Disclaimer: I do not own InuYasha.
InuYasha paced back and forth as he waited for Kagome to return. It had only been a little less than a day and already he longed for her presence again. He sighed as he felt the emptiness inside that always seemed to coincide with her leaving. He looked over and saw Shippou in a sullen mood as well and walked over to him. Shippou immediately covered his head, expecting the half-demon to wallop him as usual, but was pleasantly surprised when he felt a gentle patting instead. He looked up and saw InuYasha leaning against the well with his head down, like he'd just lost his best friend.
InuYasha thought of all the times he'd had with Kagome and her beautiful, radiant smile and felt himself fall deeper into his sadness. Just then he felt a weight in his arms and looked down to see Shippou taking comfort there. His body curled into a tiny ball and he quickly fell asleep, wrapping himself in the front of InuYasha's haroi.
The hanyou smirked as he saw the picture of innocence in his arms. A flash of him holding his own child entered his mind; a girl with black hair, gray blue eyes, and black dog ears. His smirk turned into a gentle smile, what he wouldn't give to live that life, to make Kagome his…
His head shot up as he realized the name that came so easy to his heart, and the name that wasn't even thought of. He always thought that choosing between the two would be the most difficult decision of his life, but with how readily her face appeared in his mind and how familiar that warm sensation was in his heart when he thought of her…there was no choosing. It was always Kagome, since the day she awoke him and he got his first whiff of her scent. So like and yet unlike Kikyo's; the sweet fragrance of wild flowers and a distinct scent that can only be described as Kagome.
He looked up at the setting sun and daydreamed of how his life could be, of a mate and child to love and care for…forever.
Kagome broke the kiss early and ducked her head. InuYasha looked down at his angel and lifted her chin only to see tears streaming down her cheeks. He wiped them away gently with his thumb.
"why are you crying?"
" Because even though you're InuYasha, I feel like I'm betraying my heart.
I'm sorry, but I think I need some time alone."
InuYasha suppressed his own tears as he let go of her and gave her the best smile he could manage.
"I understand, just think about this. I love you and I want you, nothing has changed my mind or heart in five-hundred years."
He walked closer to her and brushed her hair away from her ear.
InuYasha whispered, "and nothing ever will."
Kagome watched modern day InuYasha walk away and couldn't stop the confusion inside her. He was so like and unlike her hanyou, but the guilt from kissing him was weighing down on her. Why couldn't InuYasha say such nice things, especially if he truly did love her?
Kagome walked home, trying to analyze the situation, but came up with no real answer. So when she bumped into someone and saw the red cloth, her mind went blank. InuYasha…
" Kagome, you've got to be more careful! What if I was someone else that wanted to hurt you?"
Once he got a good look at her, his blood boiled. The tightness of the clothing left nothing to the imagination and InuYasha could feel his desire raging inside…then the possessiveness kicked in.
InuYasha grabbed her by the shoulders and pulled her into a warm embrace. It was that moment that Kagome snapped out of her thoughts and looked up to see golden eyes, but they were of her InuYasha. She gripped onto him tightly and breathed in his wonderful scent that meant so many things to her; comfort, protector, love.
InuYasha felt her squeeze tighter and chickened out. why can't I just tell her how I feel? I was so ready to tell her I love her, and then she's got to go and be emotional…there's no way I can do it now.
Kagome smiled up at him and kissed his cheek. When she looked at his face she wanted to laugh at the reddish hue it now had, but decided not to embarrass him. "Come on, InuYasha. Walk me home."
InuYasha walked with her to the shrine, picked her up, and jumped into her bedroom window. Kagome felt that unnerving guilt again as sweet clueless InuYasha plopped down on the floor by her bed.
"InuYasha?"
He looked at her from the corner of his eye as he tried to calm down the red tint still on his face.
" Yeah?"
" Something happened tonight that I feel bad about."
That got InuYasha's full attention. He turned around to face her, "What happened?" worry was evident in his voice.
" I went to a club-"
"You what? Isn't that the place that your little brother told me girls go to be bad? Why would you do that?"
" That's not the bad part! Okay, it's partially the bad part, but…it get's worse."
InuYasha stood up and sat next to her on the bed and gave her the most intense look she ever saw, " tell me." His voice was steady and calm, but you couldn't miss the underlying hostility.
" While I was there, I started dancing and someone started dancing behind me so I turned around to tell them to leave me alone and I saw.."
Kagome looked down and nervously rubbed her hands. InuYasha noticed this and laid his hand over hers, causing Kagome's head to shoot up and look him in the eyes. " go on", the hostility was still there.
" I saw two golden eyes, white silvery hair…I saw you, InuYasha."
