Chapter 2
Castiel spent the next days alone in a park covered with snow. He didn't go back to the Winchesters, and Dean didn't call for his help either. His relationship with Dean was too awkward, so he stood leaned to the back of a park bench, in the dark night under a spotlight.
"Cas…" Balthazar called. He saw his brother looking down and Balthazar could tell he was sad. "What's wrong?" He approached Castiel.
"Nothing," he whispered, not looking at his brother.
"You always were a terrible liar…" Balthazar didn't believe in Castiel. "I'm going to take a guess and say this is about Dean."
Castiel raised his head in surprise. Balthazar could see tears running down Castiel's face and falling on the snow, melting it.
"What did that human do to you?" he asked shaking his head in despise.
Castiel didn't answer. Balthazar put a gentle hand to Castiel's face and made his brother look at him. He wiped the falling tear from the young angel's face and then, staring into Castiel's eyes, Balthazar was able to read his mind. He saw Dean and his brother lied on a bed, kissing and… Balthazar rolled his eyes in disapproval. Then he focused on Castiel's mind again and skipped to the next morning's events. Dean's words stroke him like they stroke Castiel. "That bastard..." Balthazar said with hate in his voice. I should kill him! He thought, but his priority at the time was Castiel.
"I- I never had many hopes. I know Dean would never…" Castiel breath, holding the tears. "I just… let myself go."
Balthazar was still touching Castiel and he leaned over and kissed Castiel's lips softly. It pained him to watch his brother crying silently and no one give him a sign of affection.
"Balthazar…" Castiel gently pushed him away. He couldn't let it happen again…
"Cassie… You trust me, don't you?" Balthazar looked into Castiel's sad and scared eyes, but still beautiful.
"With my life," Castiel confirmed with a soft voice.
"I only want to make you feel better… I love you. And, whatever happens, I'll never hurt you." Balthazar promised.
Castiel nodded slightly and Balthazar kissed him again. This time Castiel didn't resist to that sad but tender kiss. Then Balthazar pulled Castiel closer, embracing the young angel with his arms. With his face on Balthazar's shoulder, Castiel hugged him back, a bit hesitant at first but tight in the end; and no more tears appeared.
Balthazar felt Castiel trembling in his arms, and he was cold too. So while Castiel tried to relax in his embrace, Balthazar took him to a warmer place. When Castiel opened his eyes, they were in a living room of a house whose owners were gone on a vacation. Balthazar lighted the fireplace.
"How long have you been in that place?"
"I…don't know." He was so focused on his pain and sorrow that he forgot how many days he had been in that cold and isolated place.
"You could've called me…" Balthazar had been with Castiel since they were very young and every time they had a problem they turned to each other. After all, that was what brothers served for.
"You were busy."Castiel knew Balthazar was on a mission and he didn't want t bother him.
"I was worried!" Balthazar said in a serious tone. He had been looking for Castiel for a couple of days and he was starting to fear that his beloved little brother could be hurt. "No matter the things I have to do, I have always time for you."
Castiel hugged him again and Balthazar kissed his forehead. "You'll always have me," he whispered to Castiel's ear.
They kept the embrace in front of the fireplace for almost half hour, letting the heat warm them, as well as the house. During all that time Balthazar kept Dean out of Castiel's mind. Castiel appreciated what his brother had done; it was good to know someone cared about him. Even though it wasn't exactly the person he wanted…
It was getting hot in the room, Castiel already had his cheeks rosy.
"Good, you don't look like a zombie anymore…" Balthazar commented.
Castiel smiled a little.
Balthazar kissed him, glad for his brother to be returning back to normal. "Come, you should get some rest." He entwined his fingers with Castiel's and leaded him to the bedroom.
Balthazar took off Castiel's trench coat and coat and his own black jacket. After taking off their shoes, they lied in the comfy bed.
Under the sheets Balthazar got closer to his brother, so close that he could feel the heat coming from Castiel, and the blue sapphire eyes staring at him… Balthazar couldn't help but kiss him passionately, caressing his brother's face as Castiel hummed at the pleasant touches. Besides the heat, a sweet and intoxicating smell invaded him during the kiss (Castiel's smell), and suddenly all Balthazar wanted to do was to show Castiel all the love he had for him. It was getting hard to keep the control…
Balthazar's hand ran down to Castiel's body, rubbing it, until he reached the belt on Castiel's pants, and he started to undo it.
"Don't." Castiel said suddenly, grabbing Balthazar's hand.
"Okay," Balthazar said understandingly, as he looked at Castiel's scared eyes. "Sorry," he said truthfully in a soft voice.
"Just try to sleep." Balthazar moved away a bit.
Castiel was quiet for a second. "Angels don't sleep…"
"Well… we don't need to sleep, not like humans. But I think it would be good for you."
Castiel still wasn't convinced, but he cuddled to his brother anyway. He didn't want to sleep; not because he thought Balthazar would try to do anything while he was asleep - no, he trusted his brother - but because Balthazar had been too kind to him and Castiel felt like he wasn't returning the affection the right way. Although he appreciated the care, he was always pushing his brother away, and Castiel feared that while he slept, Balthazar would leave.
It was with this thought that he fell asleep as Balthazar caressed Castiel's hair. During the sleep his mind flew wildly, ignoring the troubles and deceptions of the real world, dreaming about pleasant moments. This was Balthazar's plan; to give his brother a moment o peace after stressful days.
When Castiel woke up in the morning, the beautiful dream faded and his worries came back to his mind again. But then his thoughts were interrupted by a touch, Castiel opened his eyes.
"Good morning." Balthazar said while he still caressed Castiel's hair.
"You're still here," Castiel said glad, surprised and relieved; with a half smile on his face.
"Where else would I be?"
Looking up into his brother's eyes, he understood Castiel's fear. "Cas, we've been through much together. You should know… I'll never leave you."
With no second thought Castiel kissed him, a bit more roughly than Balthazar was expecting from his brother. Castiel let his body fall on top of Balthazar, who helped him getting in a more comfortable position. Balthazar grabbed Castiel's thighs, one on each side, as their tongues touched, turning up the heat.
Then Balthazar rolled to the side, putting Castiel under him. Caught by surprise, Castiel raised his arms and let them fall on the pillows. He stood looking into Balthazar's light blue eyes for a moment. Balthazar touched one of his brother's hands, making their hands match perfectly and then he entwined their fingers. Balthazar got closer to Castiel and kissed his sweet and soft lips, which leaded to a deep kiss full of love and desire. Castiel's free hand touched Balthazar's chest, grabbing the gray t-shirt as his heartbeat speed up.
"May I-" Balthazar decided to ask first because he didn't want to make the same mistake as the last night's.
"Yes," Castiel answered breathlessly, before his brother completing the sentence.
It was all Balthazar needed to hear. He ripped opened Castiel's shirt quickly and started to kiss his neck, felling Castiel's hot breath on his cheek. Balthazar's t-shirt disappeared right away too. Then Balthazar opened and pulled down Castiel's pants, as well as his underwear. Balthazar's hands travelled back up his brother's legs as he reached for Castiel's sweet lips. After a while Balthazar's hand found Castiel's cock; he held and squeezed it just a bit, but it was enough to make Castiel moan. Balthazar started to stroke it slowly.
Then he let go of Castiel's lips and planted wet kisses all the way down Castiel's body. Spreading Castiel's legs, Balthazar kissed the inside of Castiel's thigh which made hot waves propagate for all his body. Then Balthazar licked Castiel's cock and he started to suck it. Castiel moaned in pleasure and grabbed the sheets of the bed. Balthazar moved progressively faster and Castiel's grace started to appear under his skin, making him glow.
Balthazar noticed his brother's grace moving frenetically inside his body, too small and fragile to handle it. Castiel was trying to control himself, which Balthazar knew it was impossible, so the only thing he could do was…
"Let go," Balthazar told him.
Castiel was confused at first… and then he got worried about the consequences.
Trust me, Balthazar sent the telepathicmessage staring into Castiel's bright eyes.
Balthazar kept stoking Castiel's cook until Castiel came in pleasure, letting out louder moans, as he let his grace take over him. Balthazar saw Castiel's wings on the bed and at the same time the lights were flashed and the windows and mirrors broke. The wind threw the shattered glasses at them and Balthazar covered his brother to protect him.
When the wind eased Balthazar looked down at Castiel who was trying to catch a breath. "Baby, you're a firework," Balthazar told him with a smirk.
Castiel looked confused. "I don't…"
Balthazar chuckled a little. "Forget it," he said before stealing a kiss. When he pulled back, he Castiel was smiling at him.
This was what Balthazar intended... He didn't care if Castiel didn't love him the same way he did; he just wanted to give his brother a moment of joy and happiness with no worries or sadness.
So which paring do you like better? Dean/Cas or Cas/Balthazar?
Songs:Limp Bizkit - Lean on me
AWOLNATION - It's not your fault
Oona - Tore my heart
Mirah - The Garden
Katy Perry - Firework
