All I could see was shattered glass all over the ground, next to my destroyed car. Sirens were blaring in the distance, probably looking for us.

Kaoru groaned as I held onto him, we were still in my overturned car, but somehow on the ground. Blood was splattered all over our clothes, and I could feel it trickling down the side of my head. A bright light was shining in front of us.

"Come on." Kaoru grunted as he squeezed my hand in pain as he sat in my lap because he couldn't move. He tried to move, but he would just cry out in pain. "Mom's gonna kill us."

"Don't worry." I said in a surprisingly calm voice. "I'll take the blame."

Kaoru grabbed his leg and hissed in pain. "God, it hurts so much."

We began to hear footsteps leading towards the car, and a dispatcher's voice.

"What's that?" Kaoru asked.

"They're looking for us."

He looked up at me. "Who?"

I swallowed a lump in my throat. "I don't know."

Kaoru began to cry. "Whatever happens, please." He clenched my hand tighter. "Just don't leave me, ok?"

"I won't."

We began to see a new light in front of us, shinning in my face.

"Hikaru!"

"I won't." I repeated.

"Hikaru!" Kaoru's voice began to get echoey as the light came closer. "Please, just don't leave me…"

"I won't!" I yelled before the light consumed me.


The paramedic put defibrillators to my chest and shocked me. When I didn't respond, he did it again, then put his hand to my neck to check for my pulse.

The other paramedic driving the ambulance looked through the review view mirror at the doctor trying to revive me.

"Give up." He said. "The kid's flat lined. He's a lost cause."

"There's no such thing as a lost cause." The paramedic said. "Quiet."

He looked back down at me, praying for my heart beat to return.

"Come on, come on, come on." He whispered almost inaudible.

He then heard the beeping of the heart monitor and my eyes slowly opened. I coughed a bit and grabbed the man's hand that was lightly touching my neck.

"My word." He kissed his cross necklace and looked up. "Thank you Jesus." He then looked back down at me. "Hey, hey, hey." I looked at him slightly confused. "Welcome back."

"Where was I?" I asked in a hoarse voice, panic started to rise in me.

"It's ok."

"Where was I?" I asked again, even more panicked.

"You just gotta relax alright." The paramedic said, trying to calm me.

"Where's Kaoru?" I asked.

He put his hands on my chest to keep me down. "Everything's ok, but you need to stay still."

"Where's Kaoru?" I asked again.

"You got to stay still, ok?" The paramedic repeated. "Shh. Everything's ok."

I began looking around the truck, disobeying his orders. "Kaoru?"

I then saw his arm and tried to reach for it, but the paramedic tried to stop me. I ripped my hand away from him and tried to grab Kaoru's hand again.

"Kaoru?" When I grabbed his hand, it was cold, and lifeless. Soon panic consumed me. "Kaoru."

"Alright, you got to rest." The paramedic said.

I tried to get up, but the paramedic fought to keep me down.

"You got to keep cool here."

I tried to push him off of me, my eyes never leaving Kaoru as I fought to get up.

"Come on, come on, come on." He tried to stop me.

"Kaoru!" I screamed.

"Shh. shh, shh."

When Kaoru didn't respond, I tried to reach out for him again. "Kaoru! No! No! No, please! Please don't leave me!"

Because I wouldn't calm down, the paramedic got out a needle and opened it with his mouth because I kept fighting him.

I pushed arms away and began to cry. "Stop!"

"Shh!"

"No!" I screamed at him. "That's my twin! That's my baby brother!"

"Shh, shh, shh." He continued to try and calm me down.

I looked back over at Kaoru. "Kaoru!" I pushed the paramedic arms away from me again. "No, I can't leave him!"

"Shh."

"I can't leave him!" I cried and looked up. "Oh my God." I looked back at Kaoru as I kept fighting the paramedic. "I'm sorry Kaoru." I looked over to his head that was facing away from me.

"No! Kaoru!" I cried. "I'm sorry, Kaoru no."

The paramedic finally forced me down and put the needle in my arm. My vision began to get hazy.

I reached my hand out one last time to grab his hand. "Kaoru…"

Then blackness overcame me.


I woke up by the sound of beeping, I slowly opened my eyes and looked around. I was in a hospital room. I slowly sat up and put a hand to my head, but instantly regretted it when pain shot through my head.

I hissed and moved my hand away. "Ugh, what happened? Why am I in the hospital?"

I heard the door open and saw a nurse walk in.

She gasped. "You're awake, much quicker than we imagined after what happened."

I looked at her confused, what was she talking about?

"Would you like anything to eat, I'm sure you're hungry."

I slowly nodded and the nurse left. I put my hand to the left side of my head, which was my good side of my head. I tried to remember what happened, but all I remember was graduating. I felt a discomfort on my chest. I moved my hand from my head to my chest.

I winced as my hand lightly brushed my chest. I was in a hospital gown, so I couldn't see what was wrong with it. The nurse came in with a tray of pancake and put the tray table in front of me. I wasn't a big fan of pancakes, but I didn't care right now, I just wanted to eat.

I began to eat, almost inhaling the food. The nurse sweat dropped.

"Um…" She cleared her throat. "You have some family and friends in the waiting room, would you like to see them?"

I put another forkful of pancakes in my mouth and nodded. The nurse left and I continued to eat. I didn't know why, but I was extremely hungry.

A couple minutes went by and my parents and the host club came in.

"Hikaru." Mom cried out as she ran up to me. She gently grabbed my face and looked at my wounds on my face. Tears began to fill her eyes again. "Oh baby."

"Hey mom." I said

"Thank God you're alright." Dad said.

"We thought we lost you."

"Huh?" I asked confused. "What do you mean?"

My dad whipped a tear from his eye, I could tell he was trying his hardest not to cry. "On the way to the hospital, you flat lined." He swallowed the lump in his throat. "We thought we were going to lose you." His voice cracked at the end.

I didn't know what to say, I was flat lines? But what happened?

I took another bite of my pancake, and I then noticed everybody looking at me surprised.

I raised an eyebrow as I kept chewing my pancakes. "What?"

"Well." Tamaki cleared his throat. "We're just shocked to see that you're eating."

"Well." I swallowed the pancakes. "I'm hungry."

"We just thought, after what happened yesterday. You wouldn't have the appetite to eat."

"What happened anyway?" I asked as I ate another piece of pancake. "Where is Kaoru by the way? Is he getting food or something?"

The room grew silent. I looked up at the group and saw everybody looking at me with sad expressions. The air grew thick.

"What?" I asked.

"Hikaru?" Mom asked. "You don't remember what happened?"

"No, I just remember graduation."

"Hikaru." My mom grabbed my hand. "You and Kaoru were in a fatal car accident. You were revived in the ambulance...But Kaoru…" She tried her hardest to hold back her tears. "Kaoru was a D.O.A."

"What's a D.O.A.?"

Mom let a couple tears fall and put her hand to her mouth. "Dead on arrival."

As my mom said those words, my heart just dropped to my stomach. "What..?"

Mom cried harder. "Kaoru died during the crash, the doctors said he died instantly."

I pushed my pancakes away from me. "I...I think I lost my appetite."

"I'm sorry baby." Mom hugged me.

"No...I-It has to be a joke." I whispered.

Mom let go of me. "Hikaru…"

"He can't be dead!" I yelled.

"Honey we…"

"If you think this is a joke, it's not funny!"

"Come on." The nurse said. "Let's let him be alone for a bit."

My parents and the club left in silence, the only sound that was there was my mom's crying.

As the door closed, I immediately ripped the IV from my arm and jumped out of bed. I grabbed the clothes that my dad brought me and went into the bathroom to change. Immediately I noticed my reflection in the mirror. I had stitches on the right side of my head next to my eyebrow. On my left cheek were scrapes.

I quickly took off the hospital gown and put my pants on. As I was about to put my shirt on, I looked back in the mirror and saw two medium rectangular burn marks on my chest, that must have been why my chest was burning.

Panic began to rise in me and I quickly put on my shirt, ignoring the pain from the burns. I put on my shoes then quickly ran out of my room, and down the hall, ignoring the calls out for me to stop. I ran out of the hospital into the pouring rain, running where my feet took me.

I soon lost track of how long I was running, but it felt like hours. I finally made it to a hill next to where the accident happened. I carefully ran down the hill, trying not to slip on the mud. But when I made it down the hill, all I saw were firetrucks and police cars surrounding my destroyed car.

"No…" I gripped my hair and cried. "No!"

The memories, they started flooding back into my mind. Flashes of the accident...of Kaoru.

I soon fell onto my knees. "Kaoru!"

I then felt someone grab me, wrapping their arms around me. I looked up and saw my dad.

"Hikaru." He hugged me tighter, putting my head in his chest. "It's alright son."

I gripped his shirt and cried harder. "It's all my fault."

"Don't you think that even for a minute." He said.

"But it is." I sobbed. "I wanted to go to that stupid party so bad. If I hadn't gone, he would still be here. It's all my fault."

"No, no, no, no, no." My dad hugged me even tighter, rocking me a bit. "It's not your fault. None of that makes it so. It's a terrible thing, and it doesn't make since why he was taken away from us so soon. But it's not your fault." He put his nose in my soaked dark brown hair, trying his hardest not to cry as well. "But he'll always be in our hearts, and will be watching over you."

I cried harder as my dad held me closer, not caring that we were soaked to the bone. I didn't care about anything else in the world right now, I only cared about Kaoru...And now he's gone.


It was the day of Kaoru's funeral and our whole family and friends stood in front of his casket while it was being lowered into the ground, as a priest was saying some words.

I held an orange rose in my hand, waiting for the priest to finish. I watched as the casket was being lowered, a tear rolling down my face.

"Hikaru." A faint whisper called out.

I looked up, it...sounded like Kaoru. I looked out to the field in front of me and my breath caught as I saw Kaoru sitting behind a gravestone. But as soon as I blinked, he turned into flowers.

"Hikaru?" The priest asked.

I looked back over at him.

"If you want to drop the rose in now."

I just looked at the priest in silence, swallowing the lump in my throat. I soon began to back up.

"I can't." I whispered.

I then turned around to leave, but my mom grabbed my shoulder.

"Hikaru…"

I looked at her. "I'm sorry. I gotta go."

"Don't."

I began walking away again, then ran. I ran past all the gravestones and into the forest. Memories of that night kept returning to my head. Of the crash, of seeing Kaoru...dead. I didn't know where I was going, I just let my legs guide me.

I soon tripped and fell onto the ground, dropping the rose in my hand. I began to cry as I kept hearing my voice yelling for Kaoru when we were in the ambulance. I slowly got on my knees panting, and looked at the ground. I then saw the orange rose fall in front of me. I slowly looked up, tears streaming down my face and saw Kaoru, standing in front of me.

My panting stopped and I just looked at Kaoru.

He smiled. "I think I know what I want you to do for me."

"I'll do anything." I said, letting one last tear fall down my face. "I made a promise."

"Let's meet here, every day before sunset. To have some quality twin."

I nodded. "Alright."

"Promise?"

"I promise." I took in a shaky breath. "I promise."

I gave him a slight smile as he gave me a quick nod.

"I'll never hurt you again, Kaoru."