Author's Note: Gravitation is not mine nor are the characters, this is an original fiction, nothing to do with the original story or characters, names are only borrowed and inspired for this story. Characters are OOC. Warning, yaoi in some parts of the story. Mature content.

If you only knew how much you really mean to me, how you really are a big part of my life. I've been mean and most of the time stubborn to admit it, but, yes, you are. I watch you when you are sleeping, trying to be careful not to wake you, watching how you look with that smile on your face, and how you will sometimes mumble my name even in your sleep, it makes my heart swell so much, knowing that even in your dreams I'm still in your mind, how you will still cling to me no matter how much I try to show you I despise you and loathe your presence, you won't complain, and you will continue smiling even with tears in your eyes because I just hit you. That you will simply climb back on the bed everytime I push you off or even kick you everytime you try to hold me. How could you love me so much? How could you care so much? What could drive you away from me? What could I do to make your love for me wane? You told me never,that no matter what I do, you will always be there, you will always understand, that no matter how much it hurts, you will just look the other way and still love me and love me even more.

I love you Shuichi. I whispered in your ear. Those are the words that you've been dying to hear from me, but I never had the courage to tell you outright. So am telling you now, hoping that your sleeping form will hear it, hoping the your dream state will understand it. Oh, how I love you chibi.