Sitting. Waiting. Sitting. Waiting.
An endless cycle, really. I didn't mind waiting on my friends when they were late but now I feel as if I can't stand it.
I should've been better than this. There's nothing else I can think of. I'm smart, I'm in a relationship-a great one. Yet, something...this...it's not like it meant anything, I think?
The thought of ridding this from me, yes, I wanted to but this wasn't America, it wasn't legal and if I could...we both had to go. There was no other options, I couldn't tell him that night. I was suppose to but we ended up in that scene. Now what?
"Michiru!"
I looked over, Hotaru, "What's up?" I asked, shattering those thoughts.
"Have you heard? The wonderful news?" She smiled, so innocent and care-free.
"What news?"
"The King and Queen are finally expecting, after so many years! Isn't this great!"
Silence from me. Is this true? I knew they were trying and it put them through some issues, which is why it happened. Expecting? How-"Ho-how great, this is good news. Where did you hear it from?" I asked her, trying not to sound guilty.
"Rei."
Damn. I hoped it was a rumor.
"Is something wrong, you don't seem happy about this? Don't you remember how-"
"Damnit Hotaru, don't remind me, I know!" I snapped...what? I didn't mean to, I just. Oh no, she looks upset. Do something. "Hotaru...I'm sorry. I just." I hugged her. I seemed to work for now.
Hours passed, I had to talk to him to tell him. There's nothing I could do, Haruka would be home in a few hours. I looked at my watch, waiting at the park in the evening. It's not surprising, the people knew we were guardians to the King and Queen, friends. Which is why this wouldn't be something anyone would think of.
"Michiru?"
His voice, finally. I turned around, he wore common clothing, blending in well. "Mamoru...I had to-"
"Why? We shouldn't, you know this." He looked upset.
Really, at me? "I heard about you and Usagi, is it really true?"
Mamoru sighed, "yes. She found out a couple days ago but with the last times, we had to be sure. You called me for this?"
"No, I..."
"We can't see each other, not alone...ever." He told me and it ripped me a part, almost. Why?
"Mamoru-"
"No Michiru, we...it'll hurt her and I love her." He began to walk away.
I felt so used, it's not like it was only me, we both decided to jump into that sinful bed. "Mamoru..." he didn't turn or stop. "Mamoru...I'm pregnant!" I panic, yelling that at him. At that moment he quickly turned around and walked to me, grabbing my shoulders.
"What the hell, Michiru?! You have Haruka, why are you making this up!"
"I'm not."
"Stop! This isn't the time or place-" he quiet down and let go of me when a few people walked by. When they were out of sight, he began, "Usagi doesn't need to hear lies, especially in her state, if she lost this one. I don't know what I'd do." He looked sad.
"Jump into bed with me." I mumbled but he heard anyway, "I am not lying, Mamoru, I've never lie to you. I...I was trying to tell you the other day. But when you were explaining your problem, I couldn't add more to that. I know I'm not myself but I didn't expect this to happen."
"Neither did I, I love her so much and what happened between us was a mistake, it shouldn't even-it was just a nice change going from her upset and angry because she wanted children and so going from that many losses and Usako's mood swings to you; understanding and sweet. I'm sorry, this isn't helping."
"Listen to me...I am. And I don't know what to do, for once I feel so stupid. I can't even explain this to Haruka if she ever found out-oh no, Haruka!" I looked at my watch.
"Michiru?"
"I have to go, I can't..."
He held my hand, "we'll figure something out. For now, please I can't let her know or anyone."
I force a smile, "I can't either, I love Haruka too much to hurt her as well."
I left him there, finally it was out in the open. I tried to feel better but I couldn't. I stopped running, the King was expecting an heir, great-fantastic. What would happen when word got out about a bastard child? I clench on to my stomach, either I was feeling sick from all this drama or it might be hard to hide this from the world. Either way, I was running late and had to see Haruka before she grew suspicious of my tardiness.
Hint: Michelle is what Haruka calls Michiru as a cute pet name. Got it? Good! )
