A/N Oh our poor boys! Why did they put themselves through this...and also us? Chapter 2 is Kurt's turn. This story gets pretty sad, before it levels out to happy, which you all know...so that helps.
I do not own Glee or anything really.
Kurt sat on Rachel's bed in her old house just looking around and running through the scene at Pac's in the rain over and over in his head. When he had arrived at Rachel's house, her dad had taken one look at him and pulled him in for a fierce hug. He said he knew what Kurt was going through and that he completely understood. Kurt took a little solace in the fact that at least his marriage never happened, instead of breaking up after 20+ years. Rachel's dad got Kurt a glass of water and told him that he was pretty sure Rachel would be home soon, so Kurt decided to wait.
"Hey, Rachel," Kurt said quietly, when she finally walked in. So far the tears were just glistening in his eyes, but as she came over to hug him, he finally couldn't hold it at bay anymore and they began to fall. Rachel didn't say a word. She just hugged Kurt and let him cry. When he had quieted, she chastely kissed him on the temple and they turned towards each other on the bed.
Kurt told Rachel about how he had shown up for their six month meeting. It had been raining and how he stood there, the only one who remembered to go. Of course he understood that she wasn't going to make it, and was not at all surprised that Blaine did not come because he had ruined that. But he was hopeful that the others would come. In his heart, he had been hopeful that Blaine would come and they could fix things.
"Well, I was the only one who showed up. And you were clearly in the midst of a breakdown. And...well...Blaine...I blew it. I blew the best thing that ever happened to me."
Rachel asked Kurt if he thought that maybe Kurt was just lonely, but he knew better. He still didn't fully understand what had happened to him, to make him push Blaine away. He explained how his therapist said he had this thing with love, that maybe he doesn't believe that he can end up happy and that he fought with Blaine as a way to stay connected to him.
"Men fight as a way to stay connected but Blaine wasn't like that. He wasn't afraid of intimacy. H-has he said anything?" Kurt stammered out. He could not stand the thought of Blaine suffering even more than it hurt him.
"He seems to be in a good place about it," Rachel answered reluctantly. How was she going to tell Kurt about Dave?
Kurt was so happy to hear that Blaine seemed okay. He asked Rachel to set up a meeting. He had the first glimmer of hope that maybe he could fix this. Rachel asked how he thought he would fix things long distance.
"Maybe it doesn't have to be long distance! Look, I want to be here with you guys. You've got to help me. Maybe we can have our redemption here together," Kurt said hopefully.
Rachel told Kurt she had the perfect idea.
"Kurt, I am taking over New Directions! You should come and do it with me. You can use it as part of your work study program for school," Rachel explained.
"Rach! That sounds amazing! I can't wait to get started. I have to go get things official with NYADA. Let me know where I can meet Blaine. Thanks, Rach!" Kurt replied as he got up to go fix things with school.
"Kurt...about Blaineā¦" Rachel tried to begin. Kurt looked at her expectantly. "Nothing, I will see if he can meet you."
"I know he may not want to. I am leaving it up to you, Rachel. I know you can make this happen for me," Kurt grabbed his messenger bag and made to head out. "I love you, Rachel. I've missed you so much!"
"I love you too. I will talk to you soon," she replied, mentally kicking herself for not being able to tell her best friend about his ex.
After Kurt left, Rachel immediately called Blaine.
"Hey, Rachel!" Blaine answered happily. He had been so glad that she had visited him at Dalton and he figured she had some more notes for him about the performance.
"Hi," Rachel stammered out trying to figure out how to go about having this conversation.
"What's up?" Blaine asked as he distractedly looked through sheet music for the Warblers. He was sitting in his office at Dalton and his mind was completely preoccupied with all things Warbler.
"Are you sitting down?" Rachel asked him.
"Yeah," he laughed, wondering about the absurdity of her query. He finally clued in to the fact that maybe something was wrong. "What's going on? Is everything okay?"
"Yeah, everything is fine, Blaine," Rachel quickly replied. "But I have something to tell you and I think it is going to take you by surprise. Just trying to figure out how to tell you."
"Rachel, if you are going to tell me that you are coaching New Directions, I already know and I think it's amazing! Schue called me when he found out. I realize we will be rivals, but we can totally do this. Our schools need us," Blaine rambled on.
"Yeah, I am taking over New Directions, that's true," Rachel started in again. Gosh, this was hard. She had no idea how Blaine was going to react and really wished she hadn't been put in this position. Finally she went on, "I am going to have help, Blaine. Kurt's going to co-direct as part of his work study program at NYADA. He's back in Lima." This comment was met with complete silence from the other end of the line. "Blaine? Are you there?"
"Uh, yeah. I'm here." Blaine's heart started racing a mile a minute at the mention of Kurt being in Ohio. He had to remind himself to breathe. How was he expected to deal with this?!
"There's more, Blaine," Rachel went on and Blaine had to force his breath in and out. "He wants to see you. He wants to clear the air," Rachel knew she should tell Blaine everything but she decided not to put herself in the middle of this mess.
"Um...okay," Blaine replied. "I don't know if I can do that, Rach." He had finally gotten his breathing under control and was forcing himself to remain calm. His anger was flaring just under the surface that Kurt would think that he would just be ready to see him.
"It's up to whatever you want, Blaine but you guys are going to see each other. It might be a good idea to just get everything out in the open. I tried to tell him about Karofsky but I couldn't. I just didn't know how. But he has to know," Rachel answered.
"Yeah, you are right," Blaine replied, remembering Dave for the first time in this conversation. Of course he had to tell Kurt about David. It would kill Kurt if he found out from anyone other than him. And no matter how mad at Kurt he was, he didn't actually want to hurt him. "I need to tell him about Dave. It's going to hurt him, and I need to do that myself. Wow, that came out wrong," he laughed but without real humor in his voice. "I meant that I don't want him to find out some other way. He needs to hear it from me."
"So you will meet with him?" Rachel asked.
"Yeah, tell him to meet me at Scandals tonight. Dave and I are going to go anyway. We'll tell him together."
"Uh, okay," Rachel answered. "I'll text him and let him know. Bye, Sweetie."
"Bye, Rachel," Blaine clicked off his phone and put his head between his knees to keep from hyperventilating. He had finally gotten back on safe footing and then this. Why was he expected to handle so much? Having Kurt in New York gave him the buffer that he needed to keep from going over the edge and now he didn't even have that. Okay, Blaine, he thought. Pull yourself together.
He called Dave to let him know what was going on. Dave seemed to think it was a good thing. He told him that he could finally get over the last hurdle and get back to being friends with Kurt.
"That's the last step, Babe," David said. "You can truly be happy again once Kurt is back in your life as a friend. And I will be right there to help you get through this."
Blaine had never been so glad for David's support and told him so. They ended the call and Blaine realized that with Dave's help, he was going to be fine. He revisited the thought of moving in with Dave. He had such great support in him and he thought that maybe it might be good thing after all. Of course he wasn't going to make any rash decisions. He left the thought for later and got back to looking at sheet music, though his brain kept wandering over to Kurt and their last conversation at Pac's. It was going to be a long day.
