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I changed the name, because it wasn't very nice with all of the 'part 2 – ver.1' thing. It's the same thing though.

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2 - The day off

I knocked on Adam's door and he opened it almost immediately. He kissed my cheek and gestured me to come in, listening to someone on the phone. It was our first real day off and neither of us had any commitments for the day.

I studied Adam's appearance: he had a pair of black sweat pants and a simple gray T-shirt on, he wasn't wearing any makeup on and his hair was in utter disorder. I don't know why, but that morning he looked so adorably sweet and stunning at the same time, that I had a trouble to keep my heartbeats steady just looking at him.

"I know, baby, I miss you too, but I'll be back soon." I felt my heart sinking at the sound of his words. Thankfully he couldn't see my face, because I stood in front of the window with my back to Adam. I closed my eyes and let a deep breath in. I don't have the right to be jealous. I reminded myself. Those feelings I developed for him were only increasing no matter what I tried to convince myself of. I knew it was completely pointless, but couldn't do anything about it. I wasn't strong enough to keep a distance from him, especially not when he was so close all of the time. So the only possible way was to keep the feelings to myself and not show how much his words bothered me. "You're right, it won't be the same. Don't worry, I'll find time." By that moment I was trying to block what I was hearing and not listen to it. Unsuccessfully, of course. "I'm sure it wasn't that bad. Don't exaggerate." I felt his warm hand on my shoulder and when I looked up at him, he gave me one of his sweet smiles. I didn't even try to smile back, because I knew he would notice something was wrong, so I just nodded, hoping it would be enough. "Okay, look, I have to go now, so tell Hidey I said hi and go have some fun." I couldn't hear what the person on the other end of the line said, but it made Adam chuckle. "Yeah, right. Maybe you should get some sleep; you're starting to sound depressed. I'll see you soon. Yeah, bye." Then he finally hung up. "What's up, sunshine?"

"Same old." I shrugged and made an attempt to shake off the unpleasant feelings his conversation on the phone arose in me. "Your boyfriend?" I asked casually. He raised his eyebrows and stared at me. "I mean…" I was confused by his look and tried to figure what was wrong with what I said. I couldn't. "What?" I finally asked and then Adam burst out laughing. He seemed to be unable to stop for a while and all I could do was to simply stand there and watch him laugh, the confusion and embarrassment growing stronger inside of me by the second.

"Oh, God." He let out a shaky breath, rubbing his eyes.

"What's so funny?" I asked with annoyance. This awkward situation made me feel stupid for some reason.

"I can't believe you just said this…" Adam covered his face with one hand, trying to calm down. "Not you too…"

"What? What's wrong with what I said?"

"Nothing. I just wonder why you never asked the question everybody asks."

"Which is?" I was becoming impatient.

"Weather I'm gay." Clearly, he was amused, but I still couldn't figure out why. I stared at his face, not saying another word. "I mean, you just assumed."

"Assumed what?"

"That I am." I blinked a few times, watching him smiling at me, not bothered one bit. What did he mean? Why would I ask him that question?

Then it hit me. If I thought the situation had been awkward before, than now it was beyond embarrassing. I felt my cheeks burning with blush as my eyes widened.

"Oh," It was all I could say for a while. Suddenly, I had a strong desire to disappear from earth. I've never considered the possibility that he wasn't gay, even though we've never spoken about it. I simply took it as a fact. How could a person be so mistaken? I opened my mouth to speak and then closed it back.

"Don't worry about it. I guess it's my fault."

"This is so embarrassing." I finally managed to say. "But I thought... I mean it was never a secret, everybody knew and you never said anything…"

"Yeah, I said that I liked keeping everybody intrigued, it's interesting. I never said the rumor was true." He spoke with a smile. "Of course I never denied it too, so it's my fault everybody's so sure it's true. I just wasn't expecting this kind of comment from you."

"But the photos… Weren't they real?" I still couldn't process what I just found out.

"Ah, the photos…" He sighed. "No, they were real."

"Then how…" I struggled to find the right words. He had a little smile on his face, a bit ironic, as if I was missing a joke.

"It was a bet." He explained. "I was at some crazy party and my friends dared me to kiss the guy. All because of my job at a club back then… I didn't want to at first, but then one of them said I didn't have the guts…" He trailed off. "Well, you know you can say anything about me, but not that I don't have guts for something." He smirked at me.

"So what happened?" I asked and Adam chuckled before answering.

"So we made a bet." He paused and when I said nothing, he clarified. "I got a hundred bucks." As shocked as I was, I still couldn't help but laugh.

"Sounds like you." He nodded calmly in responce, still smiling. "Why didn't you just say you weren't gay when you've been asked?"

"Firstly, I don't think it's anybody's busyness. Secondly, do you think anybody would believe me? They would say I was just trying to hide the truth and no matter what I'd say, they would talk and make up rumors." It kind of did make sense. "Let them talk, it doesn't affect me."

"You realize it might've cost you the first place on Idol?"

"Oh, stop it. We've been through this many times, I don't care about not winning, I don't think there is a difference for me and I really mean it. For Kris, I hope it wasn't the reason why he won, but I think it's time to move on. And honestly, I don't care what anybody says about me. I am who I am, with eyeliner and nail polish and everything. I won't change if somebody doesn't like it; I know there are people who appreciate me as I am."

"Like me." I smiled and he wrapped his arms around me.

"Like you."

"I'm so sorry I never asked. I feel like an idiot."

"Don't worry about it." Adam waived his hand dismissively. "Now we have it all straightened out." I laughed at his play on words.

"Wait, so it was a girl on the phone?" My mind was working with double speed, trying to analyze the new information. Different pictures started to float in my memory, now in a new perspective. I put a huge effort in pushing all of those thoughts away and try to function.

"Yeah."

"Your girlfriend, then?" I rephrased the question. It shouldn't have mattered, but for some reason, it did. And somehow a girlfriend sounded even worse than a boyfriend to me. I mean, I knew I didn't have any chances even now, that I knew he was straight… But did my heart know it? I wished I knew how to inform it.

"Oh, no, she's just a friend of mine." I can't even describe the relief I felt. Not that it changed anything. "My friends threw a party and she complained it was a disaster."

"Because you weren't there?" I could totally understand a statement like this. There was always more fun where Adam was.

"Well, that's what she claims, but it's ridicules, really."

"They can always put on your performances or something. I'm sure it will make the lamest party a roof raiser." He laughed and ruffled my hair. Here we go again…

"Do you want to call Kris and ask what he's doing? I think he's the only one left in the hotel."

"Sure." Adam grabbed his cell phone again and fell back on his bad, dialing Kris' number. I lay down as well, vertically from him and put my head on his chest. We were both looking up at the ceiling in silence until Kris answered the phone.

"Hey, Kris, what's up?" After a short conversation Adam hung up and put his phone on the nightstand. "He's with Katy."

"I thought she couldn't come today."

"Oh, she didn't. They're talking online, cameras and all… I don't want to even think about what's going on in that room." I could feel his body shaking a little with laughter. "Lil went to meet her family and Megan's parents came to visit her with her son and Scott's brother is here and I'm not sure where Matt and Danny are, but they're not in their rooms either. I feel like I'm the only one who stayed in my room to spend the whole day off doing nothing." He didn't seem to be disappointed by this fact.

"I'm kind of doing the same, only I'm staying in your room to do nothing." I smiled. "Strangely, I don't feel like doing anything today."

"Me neither. I just want to hang out, chill, rest…"

"I can go back to my room, if you want." I suggested, trying not to show how much I didn't want that.

"Don't be silly. You know I like your company." What a relief… sweet and warm. He wanted me to be there, I knew he wouldn't lie. At least I really hoped he wouldn't.

We stayed in that position for a while, simply lying there and talking. It felt so good, to just be with him. I didn't care what we were doing, as long as we were together.

"Have you ever been in love?" Adam asked me suddenly. I swallowed hard. I had two options: to lie or to lie. The only difference was weather I tell him what had been before I met him – before I knew what love was, or just make something up about someone imaginary.

"No." My voice sounded a bit higher than usual, but he didn't notice.

"Ah, first love, first kiss… I can't wait to see you in love." All of a sudden I had an unbearable desire to tell him that that's what he'd been doing for the last couple of months: seeing me in love. "Though I think I'll hate anyone who gets close to you." He chuckled, shaking my head, which was still on his chest. I rolled over, leaning on my elbows, to look at his face. "I'll probably think he's not good enough for you, no matter who he will be." The breath got caught in my throat. He was wrong, because the only one I wanted was way too good for me.

"Actually, I've had my first kiss." I said just to concentrate on something else. He looked at me questioningly. "Yeah, but it wasn't about love or anything at all. It was with my friend, about two years ago." I smiled at the memory. Now, looking back, it seemed so silly. "It was his sixteenth birthday, which is a few months before mine and neither of us had kissed before, so we just wanted to try. You know, to check it out." I used one of my funny tones for the last words. "So childish… Just because we wanted to be able to say we'd kissed. Ridiculous, I know." Adam smiled back at me, not showing any intentions to laugh at what I said or tease me about it. "And I can't believe I'm telling you this!" I dropped my head, covering my face with both hands.

"You can tell me anything, you know it. And there is nothing to be embarrassed about, I can totally understand it. You're a teenager, you want to experience things and check things out."

"I always end up telling you stuff, but you never do." I felt like getting to know him even more, now there was a whole different side of him I didn't really know. We never actually talked about love and romance before, which pretty much caused the awfully embarrassing misunderstanding.

"I think I'm pretty much an open book, I tell everybody everything." He laughed a little at himself. "I have such a big mouth."

"Tell me something nobody knows." I looked up at him with excitement as he rolled to his side to be able to look at my face properly.

"I don't think there is such a thing…" He looked as honest as always.

"Okay, then tell me…" I thought for a moment, deciding I didn't really want to know about his past at that point. "About your dreams. You know, what you're looking for in a girl and what you want from a relationship…" I rested my chin on my hands, studying his face.

"Well, you know I don't like labels and stereotypes. I can tell you I'm looking for a girl that's like this, this and that, but eventually fall for the complete opposite."

"True. But I think you won't fall for a boring girl or a liar or some snob."

"I guess I won't, but she might be interesting for me even if someone thinks she's boring. It's all very individual and personal."

"Okay, but you don't have any preferences or dreams?"

"Everybody has dreams. I want to find love. Real love. Like Kris and Katy's." I looked at him with interest. "They have an amazing bond. I believe that when you share feelings like theirs and when it's just right, you can overcome anything. Nothing else really matters, when you have what they do." I listened to him, almost enchanted.

"I've never thought about it like this, but I can see what you mean. And I think you're totally right."

"That's what I want." Adam shrugged. "Not necessarily the same kind of relationship or life, but the dedication to each other, the love and respect. It's so inspiring to see them together." I smiled, but in the back of my head I saw Katy giggling in a conversation with Adam. I couldn't help but wonder what it meant, now that I knew Adam wasn't her gay friend. And they certainly couldn't be anything but friends. So what was that all about? "And it's amazing how they've stayed together since high school for so long."

"Yeah and they're very young and already married."

"I don't think it's about age, really." I couldn't agree with him more, only it had nothing to do with Kris and Katy. "They had been together for a long time and they were ready. Some people need years, others need only a few months to know this is it. Some people aren't ready until they're forty, others already are at twenty."

"And they are totally ready, if you ask me." We were silent for a few seconds. His brilliant azure eyes were serious and warm, and I felt somehow closer to him as I looked deep into them. "We should stop gossiping." I said eventually, afraid I could lose control at some point.

"We're not gossiping. We're saying nice things about nice people." I laughed lightly. "Besides, it's nothing I've never said to them before." He looked at my raised eyebrows. "What? I told you I have a big mouth."

"And only good things are coming out of it." I teased. "I think you're addicted to being too sweet!"

"Oh, really? Name one bad thing you said about Kris. Or Katy. Or even me!" Well, I could remember a few thoughts I had… But I wasn't about to tell him. So I just threw a pillow at him instead. Adam threw it back, but missed as I moved and then froze.

I was on Adam Lambert's bed. In horizontal position. With Adam himself lying a few inches away from me on the same bed. He wasn't gay and I was completely in love with him, but he had no freaking idea about it.

Man, the world is so messed up.

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So now I can tell you what the difference between the two versions of the story is. In version 1, Adam's straight and in version 2, Adam's gay (which is closer to reality…) it's as simple as that. Although this little change of fact will change the entire plot. So each version will kind of show the way the story would've went in each case. Well, only in our imagination of course… =D

Just to be clear, I don't have a problem with the gay part. Not at all. Adam is amazing no matter what. This is for entertainment only.

I would love to see some reviews so I know if I should continue the story!.. Tell me what you think so far…