Chapter 1: The Visit


Eli was excited to be finally visiting his baby for Thanksgiving. He hadn't seen her since he left for NYU. He was thrilled to hear that Clare's doctor had cleared her for sex and they would be having sexy time upon his return. Their first time since, well their only time, which was prom. He packed his bag and got on his plane. Unfortunately, he had to get back off the plane. Maitnenace issues. Eventually, over an hour and a half late, he got on a new plane and took off for Toronto. Once he arrived, he went through customs. Welcome Home!

Cece picked him up and he was supposed to go to Clare's, but she asked him to a teensy errand first, which took him an hour and in exchange, he got her car for the weekend. He finally got to Clare's house. She was very happy to see him, but she was tired at this point. She had expected him about three hours earlier.

When he rang the bell, Clare was already downstairs and she ran to him, hugging him. She even wore the red wig he liked. They shared a kiss and then she told him, "I missed you so much, Baby."

"I missed you too!" They made their way upstairs and Eli tried to initiate sexytime, but Clare was beat.

"Can we have sexytime first thing tomorrow? I know it was supposed to be as soon as you got back, but I thought that would have been three hours ago, and I'm sleepy. It's one of the side effects from chemo brain."

"Of course, Sexy! I'll just sleep by your side tonight. Your Mom is gone for the night."

"Yep. She's with Glen, visiting Jake and they're both gone until tomorrow afternoon!"

"Awesome!"

Clare took off her pants and bra, sleeping in just a t-shirt. "Aren't you going to climb in with me?"

"I just need a few minutes. Bathroom, brush my teeth, etc."

"Oh wait! me too!" Clare went out and brushed her teeth.

Eli was upset. Why doesn't she want me? Is there something she's not telling me?

She came back, pecked his cheek and climbed into bed. He went to brush his teeth and when he came back, he was determined to figure out what was wrong. He tried reading her e-mails; he knew her password, but there was nothing out of the ordinary. He tried looking through her phone. Again, nothing. Finally, he decided on her diary. He hoped it was in her backpack and sure enough, it was. He went downstairs and read it.

He started with the most recent entries and went backwards. He started to skim. At first, it was normal, stuff about how she missed him, how Drew needed to work on his leadership skills, stuff about how she missed Adam. One passage where she said, it should have been me, dark. Nothing that explains the lack of sex. Stuff about how she has cancer, how she might have cancer, her getting back with me and us having sex and becoming friends with Jenna and Alli again. Nothing yet. He thought about stopping, since he covered their reconciliation, but maybe it was something old that resurfaced. He finally got to something interesting.

"I did it diary. I'm finally did something to free myself of this love, crash, burn cycle that I have with Eli. No matter how much I love him, I am never enough or I do the wrong thing or he's just too broken for me to hold, like he's a vase that's cracked through but hasn't fallen into pieces yet. I try to glue them back together, but I always topple it down." That's what she thinks of me. She sees me as a weakling. Wow! I thought she loved me. "I took Dr. Kurth's advice and I broke the mold. I confronted my serial monogamy issues by having a one time hook up. Last night, I gave my virginity to Andrew Torres."

SHE WHAT! SHE LET ME THINK THAT PROM WAS HER FIRST TIME!

"We're not dating. We didn't even go on a date, but we were both single and we have been stuck in the same cyclical problems with our exes. He was everything I needed him to be, someone who could make me feel very good, like I was special, but he doesn't need me and I don't need him. We can just walk away and not have any drama. I'll probably get back with Eli anyway because that's what I do, no matter how illogical it is, but when we get back together, I'll remember Drew and I'll know that I have other options. I can break out of the cycle. I just have to make the effort."

DREW TORRES IS HER ESCAPE FROM ME! WHAT IS THIS BULLSHIT!

Eli wanted to wake her up and confront her, but then she'd get mad at him for reading her diary. he needed a way of proving that she slept with Drew without the diary, so he could confront her with his new source. He'd figure it out. He put her diary back. Took off his pants and went to bed. He was not in the mood for sexytime anymore.

She looked so sweet and innocent as she slept. What a lie!

Clare's POV

I woke up in the morning and was ready for sexytime with Eli! I straddled his hips and kissed him awake. "Ready for sexytime."

"I'm not feeling so good."

"Oh Baby! Are you sick? Do you want me to stay home and take care fo you? I can have Drew…."

"No!" he yells, kind of shocking me. "Thank you. I'll take care of myself. You're the VP and I don't want you getting sick."

"Okay. If you're sure, but I'll call in and check on you and if you get any worse, tell me and I'll come straight home." I kiss his cheek and get out of bed. I take my shower and get dressed. I decide to wear the deep purple wig as I like it for school. A few people have said it looks good on me. I get dressed and get on my sneakers and I drive to school.

On the way, I stop at the Dot for breakfast. I get a breakfast sandwich and eat it inside, since I'm early. I take my coffee with me. I can drink it there. I get to school and there aren't many students here yet, but Becky and Luke are there.

"You're not with Eli?" Becky asks me.

"I'm the VP. I have to be here, not that I don't like helping people." I just like sexytime too!

I see Principal Simpson and he says that we'll have more people than expected, but the extra food and chairs should suffice. I write down the new numbers and suggest making two food lines to help speed up the serving. Drew shows up and we change the serving station so we can serve the same food in two different lines.

"How was sexytime?" Drew asks me.

"Didn't happen yet."

"Really? I thought you had an empty house."

"I did, but Eli was three hours late coming home last night and I was exhausted by the time he got there. I thought we could have some morning fun, but he felt sick."

"That sucks, but I'm sure you'll figure it out tonight."

"I hope so."

Chewy and Tristan show up and so do our tables and chairs. I get Luke and Becky and the six of us get to work. Connor and Dave came during the unfolding and they help us too. Jenna and Alli offer to help, but we were just doing the last chair when they arrived. I'm tired now. Luckily, I have plenty of time to rest before the food and people arrive. I tell Drew that I'll be in the student council room. I go to sit on the couch.

Eli's POV

I need to find someone to tell me about Clare and Drew. Was this a one time thing? Are they still fucking? I don't expect Drew to just tell me, but Alli wouldn't accept Clare's cheating. She'd tell me right. Maybe she has no clue. I have to be stealthy. I'll give her a call now.

"Hello," she says

"Hey Alli."

"Eli. What's up?"

"Well, I'm here to visit Clare and I was wondering if you could help me with something."

"Sure, but I have to be at school today for the Thanksgiving dinner we're putting on."

"No problem, I can come to you."

"See you in 30 minutes?"

"Great."

I hang up, put on some deodorant, change clothes and get my ass to school. She'll help me, but what do I ask her?

I get to the school and I find Alii. She's talking to Jenna. "Give me a minute Jen," I hear her say."

"So Eli Goldsworthy, what can I do you for?"

"I was wondering if you could help me with something. I was supposed to have sexytime with Clare last night, but she was really upset about something, but she wouldn't tell me what it was. Is there something I should know? Did her doctor say something?"

"No. Her last appointment was good. I know because I ran into her mom afterwards."

"Do you think it could be someone?"

"Like an affair?"

"No, like someone did something that upset her and she doesn't want to say anything again. After the whole Asher thing, I worry about her sometimes. She's not always the most open person with her problems, or else, I'd be asking her right now. She hasn't had any flare ups with someone."

"Like who?"

"Well, she has to work with Drew a lot, and whoever else is on student council."

"No. I haven't heard any problems. Actually, she was really excited for you to come home. She kept mentioning sexytimes with Eli. I could try and see what's bothering her."

"If she hasn't told you, maybe I should just wait. I thought you might have known already."

"Good Luck Eli."

She heads back to work. Well, Alli must not know. Did Adam know? Well who else might she confide in. I look around. I don't see anyone here, except maybe Jenna. Why tell Jenna and not Alli? Well Jenna has experience cheating, so maybe she'd keep her mouth shut.

I heard an obnoxious voice that could only belong to one dumb jock.

"Hey, we need people to grab carts and get this food out here, like yesterday. Our guests are almost here."

I reluctantly follow Drew first. Maybe he'll let it slip.

"Hey, Eli," he says nonchalantly. "I thought you were sick."

"Feeling awesome."

"Great, well when we're done here, you can have Clare all to yourself."

"Glad I have your permission."

"What?"

"So you and Clare have gotten pretty close."

"You could say that. We see each other a lot."

"And you've seen a lot of her."

"What? That's perverted dude."

"So you're denying it."

"Denying what? Are you skipping your meds again 'cause Clare will freak out."

Fucking dumb jock! Can just pretend he didn't deflower my girlfriend right to my face.

"Before I can confront him, we're at the kitchen." He grabs a cart and sends it out. People start grabbing them and going out. He and I take the last two.

"So what is your deal?" he asks me.

"About what?"

"Clare's been talking nonstop about you coming home and then you skip sex with her to come here and act like an asshat."

"You think I'm an asshat."

"If I were coming home to a girl after being away for months, I'd be all over her, making her very happy. Not starting into squabbles for no reason at your former high school."

"Well, if anyone is the asshat, I would say it's you."

"For what, man?"

"You know exactly what man?"

"No, I don't. Seriously, maybe your meds need adjusting."

We get back to the serving area. "I HAVE NO PROBLEM WITH MY MEDS I HAVE A PROBLEM WITH YOU ANDREW FUCKING TORRES!"

"Whoa Dude, chill. We got a lot of guests here who have enough drama in their lives. They don't need DJ Doomsday."

Clare comes up to me, looking pissed. "What the hell's going on here? Eli, I thought you were sick. Why are you here, making a scene?"

"I am making a scene because I just found out that my girlfriend, who I love, is a fucking liar, and her president here, is her accomplice."

"What are you, nuts?" she glares at me like she thinks I am nuts. "What lie? Why are you acting like this?"

"You know exactly what lie," I hiss. I can't take this anymore. "YOU GIVE IT UP TO DREW TORRES. THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU." Heads are turning. We have a crowd now.

"YOU READ MY DIARY AGAIN. YOU HAD NO RIGHT TO…."

"He read it before?" Drew asks her.

"Shut up!" I hiss at him.

"Don't tell him to shut up! You shouldn't have read it. My diary has nothing to do with you."

"Nothing to do with you. That night, you told me that your first time was special and I assumed you meant with me."

"I said that "our" first time was special, and it was." Really, semantics.

"How was I supposed to know the difference?"

"You didn't ask me what happened while we were broken up, and I didn't ask you because you deserved your privacy and I thought you respected mine. You begged me for a second chance to show me you loved me, and said let's put the past behind us. I thought both of our pasts were going away, not just a free pass for you while I'm being grilled over things that happened while we broke up and over six months ago." How is she becoming the victim here?

"You still should have told me."

"Why? It was none of your business. We were broken up. I didn't have to wait around for you to sober up and then decide you liked me better than abusing drugs." She's going back to the drug angle! Clever.

"How is it none of your business who you lost your virginity to?"

"Because I don't belong to you Eli. I never grilled you about Julia or any other girls that you might have been with. I never even asked you about you and Imogen before we got back together because it was your business to share with me if you chose to do so. I chose not to share something in my past with you and now the whole school knows. Sorry, I couldn't be a notch on your belt." She stormed off. How is this my fault?

Clare's POV

I can't believe he did this. He must have read my diary while I was sleeping. I never should have trusted him in my house. Now, everyone's going to know what happened. I need to be alone right now.

Alli's in the hall. "What the hell Clare?"

"Excuse me."

"Do you have any idea what Eli did for you?"

"Yeah. He violated my privacy and made a scene, embarrassing me in front of the whole school. What a great boyfriend?"

"How could you not tell him about Drew? How could you not tell me?"

"For the last time, my virginity is no one's business but my own. Not everyone wants to make a spectacle of the matter (like you did Backwoods), and Drew and I never told anyone for a reason." I stormed passed her and wanted to go back to the council room, but I thought people might look for me there, so I waited in the AV room where Connor was getting ready to stream the dinner.

"What's up Clare? You need me for something."

"No. Just a bad day."

"Maybe talking about it will help. If it's issues of the heart, I probably can't give you any advice, but sometimes hearing yourself talk tells you what you should do."

"Well, the whole school's going to find out, so I may as well tell you. About six months ago, while Eli and I were still broken up, I had sex with Drew. It was my first time. I got back together with Eli and neither of us brought up what happened while we were apart. I thought he meant it when he said he wanted a clean slate, but last night, he read my diary, found out about Drew and created a scene in front of the school. Now, everyone's going to know and judge me for it."

"Why does Eli care so much?"

"Because he thought he was my first, and now he knows that he's not."

"So. I'll never be Jenna's first anything. She even had a baby before me, but I like her now. K.C.'s long gone. It's not like you're still hooking up with Drew."

"Thanks for that Connor."

"I didn't give you any advice."

"No, but you confirmed that I'm not crazy in thinking Eli should be making a big deal out of this."

"No, but your attention to detail is actually crazy."

I chuckle. "Thanks Connor."

"For?"

"Making me feel like this day won't be all bad."

"Your welcome and to think Jenna says I never know what to say when times aren't good."

"I wouldn't say never."

Drew's POV

I can't believe Eli just did that to Clare. If that's what love is, I'd hate to be on his bad side.

"Tristan, can you get people ready to serve?"

He nods and I go to find Clare. Doomsday grabs me. "Where the hell are you going?"

"I'm going to talk to Clare, you Idiot."

"Talk to her, or fuck her again." His grip tightens.

"Get off of me, you jackass." I shoved him to the ground, hard. I go to get inside and he grabs me from behind. I flip him over and am about to go inside, when I hear a familiar voice.

"What the shit!" I turn and it's Bianca, my fiancée.

"Hey, Bianca." I run up to her and give her a quick kiss. "I'm glad you're here, but I need a minute to find Clare right now. It's kind of urgent."

"Your dick can't wait five minutes for your fiancée," Eli hisses.

"Fuck off!"

"What is he talking about?" Bianca asks him.

"This cretin took Clare's virginity six months ago." Eli announces, again.

"YOU WHAT! HOW COULD YOU DO THAT TO ME? TO HER?"

"We were broken up, Bianca."

"For two days!"

"Well, she came over during those two days, and I didn't think you were coming back." Clare thought she was, but I thought we were done that time for real.

"And you two haven't since then?"

"No. Not a thing."

"Okay then."

"OKAY!" Eli yells.

"We were broken up. I wouldn't have even worried about it if you hadn't started yelling." At least Bianca has some sense.

Alli stormed out of school. "WHAT THE HELL WERE YOU THINKING DREW! CLARE WAS UPSET OVER LOSING ELI SO YOU TAKE ADVANTAGE!"

'What? I wouldn't take advantage of Clare. She's my friend."

"Great way of showing it!"

"At least I was there when she needed me and not trying to hook up with her step-brother ex-boyfriend."

She slapped me good for that one.

"Hey, don't touch him Backwoods! What happened between them is none of your business."

"How are you okay with this?" she asks Bianca.

"It's not for me to be okay with. It just is. I know you wanted to talk to Clare, but can I talk to you first. It might change what you say to her."

I follow her and we go to the roof.

"What is it Bianca?"

"We sit down in the memorial garden. "I came to tell you that there's a student teacher job opening in Peru. I'm going to take it. I'll be gone for a year."

"A whole year? Starting when?"

"January."

"But I thought." That we would get married this summer.

"I know, and I love you, but I need to do this for me." She took off her ring and gave it back, placing it in my palm and folding it. "I need you to find a girl worthy of this ring, who will love you better than I did." It's really over this time. She kissed my hand. I hugged her goodbye. "Well, write to me from Peru and let me know you're okay."

"I will, and take care of Clare. You two look good together." We do, but she's never seen us together.

I walked her out. Now, time to find Clare before Eli does any more damage.

Wait! I have to check on the food. I get down there and Tristan's a champ. "Thanks dude! I owe you one." Everything looks smooth, so I go to find Clare. I hear her quarreling with Eli.

"How could you think this wasn't my business?" he hissed.

"Well, I'm not pregnant, I didn't have any stds, and I didn't cheat on you. That's the full extent of disclosure I was required to make."

"Who are you, Dan Savage?"

"You don't get to leave and then expect me to be frozen in time for you. You said you were all in and then you bailed. Do you have any idea what that did to me?"

"And Drew was your solution? He was your escape from me? Breaking the cycle did you say?"

"What I wrote doesn't matter because you were never supposed to read it. I don't have to explain myself to you." Her arms are folded across her gorgeous chest, highly inappropriate Drew. Stop gawking her and help her.

"Like hell you don't."

"Hey! Leave her alone. Haven't you put her through enough bullshit!"

"This is between me and my girlfriend, so fuck off."

"Ex-girlfriend, Eli and I think you should fuck off, right now!"

"You don't mean that. You love me and I love you."

"No I loved you and I thought you loved me, but all you ever wanted was to control me, to have me as your trophy. You keep saying this is about me not telling you, but what would have happened if I told you on Prom Night. Would you have still wanted to be my white night or would you have gone to fight Drew?"

Even just hearing my name causes him to clench a fist. "You never should have slept with him."

"That wasn't for you to decide. Now, I'm deciding to end this, for the final time. You've broken my trust one time too many."

Eli stormed off. Clare looked at me. "I'm sorry for not helping with the dinner."

"It's okay. Tristan took care of it. Bianca was dumping me, so I missed the serving too."

"What? Why?"

"She's moving to Peru. She doesn't want me to wait for her." I took Clare's hand and brought her to the council room, locking the door behind us.

"I tried so hard to make us work," Clare cried as I held her. "After everything I went through, we went through, this summer, I thought he meant it when he said we'd make it, but then he just went right back to his juvenile ways: reading my diary, making a public spectacle of me, of that night we shared. Now everyone thinks I'm just a whore who gave it up for some meaningless sex with the school stud. It wasn't meaningless, at all. It meant a lot to me."

"Me too."

"Tell that to Alli."

"She slapped me today."

"What! WHY!"

"Because I must have taken advantage of you after you and Eli broke up."

"But I started it. I wanted you that night, even if it was just for one night."

"I didn't explain it to her. I don't know if anyone could understand where we were that night, well other than Dr. Kurtz."

"Well, it looks like we broke the cycle for good this time," she says with a weak laugh.

"How can we be sure?"

She kissed me again, her mouth salty and sweet from the tears and the coffee on her lips intertwining. I pull her close to me and then I pin her to the couch. She grunts as I start kissing her neck. I know the spot she likes. Even six months later, I still remember our first time like it was yesterday. I get her blouse open and start worshiping her breasts, kneading them through her bra, which is lacy and very sexy. I unsnap it so I can get to her orbs underneath and I chew on her nipple, making her bite her lip to hide her moan. I kiss my way down her stomach and I yank off her pants.

"No fair," she says. "Your clothes are still on."

"Take them off," I tell her. She yanks off my shirt and goes for my pants. Soon, we're naked on the couch. She's gorgeous. I love that purple wig. I start kissing my way to her hips and I push her legs apart. My tongue finds itself in familiar territory and she's just as sweet as before.

"OH GOD DREW!" I love it when she moans my name. I lick her clit and I get a finger inside of her. She's still tight. She's only had sex twice and the last time was five months ago. I find her g-spot and she lets out a throaty groan, "FUCK!"

Yes, I plan to fuck her silly today. We both need it. I get a second finger in and I leave her clit to return to her breast, using one hand on her right breast and my mouth on he left one. I tease her nipples as I finger her and then I finish her off with my tongue.

I kept condoms in the drawer of my desk, anticipating Bianca's visit and Eli's in case he and Clare had wanted to get frisky. I didn't see this coming. I rolled a condom on and looked into her eyes. I don't know what we're doing. If she just wants sex or if she wants me to be her boyfriend.

"I'm not ready for another relationship yet," she tells me. "I might not be for some time."

"I'm not either," I admit to her. "Let's just enjoy this and see where we're at."

She kisses me, and I grab her hips, slowly pushing my way into her tight pussy. She arches her back and growls for me. I fill her. She's not in pain this time. I can see the pleasure on her face. I start to buck my hips. Her hands find my shoulders and she keeps her eyes open, gazing into mine the whole time. The feeling is very erotic, her eyes searing into me.

"UGH DREW!" She's soft spoken but I hear her loud and clear. I start to go a little faster. God she's so fucking tight. It's so good. She's raising her hips for me and panting. "FUCK!" I find her nipple and pinch it, hard.

"OH GOD!" she hisses and I start to slow down. I'm giving her slower, deeper thrusts, letting her really feel me fill her. She throws her head back. "FUCK! ANDREW! OH GOOOOOOD!" She's on the verge of another climax. I can feel it. I pull her into a hungry kiss and begin to thrust harder and faster until we both cum. I pull out, holding the condom, and then I throw it away. I quickly find my place next to her.

"Now, how was that?" I ask her. She kisses me. We make out for at least 15 minutes and I'm hard again. She looks at me with a hungry look and tells me to sit on the couch.

She got down on her knees. "This is my first time doing this, so tell me if I need to change something." She took my cock in her little hand and licked the head.

"FUCK!" I hiss immediately. She pauses, unsure if that was a good thing. "Keep going." She smiles and licks it again. She swirls her tongue around my head. God yes! She sucks the head into her mouth and teases the underside with her tongue. "SHIT! FUCK! UGH!"

She slowly pushes her head down and then she quickly pulls it back up. She does this a few times. She takes me out and licks me up my shaft and starts to stroke me. Her hand and mouth are working in a rhythm, sometimes moving in unison, sometimes she's moving her head up and mouth down and vice versa. I'm gonna lose it soon at her rate. "CLARE! YES!"

She starts bobbing her head up and down fast. My hands find her hair and gently guide her.

"FUCK! CLARE I'M GONNA CUM!" She pulled her head up, just keeping the tip in her mouth as she swallows me whole and then sat up.

"How was that, Mr. President?" Those words have never been said in a sexier voice. Move over Marilyn.

I kiss her face. "Absolutely fabulous." I give her some gum so her mouth doesn't taste like my cum because I want to kiss her some more. We start making out again, and she's grinding on me. "Do you want to go again?" I ask her.

"Can we?" she asks in a somewhat innocent sounding voice.

Of course. I want to try a new position with her anyway. I get to my desk and I bend her over it. "Are you comfortable?" I ask her.

"Yes!"

I put on another condom and plunge into her.

Clare's POV

"OH FUCK!" He's never been so deep in me before. It feels really good. I hope no one can hear us right now. His hands are on my hips and he's starting off slow, but I can tell he wants to speed up. I bite my lip as he goes faster and harder.

"UGH!" he grunts as he gets into a rhythm He feels so good right now. I wonder if he's feeling as good as I do. "FUCK!" he hisses. I think he is. I arch my back and start pushing myself against him. He grabs my shoulders and really begins fucking me. All of those years of sports are finally paying off. His hip drive is fantastic. I just feel nothing but pleasure as he dominates me.

"OH FUCK ME DREW!" I cry as I can feel him smirking. He swats my ass.

"You like it don't you."

"Yes, Mr. President."

He slows down and starts going deeper into me again. He pulls out almost all of the way, just to slam into me.

"UGGGGHHH DREW!"

"I love it when you say my name." He says as he kisses my neck. Soon, he's fucking me fast again and I'm going crazy for it. My hips are driving against his, he's thrusting hard and I am on the edge of "AWWWWWW GOD!" just start spasming, but he's still hard and fucking me into oblivion. Is that another? "FUCK ME!" OH! GOD YES! I'm being taken away into a sea of "FUUUUUCK!" I cum a third time, and then he slows down, but sometimes he's still hard. He waits for me to catch my breath and then flips me over, putting my ankles on his shoulders and we're facing each other. He continues to drill me until he cums. I let out a groan. I'm spent and I think he is too.

"We should get dressed," I tell him. "Who knows when the others will be here?"

He giggles and we rush to put on our clothes. I think he stole my panties again. I'll have to pack a backup from now on. We just get back to the couch when Tristan knocks on the door.

Drew goes to open it.

"We got it all taken care off."

"Thanks. You're the best."

"Do you think I could get a hall pass or two?"

I write him out four.

"What are the last two for?" he asks me.

"For not saying anything about how we look right now."

He giggles and says he won't say a word.

I look in my hand mirror and comb my hair. I give Drew the comb next. Can't have our President coming out of the office with sex hair.