There were two songs left for Ciel to sing, both centered around his kidnapping as a child, he didn't know why he felt the need to ask Sebastian to come watch him sing, but, this love he felt.. could he be falling for the raven haired man? It didn't matter, all he really knew was that he wanted Sebastian to know all about him, even though most people thought they were just songs, they weren't. They were stories he told to tell the world the truth about himself, looking down at Sebastian he knew, in his heart, that the crimson eyed male watching him understood.
He sucked in a breath and grabbing the microphone, he motioned to the band and the music filled the room.
"Oh!
2, 3, 4
Helpless,
My eyes are bleeding from the fear that's inside,
You sealed your demise when you took what was mine,
Don't try to stop me from avenging this world,
No voice to be heard
Waking The Demon,
Where'd ya run to?
Walking in shadows,
Watch the blood flow,
There's not much longer, so don't try and fight,
Your bodies weakening, Walk to the light,
Those painful times so alone so ashamed,
I'm not coming back there's nothing to gain
Caution,
There's just no limits to the boundaries you push
I warned you but still you just f**k with my mind,
There's no escape from this rage that I feel,
Nothing is real,
Sebastian watched his angel with half lidded eyes, his anger rising slowly thinking about all the pain he must have lived through for all this rage to be so obvious in his small, shaking, frame.
Waking The Demon,
Where'd ya run to?
Walking in shadows,
Watch the blood flow,
There's not much longer, so don't try and fight,
Your bodies weakening, Walk to the light,
Those painful times so alone so ashamed,
I'm not coming back there's nothing to gain
Ciel lowered his voice like a demon for the verse. His rage pushing him past his limits.
Breathe for me
Don't wake me from this slumber.
Stay With me
Possession taking over
Whoa!
Tread!
(Demon Voice)
Breathe for me
Don't wake me from this slumber.
Stay With me
Possession taking over
He screamed out with anger the final line.
Waking The Demon!"
One last song, one last moment to let his heart feel the rage that he bottled up inside. This song was the first one he'd written in his career, it melded his love of classical, metal, and jazz. It was his promise of vengeance and life.
"Dirty little secret
Dirty little lies
Say your prayers
And comb your hair
Save your soul tonight
Bile built up in Ciel's throat, cold, clammy, fingers gripped his flesh all over. He could still feel the disgusting breath of his captors ghosting on his back as they took his body for their sick pleasures.
Drift among the faithful
Bury your desires
Aborations fill your head
You need a place to hide
And I am
Sebastian's fists clenched furiously, as soon as the song ended he would rush back stage and embrace Ciel, and to the devil if Ciel didn't want to hug him back. He would show the boy that he wasn't alone anymore.
Do you remember me?
The kid I used to be
Do you remember me?
When your world comes
Crashing down I want to relive
(Good God he's looking down on me)
I'm not Jesus, Jesus wasn't there
You confess it all away but it's only shit to me
(Good god he's looking down on me)
I'm not Jesus I will not forgive
No I won't
No I won't
I thought you were a good man
I thought you talked to god
You hippocratic, messianic
Child abusing, turn satanic
Images of the white haired, masked bastards flitted through Ciel's mind, mocking him.
Do you remember me?
Do you remember me?
The kid I used to be
Do you remember?
Do you remember?
When your whole world comes undone
Let me be the one to say
I'm not Jesus you can't run away
And the innocence you spoiled
Found a way to live
(Good God he's looking down on me)
I'm not Jesus I will not forgive
I will not forgive
I want whatever you wanted
I will not forgive
I won't be whatever you wanted
Do you remember me
The kid I used to be
Not the same as I used to be
Oh do you remember me?
Noo
When your world comes
Crashing down I want to be there
(Good God he's looking down on me)
I'm not Jesus, Jesus wasn't there
You confess it all away but its only shit to me
(Good God he's looking down on me)
I'm not Jesus I will not
I'm not Jesus I will not forgive
Ohh, I will not forgive yeah, yeah
No I will not forgive"
Ciel walked off stage, throwing the microphone on the floor in revulsion. The band stayed behind to sign autographs but, Ciel wanted to get as far away from the stage as soon as possible. Sebastian followed the boy silently and, just before Ciel reached the guards outside the dressing room, placed a hand upon the boy's shoulder and turned him around so he could look him in the eyes. Ciel looked up at those crimson eyes and did the only thing he could when he felt those strong arms embrace him, he let himself go and hugged back, his small body shaking.
"I will always be here for you Ciel, no matter what." The raven promised, stroking the boys hair gently. Small hands tightened on his jacket and an even smaller voice called out to him.
"Promise?"
"I promise, my little angel."
