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As all the other authors on this site. I don't own Naruto

Kensha's face look like Kushina Uzumaki ..Her black-red hairs are tied like Mikoto Uchiha and her outfit is same as Mei Terumi (the mizukage) dyed in black .. her eyes are brown...and skin yellowish white...

italic kensha's sub-conscious self


With the ominous sage of mount myoboku

"I think the prophesy child will have to face a difficult choice….. I see him finding it difficult to choose between his lover and the role as the child of prophesy" the older sage stated...

"I am sure …he will save the world….rather than choosing a single individual…" the purple toad said..

"The intensity of the bond I see ...is not something he could fight off easily…yet there is hope that the girl will help him making the right decision…"..he answered..


3 years from my arrival to Mount myoboku... Land of toads...

"Wake up Kensha-chan.. It's already late for training"

It didn't took me even a heartbeat to recognize Gamatatsu-kun's voice.

So…what do you have for today Kensha…?

Another day...What a drag ... I am absolutely hating this life...

Come out of it… stop random thoughts…that is a rule….

Yeah rules… I have to keep them in my mind ….rules ….rules...rules….

The more you sleep, the more you need sleep….

At last I am getting up….a total of 144 heartbeats wasted in all my waking up programmed….again I feel proud of my ability to count heartbeats involuntarily…it's like a

Kekkai genkai…

Yeah…may be…these words they use here are very difficult to write and speak….yet…they are beautiful to hear and read…

Again your unconnected thought generation….

I am a freak...I know… No need to make me realize daily…

You should follow the schedule...and keep thinking all this in parallel with it….

In between these arguments,I finally find myself moving and doing the basic morning routines…

Okay…we are behind the schedule...move faster...

I like flashback of my life… Peoples see flashback of their life at their last moment of existence…but I do it daily…while going to fukasaku and shima.

So here I am , Kensha… a teenage girl,average height,average weight but above average lazyness , wearing a black kimono, which is very big one for me.I am here for 3 years … shima and fukasaku found me roaming on this place which is thought completely safe from intrusion…Initially they were wishing to get me to jiraya who is their student…but I insisted to stay here and live with them... and soon we became like family….

Today we have to work on sage jutsu ….

I know … I know… you need not to tell everyday …

I sighed and took a few more steps while my eyes were focused at the rising sun….

Although I have not met Jiraya…yet I know he would be a good person…. Not just because of fukasaku's utter trust in him but also because I remember vaguely about the story which is going here…. Ninja villages, ninja wars, summoning…etc... all of it …I have fragments of memories which keep joining together when fukasaku tell me about them…or when shima and I begin our talks…ladies talk a lot ..Nothing new to me….

How come you move off the topic so quickly….we are trying to get a basic summary of what has happened to you until now….

I sighed again…and turned my head towards the path leading to the oil fountain….one thing I observed is that in this world…everything is given a very charismatic name…. the name of the places…the name of techniques…they all are beautifully and deliberately named….. But I like to give my own names….and peoples usually get irritated by it….even frogs…

You are pathetic…

Okay. okay…I can complete it before reaching….so here I was…when we become like a family…they began to tell me about this world…and about how peoples live here….and about the hidden village of leaf….and their connection with the shinobi's of that village….I naturally was curious and since that day I spend more than 3 hours daily on average just listening to stories of past….about the possibilities in future…and about techniques and all that stuff…..

Keep going…

In a year I was able to interact with them fluently… I think that I had Japanese tongue in my previous life too…. so It took me less time to learn all of it again… But that is not a problem... They are very observant... They can read your expressions and tell you what you want to say... Our first conversation was based on this fact only...

Is it necessary to drag this to every detail….we are reaching there in 20 heartbeats….

Okay…I have to summarize quickly…..they began to teach me….and it was harder than it appears to be….hadn't been my rules with me…I would have given up on the 2nd day….it takes a lot to control your chakra. which I think is the electromagnetic field generated by nervous system … it takes months to take out the smallest bit of hope in learning these things…I spend 6 months to just be able to stick a leaf to my head with chakra….

There you reach….again with an unfinished summary….we will try again tomorrow...

"Kensha chan…. You are getting lazier day by day…should we try a different time for training"

I know its fukasaku's voice…not very difficult to recognize…but it takes a lot to guess direction…. This place is so artistically build that sounds dance in all directions of they leave their source….

(HIT)

Ouch….

"How many times I tell you to not think this much… half of the time you are just thinking rubbish..."

How can I explain to him that I try hard to stop it …but it cannot change …I am like this and will remain like this….

"Sorry…sensei…I will not be late tomorrow…I will try to be on time next time"

I said this apathetically….my face don't show much of emotions…but I keep a weak smile all the time….more as to not look gloomy and sad than to show any interest...

"Its 4 years now….and what you can do is to climb trees and walk on water….you are really weak in spirit …your lack of interest in reality is what makes you learn this slowly…"

I looked down…. And sighed again…..how can I explain to him…that to do this much is an achievement to me…..it is better than doing nothing…..

"She is trying hard….you should not be this harsh..." said shima…coming to my shoulder….

Shima has always been supportive…..and I think she knows how my mind is….it takes me a lot to take my thoughts to words and then words to action….

"I am going to do more sage training today" I said gently moving towards the fountain of toad oil…

There are things apart from my ability to count heartbeats unconsciously…that make me different….like my emotions….they are very tranquil…I don't remember the last time I was excited…or sad….it's like I don't get affected by what I am doing…or what is coming next…...I don't feel any excited about my future…and that is the proper reason why I am here among toads and not going out to discover my place in the society …

I got in front of the fountain…and got in the position….it is the best time-pass according to me….stay still….try keeping your thoughts calm and try uniting with nature…. It is very difficult…because very less of shinobi's been able to do it …jiraya is considered to be among the finest of the sage mode users by fukasaku….. Although toads are able to learn it far easily…their bodies are naturally suited to it...

Okay….we have a whole day to sit like this….

I closed my eyes and started the training...…

In the red glow of sunset...

At last I am able to feel the sage chakra...

Yeah... we did it...and we will become better with time and training...

This training makes me feel very fatigued at the end... I think I will sleep today without any conversation with Shima...

I got to back to the small frog house I have and went straight to bed...

Don't worry much... something special will happen one day ... just wait for it...

(X)


(A/N)

Kensha ... is a character to help me get out of this manga addiction...although sorry for the errors which i can't get by first sight...my writing skill don't just suck...they make you sick...They can kill you...

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