THE MONSTER WITHIN-CHAPTER 2
He was in my dream, the one I just had. The one where I…he killed Saria. It was only a dream though, so why is he here? This must be another dream. If it is, then was me seeing Ruto reality? I probably woke up enough to see her and go back to bed.
"Why are you here? You made me kill Saria." If this is a dream, then he'll most likely agree.
"Kill her? Link, I didn't kill her, that was a dream. I was in your mind, playing with you to see how you'd react. If you want to believe it was a dream, then you can. I didn't kill her, you did. All I did was tell you to kill her and gave you a reason, that didn't mean you had to listen to me."
"But you did say it! That's enough to convince anyone!"
"So you're saying that you'll do what anyone tells you to do?"
"No, that not what I said. Quit mixing up my works!" Dammit! Go away! I need to wake up. Wake up, it's just a dream.
"It's not a dream Link. You're awake. Do you remember who I am?" I feel like I should know, but I don't remember. Should I know? I don't think I want to know, or remember…
"No." I try to get up and sit on the bed on top of the pillow. He just leans in closer, a little less than a foot from my face. I notice that the whole time, he's been sitting on my waist. Even though I moved, he's still sitting in the same spot. "Should I?"
"…That makes me feel sad. You really don't remember?" His face became questioning, he looked sad. Is he just acting or is this really who he is?
"Do you remember in the Water Temple? The room with a tree and…" I start to remember the Water Temple, while zoning out and not hearing him. He looks at me with an expression of his face that says, 'Do you remember now?' I search through my thoughts and memories of the Water Temple. Recalling all the monsters and a room. A room where there was water and fog everywhere, like mirrors. The center of the room had a dead tree. There was also a…wait…he was there! It was him! When I first came to the room, I sat down under the tree and looked down at my reflection, into the water. I saw me, but evil. It was him, and the second I saw him, he attacked me. After that, I, think he disappeared. I don't remember much after that.
"I latched onto you. I am your shadow after all. I am made up from you hate, anger, rage, pain…lust…" He started to trail off like he still wanted to say something. I look into his eyes and see sadness and loneliness. Is he lonely? If he is me, then am I also lonely? I never felt it, never noticed it before. I try to think of times where there has been someone to help me, to see me off when I go somewhere…I feel something warm run down my cheek. Nobody's been there, they always leave, they never come to see me, and I always have to go see them. Navi has only been there simple because she was ordered to, otherwise she would never have met me. Why doesn't anyone like me? I realize that I'm now crying, but my face shows a deep-thought, shocked look.
"…and your sadness…" His left hand moves up to the end of my tear and wipes it up to where it started from. He takes his finger and licks it off and puts his hand on my cheek.
"I know you're alone, I am too. I'm sorry I wasn't there sooner. What can I do to stop you from crying?" His faces moves in closer, inches from my face and I think he's just staring me down to get an answer from me. I start to cry even more. I can't help but wonder why people don't like me. Is it something I did? What did I do to deserve this? For them to hate me so much?
"I don't know…I-" His other hand is on my empty cheek and his face is so close to me, I don't think there is any space left. I look up at him. He looks so lonely and sad. It really is just like a mirror.
"Link, look at my eyes, what do you see?" I already know the answer.
"Lonely."
"That's what you look like to me, lonely. And sad, very sad…and…" 'And' what? And what?
"When was the last time you got laid? That could help you a bit, lower your stress a little." I feel my face grow very hot, almost burning. I try to say something but I'm cut off by his lips. …W-what the hell? This tingling feeling, he was kissing me earlier? A male, that's, not right, that's what…
His lips slowly parted from mine and spoke. "That's what beasts do right?" He…every time I think something, he knows what I think. How come I don't know what he's thinking? It's not fair! That makes me feel even more lonely, and vulnerable that he can hear my thoughts and I can't. He kisses me again, but I'm prepared this time. I shove him away, he looks surprised for a second, but then sadness blankets his face.
"Please, don't. Go away, I want to be alone…this isn't right. We shouldn't be doing this."
"Doing what, exactly? What is it that we are doing wrong?" Everything. My life, my existence, his included. I always cause people pain. And this, this isn't helping anything.
"Do you…not need me?" He looked so hurt but it's the only way he'll stop.
"I don't need you. Go away and don't come back!" With that, he vanished. He didn't vanish by walking away or fading away, he just…I blinked and he just went away. As quick as turning off a light.
My room is, so cold. How did it ever feel so unwelcoming? Again, I caused this. It's my presence that rubs off on the room. Should I go back to sleep? I ponder at this long enough to hear Navi flying in the door. Greaaat…annoying and has perfect timing to keep me from sleeping. Just what I needed. Thank youuu Naaavi…bitch.
"Hey Link! Hey! Hey! Are you alright now? I went with Saria and Mido to see the Great Deku Tree and he told me I can take a vacation for a while. So, I'll be back in a few weeks, ok?"
"Can't you just stay?" Even though she is annoying, she still is the closest thing I have.
"Why?" That…hurts. She…doesn't care about me either.
"Never mind, go have fun. You better have a boyfriend by the time you get back!"
"Never! I'm single and independent! No one can tame this fairy!" I try my best to make her think I'm ok. She leaves and I'm alone. I'll just go see the Deku Tree, maybe he'll have an answer for me, why I always end up having no one around me. I climb out of bed and leave behind my sword, shield, and other weapons as I slump out of my door. Outside, it's so bright. All of Kokiri Forest is bright and green. I swiftly and lazily climb down the ladder. It seems like my destination keeps getting farther and farther. Nobody is outside so I can't talk to them as I walk so it seems like time goes by slowly. I finally reach the Deku Tree. The view of him and the area sort of remind me of the room in the Water Temple, but the Deku Tree isn't dead. He notices me and smiles. He's been waiting for me, he knew I would come. I approach him and stand a few yards away. Looking up at him, I can see the years of bark on him, copying the look of wrinkles.
"I need to ask you…about me."
