After I passed out from Edward's words I woke up on the boat. He had packed out things and were on our way home. And for all the wrong reasons. The thoughts of what could and probably would happen made me want to pass out again. Thank heavens this boat had a bed.
I didn't know what to do with the given situation. I felt tired but I knew if I slept I'd see Aro, Caius or Demetri's face. I'd have more detailed nightmares than before. I had no idea as to how to calm myself-- that's been Edward's or Jasper's job for a while now-- but Edward couldn't do it this time. He seemed just as depressed about this as I was.
I got out of the bed to find him. He was sitting on the deck, his head in his hands. The boat must have been on auto pilot.
Seeing him this way ripped my soul. He has never looked this distraught in our entire existence together. Not when I was in the hospital, not during the new born massacre, and not even our trip in Italy. Because we both knew that this time it was a lose-lose situation. I would die or work for them.
And to think my life would get better.
Before I took a second step, Edward appeared at my side holding me. When he did this I finally yelped and cried into his shirt. I sniffled and hiccuped and he just kept rubbing my arms. At one point the took his sleeve and tried to wipe my ever flowing tears, then he wiped my nose. True love.
After twenty minutes we reached the dock. To think the last time we weere here life seemed perfect. It's a crime the way things change.
There was a cab waiting for us and Edward stuffed our bags in the trunk, grabbed my waist and out us in the car. He did the same thing when we arrived at the first airport and then the second. He never let go of me. Always made sure we were touching one way or the other. For that I was grateful.
When we were boarding the plane that would take us to Washington I finally had to ask," How do you know?"
He looked at me. You cold tell he was debating with himself. Finally he spoke. "Alice had a vision that they came to the house and we weren't home yet. They asked if you'd been changed. The only other thing she saw was Carlisle on the floor and Caius speaking 'She had her warning when they came to Italy. She must die.'" Edward's hands balled into fists.
There was a lump in my throat after those last words. I almost felt like I shouldn't have asked but that was absurd. I needed to know.
"How much time do we have?" I managed to choke up. We left early so we should have extra time.
"We don't know," he whispered and I put my head on his shoulder.
When the plane landed and we got our bags Jasper was waiting for us. None of us spoke but all gave hugs. There was nothing that could be said.
When we hit the house everyone just stared. The first time no one spoke words, not even Emmett. Alice and Esme looked the worse. Even Rose looked sympathetic and gave me a hug. A real sisterly tight hug.
As I looked at my new family and gave, then accepted, hugs I couldn't help but cry.
This was my last time with them.
