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I told myself I wouldn't post this until I finished one of my stories...but I couldn't resist. I just had to. Though, I promise that after this chapter, I won't update this story until I finish my story Strictly Business.
Munchkins lets have a little talk since this chapter literally flowed out. I want to give huge special thanks to Tranquil Manatee! I won't lie, the necklace story existed thanks to you! You are awesomeness!
Oh and also, a special thanks to my lovely beta leoslady4ever! She's the best beta ever. Ask anyone, they'll agree. And to add to that, she's flipping awesome. Want proof? Go read Dancing Away With His Heart! It made me like LaLu!
The little quote thingy at the beginning and end of every chapter are part of my inspiration for this story. It's the lyrics to the song My Immortal by Evanescence! Listen to it while reading this story! I swear, it sets the mood so much more.
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Chapter 2: His Conclusions
…And if you have to leave…
Gray's P.O.V.
"Mama, what's this?" I asked my mother, looking at the sword shaped chain that she held in her hands. It was beautiful. The silver from the necklace shined in the light that was coating the city today.
"It's a Fullbuster family heirloom," my mother said as she tucked her hair behind her ears. "It is said that your grandfather had defeated a large monster, known as the Lullaby, that tried to bring destruction to Clover Town, but he sealed all the evil into the iced statue over there." Mother pointed towards the large statue of what appeared to be a large monster. It had two horns coming out of its head and a long tail. Despite the fact that it had the body of a gorilla, it had the face of a human.
"So, before he passed away, he gave this to your father. It is rumored that when you wear this necklace around your neck, you are protected from the various evils that lurk within this world. This necklace is a gift from the Gods above to keep you protected. Gray, in the future, you will be the Master of the Fullbuster clan, so it is vital you remain safe," Mother told me, her bright blue eyes piercing into my deep blue ones.
"Mama, where is Papa?" My child like curiosity filled me. He had been gone for weeks, and no one had said a word about exactly where he had gone. I missed Papa so much. He used to tell me the best stories about magic and how ice magic was made. I couldn't wait to learn magic and become just as strong as Papa. If not, even stronger!
"Gray, Papa and the rest of the Fullbuster clan are taking care of Deliora before it comes here," Mother shivered as she wrapped her arms around me. Once she pulled away, she put the necklace over my neck.
She then kissed my forehead before saying, "Gray. Keep this one at all times, and only give it to the person you care about the most. This will keep them guarded for the rest of their life," Mama lectured me and I nodded. I knew how important this was to Papa. You would never see him take it off so the fact that he gave it to me meant that I was very important to him.
"I will always, Mama," I promised her. Almost like it was on cue, the ground began to quake and the statue started to crack. What was going on? I turned around and my eyes met up with it. It let out a screeching sound that rang in my ears, making me feel like my ear drums were shattered. It's long furry hair flew back with its scream. Its shoulder had spikes coming out of it.
But the worst thing was its eyes. Its dark, dreadful eyes. The eyes that told you the moment you looked into it, you were doomed to die. The eyes that told you to say good bye to your life and hello to the afterlife. I felt my hands unconsciously squeeze the necklace Mother had just given me. My legs failed. I couldn't move, held captive by the fear the monster had brought into my heart.
"Deliora…" Mother whispered, her eyes widening in fear.
"Gray run!" Mother screamed out. But I couldn't listen. I couldn't do what she said. My legs wouldn't comply with the demand Mother had given me.
The monster let out another scream, causing the walls of our house to crack. Its hand slashed over our house, causing pieces of it to crash down to the ground. The roof caved in and the bricks fell down fast, several of them hitting Mother's head. Its hand then smashed down on our house, causing wood to fall down.
Smoke and dust rose up around us, filling my lungs with the noxious combination, until I bent over, my chest heaving as I let out cough after cough. Once it cleared, my eyes met up with Mother. The house had completely caved on onto her legs, impairing her from movement.
It was that sight, that made my legs work again. I ran towards my mom, doing everything in my power to remove everything that had been placed overtop her legs.
"Gray," she whimpered, "Go," she pleaded.
"Run away," she begged me as tears began to cascade down her milky smooth skin.
"No Mama, I can protect you. I am a Fullbuster," I told her, taking pride in my last name and my family. I frantically removed the bricks and pieces of wood that smashed down onto her legs. They were all painted red but my six year old brain refused to accept what my eyes saw. I refused to. I kept trying.
Mother's eyes widened in fear as she looked at something behind me. I turned back to find a monstrous sight. Deliora. "Ice Make: Blast," I heard Mother's voice barely say. Instantly after I felt a forceful push at my back, causing me to fly away but before my body had flown far from Clover Town, my eyes met with the sight. The sight I wish I had never seen.
Deliora grabbed Mother in its hands, crushing her worn body until her blood flowed out between the beast's fingers. Raising its hand, the frightening creature covered its painted flesh with its mouth, sucking away my Mother's crimson blood.
"MAMA!"
My body jolted up. I was panting. Sweat coated my body like the cool air that filled my house. Why, of all days did I have to dream of this? I couldn't understand how anyone expected me to live with the guilt of what had happened to Mother. She used her last ounce of magic to protect me, just like everyone else.
Mother had let go of her life to know I lived on. I smashed my hand to the wall and a sound came out deep from my throat, followed by a, "Damn it."
My face felt like there was something dripping from it. When I looked in the mirror, I realized that tears had been flowing out of my eyes like there was no tomorrow. To think, that people would die time and time again just to keep me safe.
I held my chain in my hands as it seemed to shine in the darkness that was my house. I knew that the moment I stepped into the guild, the nightmare would be pushed far back into my mind and their cheerful behavior would bring light into my dark past. I knew that after seeing Lucy's warm smile I would calm down. Though Lucy seems to shy away the moment Juvia…
Juvia.
That's right. Juvia was gone. She had died protecting me. The kind hearted, completely devoted water mage gave up her life in attempts to keep me safe. She was nothing more than a memory. Another page in my book. Another reminder of why I shouldn't have existed.
Juvia's life was just like the life of all those who became close to me. All of those women, who found that my life was of greater value than their own. Any time I found myself getting close to someone, or found that I had some sort of connection to them, something bad would happen. It's why I have to be alone.
If I let anyone in, they'd end up just the same.
Dead.
That's why I must distance myself from everyone.
"Fuck," my voice let out the word.
I felt my world crumble the moment Juvia's face came back into my head. I felt my entire universe shatter at the reality of the situation. It was all my fault she had died and now I had to live with the guilt that remained. I had to live with the vivid truth that would always follow me. I had to live with the fact that remained.
Juvia.
Died.
Because.
Of.
Me.
That was the reality, the piercing reality that burned deep within my soul, stacking my sins ever higher. I couldn't escape these demons, the ones that destroyed any happiness I found in life. It was the bitter truth I had to live with, day in and day out. I'd have to face it every time I entered the guild, knowing I was the cause of their grief, their aching loss.
Without a second thought, I threw on a black suit, readying myself to make way towards Kardia Cathedral, where we would bury Juvia's deceased body. But after that, I refused to live there and spend another waking moment around anyone. I cared about them too much to allow my curse to hurt them. I refused to let anyone go. Not Erza. Natsu. Happy. Laxus. Cana. Wendy. Gajeel.
But most importantly, I refused to let anything ever happen to Lucy. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if as much as a hair on her head was touched because of me.
As much as I hated the thought of staying away from Lucy and leaving her alone, I refused to let our relationship become any more intimate. If it did, then she might become a product of the curse that seems to enjoy revisiting me in my life.
Every single time I found that I was beginning to forgive myself for the deaths my existence caused, it would only come back to haunt me again. As much as Ur wanted to seal away my darkness, I don't think she was able to because my darkness seemed to recapture the most important moments of my healing. It seemed that the universe hated me for trying to move on from the painful moments of my life.
I deserved to be alone and suffer for the mistakes that my life brought to the world. I deserved to be in complete solitude. I didn't care if it made me go crazy. As long as it kept those I cared about safe, that would be enough. I would say goodbye to Juvia, and then my friends because after that, I would always keep myself alone.
If it meant keeping Lucy safe. If it meant she wouldn't fall victim to the curse that followed me, then I would let my heart deal with the aching grief that seemed to seize me the moment I was away from her.
The only reason my heart would comply with the conclusion that my mind had drawn was because it meant Lucy would be ok. It meant that she would be able to live her daily life without being attacked by the demons that seemed to haunt me. To me, nothing was more important than knowing that Lucy Heartfilia was alive and breathing because well, somewhere along the road, the Celestial mage managed to capture my heart and just because I wouldn't try to pursue her, it didn't mean I wouldn't do everything physically possible to keep her safe.
I'd have to accept the fact that I'd be living a life without love. But it didn't matter because well... Lucy would be fine.
Most importantly, deep in my heart, I accepted the facts. I accepted it. It burned throughout the innermost depths of my soul. It burned through me like the intensity of a thousand blazing suns.
Just because I was alive, it didn't give me the right to live.
...I wish that you would just leave...
This chapter made me so sad to write. WAAAAAAAAAAAA Gray! And Juvia! And Lucy! And Fairy Tail *crys* Life sucks!
