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All My Wishful Thinking Was Wrong

By: angellwings

Kim sat on the bed in her hotel room . . . . alone.

She wondered what he was doing. Was he sitting around thinking about her? As much as she wanted it to be so she doubted he actually was. She was his 'kid sister' always had been always will be.

All through middle school and the beginning of high school she'd had a slight crush on Jason, and always thought he'd felt that way a little too. But he never said anything. He never made a move. And then she'd met Tommy.

She smiled as she remembered him. He had been her first love, and she would always treasure what they'd had, but he wasn't her match. She had figured that out long ago. In the end it turned out well though. Especially for him. She smiled as she thought about Haley. She liked Haley a lot. She was going to fit in with the group perfectly. She had only known the red-head for a few months but the two had become fast friends. And now she was one of her bridesmaids. She remembered Haley telling her at the beginning of their friendship that she didn't have a lot of experience in "the girl-to-girl bonding department". Kim had laughed, introduced her to Trini, and then the three of them had gone shopping. Haley was right about the bonding thing, you could tell she had been one of those girls that guys had hung out with, but never dated. She lacked a certain delicacy that she and Trini possessed. It was the delicacy that buried logic and allowed young women to fantasize about things that could never happen.

Right now, she wished that she also lacked that feminine delicacy because all she could do was picture herself and Jason doing various but typical "couple" activities.

She sighed frustratedly.

"Why do you do this to yourself, Kimberly?" She mumbled to her self quietly. "It never fails. I start thinking about something, then I start dreaming about, I get my hopes up, and then It all falls apart."

Like the Pan-Globals, she thought, I can't believe I fell. I knew that routine, and somehow I still fell.

That had by far been the worst moment of her life, okay maybe not the worst but it certainly fell closely behind all her "life and death" encounters as a ranger. She had done beautifully on the uneven bars, and had one of the top scores. The same thing had happened during the floor exercise, and the vault. Her last event had been the beam. She hadn't been worried a single bit; after all it was her best event. She had almost completed the routine when her foot had slipped off the bar, and she'd fallen upon hitting the mat for her dismount. She'd ended up barely medaling; she had gotten the bronze by one tenth of a point.

But still she had come back a better, more confident person.

Then came Muranthius. That was when her feelings for Jason first resurfaced. He had been invited by her parents to her high school graduation, and insisted she come with him to Angel Grove. When Jason insists it is really hard to resist. So she went, and well the rest is common knowledge, but when she'd woken up from that spell and seen Tommy struggling to lift Jason out of the volcano she had almost had a heart attack. She remembered thinking that she couldn't lose him; she had just gotten him back for goodness sakes. That was when she realized she still had a crush on Jason, hell for all she knew it could be more than that, but after all these years those feelings were still there.

And tonight at the wedding rehearsal she had almost told him, but she wimped out. Sure, Florida had taught her a lot of things, and forced her to do things she'd never would of done otherwise. But admitting her feelings to her best friend was not one of them. Besides like she said earlier he only thought of her as his kid sister.

She sighed, and turned up the volume on her portable stereo. Maybe the radio would help cheer her up. Maybe, but I doubt it.

Staying home alone on a Friday
Flat on the floor looking back
On old love
Or lack thereof
After all the crushes are fading
And all my wishful thinking was wrong
I'm jaded
I hate it

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
Get here

There was a knock on her hotel room door. She figured it was Trini coming back from her grocery shopping trip.

"It's open!" She yelled as she laid down on her bed. The door swung wide very rapidly, and someone who, from the sound of their footsteps, possessed a greater body mass than Trini did entered. She immediately stood up, and took a stance against her intruder.

"Kim!" Jason yelled as he rested his hands on his knees to take a few breaths.

"Jason! Are you okay?"

"Yeah . . . I'm fine . . . I . . . just . . . ran, all . . . the way . . . here." He managed to get out between breaths.

"You ran all the way from the 3rd floor?" She asked with wide eyes.

"Yes," He said breathlessly.

"But Jason this is the 20th floor, why didn't you just take the elevator?" She asked with a furrowed brow as she led him over to sit on the bed.

"Not fast enough." He explained as his breathing finally began to even out.

"Fast enough for what? I'm not going anywhere Jase." She told him as she sat beside him on the mattress.

"I know that, Kim, but the elevator wasn't fast enough to keep me from losing my nerve."

Searching all my days just to find you
I'm not sure who I'm looking for
I'll know it
When I see you
Until then, I'll hide in my bedroom
Staying up all night just to write
A love song for no one

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
So tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

Now she was really confused. Nerve? Nerve for what? Jason suddenly grabbed hold of her hands.

"Kim, I need to talk to you."

"Sure, Jase, you know you can always talk to me." She said with a look of concern. He was acting very strangely.

"Ever since we were little kids we've been best friends, and ever since we were little kids we've always been there for each other, right?" He asked as if he needed reassurance of their relationship.

"Of course, Jason what's wrong? Are you sure you're okay?"

"I'm fine, just . . humor me, okay?" He asked quietly. She nodded hesitantly as he continued.

"Kim, there were times in high school where I . . . well I guess I . . . took you for granted, but I never meant to. I thought that there was plenty of time to tell you how I felt or plenty of time for me to figure out how I felt, I really can't remember which, but either way . . . Tommy proved me wrong. I've spent almost all the years since wondering if I made the biggest mistake of my life, and wondering whether or not I'd get another chance to tell you everything . . ." He said letting his voice trail off at the end.

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?
Oh no way!

I could have met you in a sandbox
I could have passed you on the sidewalk
Could I have missed my chance
And watched you walk away?

"What are you trying to tell me Jason?" Kim asked with anticipation. Oh please let this be what I think is, She thought, please.

"I want more than just a friendship, Kim, and you don't have to feel the same. I'll understand if you don't, but if I didn't tell you I'd always wonder if-"

"Jason, will you shut up already? Geez, gimme some time to reply would you?" She asked as she covered his mouth with her hand. He nodded with a shocked expression on his face. She slowly removed her hand. "You've had feelings for me since high school, huh?" She asked him with a gleeful grin. He nodded.

"Well, why didn't you tell me then, you jack ass!" She yelled as she playfully slapped him on the arm. "You could have saved both of us a whole lotta time." She told him softly as she kissed him gently on the lips. The kiss deepened quickly as Jason began to realize exactly what was happening. When they pulled apart Jason glanced down at her.

"Does this mean that you . . .?"

"No I just felt like torturing you for my own pleasure." She replied sarcastically, "of course it does!"

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
I'm so tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here

I'm tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
I'm so tired of being alone
So hurry up and get here
You'll be so good
You'll be so good for me

He smiled and grabbed her hand, "Come on!", he yelled.

"Where are we going?" She asked as she was jerked out the door.

"Out to eat, After that 17 story climb I'm starving!" He told her as headed for the elevator.

"You're soooo romantic." She said sarcastically with a roll of her eyes. "What the hell am I going to do with you, Jason Scott?"

You'll be so good for me.

The End.