A/N: see bottom! Haha
Disclaimer: again, I own nothing!!
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I closed my Transfiguration book, completely finished with the day's homework. It was a difficult day. Being Head Girl on top of the year's classes was exhausting. I collapsed onto the couch, giving in to my aching muscles. Just as my heartbeat relaxed, I heard the portrait open. Draco walked in (more like sauntered in), headed past me and straight to his room. I sighed, closing my eyes.
Do you see me?
Do you hear me?
I know you can, obviously you're neither blind nor deaf. But do you?
Will you?
That's all I want.
A glance would be sufficient.
A smile… even a grin, or a shrug… that would keep me going.
A word spoken… that would make me very happy. But I know that's impossible.
But maybe a smile?
A motivation to survive the day. The long, boring, prisoner of a day.
Please?
A response would be nice. Something to know that you… you at least know I exist. Is that too much to ask for?
Hardly.
I'm watching you like a mouse. A glance my way could hardly be too difficult.
I do it all the time. I constantly make sure you are near me, close to me… but is it all in vain? Do you notice my desperate but subtle attempts?
Do you see me?
Do you notice the small changes in my attire each day… the extra touch of eyeliner and lip-gloss, some blush as well… trying to look beautiful, naturally, just as I've heard you say you like?
Or do you notice that you affect my mood?
You light up my face with a single joke in class; you light up my face just walking into the same room; you light up my face with your crude comments and avoidance of me… because you force me to adopt my mask. The one that says 'I don't care.'
The one that makes it hard to detect what I'm truly thinking or feeling.
Do you know I'm pretending?
Do you see me?
Yes, says my mind.
I closed my notebook. Put my quill away.
I heard footsteps. Draco bounced downstairs again and went outside.
Without a backward glance.
Do you see me?
No, says my heart.
He doesn't.
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A/N: What do u think? As you can see, I don't have the ability to be fully sad… I made Draco 'bounce' down the stairs… it amused me lol. I'm not sure where this is going for now… just random drabbles I guess. Tell me what you think and maybe I could make something out of it?
