A/N Hey lovely, lovely readers! I appreciate all of you who are reading and taking the time for my story! I swear that this chapter will be better than the owns all characters! Even Edward ='~(…*sigh* anyways time to get to it! Love ya! ~~ili
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I woke up feeling more than a little groggy. If I must put it bluntly I would say I felt like shit. For many reasons actually. One: back to school. Two: my truck is in the shop (again), so no driving myself. And three: Alice-my all too loving and all too hyper best friend- told her brother that I needed a ride. Edward was picking me up…Alice has always known…she knows everything. She has spent the past few years plotting on how to get Edward and I to 'hook up'. I mean I love Ali but she can be a little overwhelming at times. Okay, she can be a lot of overwhelming all the time!
Her newest scheme involved Edward, his Volvo, and my lack of my truck, hence the absence of a ride to school this I finished getting ready I suddenly heard a horn being honked from outside my window on the second story. I looked out even though I knew who it would be. I knew because of course Alice told me, and I could feel his presence just about anywhere."Shit." I muttered. This was going to be a long day.I ran downstairs and flung the front door open as I made my way to his shiny Volvo. I actually was feeling nervous. Not that I didn't know that feeling was coming, but it still made me feel odd as I walked down the driveway to the parked car and opened the door on the passenger's side.
"Hey you" He smiled, the smile that almost made me forget my name. "Hey" I said. He didn't continue so I started again.
"Thanks again for driving m-" He cut me off."Bella, don't even worry about it. What else are friends for?"" Yea. Friends" I said feeling disheartened that yet again he referred to me as his friend. I mean, I know that it was juvenile to feel that way but it was hard not to. I obviously had very strong emotions towards Edward. But, he would never see them in me. Ever…The ride to school was quiet. Just as I expected it to be…"Hey, what's up with you? You look like you've seen Satan" He said chuckling at his own words.
I understood his observation because if I looked anything like how I was feeling I'd be worried too. At the moment I felt nauseated, because I was so nervous. I mean, I've known Edward since I was eight and I shouldn't feel nervous or scared around him, but I always did…I was so wrapped up in my own thoughts that I forgot that he had spoken to me. In a fluster I hastily looked up and mumbled-
"I'm okay. I'm just thinking about…things." I wasn't just thinking about things. I was thinking about Edward. "What kind of things?" He asked curiously."ummm…" I couldn't think of anything to say without giving myself away, so I decided to fight back against his questions.I looked at him intensely and almost fainted as his eyes met mine. I couldn't find my breath when I said-
" Why do you wanna know Cullen? Worried what I'll think about you?" I asked with a sort of cute smirked before saying, " Bella, I'll always worry about what you think of me."Just those words alone made my knees grow weak. It was a good thing I was sitting down. I wondered briefly if he was just joking or if he actually meant it. No, he had to be joking. There was no way in hell that Edward cared about what I-of all people- thought of him. Impossible…"Does that mean that mean that my opinion is high in your mind?" I teased. He stammered before he said " um…yes?"I laughed freely and it felt nice to. It felt great to be loose with him and act like myself. When I wasn't nervous around him I was beaming. He could make feel better just with his presence.
That's why I love him…whoa! Hold on there! Love? I couldn't love Edward…could I?…-No. the answer was no! I couldn't. I didn't." HaHa" I chuckled. " Good to know Cullen…good to know."And with that we were pulling in to the school's parking lot. I was a little miffed that my time with Edward was over. For now that is. He hopped out of the car and came to my side and opened the door for me. He was such a gentleman. Sigh.
"Thanks" I said as he helped me out."No problem." He said smiling that heart clenching then I was off to class. This was going to be a tough day. Very tough and boring…who knows it just may be interesting… day started off extremely boring. I went to my morning classes but barely paid attention to much of anything. By the time lunch came I desperately needed a distraction to keep my thoughts off of Edward. As I entered the cafeteria, could see Alice waving frantically at me from our table.
" Bella! Over here!" she called. I walked slowly and a little unsteadily towards the table where Alice, Jasper, Emmett, and Rosalie were sitting…but not him."Um…where's *cough* Edward?" I asked uneasily. Alice gave me a questioning look before she pointed over to her right and hesitantly answered, "over there.""Oh" was all that I replied. What was he doing over there? And why was he talking to Tanya? Wasn't she just the school pass around? She was no where near being deserving of Edward. Or even deserving of just his presence alone.
" Oh, umm, I see he's, ugh, talking to Tanya…" I could barely make the words leave my mouth. I hoped that no one would think too much of my slip gave me a knowing look that almost instantly made me grow rigid. Uh oh…" Yea, they're going on a date tonight." she answered a little hesitantly. Shit…she knows.
"Oh…good for him." I said then chuckled nervously. A date? Why is he dating her? So, he'll date Tanya the slut but he won't date me? What the fuck? Well, I can't say that I can blame him. I mean, I'm nothing special…at all. And Tanya was the school bicycle, she let everyone have a ride. "Yeah, but I mean it's nothing serious!" Alice answered in a rush, obviously trying to placate me."Well I guess only time can tell…" I suddenly felt kind of sad and I had to work to keep the fake smile on my face.I made it through a whole lunch period and managed to only look over to where Edward and his newly found slut were sitting for the day, and if things went well…the rest of the school year. I cringed at that thought. I didn't want to see him with anyone else besides me. When he drove me home after school I was going to ask him about her. Even though I wanted to know nothing about her.
_A/N: Well I hope you liked this chapter. It was a bit longer. It takes me some time to write. Mostly this chapter took a while because it was a holiday…which reminds me, HAPPY 4TH OF JULY! I know that this only applies to you American readers but hey, what the hell? Might as well just say it to everyone! =~) So see you soon for another chapter! AND MUCH MUCH MUCH LOVE TO MY BETA BRYONY (MRS. EDWARD B. CULLEN)! THE ONLY REASON THAT THIS CHAPTER IS UP TODAY IS BECAUSE I SENT HER THE CHAPTER AND SHE CORRECTED, ADDED HER OPINIONS, AND SENT IT BACK ALL IN THE SAME DAY! THANK YOU! ~ILI
