This is a VERY short chapter, but a very important step for Derek. It really helps the story get going. Please Read and Review and I might be inclined to update way faster!
The Way It Ends-Landon Pigg
Run
Is this to be our fate
Hide
Freedom is ours as long as we escape
We walk in the shadows, we do
For now but we all know
Our time is near
This is the way it ends
Don't tell me its meaningless
There'll be no compromise
We fall, and we too, shall rise
You held me and taught me how
I think I am ready now
If this is the way it ends,
Then this is the way its meant to be
We will be spilled in blood
And this is the way that they'll remember us
Emerge from the shadows, we will
Emerge from the shadows
This is the way it ends
Don't tell me its meaningless
There'll be no compromise
We fall and we too shall rise
You held me and taught me how
I think I am ready now
If this is the way it ends,
Then this is the way its meant to be
Under my skin, they fade away
(Here's to life with no regrets)
See you again all one day
(Give me life or give me death)
Can anyone ever really say
This is the way it ends
Nothing is meaningless
There'll be no compromise
We fall and we too shall rise, again
If this is the way it ends,
Then this is the way its meant to be
And this is the way its meant to be...
I paced around the trailer back and fourth. My hands were shaking and I felt weak in the knees. I had to end this. I don't love her anymore.
Addie watched as I paced back and fourth. She looked at ease. She rested her fist underneath her chin with her elbow resting on the kitchen table. We were silent. The only thing that could be heard were the crickets chirping in the night.
"You love her, don't you?" she asked, breaking the unbearable silence.
I turned around a looked her directly in the eyes.
"Yes," I stated.
She looked at me. There was no emotion. No pain or agony. I couldn't read her. She got up and walked towards me. We were face to face and she put her hand on my cheek. I felt the urge to pull her hand away, but I didn't as she pulled it away herself.
Her eyes started to show sadness.
"We tried. We tried and it didn't work. We had eleven years together and we drifted apart. You are not to blame and I am not to blame. We were distant, and sometimes that happens to people. You obviously aren't the love of my life, but I don't regret those eleven years with you. It's a chapter of my life that I will never forget. You Derek Shepherd, are an honorable man." she choked out with a couple tears streaming down her cheek.
"I won't forget this either," I said pulling her into an embrace.
"It wasn't meant to be" she said wiping away the tears.
"No." I said definitely.
"I'm sorry...I'm sorry about Mark. I'm sorry for it all. I guess this is how it ends." she sniffed.
"Yeah, I guess. I'm sorry too." I said trying to offer peace.
We stood in silence for a few moments. Our marriage had ended for good. I ran my fingers through my hair and sighed.
"I'll have my lawyer fax you the divorce papers tomorrow. If everything is okay we should be divorced in a week since we have already settled properties. I'm going to the Archfield. I'll be back to gather my stuff in the morning" she said heading towards the door.
I nodded in response. I didn't know what to say to her. We just ended a marriage. What are you suppose to say?
She paused for a moment and looked back at me before opening the door.
"Don't hurt her again. You are a great man, but please don't hurt her, she's a good person," she pleaded with me.
I gave her a soft smile as she closed the door.
I heard her start up her Mercedes and the headlights of the car flooded the trailer. I went and sat on the bed. I fell backwards onto it and sighed in relief. I was a free man! The man Meredith deserved the first time. My marriage is over and I finally feel like I have purpose again. I can now tell Meredith that I love her with no guilt. Freedom.
