It figured the place he'd feel most comfortable drinking in would be a dive like this. One similar to the many others they'd hustled in over the years. A place his friends wouldn't mind because of the lack of security and the bartenders blind-eye to those underage.

The place made her feel better, if only by a bit.

She watched as Sam joked with his college buddies. Hurt had immediately flooded her system at his easy laughter. A year and he looked as if he didn't have a care in the world. No sign that he'd ignored her calls the first few months he was gone. No awkwardness that she could discern. This was the first time she was seeing him and he looked great. His eyes passed by her completely. Where as when she walked into the bar, he was the first person she noticed. Sure, okay, if she'd still been a guy it'd be a completely different story but, god, did it still hurt.

Honestly speaking, as soon as she came barging into Mcfly's she was expecting to see herself locate Sammy as soon as possible and take him aside and break the news. Lacking common sense? Yes. But, come on, she'd been debating with herself the whole ride over. She even drove back and forth between two counties on the way because she'd lost her nerve more then once. Then she finally makes it here and- and she sees him and he looks so normal. And suddenly she had the urge to get a drink first. One drink became two. And she managed to get close. Mostly because he just didn't recognize her, and that gave her some more time to actually try and think this over... or talk her self out of it. Whatever. But that was beside the point. To see Sammy with friends? She didn't know if she could ruin it for him. What was she going to say anyway?

"Hey Sammy, long time no see. Glad to see you're doing so well in school. Anything new with me? Oh, well, I hunt alone now. Haven't seen dad in awhile. But that's okay, we keep in touch through text so don't worry. And oh yeah. I'm a woman now... Good stuff."

… Yeah... that would go over so well.

But he deserved to know.

Dean gulped the rest of her beer and turned toward Sam's table, prepared to just go over there and get it done and over with. She couldn't just not say something after traveling all this way. After the detours, the pep talks, the motivational talking to she got from Bobby, and he was right too. She had to tell Sammy, trying to keep this too herself just wouldn't work. And Sam would take it better then dad. She was pretty sure he would. 'Cuz John was a definite no-go. He was her father, and yes, she respected him as a hunter. But he the man had his limits. And she really really didn't want to tell him until she had solid back up. Bobby and his shotgun just didn't seem like enough.

John sober was a level-headed man. John drunk was an entirely different story.

Dean took a step forward, nervously brushing a hand through her longer than normal hair; it felt soft now and didn't have the buzz cut feel she'd always secretly enjoyed. She actually had bangs now. It'd have to go longer though. Sam also kind of had the same hair thing going on and... no... just no. She'll have to go longer. She caught his hazel eyes through the crowd. Dean immediately lost her nerve and spun around to order another drink. Something harder then the beers she'd been nursing.

Dean immediately thought through her fleeting gung ho attitude. She's pretty sure she could just leave a text message. Like really pretty sure.

"Hey there, haven't seen you around before."

Just about ready to down her shot she freezes.

No.

Oh dear god no.

She lowers the drink a fraction before sliding her gaze to the smooth talker. She'll laugh about this later. She's definitely sure of that, because really?

That was the best pick-up line he had?

"Well Sammy. When you're right, you're right." She replied with a cockiness she didn't feel, and downed her shot. She is a bit proud to note, that even though it's been a year since Sam left them hanging dry, he's still a hunter at heart.

'Cuz when he gets it.

The boy's face drains of color. "Dean?"

He get's it.

A/N

xD I felt the urge to write, and this is the one that gets to be updated! YAY! :) So! How did you like?

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