Author's Note; Ok so I know this chapter isn't as long as the first chapter but I am working on the next update right now! Hope you guys like it!

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Chapter II

I wanna be your lover

I don't wanna pressure you baby

But all I ever wanted to do

I wanna be your lover

I wanna be the only one

That makes your come, running


"You can't be serious," Meredith exclaimed, grabbing the results from her hands. She read them over and over, hoping maybe the answers will change if she tried hard enough. This couldn't be real.

"It's true," Cristina said cautiously. She watched Meredith as her face was pale, extremely.

"Mer?" Cristina said, Meredith's face was in horror as she looked back up at her best friend.

"What are you going to do?" She asked cautiously.

"I got to find Derek," Meredith gulped. She folded the papers and hurried off. Finding Derek was the only thing she was worried about. She got on the empty elevator, riding it down to the second floor. As she stepped out, she caught the eye of one of the people she didn't even think about. Finn.

Before she could turn and run the other direction, he had already made contact with her eyes. He had that cheeky grin on his face as he walked toward her. All she could do was stand still and wait.

"Hey Mere," he said, pulling her into a hug. She cringed when she heard him call her Mere. Her name was Meredith, not Mere.

"Hey Finn," she tried to smile but her pounding head and turning stomach stopped her from it.

"Is everything alright?" He questioned, she hoped he hadn't sensed anything. She really did like him but there were so many other things that were happening and he wasn't one of her main concerns.

"Um, yeah of course. I was just trying to find someone," she couldn't tell him she was looking for Derek to tell him that he was going to be a dad.

"Oh, well I got a call from Bailey saying you were sick and I just wanted to come check up on you," he seemed genuine which made Meredith feel worse. She in no way wanted to tell Finn she was pregnant with Derek Shepherd's child. At least not yet, not until he knew.

"Oh no, I'm fine. Well I kinda am fine. It's complicated. I think you should go because I need to head back to work and you have some cute little animal to save," she tried to lie, her sentences were stopping as she tried to swallow the fluid creeping up her esophagus. Lying made her nausea worse, a lot worse.

"Meredith you don't sound fine. I don't want to leave you here if you are sick," he tried to say, making her start to feel annoyed. She tried to stay nice, he was sweet to her but she was not feeling in a nice mood at the moment.

"I am fine, I will explain things later. I just need..." Her sentence stopped as she saw Derek coming right toward her. She wanted to run, to flee. How the hell did this happen to her? She just wanted to crawl into a ball, waiting for the world to take her. Derek still had the worried look on his face as he approached the pair.

"I finally found you Mer," Derek said as he got to the two standing there. He wanted to reach out and touch her, having Finn around made him want to be superior.

"Derek," Finn said with a nod before returning his eyes to Meredith.

"Mer have you gotten any test results back? Shouldn't you still be in the bed? Does Cristina know you're up walking now around?" Derek started spitting questions at her. She was becoming overwhelmed by it all, a thick, burning liquid was making it's way up[ her esophagus as she tried to swallow it.

"What test results?" Finn questioned, he glanced curiously between the two people in front of him.

"I..." She started before running to the nearest trash bin. Her stomach poured out of her body and she nearly fainted into whomever was behind her.

"Meredith," he asked, rubbing her back as she was leaned over. He wanted to know so bad what was wrong with her, he hated it.

"I'm-I am pregnant. I wanted to tell you seperate but now I can't. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry," she sobbed. Both men stood shocked, they looked at each other. Derek didn't know how to react, was it his? Was he going to be a father? He looked at her for answers as she wiped the tears that fell.

"Meredith can I speak with you?" Finn asked. She nodded, giving Derek an apologetic smile and she walked into an on-call with Finn.

"I just want to start by saying I know it is Derek's but if you still want to be with me, I will love this child as if it's my own," he said reassuring. She felt a little better but she was still confused. She didn't what what she wanted, all she knew was that she was having a baby and she couldn't think of anything else. Having a boyfriend was the last thing on her mind, she just wanted to explain.

"I don't know what I want. I do know that this child wasn't a mistake. I wanna talk to Derek and see what he wants to do. I want some space, so can I call you tomorrow? I'm going home after I tell Derek his options. I know you will be there," she wiped her eyes, giving Finn a small smile. He hugged her and she stiffened against him. He nodded slowly as he walked out the door, his head hung low. She slowly sank into the bed and cried softly. She didn't know what to do, it didn't help that her hormones where everywhere right now. She heard a knock on the door and sat up as Derek walked in.

"Mer," he slowly moved toward her. He felt bad, all he wanted to do was hold her and tell her everything was going to be alright. That no matter who the father was, he wanted her. She is the love of his life, there is nothing he wouldn't do for her.

"It's your child, Derek," She whispered, afraid to look at him.

"It is?" he sounded relieved, happy even. He was happy, happy that Meredith was having his child. Happy that he was finally going to have the family he wanted. Happy that for once, things were beginning to look up.

"If you don't want to be apart of this then leave now because I can't handle being around someone who is negative while I'm trying to be positive. I am having a child Derek, and whether you choose to be apart of it's life or not, that's up to you."

"I don't know what is going through your head but I do want you Meredith, I wanted you the first time I saw you in that bar and I want you even more now that you are having our baby. This baby will know who I am, I am it's father. I want to be with you Meredith. Now and forever," he said in a reassuring voice. He put his hand on hers and she pulled it away and looked into his eyes.

"Derek. I can't right now. I want some space, I need space. I will call you tomorrow, just please be ok with this," she got up and left. Her mind in so many different places. She had so many choices to make and not one of them would be easy.

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Song is I wanna be your lover by Prince