Things went from bad to worse on the Akiko mansion case. Something inside Hisoka was changing and he was scared. He kept feeling strong anger for no reason at all. His dreams were getting worse he no longer dreamed about Kyoto his dreams were full of blood and suffering and he was the one causing it. Hisoka was very worried, the last thing he wanted to do was kill someone in a brutal sense the last time that had happened with Tsubaki he had compared himself to Muraki and believed it for ages.

He felt like he was losing his mind. These thoughts and feelings were not his but yet it was his body doing all these things. He didn't understand it. Hisoka couldn't tell Tsuzuki about the dreams. Tsuzuki would think he was a demon a monster just like his parents said he was. He was becoming like Tsuzuki was, he was starting to doubt his own humanity and was starting to hate himself. He already hated himself and he was already branded a demon but it didn't make it any better.

Ever since he saw that woman in the red kimono everything started getting worse. He could still see her and hear her voice. In his dreams he also saw a door, a large door with a circle drawn on it and he kept going over to the door. But each time he could feel someone there and he faded and woke up back on the futon. All Hisoka knew was that he was going to do something awful he didn't want to hurt anyone.

Everything fell apart so quickly and neither Tsuzuki nor Hisoka expected it. They were walking around outside and they came to a shrine. The Ruka shrine, something flared inside him hearing that name and Hisoka was suddenly full of unease. His uneasiness increased when they met the head priest of the shrine Ruka Yoji. Hisoka was suddenly full with anger and before he knew it he had pushed the man to the ground.

"Hisoka? What are you doing? Hisoka!" Tsuzuki had cried out. Hisoka's eyes widened when he realized what he had just done. "Ah. Ah! I'm sorry!" But Yoji had already backed away in fear. "It's you! Akiko Kaori! You're attempting it again!" Hisoka's voice changed suddenly. "That's right I've failed so many times before and now I will do it I've found the perfect little puppet to do it. I will get my revenge on your family and the Midori family!" Hisoka snapped out of it suddenly.

"What's going on? Tsu-Tsuzuki what's happening to me?" Tsuzuki didn't even know how to answer him. "I'm so sorry Ruka-san I didn't mean to hurt you like that." "Stay away from me! I don't want to deal with this anymore! I've seen too much! Too many people have been hurt because of you! My granddaughter will be the one to stop this I'm too old to deal with this and my powers aren't strong enough to face you." And Yoji got up and walked away. Hisoka tried to go after him but Tsuzuki grabbed his arm and shook his head. "Let him be Hisoka." He told him.

They found out later that Yoji had taken his own life. Words could not even describe the guilt Hisoka felt for it. He didn't talk the whole night he was so scared at what Tsuzuki thought of him. Tsuzuki just sat there silently not knowing what to say to Hisoka. Hisoka didn't know what to do, he could feel himself becoming alone again and he didn't want that. He didn't want to be alone. But he was so scared at what he was becoming. He didn't even feel like Kurosaki Hisoka anymore. He wasn't Kurosaki Hisoka anymore. He was what his parents had told him and he didn't deserve Tsuzuki in his life anymore. Nothing but dark thoughts were filling Hisoka now.

'If I have to be alone again then I can't face the world anymore. I should have just accepted that I shouldn't be allowed love. I'm such a baka! I'm nothing but a worthless weak pathetic demon that doesn't deserve anything.' Hisoka could feel the other presence Kaori growing stronger inside his head. 'Get out of my mind! I don't want to kill! I don't want to kill those who are not at their time yet!' It was then that Kaori spoke to him.

"But you've still killed haven't you? You're a Shinigami and you shot a girl who wasn't even at her time." 'That was different she asked me to kill her and the people that we take are already supposed to die and we have to move them on. You should move on too.' "I'll never move on and I won't now because I have a great use for you empath. Your memories interest me and you were destined to do this for me." Kaori replied.

"What do you mean?" "You still don't know you foolish child? My mother Akiko Hana used to be named Kurosaki Hana she was born in Kamakura. You're a distant relative of mine. I knew when I saw your eyes that you were definitely a Kurosaki from my mother's side of the family." Hisoka was in shock. 'No! No I won't believe it! I don't want to be involved with my family anymore.' "Only you can do this for me Hisoka you will be the one to complete my revenge." "SHUT UP!" Hisoka screamed.

Tsuzuki looked up stunned at Hisoka's sudden outburst. Hisoka trembled and then he took off running out of the house. He kept on running until he reached a cliff. He looked down at the water below. "Idiot it'll take more than that to kill you. You're a Shinigami and you cannot escape this." "I won't listen to you! Anything is better than having to face Tsuzuki's hate for me I'd rather leave him now and stop being a burden to him." 'That's right.' He thought to himself. 'If I go then I won't have to kill. I don't want to kill...' He stepped off the cliff and felt himself falling. He hit the water.

He could feel something wrapping itself around him tightly but Hisoka couldn't see anything. Everything was so dark and he blanked out. He could feel something thumping against his chest and his throat burned because he had swallowed too much water. He found himself coughing and gasping for breath and finally he could see again. Tsuzuki leaned over him his eyes full with panic and fear and hurt.

"Tsu-Tsuzuki." He gasped between breaths. Tsuzuki brushed Hisoka's wet fringe out of his eyes. And then without a word he picked Hisoka up and teleported them back to the mansion. Hisoka would have asked him what he was doing but his throat was too sore and he could feel Tsuzuki trying not to get too angry at him. Shit now he felt bad. Tsuzuki threw a towel in his direction, Hisoka caught it with his shaking hands and he also gave him some clean clothes too. Under Tsuzuki's watch he got changed and then he dried himself off.

"Why did you do that Hisoka? Did you know how scared I was when I saw you go over the cliff? Did you even THINK as to how much pain you would have caused everyone if you had died? Did you?" Hisoka hid his face. Tsuzuki lifted his chin up. "Don't look away from me." Hisoka trembled. "You're hurting me Tsuzuki." He mumbled. "You're hurting me Hisoka! I love you damn it! How could you even think about doing something like that?" "And what you tried to do in Kyoto wasn't any different?" Hisoka snapped back.

"I'm not who you think I am anymore Tsuzuki. I'm not Hisoka anymore. I'm a demon and I would have ended up hurting you anyway." Tsuzuki grasped Hisoka's shoulders. "Stop it don't say such sad things. I don't want you to start doubting yourself either. You are human Hisoka like you told me I was and you are Kurosaki Hisoka. I'll never doubt that." "B-but I drove a human to committing suicide. I killed him Tsuzuki and I can't, I can't take this anymore I'm losing my mind Tsuzuki." Hisoka burst into tears.

"It's my fault! It's all my fault! I should have never been born! She's a distant relative of mine Tsuzuki! Akiko Kaori's mother used to be part of the Kurosaki clan!" Hisoka sobbed clutching onto Tsuzuki's arms. Tsuzuki wrapped his arms around him tightly and soothed him. Hisoka clung to him the entire time sobbing. "Shh Hisoka it's not your fault. We'll get through this I promise. I'll always be here for you baby and don't you ever forget it." They remained there in each others arms the entire night. Hisoka cried until he fell asleep and Tsuzuki just continued to hold him and he would never ever let him go...