A/N: hello all so first of all shout-out to my two reviewers WIsegirl71301 and Julie, also this story will updated as much as possible but with SOL's and final exams + spring break ( April 11-21) with no internet + prom ( I'm on the committee) it will be pretty hectic I but I will do my best! And please please please review! It keeps me motivated and will help me improve my writing.

Disclaimer: if I owned NCIS Kate and jenny would have never died

Starr Davenport's P.O.V

"Anderson" Zack answered his phone dully "Jackie, slow down….I can't understand you." Zack said then after a moment dropped his head at whatever Jackie said "yes, Jackie its true I planned on calling you but I didn't know when your undercover for the director would be over." he said the after what seemed like ages his head shot back up pain and compassion clear in his eyes. "Jemma would understand Jackie and you know it. She would be proud to see you become SFA. yes you always imagined yourself being her SFA, but sometimes life doesn't work out the way we want it too not matter how hard we try." he said then made eyes contact with me as he listened to her reply he lowered his voice but since I was only a few seats away I could still hear him. "And Starr may be a full agent but she's not ready for her own probie, she needs you, don't you think she also imagined being you SFA one day too," he said and glanced at me I met his eyes to tell him I heard. He just sighed then fixed his gaze elsewhere.

I started to think about what he had said, I wasn't sure how I felt about a probie after all I had been on Zack's team for three years and a full agent for only one...I didn't think I could train a probie right now. and Jackie, I really did need her, while Jemma was the first to really accept me she gave me mostly tough love while Jackie, gave me the more nurturing approach to my training. I couldn't count how many times Jackie saved my butt, I admit I had always thought that maybe one day I would be her SFA but in my version Jemma always fit in somehow. Sometimes I made her deputy director and Zack director since director McGee was rumored to step down soon. Other times Jemma had retired form old age or she retired because she settled down and wanted to spend time with her children. No matter how my fantasy future played out Zack, Jackie and Jemma were all in it. Nevertheless, it was just that, fantasy.

"Davenport? You with me?" I head Zack asked jerking me from my thoughts

"Huh…..um …yeah" I said a little confused Zack just sighed, he seemed to be doing that a lot,

"Let's go," he said while gently pulling me up from my seat. Then, linked arms with me, I knew I was a simple gesture to tell me I was not alone, nothing more, and I welcomed it. "J.P's replacement got Jemma and the Director wants to see us," he said tiredly and I realized I too was very tired I had been up since 0700 this morning. Zack had been up longer.

"What time is it?" I asked as we walked to his car he looked at his watch

"about 0300" he said shaking his head then reaching his car he opened the passenger door for me then jogged over to his side.

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We walked into bullpen to find the director sitting in Jackie's chair, he waited until Zack and I had walked to our respective desks, put our guns and badges away and sat down. "I'm giving your team 2 weeks off, Jackie will be back tomorrow. Also, I know you don't want one and I won't make you chose right away but eventually you will need to pick a fourth member of your team." He said curtly he glanced at his watch "I will be here for about another hour, if you need anything, but I prefer you both go home if not right now by the time I leave, and that is an order." He said sternly but his eyes betrayed that he too was grieving. He waited a minute to see if we would respond after we didn't he stood up and walked back to his office. Zack ran a hand through his buzz cut brown hair before standing up and taking his gun and badge out.

"The director's right we need to go home" he said and picked up the bag at the foot of his desk. I almost followed him but something seemed to be tugging at me begging me to stay.

"Yeah ill head home soon" I said Zack turned to look at me the question clear in his brown eyes. When I didn't offer a reason, he glanced upstairs.

"Ok but remember what the director said" he said and walked to the elevator. After he left, I stuck my hands in my pockets and leaned back. I felt something smooth in my pocket confused; I pulled it out my vision blurred with tears as I saw the necklace. I carefully turned it so I could see the initials .again the initials T.M and E.B stood out to me. Getting an idea, I turned to my computer and pulled up the NCIS personnel database search. I quickly typed in E.B. and T.M then, I narrowed the searched to retired and deceased agents, Jemma had said they were agents past, then as an afterthought I narrowed it more to only agents who worked for this MCRT. I clicked enter and almost immediately one name popped up Eleanor "Ellie" Bishop I recognized the name Zack, Jemma and, Jackie talked about her every so often. she was the team leader before Zack. I scrolled down and looked through her profile she was a very skilled profiler and agent. As I scrolled farther, I found she had retired in 2024 with a slew of medals .Slightly excited I looked for a second result for the initials T.M and was depressed when I came up with none. I looked back down at the star prepared to type in the rest of the initials when someone cleared their throat next to me. I jumped slightly and place my hand on my hip instinctively for my gun, even though I had put it away earlier, then I looked up and saw director McGee. Wait T.M...

"Timothy McGee!" I said without meaning to the director looked at me as if I were crazy and I gasped slightly way to go Starr call the director by his full name your just brilliant

"Excuse me?" he asked with a slight edge in his voice

"Oh I-I um you see…" I stuttered trying to tell him it wasn't out of disrespect it was by accident but I couldn't make my mouth work. He looked over at my computer then down at the star I was still holding. a new understanding filled his eyes

"You won't get to know the others by just looking at the facts if you ever want to wear that you have to KNOW the others" he said and smiled slightly.

"Wu-what?" I asked confused how did he know I had to get to know them before I could wear the necklace. did everyone in NCIS know except me was it like some sort of initiation?

"you already know my initials are on there, that means I owned it at one point, but didn't have to get to know the people because I had firsthand experience with them" a wistful look entered his green eyes. "Wait, right here" he said suddenly then quickly hobbled up the stairs to his office slowed only by his age. After a few minutes he returned with what looked like a DVD case "I gave this to Bishop to give to the next owner of the necklace…..." he paused "when I cleaned out her desk I found it" he said and indicated Jemma's desk.

"So this belongs to you now," he said and handed the DVD case to me I opened it to see a DVD with "Tony's B-Day" scrawled in sloppy handwriting on it. "It will help you get to know the others" he said his voice slightly sad. Suddenly he bent down, scooped up my backpack, and walked towards the elevator. "But my order still stands you have to leave now" he called over his shoulder. I scrambled to get my gun and my badge and ran after him sliding in just as the doors started to close. Because it was, me and I could never pull off something that smooth, especially in front of the director. I tripped and crashed into Director knocking us both to the ground as I slipped past the doors.

I quickly got off him muttering "sorry director" repeatedly then holding out my hand to help him up. He took my hand then said "don't apologize it's a sign of weakness" I could tell by the look in his eyes he said it almost automatically. We rode the rest of the way down in silence. As we walked to the parking garage my eyes start to droop dangerously I tried to keep them open and thought about calling a cab. The director must have noticed because he took ahold of my arm and steered me towards his red mustang.

"We don't need another terrible driver on the road tonight this city has enough" he said I slid in to the passenger side and he handed me my backpack and he put his in the backseat. I must have nodded off because the next thing I knew the Director was shaking me awake "Come on agent Davenport you have to get out I don't think Abby would take too kindly to a young girl sleeping I'm my car. No matter if you're an agent or not" He said " and I don't even want to know what Zack and Jackie would do to me if they found out" he continued after a short pause. I groggily opened my eyes and blinked a few times to clear them. I looked over and saw he had parked in the driveway to my townhouse. I opened the door slowly then slipped the DVD into my backpack I got out and stumbled slightly and flinched at the cold air. The sun was starting to come up, and my reflexes were still off. I heard the Director sigh behind me before getting out and wrapping one arm around my shoulders making me lean on him. Then he asked for my keys and I fished them out of my back pocket and handed them to him. He guided me up my stairs and unlocked my door. He set my backpack down by the door and helped me toward my bedroom. Halfway there his phone started to ring to the song "your love is my drug"

He groaned then set me down on my couch. While hissing "tell anyone about my ring tone I will kill you." he pulled out his phone "hey Abs" he answered "I'll be home soon" he glanced at me "at Davenports house" I heard the voice on the other end get louder in anger and I started to giggle because for some reason it was funny. The Director glared at me "no honey you know it's not like that Davenport was still a bit shaken up about Jemma, she gave her the necklace." He said softly he paused as he listened to her reply. "Yes baby, ok see you soon" he said and hung up then looked down at me "can you get back up?" he asked

"My couch is very comfy" I said and curled into a ball the director just shook his head.

"Suit yourself" he said and placed my keys on the end table I closed my eyes as I heard him walk to the door…but I didn't hear him leave. I opened my eyes in surprise as I heard him walk back he was holding the DVD in his hand. He walked over to my DVD played and set it up then hit a few buttons behind it and smiled. "I set it to repeat," he said then walked away. I closed my eyes as I heard my door close. As I drifted off to sleep I heard a man's voice filter from my T.V

"Are you really going to record this whole this Probie?" the voice asked asked then I fell asleep

A/N I might update again tonight depending on how long it takes me to edit, I know this chapter was boring but in the next one Starr will watch the DVD and find out some sad news so hopefully it will make up for this one. Please review!