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A/N: I love how this story is starting out. I couldn't resist writing this instead of finishing off Summer's Heat.
I'm just too excited right now. Just joined a new cheerleading club and I'm on two teams; one of which I'm the top/flyer (the girl that goes in the air). So pumped for that!
Anyways, enjoy!
Jacob POV
Bella hadn't awaken yet, It had been almost a full day.
Her scent hadn't changed either.
It was still sweet, deliciously sweet that my mouth water and groins pull towards her still slightly frail looking body.
The bruises had vanished, along with Edward. He was nowhere to be found- and for good reason. When the father tries to kill his own daughter shame should be one of the prevalent emotions.
It pretty obvious what had occurred. For some reason or another, Renesmee's scent was even more powerful and alluring to Edward than Bellas; enough so that it pushed Edward over the edge. The years of control he had built up with Bella had been wasted with his child.
"What is she...?" I murmured softly as Carlisle brushed a piece of Bella's hair from her face.
"I'm not sure. Though she's definitely not human nor vampire, Jacob." He replied solemnly.
"No shit, I can still hear her heart." I sighed listening in on the slow but undeniable thu-dump of Bella's changed heart. Whatever she was, wasn't terrible, it wasn't my worst nightmare.
Though this situation was driving me insane; me longing to be beside Renesmee but being torn between her mother's side would've killed me.
I was being forced to choose.
What was I supposed to do?
The love of my life needed me as much as the meaning of my existence did- my imprint.
"Edward can never be with them again. He's left for sure. Bella's scent is too much for him as well as his daughters." Carlisle informed me rigidly. My stomach clenched together in pain for Bella. This would surely kill her...
Losing her husband and raising their child alone. She had already been through too much...
I couldn't bare Bella resenting her child, my imprint, because it forced Edward to leave. What twisted fate the world gave her.
"It's gonna kill her." I mumbled brokenly.
This wasn't fair.
"That's why she needs you. Before Edward came back the first time, you were the only one that could make her happy." Carlisle insisted bluntly. It made my heart soar and bleed at the same time.
"I'm not going anywhere." I stated simply.
That was the least I could do for my Bella and my imprint; at least until I knew what I really had to do.
"For now at least Jacob, no one can expect you to hang around a bunch of vampires for the rest of your life." Carlisle added insightfully.
"Renesmee's my imprint." I interjected boldly my voice hard and cold.
It wasn't a good thing in my mind. All my pack members who had imprinted had chosen to become their imprints lover when the time came; my choice wouldn't be so simple.
How could I stand falling in love with the love of my life's daughter?
How could I stand to see her alone day and day through while I sat perfectly at peace with her daughter?
Carlisle had no words to respond, he knew how hard this was for me. He only replied with a grunted nod and kept his eyes focussed on Bella's tranquil body.
She didn't look like she was in pain anymore at least, the moaning and thrashing had stopped. Her skin even had a certain unearthly glow to it.
"She'll probably be waking any minute now Jacob." Carlisle added breaking the tense silence the blanketed us. I looked up briefly to catch his golden eyes that seemed just as restless as mine.
"Will she want- will she be thirsty?" My voice broke at the word. I hated thinking about Bella in that way.
"I don't know... If she's anything like her daughter, she'll want both and she certainly smells similar." Carlisle contemplated.
"What do you think went wrong? What didn't she turn completely?" I pressed. Regardless of what she was, I was thankful that she hadn't turned. Whatever had gone wrong had gone wrong for the better- for the most part.
Bella was still technically alive.
"I have a theory, but it's only a broad guess though. I think because Bella was pregnant with Renesmee, she became slightly only to the venom as a defence mechanism to protect Renesmee. This way it only would affect her partially if she was bitten, thus keeping her essentially alive and able to sustain Renesmee."
His theory was possible- it made perfect sense.
If Bella was bitten with Renesmee still in her womb, she would've died in order to become a vampire and killed Renesmee along with her. If her body was able to become slightly resistance to the venom, just enough to keep her alive, it would've saved the baby.
I sat a moment mulling over his theory fully digesting the possibility.
The likelihood of it intrigued me.
Otherwise...
It didn't seem possible.
Carlisle cleared his throated to break me from my thoughts, "Erm Jacob, one thing I want you to do before she wakes; Edward wants a word with you before he leaves for good. He's in the clearing waiting."
I gazed deeply into Carlisle's eyes trying to read any obvious emotions. Just like the rest of the bloodsuckers, I could find nothing. He was closed off and stern.
"What about- -?"
Carlisle quickly cut me off, "You have a few minutes before she'll wake up, Edward needs this. Just be quick." I answered him with a sharp nod before turning to leave.
I could smell him a mile away, so it didn't surprise me when I found him crotched in the clearing- their meadow.
Bella had briefly told me this was the place they commonly went, the place where we found her with Laurent.
The way his body was crumpled on the group emitted pain, I was hurting for him. No one deserved this, absolutely no one. As much as I always wished Edward was removed from Bella's life, what happened was not something I ever wished for.
But he was now their enemy, his body ached to kill them while his mind ached in disgust for his nature.
"Jacob." Edwards voice chimed drawing me closer. I continued to walk towards him, my pace unchanged.
"Hey." I mouthed softly rendering myself to the compassion Edward deserved.
"How-How is she?"His voice cracked helplessly. If he could cry- he would be crying.
"She hasn't woken up yet. Carlisle thinks she'll be waking up any moment now." I replied honestly, now only metres away from him.
As Edward half looked up, enough so that I could see a small crocked smile form on his face, I felt my insides twist at his painful grin.
"You should be there, she'll need you." He said a moment of silence.
"Carlisle said you needed to talk to me, so I came right away. I... I'm sorry for everything." I offered genuinely. He looked up at me, his topaz eyes bleeding with anguish.
"It's not your fault. I should've known it was too good to be true."
I grunted in response to that only doubting my own situation. Me imprinting on Bella's daughter- that was also too good to be true.
"You imprinted on Renesmee. I'm happy, you'll finally have someone." Edward implied gingerly.
"It's not like that. I don't think I can ever see her that way." I admitted painfully. My mind spun through the million reasons why I couldn't be Renesmee's lover, why I couldn't watch Bella suffer as I was with my perfect match.
"I know it's not. Well not like that in this situation. If I wasn't the most lethal thing to Bella and my daughter; then you could think of her that way." Edward explained for me. He was in my head and I had already accepted that he understood how I saw the situation.
"What she needs, what I can't be for her- is a father. And Bella... Bella may never recover from this without you; she needs you as her companion. She needs you to be with her; for I ruined it for her. I still love her deeply, but my body only want her dead with an uncontrollable desire." Edward spoke solemnly.
"I'm sorry that this has to end this way." I sighed kicking the earth beneath me.
"I suppose this was fate. Our love wasn't a triumph; it was tragedy slowly ticking closer to its end." He contemplated standing and starring off into the country side.
"You need to stay in this world; for her. You may be a danger to them, but you can also protect them from what is even more dangerous than you. Please." I urged shamelessly. I would do anything for Bella and she wouldn't be able to stand the world knowing that her choice was the cause for Edward's suicide.
"Despite the grimness of the situation their protection will be the only meaning to my existence. I must say, it's strange that you still want Bella as much as you do, despite finding your imprint... But you should get back to her though, tell her I love her. Good bye Jacob."
"I will," I sighed, "Bye Edward."
The journey back to the house was a dismal one. My inside were torn at the severity of the situation. I dreaded the moments I would have to tell Bella the truth. I dreaded her gentle awakening.
I pushed the glass door open to the Cullens home to be greeted by Alice. A weak grinned pulled at the corner of her mouth then quickly receded. She would be mourning the departure of her brother inevitably.
"He's gone." I stated plainly.
She sighed deeply, "I know. You should go see Bella, she's almost lucid." I nodded and continued through the house to the spare room where Bella laid peacefully in the bed.
Her eyes fluttered and her body twisted in restlessness. I prayed she could just stay in this trance forever, free from the inevitable pain and the loss.
Renesmee sat in a crib in the corner sleeping peacefully, Rose sitting in a chair beside her crib watchfully. Despite my hatred from the blonde one, I sensed she had maternal instincts like no other.
I kneeled by Bella's bed and let my head rest in my arms. My eyes were brimming with tears as my mind chanted that this wasn't supposed to happen.
I a felt a slightly cool hand grace across the top my head. I edged my head up in response.
"Jacob." Bella's calming voice spoke.
I looked up into her eyes, still a deep chocolate and smiled softly, "Bells."
"Where's Renesmee?" Bella quickly asked moving her head around the slightest bit. My hand slid to cup her fingertip delicately. Her skin felt pleasantly cool against my fiery warmth. I moaned tastefully in appreciation of her touch. She looked even more stunning then before.
"She's just by rose on the other side of you, Bells." I replied softly playing with her cool finger tips. I the sensation was marvelling.
Bella's eyes seem to widen and soften all at once, as panic stiffened her new form, "Where's Edward...?"
...
My mouth fell open as my eyes thinned with pain and regret. I knew this was coming. There was no way of avoiding this moment with her.
"Bella, Bells, there's something I need to tell you." I sighed looking away from her all too beautiful face.
"Edward." She choked out in barely a whisper devastatingly. I felt her grasp tighten on my fingers; she was definitely much stronger than before.
"Bella... Edwards gone." Rosalie cut in brusquely.
I looked up to see Bella crack, to see her face clearly showing her heart being torn ruthlessly in two. Tears started to well in her eyes.
She could cry- she could still cry!
"Edward. What, why?" She gasped out breathlessly.
"Bella, he's still alive." I quickly reassured. She looked back at me with bewilderment. Her dark orbs were still mesmerizing despite the heart ache.
"When Renesmee was born and you were turned, something about your smell changed, it's too powerful for him. He can't control himself around either of you, he almost killed Renesmee." I explained reluctantly. As I explained the rest of the Cullens and Seth came into the room to welcome Bella back.
"What.."
"Carlisle thinks Renesmee made you almost immune to Edwards's venom. When you turned, the venom didn't kill you and only changed you slightly. You still have a heart beat and some body heat. But you scent isn't anything like a vampire's nor is Renesmees'." I attempted to explain her situation.
Bella glanced up towards Carlisle for confirmation. Carlisle only replied with a weak smile before looking back down.
Alice took the few steps needed to reach Bella's bed before placing her ice cold hand on Bella's, "We're gonna make it through this Bella. I can see it. We all miss him."
"Edward told me to tell you he still loves you, and he'll also be watching out for you." I supplied tenderly brushing a strand of her ebony hair from her face. Tears now flowed freely down her face; she looked like she had been internally shattered.
"Jacob." Bella choked out before reaching for me and burying her face in my chest. I wrapped my arms around her cool skin tightly as she sobbed freely.
I knew telling Bella I imprinted on her daughter would push her even further over the edge; right now she just needed comfort.
"I'm not going anywhere Bella, I'll always be here for you and Renesmee, for as long as I live." I cooed into her ear. Slowly the Cullen's left the room, leaving me to console Bella and Rosalie to carefully tend to Renesmee.
Everything, every little change in our lives would have to be taken slowly.
I promised myself Bella would be happy again with a family one day, and I would the main cause for that.
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