Title: Shattering him
Disclaimer: I do not own Fake, Ryo or Dee.
Pairing: Ryo x Dee
Rating: M for language
AN: Sorry for making Ryo seem ooc. I like him and he does not do things without a reason! Yes, this is getting better!
SN: Hello reader! Please note that this is my second account due to privacy reasons. If you are interested in more stories (mostly Harry Potter, some Fake and YnM) please contact me via PM and I will gladly let you have the name of my old account.
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Dee was sitting on his sofa, his hands in his lap, his head bent down and his eyes closed. How had it come to this? Whenever he had kissed Ryo it had felt so damn right and Ryo had responded, kissed him back. Hell, he even had started two or three kisses, not much but if he had no feelings for Dee why would he do it? Why hadn't he pushed Dee away from the start? Ryo was not the type of person who would make another suffer for his own pleasure...
At least that was what Dee had thought of his partner. He seemed so compassionate and sometimes naive even if Dee very well knew Ryo was everything but naive. Perhaps that was the point. With this beautiful face of his he could fool everyone. Especially someone who was in love with him.
The raven-haired man had tried to talk to his „mother" but talking about Ryo made it worse. He had broken down in front of her, crying his eyes and heart out... He had called in sick at the precinct. Seeing Ryo now was no option. Another sigh escaped his lips. He wanted to be alone. Maybe for the rest of his miserable life. Right now he could not believe that he would ever love someone as much as he loved Ryo. Without surprise he noticed that he was sobbing again and felt the tears on his face.
And what a beautiful woman she was... Ryo would love her deeply. Dee had no chance and knowing that made it even worse.
Dee heard the phone ring. 5 times...6 times...20 times... He was in no mood to talk to anyone but whoever let his phone ring so damn long would have a reason, right. His heart skipped a beat when he thought that it could be Ryo but when he saw the number on the phone his hopes crashed. It was the precinct and if he was right this was JJ's extension... Grumbling he glared at the phone. This man tried to reach him now? When he was vulnerable? JJ's was desperate to get laid by Dee but that was too much, even for this annoying person.
Sighing Dee picked up the phone. "Laytner." he said and his own voice sounded just so wrong to his ears. Absent, rough, sad, tired... nothing like the old Dee. When Ryo had left him, he had taken his good mood and positive attitude with him. Perhaps it would never come back, he thought bitterly. 'I want him. So much...' Then he heard JJ's voice. The younger cop sounded confused and his tone was edgy.
"Dee... I heard it from Ryo. I'm so sorry. And please believe me, this is no lie! I really think you two are great together." Right, that was exactly what Dee wanted to hear right now. He grumbled and JJ took the hint. He seemed extremely out of character to Dee. "Okay, okay. Listen! Ryo was here and he acted so strange..."
Dee snorted and interrupted JJ harshly. "This seems to become a habit lately."
"Easy Dee. He said that we shall take good care of you and watch you closely. At first I thought it was just his bad conscience but there was more to it. He took a pen and a sheet and just wrote "surveillance" . He handed me the paper and looked at me so intense that I knew something is just wrong." Dee listened more closely now. JJ might be annoying at times but he was a good cop and knew when things got nasty.
"What do you mean?" Dee inquired. "Is he afraid I might kill myself?" That thought had crossed his mind more than one time but it never stayed long. Dee just was not the type to do something that stupid and Ryo knew.
"No, Dee. It wasn't that trivial." both had switched to their professional mode and Dee refrained from giving a dry comment on his death being trivial. "It was like he wanted to tell me something but...couldn't. He wanted me to read between the lines. He is in trouble Dee and from what he told me I guess you are in even greater trouble. At least if I got him right..." His voice went smaller as if he was thinking. Dee was still, too for some minutes thinking where this might leave him. Then he remembered what Ryo had done to him and he grit his teeth.
"If he is in trouble he can handle it himself just great. And as far as I am concerned I can, too. He made it very, very clear that he doesn't care anymore." Dee snapped. JJ sighed.
"I thought we can talk about this like cops and not like dumped lovers." That hit a spot. Dee went rigid and closed his eyes, one hand slowly massaging his forehead. This was deep shit. Ryo had hurt him and it affected his straight thinking. The raven-haired man was a good cop like his colleagues but he was also a very emotional person. Normally emotion did not interfere with his cool mind but when it came to Ryo... He was distracted.
"Right JJ. Look, I will be very careful and have my eyes open. But I do not need surveillance. I'm a big guy and take care of things myself." He was sure JJ rolled his eyes at the other end of the line.
"Diana was in the bureau, too when Ryo was here. She had seen him leave and with just one look she knew that something was terribly wrong. You know she has an intuition for things like that. And one more thing: Ryo took off the whole next month. He handled the papers to Rose and left without another word not waiting for a positive or negative decision on his holidays... Dee, this is the strangest thing. Keep your eyes open and take care."
"Yeah, will do. Bye JJ." With that Dee hung up and walked out of the living room onto the fire escape to smoke. He watched the people below, small like ants and hurrying around oh so nervous. And he was up here watching them...
Ryo was out of the precinct for at least a month. Perhaps he was preparing to change his workplace. Or he wanted to move to joyland with beautiful Stella cuddling and snogging the whole day in the sun being happy the rest of his life while Dee was left alone his heart left to bleed out.
But if JJ was right and Ryo was more than I-just-broke-Dee's-heart-strange perhaps there was a chance for Dee to get him back into his arms. Or not. Even if something was wrong he would not leave this woman when it was over... Dee sighed. But he still loved Ryo so much and if he was in trouble he wanted to help him. He still would die for this man his feelings hadn't changed. And if Ryo was happy with this woman perhaps Dee would get over with it. He really WANTED Ryo to be happy... This decision was easier than he thought and if Ryo was not in the precinct his beautiful face would not distract Dee from his work.
Dee tossed the cigarette off the building and watched it fall. Then he grabbed his coat and left the lonely flat.
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Ryo just sat there and stared at the wall in anger. He felt defeated, tired, lonely. He really was a bastard for he was weak and unable to fight. He couldn't do anything it was like sitting in theater watching a play and being unable to interfere because he was tied to his chair in the first row. He was in the middle of it all even if this was not about him. Not really but he played the worst part in this.
'Please God' he thought 'Please let him understand.' A tear escaped his eyes. This was like being muted when all he wanted to do was scream.
Stella watched him closely. When she saw his distress she walked over to him.
"Shh, shh, handsome one. Everything will be alright." She placed a kiss on his forehead but he did not react. "I will make it better. You will see, darling."
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TBC
I hope I did not make it worse. I have a direction in mind where this will lead. Please have patience I will solve all mysteries sooner or later.
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