks fidgeting slightly on his spot.

I regard him with a cool gaze, a smirk on my face and answer him "This is an orphanage which is ran by me and a friend of mine who was brought up here"

After getting this information Raphael's glare got spat and he spat at me with hate "So why am I here? I thought you were gonna save me not bring me to a place like this" he said gesturing to the place

I lean more against the couch and sigh "Raphael I don't what kind of things you heard about a orphanage but this is not that kind of place..." but before I can continue Raphael cuts me off

"Oh no I have not heard about an orphanage I have been in one and I don't want to be in one again" he spats with hate.

I sat straighter and look intimidating that even Raphael shuts up and looks at me with slight fear "listen Raphael this is not that kind of place this is run by me and my friend who once used to live here and now he is studying to be a doctor so if you want to be something in life you have to be here and show the world who you can be, show all those stupid people you are above them, crush those who comes in your way and if you want that I will provide you with it" I complete my speech looking directly into his eyes.

"You will?" he says looking back at me.

I smirk leaning back against the couch and say "I will"

After that Mrs. Thomson returns with two steaming hot chocolates and place one in front of me and Raphael.

"So Alec mind explaining what you meant earlier?" Mrs. Thomson asks me sipping her tea.

"I meant what I said I want you to take him in" I say sipping my own hot chocolate.

She sighs "alright it's already late and you don't seem to be answering any of my question. I will just contact jem tomorrow morning" she says to me with a shake of her head "and you sweetie...?"

"It's Raphael" Raphael provides

"Raphael sweetie I will show you your room and talk to you tomorrow about everything" she says to Raphael who nods in answer. "And you stay here" she says to me. She went upstairs to show him and I take that as my cue to go.

I make my way outside and hail a cab to my house, I don't want to go but I have to, it's my prison that I have to live in no matter it's only for a while when I take over the whole company I wouldn't have to suffer like this anymore, I will ruin that man.

The car stops some block down my house and I hand him over the cash making my way to my house but I remember I have to call jem so I dial his number and let the phone ring, after the third ring he picks up

"Hello Alec" Jem asks in more of a question.

"Yes it's me Jem" I reply walking slowly to my house.

"Hey I thought you were angry" Jem says with a sad tone.

I smile and say "I couldn't possibly be angry on you Jem" I say as I turn down the street.

Jem laughs and says "what got you in such a good Mr. Lightwood?"

"Well Mr. Carstairs that's why I have ringed you up" I say quickening my pace.

"Oh my his highness Mr. Lightwood has himself ringed this lowly servant of his" he said teasingly

I laugh out loud and say teasingly "well you are right I'm not sure that such a lowly servant can do what ask for him to do"

Jem huffs from the other side of the phone and says in a sharp voice "shut up there is nothing I can't do"

I laugh again amused "yes I know Jem that's why I called you. So there is this kid I found on my way. He is an orphan can you take him in the orphanage?" I state rather asked.

"Sure" replies jem "I will go into paperwork from tomorrow onwards"

I smile and see my house is close by "ok thank you Jem good night" I say

"Good night Alec" replies and I imagine him smiling and cuts the phone and was about to keep it in my pocket when I feel a sharp pain on my head and hazily turns too unfocused to actually see anything other than green swirls and then everything went black.

Jem.

Take me away

This place is not

For me to stay.

I'm scared here

This fear is too much

For me to Dominate.

Alone .

I don't want to be that again.

As much as power as you need

I'll grant you mine if you must

Have it your way.

Hardship will come and go

But please don't let me go.

Scared I've always been

But let me just

Remember our good times

Where we were nothing but

Our shattered identity

Of our past lives

But I know we'll come out of

Our shells one day

Hurricane.

You are that to me

Destroy me whole

Don't let the inner me take its toll

Don't let anything be left at all

But also remember

To build me afresh

With an extra inch of happiness you can get.


so review if you liked it and remember Alec might have feelings for Jem