A/N : Short insight into why Nick..ya know, pesters Renard. I wrote this in this middle of the night cuz I can't sleep. This is unbetaed. So, I apologise if there's any glaring err in the story.
Why the Grimm pesters his Half Blooded Royal
Nick liked his captain. Nick liked his captain a lot.
He first looked up to Renard when he was just an officer. He was always nice to him, like there was a certain kind of tenderness underneath the stiff features he calls an expression that he carries on his face most of the time. It reminded him very much of his dad, who often tries but fails to be firm and stern when admonishing him for something stupid that he had done when he was a kid.
Then there was all these Grimm and Wesen matters that he had to deal with alone, proposing odd theories regarding those cases that he and Hank were assigned to. Renard never once thought he was crazy or anything, despite him doing a lousy job of lying to everyone as his partner pointed out one time. Apparently he was so obvious, he might as well be hanging a neon sign around his neck that says, "I'm hiding something, but trust me anyway".
Well, of course Nick didn't know about Renard's status as a Royal-Zauberbiest hybrid back then. Maybe that was why he felt so hurt when he found out the truth. He tried so hard not to be mad at his captain, knowing that he was partially duped by Catherine in the method that was used to save Juliette. Plus, he did return the key to him.
Knowing what his boss was and an inkling of his involvement in all things Royal and Wesen gave the detective somewhat a sense of relief. It was the first time he felt that he wasn't alone in this. It was the first time he felt that he could be understood – He could finally have some answers. Ever since learning about this 'family problem' of his, Nick has always felt a certain degree of helplessness and loneliness. Sure, there was Monroe and then Rosalee – but they were Wesen who, despite being friends, saw him as something else. He was their boogeyman, the monster under their bed, a myth. Like walking on eggshells, none of his Wesen associates dared to fuel him to anger.
Letting Hank and Juliette into the masquerade did make his life alot easier, but they don't know what it's like to see what he sees; what it's like to be able sense all the Wesen around him and hear things from miles away. They have no idea how it's like to feel less than human – but not Sean. Renard was a Prince to his canton, a bastard Wesen to the Royals –Caught between both worlds, just like he is.
As Nick starts to remember his time under the influence of the Cracher Mortel venom, he saw how monstrous he could be. It was something he told only his captain - thinking, maybe he could help him reconcile with his inner Grimm.
And then the words hit him hard.
His captain didn't care about the death of Mitchell Zinc.
His captain didn't care about how many Wesen he has intentionally killed.
All his captain cared about – was Nick.
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