It's Not that I didn't like her, I loved her. I just wish there was some way she could understand. I didn't choose to be this way, Its just how I am. In the time we spent together, there wasn't a single day I didn't think about her , think about how beautiful she was…but now what is she? She's like a stick figure, a shadow of what she used to be and, ever since she met Melissa, she's changed. I remember how, she used to cling onto me, always what to be around me, now she just, seems as if she wants nothing to do with me.

Maybe she doesn't notice it, but…she's not well, you can see it in her eyes. Like a sadness has just crept over her and forced out all the good memories she once had. It's my fault, I know that…but I can't do it. I can't stand there and apologize to her for something that I can't help. I love Craig. I wish I could just come out and say it to her, put her mind at rest. No, it wouldn't work would it? ' Hannah I'm sorry but, I'm the one who's sleeping with your best mates boyfriend!'. Yeah, like that would help her.

I wish I could leave it, just push it to the side and forget about it. She doesn't want anything to do with me anymore, but I can't let her go… even when I've left her heart. She'll always be in mine. I wish, there was some way I could show her that, just make all the pain go away. I'll always be able to look at her as a mate, but never anything more, not again. Maybe that's what she wants, just for someone to be able to look at her like they love her. Someone for her to lean on when she feels down, but it can't be me. Never again…