A/N: I'm sorry I am sorry I am so later. .

Woah wow guys. I didn't think this story would start off with the bang it has. It is truly surprising but extremely appreciated. I am actually in school for writing and it's great to see people complimenting my writing. Now on to the bad, not for you, for me, for the minor mistakes in sentence structure spelling or straight up what?! That is because the only time I really have to write is at night, which is why I will be posting many chapters during the early hours of the morning. I hope that is a good enough excuse, it isn't for me but I thought I owed you all an explanation.

PS: They are filming OITNB right in the back alley of my mom's job, wondering if I should go on a stalking mission. Hmmm. Also Updating may get slow after I start my new job (working for a bakery who does cakes for celebrities! they did oitnb cake too!) but I promise I will continue working on this.

LoveWins: First off awesome name! Love wins absolutely! Now onto your comment, after I read it (which was when I awoke and first checked my phone) I quickly went back to read the story, and I apologize dearly I had no idea exactly how many times had Alex call Piper 'Kid', I was even getting annoyed by myself. Lol. I will change it and keep a better eye out.

Rating: M

Genre: Angst, Hurt/Comfort, Drama, and Romance

Word count: 4,471

Warning: Trigger warning, Drug use, language, and alcohol consumption.

I...I

"Perfect" The words rolled off her mouth in the dirtiest of ways. The way her teeth pinched into her lower lip at the sound of the 'F', her perfect teeth marking her sensitive lip. "I will not tolerate a…" She didn't finish her thought, instead picking up a lock of blond hair, tisking at the deadness, as her eyes roamed over the, far too skinny, body.

"I like my hair like this." Her voice quivered. She curled into herself. She was never self-conscious, but recently.

She gasped and tugged lightly at the blond hair.

"This, this hair, you look like a hippie! I will not have a hippie fag daughter, you will fix your hair to look beyond acceptable, you are a Chapman and Chapman's do not look like…" She paused and with disgust looked up at her daughter, from her toes to her eyes. "You."

She deflated, she stared down. She took a deep breath to alleviate the sudden pressure in her chest.

"We Chapman's are perfect. Now fix yourself you are a mess." Shaking her head Carol left the room, shutting the door a little too hard, causing the little blond girl to jump. Tears brimmed her eyes, making it hard to see where she was walking.

Eventually finding her way to the bathroom, she slowly pushed open the door, walking onto the tiled floor and towards her mirror. The face that looked back at her was not one she was used to, her once vibrant blue eyes were now stained and tainted her once light blue eyes where now a dark blue and her skin was pale and sickly..

Piper's smile would radiate as bright as the sun and would cause the saddest of people to be happy. Her altruistic attitude caused many people to drift towards her, and her laughter caused goosebumps to travel up people's spine.

Now, however, things were different, and the reflection that stared back at her made her sick to her stomach. She looked away, unable to stare at herself anymore. It was then her eyes made contact with a glistening object on her sink. With trembling hands she reached for the razor that laid untouched and unused and gripped it in her hand.

Things were beginning to blur together and Piper's breathing was coming in short shallow breathes. Closing her eyes, images flew past her.

"You're useless"

"Be more like your mother!"

"You are not perfect."

"Stop being you."

"I hate you."

Placing the razor against her forearm, she applied pressure, little by little till she saw blood and then traveled down. Her chest swelled more and her breaths come in short spurts and hot tears began making their way down her now red tinged cheeks.

The razor fell to the ground, it's once clear surface now coated in blood, its flimsy frame bent from where her thumb and forefinger gripped it. Her mind grew dizzy and her eyes began to shut she was falling, the surface was hard and cold, she shook.

"Piper."

More tears flowed down her face.

"Piper."

"Piper."

"Piper."

"Piper."

Thunder struck loudly causing the blonde that laid in the four poster bed to jump up in surprise. Hey eyes scanned the room frantically wondering where she was. Thunderstruck for a second time and lightning flashed just outside of the floor to ceiling windows on the other side of the room. Cowering in fright and not understanding what was happening Piper scooted up in the bed ready to defend herself if need be.

It wasn't until she spotted her clothes hanging from a hanger across the room, and a picture of her teacher and someone who looked an awful lot like her on the bedside table that she remembered what happened last night. Groaning loudly the blond fell back onto the bed and covered her now red face.

"Good one Piper." The blonde muttered to herself. Despite the embarrassment she felt, a strange odor had the girl moving her hands away from her face and sniffing the air. Instantly the blondes blue eyes opened widely and a faint smile made her way onto her lips.

Pancakes.

Piper Chapman fucking loved pancakes.

Before Piper had the chance to decide whether or not to get up and follow the wonderful smell, her stomach seemed to make that decision for her, growling loudly from the lack of food she had consumed in the last few days.

Getting up from the bed Piper made her way to the tall windows observing the still very strong storm that was going on outside, she noticed the windows led out to a beach but the waves were out of control as if the clouds and sea where at war.

Her stomach growling again pulled her from the windows and almost forced her towards the wooden door that lead out of the room. The blonde walked along the long hallway towards the smell of the food, as she walked she couldn't help but admire the well decorated hallways and tall ceilings, the art on the wall had Piper at a complete loss for words.

It wasn't long before Piper's nose lead her to the kitchen where she was met by a sight she will not soon forget. Her teacher stay facing a stove, swaying her hips to some music that play low from the speakers above the sink. The brunette had pancake batter on the black sweat pants she was wearing, her hair was in a messy bun and she stood barefooted, leaving pancake powder footprints all over the marble floor.

Piper chuckled lowly still trying to keep herself hidden from her teacher, part from embarrassment from last night and part from the fact that she enjoyed the sight before her. Her staring was cut short however when Alex turned towards the young girl placing a full plate of pancakes next to another plate of scrambled eggs and bacon.

"Oh shit.., fuck you scared me." The taller women put her hand on her chest and smiled before putting down the plate of pancakes. "Well good morning drunky."

The small girl blushed, and looked at her feet. Alex chuckled and turned to the cupboards to grabbed three plates and separated the food amongst them. "Hey it's alright Piper, everyone gets that way sometimes no worries."

Piper looked up and smiled at her teacher. "I was really messed up wasn't I?"

"You were shit faced." The tall brunette smiled widely at her. "Well Bon Appétit." She spread her arms out, giving her permission to join her in the kitchen island to eat. Sitting down quickly the blonde reached for her utensils and began eating. "Hungry I see."

Piper swallowed a mouth full of food, before her cheeks turned red and she picked up a napkin and wiped the little syrup that started to make its way down her chin. Alex laughed and wiped her own chin.

"Who is the third plate for?" Piper asked to trying to change the focus of her teacher's attention onto something else. Alex opened her mouth to say something but at that exact moment her doorbell rang.

Standing up Alex excused herself and walked to her front door, Piper keeping an eye on her the entire time, wondering who this crazy person was, traveling in this weather. The doorbell rang again this time followed by a series of knocks and a very loud yelling.

"Vause open the damn door!" Piper heard Alex laugh before the door opening, followed by the sound of wind and rain, and some women's voice. "Finally! Shit I was getting soaked out there."

"Nice to see you too Nicky." The blonde can almost hear Alex's eyes rolling in her head.

"Close that door, and do I smell pancakes? Oh geese Vause you shouldn't have." Piper looked up from her plate to the crazed hair woman who had just walked into the kitchen. Nicky stopped mid walk when her eyes made contact with Piper's, Nicky turned to make eye contact with Alex, before turning back to Piper.

"Hey you must be Piper. What's up I'm Nicky." Piper smiled at the new girl and nodded her head. Nicky smirked at the young girl same as Alex does, and moved to sit in the seat next to Alex's before she began shoving pancakes and bacon into her mouth.

"So Piper, I heard you had a pretty wild night." Piper looked up from her now empty plate at Nicky, then at Alex.

"Yeah I got… Pretty drunk."

"How do you feel?" Piper thought about her question, she had never drank before but she did know that people are usually sick after a night of heavy drinking, but she seemed fine.

"Actually I feel okay, I was just really hungry." Alex chuckled at that before she began to clear the table and wash the dishes.

"Glad you are feeling okay kid, unfortunately you won't be going home any time soon." Piper raised her eyebrows at that.

"Why not?" Not that Piper was complaining exactly.

"Have you seen outside blondie is like the fucking end of time out there?" Piper looked out of the kitchen window again seeing the rain that seemed to be getting worse instead of better, "Roads, busses and trains are closed until the rain lets up."

Piper's body went rigid thinking of how her mom is, and wondering if her mom even knew Piper was missing.

"You can call your parents on my phone and let them know you are safe, and that as soon as the storm calms down I'll take you home." Alex had said now drying her soapy hands, but Piper shook her head.

"No it's okay Ms. Vause really, my mom won't notice… I mean she knows I am staying at a friend's house this weekend, she won't be worried." Alex raised her eyebrows at Piper but before she could speak up the sound of Nicky's voice interrupted her thoughts.

"Oh Ms. Vause I like that it rolls of the tongue really nicely." Nicky said with humor in her voice.

"Oh fuck off Nick." Alex rolled her eyes and turned to face Piper. "Alex, kid, you can call me Alex. And are you sure you don't want to call your parents just in case."

"Alex." Piper said in a low voice smiling. "I like that name it fits you well." Piper said deliberately avoiding Alex's other comment. Alex made a note of it and will talk to her about it later when she sat Piper down.

"So gals I don't know much about meteorology but it doesn't seem like this storm is going to let up soon, So I brought some movies… if you are… interested." Nicky smirked at the two girls hiding the two movies behind her back. Piper didn't see the harm in watching a movie but the look Alex was giving her Piper felt like she should be worried. Before any of the girls could answer Nicky ran to the living room.

Alex chuckled and sighed. "I hope you like scary movies Pipes, when she has that smile on her face that means something scary, always."

"Yo want to make some popcorn?!" Rolling her eyes the brunette pulled out a bag of popcorn and put it in the microwave.

15 minutes later the three women were sat in Alex's living room Alex and Piper on the loveseat and Nicky laid out on the full sized sofa, with the bowl of popcorn on her stomach.

"So what exactly are you going to force us to watch today?" Alex asked with a raised eyebrow. Nicky gave Alex a shit eating grin.

"Only one of the best scary movies of all time." Nicky turned on the television and Alex's surround sound system blared with a loud noise as red words formed on the screen,

"Oh god Nick really?"

"The Exorcist Bitches!"

I...I

Despite the rain outside Alex had her air conditioner on causing a cold frost to set in, in the large living room. Nicky lay watching intently at the movie, covered from neck to toe in a white blanket. Piper sat with her knees to her chest, eyes barely visible from where she hid in the blanket. Alex shared the blanket with Piper not really using much of it instead preferring to wear a large hoody and her sweatpants.

Piper jumped and covered her face with the soft blanket when the girl in the movie began running down the stair upside down, followed by a very drastic orchestra symphony. Alex instinctively wrapped her arms around the blonde, noting unconsciously how well, she fit in her arms.

"Hey Pipes." Alex whispered. "You know this is fake right?" Piper slipped her head out from underneath her blanket and stared at Alex as she had just grown a second head.

"Alex you are a writing teacher!" Alex raised her sculpted eyebrow at Pipers comment not seeing how that related to what Alex had said before.

"So..?"

Piper sighed

"It said in the beginning of the movie it was based on true events!" Alex chuckled and rolled her eyes and her young student.

"That is true but I promise you most of the scenes in the movie are dramatized, and no possessed girl is going to attack you."

The girl looked at Alex skeptically, and Alex couldn't help the smile that appeared on her face, Piper just looked so innocent.

Once The Exorcist was over and Nicky all but forced the two girls to sit through yet another scary movie, it was late afternoon, Nicky was passed out on the couch and Piper and Alex stood in the kitchen, Alex preparing dinner.

They were quiet for some time, Alex facing the stove as she made her sauce for the pasta they were going to have. It might have been quiet in the kitchen but Alex was having a huge debate in her head, as to whether or not she should bring up what had happened last night.

Alex turned towards the small blonde who was running her fingers over the sleeves of her shirt.

"Hey Pipes." Piper looked up from her sleeve and up at her teacher, Piper gave her a wide smile.

"Hey Alex." Alex smirked. She went to sit on the seat opposite Piper's and looked into Piper's blue eyes. "We have to talk about last night kid." Piper's smile faltered slightly and she looked down at her lap, wrapping her arms around her midsection.

"Hey, hey don't be like that Piper, look at me." Piper looked up into Alex's eyes and saw safety in them, she felt a wave of comfort flow through her body. "You trust me don't you?" Piper nodded slowly. "You're safe here Piper you don't have to talk about anything that makes you uncomfortable." Alex reached out to grab ahold of Piper's smaller hand. "I just want to help you."

Piper took a deep breath and looked back at Alex, seeing nothing but honesty in her eyes. Piper nodded.

"Okay." Alex smiled slightly and motioned with her head for Piper to take her time. It took a while for Piper to get her thoughts in order, but once she did, the small girl swallowed hard and sighed.

"I wasn't having a good day on Friday." Piper gripped her sleeve bringing it lower down to cover her scars. "Some stuff happened at home and well I guess my friends noticed I wasn't myself, so they invited me to go to this party." Alex nodded not to interrupt Piper, but making a mental note to ask about her home life. "I was supposed to stay at Poussey house, you know she is in Advance Writing." Alex nodding knowing the girl Piper was referring to.

"Yeah Ms. Washington."

"Yeah," Piper nodded. "So any way I had agreed to go, so I went to the football game and then to this party by the water, and as soon as I walked in I was given a cup of red liquid, it tasted good so I just well-kept drinking, thinking maybe it will help me forget, you know?" Alex knew too well.

"What was the drink Piper?"

"It was… I think they called it Jungle Juice." Alex nodded knowing exactly what Jungle juice was. "So I drank… a lot. After I decided to go relax away from the dancing and alcohol, er uhm Larry, asked me to go smoke with him and some friends. I don't know I was drunk so I thought why not? You know?" Alex gave the girl a small smile, there was no judgement in her face, which gave Piper the confidence to continue talking. "We smoked a lot, like I remember feeling light, and well happy, I guess. I was okay until… Larry started to touch me."

Alex stood up straighter at that, fear behind those green eyes. "Did he hurt you Piper?"

Piper shook her head but looked down. "He was just groping me, running his hand up my thigh putting his hand in my shirt." Piper stopped for a second to take a breath she seemed to be holding. "I told him to stop but he was drunk. He talked to me and his mouth smelled like alcohol and it reminded me of my mo-... of someone I know, so I got nervous and I ran. That was when I met you." Alex nodded at Piper's story, she would have to have a talk with Larry.

"Piper thank you for sharing with me." Piper nodded and once again went to play with the sleeves of her shirt. "Piper, hey kid," Alex looked at Piper with concern. "What about… those." Piper knew what she was talking about, and seemed to retract into herself, and shook her head. "Please Piper, I need you to trust, me I want to help you." Piper looked up and saw unshed tears in Alex's green orbs.

"It started when I was younger… I was maybe 13, when I told my mom that I think I was gay." Piper's voice was low and Alex had to strain to hear the young girl but when she did, Alex eyebrows shot up and her heart broke all over again for this girl. "She looked at me like I was crazy… we are Chapman's… We are normal we are perfect we didn't like girls we… we like boys and we are perfect," Piper's voiced strained at the word Perfect. "My mom she tried to change me, she brought me to a church, forced me to meet one on one with the priest every Saturday." Alex was angry, but she didn't let it show, only nodding to show Piper that she was still listening.

"She tried to change me, but nothing worked, and I guess I rebelled against her. I wore what I wanted, I wore my hair how I wanted, I acted like I wanted, but she… she didn't like it, and she was sure to remind me of it. One day I just snapped, she had started drinking, and… well she became even more… demanding." Piper forced that word out unsure of another word to use. "So I changed to make her happy, but no matter what I did I wasn't, her perfect child, I was an outcast, she hated me, so… one day I took a razor, and ran it down the length of my arm, hopping that would keep me grounded, and… it did… it still does." Piper was shaking and tears were beginning to fall down her face. "I was a sophomore in high school when I saw my dad outside of a movie theater kissing another woman. I told me my mom, I thought it was the right thing, I mean it is, isn't it? I guess it wasn't, my parents divorced and I was forced to move to the city with my mom." Piper was picking at her scabs now, trying to alleviate the pressure in her chest.

Alex sat back in her seat trying to comprehend everything the girl had just told her. Her heart ached in her chest as she remembered when she was a young child and when she also came out as Gay, to her friends and mom. Alex looked up at Piper and noticed the small tears that were falling from her red eyes and her fingers as they absentmindedly picked at the scabs. Alex stood up quickly and walked towards the younger girl, squatting down to get eye level with the teenager. Piper looked at Alex and she saw all the pain that this girl has been holding in for so long. Instinctively Alex wrapped her arms around Piper protectively as Piper wrapped arms around her and cried into her shoulder. Alex couldn't stop the few tears that also made its way down her face.

"I'm sorry Piper." Alex felt Piper shaking her head at what Alex said. "I'm here kid, I promise I won't let anything happen to you." Piper gripped Alex's hoodie tighter as Piper continued to cry. A few minutes later Alex let go of Piper and ran the pads of her thumb over Piper's cheek trying to clear away the tear tracks that were left behind.

"Pipes I need you to know you are perfect, and you do not have to keep doing this to yourself." Alex ran her fingers gently over Pipers wounds. "Please promise me you will try and stop hurting yourself." Alex pleaded with the young girl. Piper looked down at her lap not responding to Alex's pleads.

"I don't know how to stop…" Alex sighed sadly before standing up to remove some things out of a junk drawer. Alex made her way back to Piper and gently grabbed her wrist, placing two rubber bands over her them.

"Use these." Alex gently pulled a band back and let it gently return to Piper's skin, not allowing the band to hurt the blonde. "Whenever you get these urges I want you to use these." Piper looked intently at the rubber bands, stretching one out and letting it fall to her skin. She felt a rush of pain, which soon faded but offered a similar feeling of relief. Piper looked up at Alex and nodded.

"Okay."

Alex couldn't resist the urge to hug the young girl before her. Alex vowed at that moment that she will never let anything or anyone hurt Piper again, a wave protectiveness grew in her and she hugged Piper tighter.

"I'm hungry."

Alex couldn't help the laugh that flew out of her mouth at the Piper's young voice whispering lowly into her ear. Standing up Alex made her way to the stove to finish dinner.

"Pipes think you can grab some plates, while I wake the beast." Piper laughed and nodded making her way to the cabinet to retrieve the plates. Piper reached up attempting to reach the plates that were higher than she can reach, Alex looked over at the blonde smirking slightly at the sight. The shirt Piper was wearing road up on her stomach a bit and Alex couldn't seem to take her eyes off that small patch of skin. Wait what? Alex shook her head, trying to rid her mind of those thoughts.

"Alex can you uh…" Alex turned towards the girl stretching to reach the plates and gulped, she was gorgeous. Shutting her eyes Alex cursed under her breath.

"Fuck me" One thing could definitely be said.

Alex Vause was fucked.

I...I

Alex grabbed the nerf gun she kept in her junk drawer for moments just like this. Alex cocked the gun and pulled the trigger, the small foam bullet flew through the air and into Nicky's main.

"Ugh so close." Alex took another shot aiming slightly lower this time hitting the blond directly on the forehead causing the wild hair women to fall off the sofa in fright.

"What the fuck?!" Alex laughed when Nicky stood up grabbing a bullet from the floor and throwing it at Alex, which missed by a lot.

"It's dinner time Pennywise."

"Fuck you."

"Time and place babe." Alex winked at Nicky, and watched as she gagged at Alex's words. Making their way to the kitchen the two women joined Piper in eating there dinner.

I...I

"... and he said 'He's not an eggplant… He's retarded!" Piper laughed at Nicky's joke while Alex rolled her eyes, "What Vause?! It's fucking funny okay, see here Piper thought so."

The three girls stood around the island in Alex's kitchen, plates cleared of all food.

"So what do you guys want to do for the rest of the night, it doesn't seem like the rain is letting up anytime soon." Alex asked as she leaned all the way back in her seat. Nicky on the other hand stood straight and gave a wicked smile.

"Hey Piper how old are ya?"

"17, why?"

Nicky's grin grew wider as she jumped out of her chair and ran to the guest bedroom, coming back later with her hand behind her back.

"I know what we can do for the rest of the night." Alex looked towards Nicky, trying to see what she had in mind. It didn't take Alex long but before she can object Nicky swung her arm out from behind her back, revealing a liter of Tequila.

"Truth or Dare Nicky style." Nicky said looking pleased with her idea.

"Nope, no way Nick, Piper is underage." Nicky's smile faltered slightly.

"Alex she is 17 we were way younger then that when we came up with this game, and don't give me that 'she is my student shit' you are a sub, and this whole night has been unethical as fuck anyway." Alex couldn't stop the blush that gently made its way onto her cheek. Nicky was right, but if something happened to Piper not only would she lose her job but she will also never forgive herself.

"Nick we ca-" Alex was interrupted by a hand being placed on top of hers. It was Piper.

"Alex we can play… don't worry about me, I probably won't even drink."

"Oh no blondie you play you drink." Nicky said waving the bottle in her face. Piper sighed rolling her eyes and shrugged.

"Okay fine but I won't drink too much, c'mon Al it should be fun, right?" Alex's mind was running on overdrive, her mind kept telling her that it will be okay, she won't let Piper get to drunk. Sighing again Alex nodded.

"Fine Nick but not too much!"

Nicky smiled widely and ran to the living room like a big kid to get the game ready. Alex looked towards Piper and saw the smile on her face as her eyes followed Nicky's steps.

Alex's chest constricted at watching the young girl smile.

This was going to be a long night.

A/N 2: Sorry guys I feel like this chapter was bleh, and I ket you waiting for it for so long. I promise I will write the story better come the next chapters. Another thing, is give me some ideas people, I suck at Fanfics because I always get blanks when I am trying to write. Tell me what you wanna see, really I am all ears, and the quicker I have an idea in my head the quicker I can write and update.

Once again I am so sorry for the lateness but I hope you enjoyed this chapter, also let me know what you all think about Alex and Piper's relationship thus far?

Happy Fourth Everyone

Peace, Love and Joy

Nicole